It turned out that as early as the first year of high school, Li Xixia had a crush on Li Xiang, but she never had the opportunity to contact her at that time.

After graduating from high school, she followed Li Xiang's footsteps into the imperial capital, although it was a three-book, but she still stood under the sky of the same city with him.

In fact, she is definitely not the only girl who has a good impression of Li Xiang in Shangshan No. 1 Middle School, but the problem is that no one has the opportunity to get close to Li Xiang, so someone came up with an idea and established a Shangshan No. 1 Middle School Association, there are a total of thirty-two of them who entered the imperial capital to study in college, and these people will often find reasons to get together together.

Li Xiang occasionally participates in this kind of party, eats with everyone, and sings with everyone, but never dances with a girl, and never accepts a girl's individual invitation.

Li Xixia only learned that Li Xiang was with Jin Zhu when she went home this time, and the Jin Zhu in her impression was still the cowardly and silent Yang Jinzhu, who was not outstanding at all, how could she attract Li Xiang?

But after watching Jin Zhu's performance on TV, she was distracted by five distractions, and the other five distractions of seeing real people on this trip were almost stopped.

When she was embarrassed, Li Xiaolian walked over, "Why did Mapo go to Hangzhou?" ”

In the past few years, Li Xiaolian has always been ignorant of the affairs of Yangjiazhai, so she does not know that Ma Po has found her son.

Jin Zhu told Ma Chunsheng about the situation, Li Xiang was more than a year old when Li Xiaolian got married, so she hadn't seen Ma Chunsheng, but she had a deep memory of the depressed Ma Chunyu.

It was a shameful thing to get pregnant out of wedlock in those days, especially in such a poor rural area. At that time, she still admired Ma Chunyu's courage.

Unexpectedly, she finally chose such a path, and such a young life disappeared in an instant.

After many years, I thought of Ma Chunyu again. She'll still be embarrassed.

It can be said that Ma Chunyu's suicide gave her a lot of insight. After giving birth to the Golden Bull, she saw that Yang Dashan still did not repent at all and completely died, she didn't want to live as depressed as Ma Chunyu for the rest of her life, and then plunge into Tongjiang again one day when she couldn't stand it.

So, she ran out with the people in the village, and in the first year outside, although she also wanted to have children. But when she thought of Yang Dashan's fists, and thought of those dark worries and fears, she couldn't care about the children.

She was like a mirror in her heart. If she nests in that house in humiliation again, it won't be long before she will walk the same path as Ma Chunyu.

Therefore, she could only give up the four gold beads.

"Alas. At that time, I saw Mapo sitting at home every day and embroidering non-stop. In the end, her eyes were still broken, and she was quite pitiful in her life. Li Xiaolian's eyes turned red.

Hearing this, Jin Zhu didn't feel good in his heart.

Speaking of which, Mapo's life is indeed bumpy enough, the young widowed and the middle-aged widowed, and now it is easy to find the son who has been separated for more than ten years, and Li Xiang is also out. But she fell ill, and she may have a terminal illness.

On the third day of his stay in Hangzhou, Li persuaded Mapo to be admitted to the hospital. Ma Chunsheng originally wanted to arrange for her to have an eye operation, but when she entered the hospital, she found out that there was something in her head, and the doctors suspected that the cyst in her head had compressed her optic nerve, which caused her vision to deteriorate more and more.

Although the results of the final expert consultation did not come out, the doctors estimated that this craniotomy would be done, otherwise Mapo would not only face blindness, but also cause cerebral hemorrhage due to the growth of the cyst and compression of the blood vessels, and then she would be weak.

So Li Xiang has been living like a year these days, because whether he does it or not, the risk is too great.

"By the way, sister-in-law, do you know who Li Xiang's father is?" Li Xixia suddenly asked.

Li Xiang has always been secretive about his parents, everyone knows that he has a grandmother, but they have never heard him mention his parents, Li Xixia has always wanted to ask Li Xiaolian but was embarrassed to ask, but now there is a good opportunity.

"I don't know, but I know that it is a tourist from out of town, and it is said that he is still a painter." Li Xiaolian shook her head.

"Then Li Xiang didn't think to go to his father?" Li Ximei asked.

"Why didn't you look for it? His uncle has been looking for him for 20 years, how easy is it to talk about? ”

Jin Zhu felt that it would be a little regrettable that he didn't let Ma Po take a look at what Li Xiang's father was.

"His uncle runs a hotel in Hangzhou? Is the business big or not? Li Xixia asked.

