Hu Jie wants to use her life to prove her dedication to love, to prove that her love is not a child's childish behavior, and to prove that she is not a child, she is a woman who understands love.

In the eyes of ordinary people, her suicide behavior is very naïve, absurd, and even ridiculous, but for Hu Jie, that boy is her heaven and her earth, losing him, her world is falling apart, black and white, since her world has been destroyed, what is the point of living? It's better to die and get complete liberation, at least then it won't hurt your heart.

She just wanted to take a look at the boy named Song Linhao before she died, she stubbornly and resolutely wanted to use her blood and life to let him see how deeply she loved, for him, for the love between them, she did not hesitate to die, she wanted everyone to know that she had loved vigorously.

But Hu Jie didn't expect that a young doctor suddenly ran out and shouted that he was going to jump off the building, and asked her who would jump first, everything happened too suddenly, and Hu Jie was stunned.

In the crowd below, when they saw Li Xiujie sitting there with his feet hanging in the air, he said that he was going to commit suicide, and he was stunned at first, and then made a more noisy discussion.

An aunt shouted at Li Xiujie: "Young man, what are you messing with? Come down. ”

"yes, come down, don't make a fuss."

"Come down, young man!"

……

I don't know when the sky is still blue, the gray sky gives people a strong sense of depression, and a muffled thunder of "boom" came, indicating that a heavy rain was coming, and a strong wind whistled through, and people did not feel cool, but felt the chill of late autumn.

The wind ripped the hem of Li Xiujie's white coat, like an irregular white flag hunting in the wind.

Xie Shimeng chased after him and shouted out of breath: "Li, Li Xiujie, you, you come down for me." ”

Li Xiujie stretched out his hand and took out half a box of cigarettes from his pocket as if he hadn't heard it, this cigarette had been in his pocket for more than half a month, and after he was reborn, he made up his mind to quit smoking, but I don't know why he didn't throw it away.

He slowly took out a cigarette that was already a little crumpled and stuffed it into his mouth, pulled out the lighter stuffed in the cigarette case, covered it with one hand, lit the cigarette with the other, and inhaled it Li Xiujie was choked and coughed repeatedly.

Hu Jie's father was very dissatisfied with Li Xiujie's words just now, and when he saw Xie Shimeng, he immediately roared: "Is the doctor in your hospital sick and persuaded people to jump off the building?" I tell you, if my daughter has three long and two short, I won't finish with you. ”

Hu Jie's mother shook off her husband's hand and rushed to Xie Shimeng in three or two steps, grabbed her white coat, and cried hoarsely: "If my daughter dies, I won't let you go." ”

The scene immediately became chaotic, Xie Shimeng explained in sweat, but Hu's father and mother didn't listen at all, and tore Xie Shimeng's clothes and asked her to quickly call Li Xiujie down.

Several policemen next to him frowned and looked at Li Xiujie with a look of disgust, if possible, they really wanted to lock up this kid who came out to make trouble for ten and a half days.

Li Xiujie didn't care that there was a mess of porridge behind him, he frowned and looked at the cigarette in his hand, and muttered in a low voice: "Why did I smoke such a difficult cigarette before?" I also smoked a box a day, and my brain was really watered at the beginning. ”

Speaking of this, he said to Hu Jieyang the cigarette in his hand: "Beauty, why don't you jump first, I want to smoke the last cigarette before I die." ”

Hu Jie looked at Li Xiujie blankly with a look of bewilderment, she really hadn't encountered such a thing, she really didn't know how to answer, saying I jumped first? That's weird, right? Don't jump? But I want to jump off the building! For a while, Hu Jie had a rather awkward and strange feeling in her heart.

Father Hu was furious when he heard this, and he roared angrily and was about to rush over to fight with Li Xiujie, but fortunately the police stopped him, they were afraid that Father Hu's behavior would stimulate Hu Jie to make her really jump, and they were also afraid that the neurotic little doctor would be kicked down by him.

Li Xiujie held a cigarette in one hand and played with a lighter in the other, he quietly looked at the sky full of lead clouds, his eyes were full of remembrance and pain, and he didn't know how long it took for him to suddenly say: "Hey, you just called Song Linhao several times, is he your boyfriend?" ”

Hu Jie nodded subconsciously and was just about to say something when she saw Li Xiujie throw a smile at her, this smile made Hu Jie unforgettable, she had never seen a person laugh so painfully, laughter should represent happiness, crying represents pain, but when a person laughs so painfully, his smile is destined to be never forgotten.

Li Xiujie's empty voice came: "Do you know why I want to jump off the building?" Without waiting for Hu Jie to answer, Li Xiujie turned his head and looked at the cloudy sky with vicissitudes of life, and said slowly: "Because I am also out of love, I have a girlfriend, we have been together since high school, I thought we would be together forever, carefree together."