"I don't know."

In fact, Jin Zhu is really not clear, not only Jin Zhu, even Li Xiang himself is not clear, every time he goes to Hangzhou, Ma Chunsheng finds an excuse to be busy and does not stay at home, Li Xiang usually accompanies Ma Po to talk, go to West Lake for a walk, and never inquire about anything else.

"Okay, let's not talk about that, Xiaolian, take out the dishes you brought and cook a meal for Jinzhu. New Bora, this is your eldest sister, the eldest sister I have seen on TV. ”

Shi Yuying, who was close to old age, naturally didn't want to hear those sad news, so he beckoned Tian Xinbao over to introduce him to Jinzhu officially.

Jin Zhu had no interest in getting to know Tian Xinbao, but when she saw the child's eyes blinking at her, she was still a little soft-hearted, and took out some of the snacks she bought for Jinniu and distributed them to everyone.

Later, Jin Zhu saw Li Xiaolian carrying a plastic bag into the kitchen, so she followed in.

"Don't bother, I have to go out in a while, I have an appointment." Jin Zhu said to Li Xiaolian.

Knowing that so many people would come to the Li family, she would lie at the beginning and say that she was back in the countryside, and she was interested in eating with these people.

But she did make an appointment, Li Yuyuan introduced a job to Jinzhu, to help others make a dress, it looks like she made the cheongsam-style dress for Li Yuyuan last year, no embroidery, and the salary is 3,000.

Originally, Jin Zhu didn't want to take this job, but she was idle at home these days, and it was not bad to earn 3,000 yuan in three or four days, enough for her food expenses for two months.

When Li Xiaolian heard that Jin Zhu had made an appointment, she hesitated for a moment and said, "You go to yours, and your mother will help you cook at home and leave." ”

"I don't eat at home at noon." Jin Zhu looked at the time. Told a lie.

As soon as Jin Zhu finished speaking, his mobile phone rang.

Li Yuyuan came to pick her up.

Li Xiaolian saw that Jin Zhu was not lying, so she hurriedly classified the dishes she brought and put them in the refrigerator. Then he took off his apron and went out of the kitchen.

Knowing that someone had already come to pick up the gold beads, Shi Yuying was a little unhappy, but she didn't say anything, and led Xinbao to stand up.

Jin Zhu took her own things and sent everyone downstairs, and as soon as she walked to the door of the living quarters, Jin Zhu saw the car that came to pick her up. I waved to everyone and got on the bus.

Li Yuyuan's appointment place is still her office, and when Jin Zhu went, there was already a young woman in her twenties sitting there, and Jin Zhu didn't know that this woman was a third-tier star in the entertainment industry. couldn't afford to spend a lot of money to find a famous teacher to design a dress, so he found Li Yuyuan.

The other party looked at the design drawings of Jin Zhu and put forward several opinions, mainly because the clothes designed by Jin Zhu were too conservative, and asked to open the V-neck on the front chest and back deeper.

Jin Zhu did not agree. She felt that it would not be her style in that case. And in this way, the waist and chest of the entire garment must be redesigned.

"I think Jin Zhu's words make sense, there are still fewer backless breast-revealing outfits you wore before? It's not the same as it's not popular, this time it's a different style, maybe there will be unexpected gains. Li Yuyuan told the truth.

The other party listened to Li Yuyuan's words, his face was annoyed, and he was about to turn his face, when he suddenly thought of Li Yuyuan's identity. I had to swallow this breath and think for a moment. But she also nodded and agreed, on the condition that the gold beads be delivered in three days, and she had already brought the clothes.

Jin Zhu measured the size, took the things home, and spent an afternoon and evening to make the sample dress.

The next day, I asked the other party to try the sample skirt, and after a little modification, the gold bead began to be cut and sewn.

It took two days to deliver the goods, and there were only two days left before Jinzhu and Thomson agreed.

Who knew that Jin Zhu was just about to settle down to paint when he received a call from Li Xiang, and the expert's review opinion came out, because Ma Po was not yet 60 years old, the doctor recommended surgery, and the operation date was set for a week later.

"Jin Zhu, I'm afraid." Li Xiang, who has always been strong, cried in front of Jin Zhu.

Putting down the phone, Jin Zhu was not in the mood to paint, so he changed his clothes and walked out of the school gate.

She wandered aimlessly on the streets, and she didn't know how long she had walked, and she didn't know how far she had walked, but before she knew that there was a river next to the county seat, and on this side of the river were factories and houses, and on the other side of the river were rice fields, and green seedlings had been planted at that time.

Looking at the busy figure on the other side of the bank under the scorching sun, Jin Zhu thought of this time last year, when she was also taking Li Xiang and Jin Yang to break corn in the field.

Although I was very bitter and tired at that time, I had hope and hope in my heart, so I didn't feel bitter.

But what about the hope and hope in Li Xiang's heart?

If Mapo leaves, will he still have the strength to hold on?

In this life, is there more pain than happiness or more happiness than pain?

Can the phoenix really be nirvana after being reborn from the ashes?

She Jinzhu can be regarded as a person who has experienced a lifetime, originally thought that she would not easily hand over her heart in this life, and would not easily like someone, but she couldn't erase the bits and pieces of the four years, that immature boy had already used his immature shoulders to shelter her from the wind and rain, and now when he needs her, what should she do?

It seems like a simple step, but for Jin Zhu, it means a choice for her life.

Jin Zhu slowly squatted down and buried his face in his hands.

"If you want to cry, cry, what's going on?"

Jin Zhu was startled when he heard this voice, and raised his head to see that it was actually Liu Sheng.

"You, why are you here?" Jin Zhu's mouth opened wide, a little frightened.

"Shut up, it's ugly. I didn't come with it on purpose, I just came out of the Internet café and saw you walking in front of me in despair, calling you and ignoring me, I had to follow and see, seeing that you walked to the river again, I thought you were going to jump into the river again, thinking that God would treat me well, and actually gave me a chance to save the beauty of a hero. ”

"you, you just want to jump into the river, why do I want to jump into the river when I'm alive? There are people who want to live but don't have the chance yet. Jin Zhu's voice became lower and lower.

"What's wrong?"

"Li Xiang's grandmother has a brain tumor and needs to have a craniotomy, and you know that he has only one relative, I, I ......"

"People who eat whole grains are inevitably sick, and countless people are experiencing life and death every day, he is not the first, and will never be the last."

"That being said, that's his only relative." Jin Zhu sighed.

The two ancestors and grandchildren have been dependent on each other for more than ten years, and if Mapo leaves him, she is really worried that Li Xiang will not be able to hold on.

"Don't worry, he can hold on, isn't there still you? I think I was only eight years old when my mother left, and I thought the sky was falling, but isn't it okay now? I made it through alone. ”

Jin Zhu looked at him when he heard this, Liu Sheng's eyes flickered, and then his eyes widened, "What, I'm just making an analogy, don't think about it, I definitely didn't mean to let you sympathize with me." Let's go, I've been playing games for a day, I'm already hungry, come with me to get something to eat. ”

"Okay, I'll ask you." Jin Zhu stood up.

"Forget it, I'll invite you, and you can invite me when the Taurus and them come back, I've been eating instant noodles and fast food for more than half a month."

He also understands that Jin Zhu is home alone, and it is inconvenient for him to go to eat, so he has not come to harass her these days, and he has made do with food outside.

The two walked to the side of the road, Liu Sheng stopped a taxi, reported the name of a hotel, about ten minutes later, the car stopped at the door of a more luxuriously decorated hotel, Jin Zhu has never been here, but feels that the name of the hotel seems to be a little familiar.

But at that time, she didn't pay attention, thinking that she had passed by or heard someone say it.

The two entered the door and found a quieter location, Liu Sheng ordered a mushroom chicken soup, a sour soup fish, a glutinous rice steamed pork ribs, and a vegetarian fried water spinach.

Jin Zhu saw that the dishes he ordered were all ordered according to her taste, which was very light, while he himself liked sour and spicy and was meatless, so he hurriedly said, "Add another spicy meat dish." ”

"Are you sure you can eat that much?" Liu Sheng raised his eyebrows.

"Forget it, when I didn't say it." Jin Zhu had to accept this favor.

After ordering the dish, Liu Sheng asked for a large glass of freshly squeezed watermelon juice, and after the waiter left, he personally poured a cup of tea for Jin Zhu, "What did you just struggled with?" ”

Jin Zhu was stunned when he heard this, "How do you know I'm struggling?" ”

"You've always been very calm, but your performance just now was very abnormal, I think it's not just Li Xiang's grandmother who is going to have surgery, right?"

Jin Zhu blushed a little when she heard this, she didn't expect that her heart would be seen through by Liu Sheng.

She's really struggling, but she's not someone who likes to share her thoughts with others. (To be continued......)

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