I'm about the same age as you, I've never thought about getting married or having children, I just want to be together, whether I have money or no money, as long as I'm together.

I thought she would be as loyal to our love as you are, nothing can stop us from being together, she really loves me, and she can die for me and our love just like you. ”

At this time, Li Xiujie exuded a deep infatuation, the smile on his face became more and more gentle, it seemed that he could see a girl in his clear eyes, he loved him so much, he hoped to be with her forever, until he was old.

This infatuation slowly evaporated, just through Li Xiujie's simple back, a smile infected everyone, the people downstairs looked at his more and more gentle, bright smile, the people upstairs were infected by his lonely back, the white "flag" is still hunting in the wind, this sound seems to tell his love with the girl.

At this time, Li Xiujie laughed at himself, his smile was even brighter, but in this splendor, there was a loneliness that could not be dissolved, and everyone was thinking about what he had experienced to laugh and be so painful and lonely.

Hu Jie was attracted by Li Xiujie's story, and even more attracted by his bitter smile, I don't know when her eyes were covered with a thick layer of mist.

Li Xiujie still looked up at the sky, it seemed that he was the only one left in the whole world, his empty and lonely voice seemed to come from the nine heavens and penetrate the dark clouds into everyone's ears: "Later, I graduated, I finally thought of getting married, yes, that is, marriage, I want to marry her, I want her to be the most beautiful bride, but ......"

Speaking of this, Li Xiujie's voice suddenly became choked and hoarse, but his eyes were still dry, without a trace of mist, and he had already cried dry tears for this relationship.

"But when I went to her and wanted to tell her about getting married, she told me that we weren't the right fit, you know? At that time, I was stupid, and I asked her like crazy why? We've all been together for so many years, why isn't it appropriate?

Guess what she told me? She said that I can't see the future with me, and I heard this sentence and took her hand and slipped it off a little bit, and then watched her back disappear from my eyes little by little.

In fact, I didn't really understand what the phrase 'can't see the future' meant, but then I understood, the meaning of this sentence is actually very simple, that is, I am poor, she will only suffer with me, love can't resist reality after all, this is life, how realistic and how cruel. ”

Hu Jie couldn't help but shed tears when she heard this, she slowly walked up to Li Xiujie and sat next to him and said softly: "Later? ”

Li Xiujie didn't look at her and still looked at Tiandao: "Later? Later, I didn't see her there, but I can't forget her, I hated her at first, hated her ruthlessness, hated her unrighteousness, I drank all day long, because of ......" Speaking of this, Li Xiujie pointed to his heart and said: "It doesn't hurt here when I'm drunk, I'm drunk all day long, my parents saw such a decadence and turned gray overnight, but no matter how they persuaded me at that time, I just couldn't listen."

I just want to drink, I want to get drunk, so that I can be comfortable, I can sleep, that taste is really worse than death, I also want to die, but I have never had the courage, I have been mixed and drunk.

My father was very worried about me, but when my father was always not good at expressing himself, he would not enlighten me, his way of expressing it was to scold me and beat me, but the more he beat me and scolded me, the more I drank, and then ...... Then my father had an accident and left. ”

Li Xiujie finally lowered his head, he slowly raised his hand and took a puff of cigarette, the cigarette was about to burn out, he inhaled violently, the cigarette burned directly to the root of the soup and he fingered it, but Li Xiujie didn't feel the pain, he slowly raised his hand and looked at the cigarette butt that was still burning between his fingers, he let go of his fingers and let the cigarette butt float out far away by the wind.

Looking at the cigarette butts that were getting farther and farther away, Li Xiujie exhaled and said: "Don't learn from me, I'm a loser, it's like this in love, it's like this in family, in this world there is not only love, but also family affection, your parents are standing behind you, hug your parents, they are very worried about you, you don't want to regret it for life like me, right?" ”

Li Xiujie stretched out a finger and pointed to the increasingly dark sky and said: "Life is like this weather, sometimes there are dark clouds, sometimes the sky is clear, the people who care about you in the world are always your parents, go." ”

Hu Jie turned her head and saw her parents standing there anxiously, opening her mouth but not daring to say anything, she knew that they were afraid of saying something that stimulated her so that she couldn't think of jumping down, Hu Jie felt that her parents were old for the first time, her father was not so majestic, and her mother was not so young, she cried out with a "wow", stood up and ran to her parents.

Li Xiujie took out the pack of cigarettes again, looked at it, smiled and threw it into the wind, saying goodbye to the past and hello to the future!

I just got home and quickly wrote a chapter, I ran for two days, I was tired, let's change it today, and I will resume normal updates tomorrow!