Chapter 537: Depression
He didn't make any sound, and Ye Qinglan didn't look back, but as if he knew that he was back, he sighed leisurely: "You said it." Somehow, there was a bit of unhappiness and sadness in the words.
Gu Xinian calmed down, stepped forward, and hugged her from behind: "This matter has passed, don't take it to heart." You and that little peach are not very familiar, whether she is alive or dead, don't mind. ”
Ye Qinglan smiled, and the curvature of the corners of her lips was a little bitter: "I really don't know her well, I've only met her a few times, and I haven't even said half a word." She is willing to be taken advantage of, obviously a greedy or ambitious person, and it is reasonable that she will end up like this. Actually, I understand all these truths."
However, when I think of a young life falling so lightly because of someone's words, the uncomfortable but powerless feeling in my heart can not be removed.
Perhaps, she should rejoice. Glad that she became a noble lady after crossing over, even if she was a concubine, she was luckier than being a subordinate or a daughter of a commoner. Not only is there no worry about food and clothing, but life is generally comfortable. At least there was no real threat to my life
Gu Xinian hugged her tightly, but did not say anything to comfort her. Maybe it's because he knows very well that all she needs at this time is a pair of listening ears.
"The place where I used to live was actually hierarchical. Rich and powerful people always have more privileges," Ye Qinglan said faintly: "Ordinary people who have no power and no power are indeed easy to suffer. But there is no such thing as carelessness of human life. Whoever violates the law will be punished by the law. Men and women are also equal, and men can do things. Women can do it, and some even do it better than men. ”
This is the first time she has taken the initiative to mention the past. Gu Xinian silently pricked up his ears and refused to miss a word.
It was probably this incident that touched Ye Qinglan very much. A lot of things that I would never say on weekdays poured out: "Actually, after I got here, I was very unaccustomed to it." I'm not used to having clothes to stretch out my hands for food, I'm not used to being served by someone, I'm not used to being locked in the yard every day and can't go anywhere, and I'm not used to being idle. However, I couldn't let anyone notice that something was wrong, and I forced myself to adapt quickly to life after that. Forced herself to learn to be a noble lady. I've always felt that I've done a good job, but today I know that no matter how good I disguise, I'll never be like you in my bones. ”
Speaking of this, Ye Qinglan sighed dejectedly. She will never be able to treat human life like mosquitoes and ants, and she will never be able to understand the practice of sacrificing a human life in order to calculate others!
Gu Xinian finally opened his mouth to speak: "I didn't expect Xiao Tao's death to make you have such thoughts"
"Do you want to say that my qiē is a mediocre person?" Ye Qinglan turned her head and met his gaze: "I really wish I was thinking nonsense." Wait to wake up. I don't think about anything anymore. Perhaps, I should really listen to you, don't ask anything, and stay in the yard every day with peace of mind. Like all the aristocratic ladies at this time, they read and write, embroidery, and raise birds to pass the time. Wait a few years and have two more lovely children. No matter how busy I am with my children, my busy life may pass like this."
Gu Xinian was secretly frightened. Today's Ye Qinglan is really wrong. The strong, optimistic and brave woman was suddenly and lonely at this time. It was as if he had lost something very important, and his heart was tormented.
Suddenly he didn't dare to listen any more, and leaned down to seal her lips, swallowing all her words into his mouth.
Her lips were soft, but a little cold. He tossed and turned and kissed for a long time before his lips warmed up. She withstood his kiss softly, but did not respond as enthusiastically as she used to.
Gu Xinian finally raised his head, and his gaze fell fixedly on his pretty face, which finally had a little flush: "Lan'er, I know you feel uncomfortable in your heart." I don't know what the world you lived in before was like, but after all, you have memories of your past life, and now you have to adapt to a completely different environment and life, which must be very uncomfortable, and there are many unspeakable grievances. But you can't negate all of that because of that. A qiē from the past is your precious memory. But the present is the reality you have to face, and it is also your future. You can't deny some things because you can't get used to them. Now that you have me, I will accompany you through this long life. You also have good sisters like Yu'er and Cousin Qingning, and there are many people who like you and you like. Isn't it possible that so many people can't compare to your memories and past? ”
When he said the last sentence, his expression also became excited, and his eyes lost their previous reserve and indifference, like a burning flame, tightly surrounding her.
Ye Qinglan was stared at tightly by those bright and burning eyes, and finally came back to her senses. Suddenly I was a little ashamed.
Yes, what's wrong with her today, she was depressed for a long time because of this matter. She still boasts that she is calm, rational and intelligent, how can she not even think through this truth. The past can only be the past, and no matter how much it is remembered, it will not help. The most important thing to be a human being is to live in the moment. But she got into a dead end, she couldn't get around, and she said so much in front of Gu Xinian
Gu Xinian was like a roundworm in her stomach, and said, "Actually, I am very happy that you are willing to tell me this." We are husband and wife now, and if there is something unhappy, we should be honest. Even if I can't do anything, I'm willing to be sad and sad with you. ”
He was obviously not used to saying these sweet words to coax people, and the look on his face was rare and a little awkward.
Ye Qinglan's nose was slightly sour, and the sweetness and warmth in her heart gradually expelled the cold and dark negative feelings in her heart. The mood gradually calmed down, and he said with some surprise: "My love today's situation is indeed a little depressed and depressed. Although you said this that day, I still have a trace of luck, hoping that the prince will listen to the princess's advice and be willing to bring Xiao Tao back for re-interrogation in private. I didn't expect to hear the news of Xiao Tao's death today."
As he spoke, he sighed lightly, cheered up and smiled: "You're right, this time it was Shen Qiuyu who planned first and won a game." When it's time to admit defeat, you have to admit defeat, and then find an opportunity to recover the disadvantage in the future. ”
Finally cheered up again.
Gu Xinian smiled and kissed her on the face: "It's right for you to think like this." Don't worry, she dares to calculate you, and I will never let her go. To deal with this kind of person, you have to fight back with conspiracy and calculation. She was unintentional before, so even the crown prince and Queen Gu were hit. The crown princess and Concubine Lin were even more calculated. However, as soon as a person is proud, it is inevitable that there will be omissions, and in the future, it will be our turn to calculate her. ”
Ye Qinglan still doesn't have a good impression of the word calculation, but when dealing with people like Shen Qiuyu, she must not be soft-hearted. So, she just smiled faintly: "I don't have any opinion on these, I listen to you." ”
Gu Xinian glanced down at her, and saw that her interest was still not very high, so he suddenly smiled and said, "Isn't it boring to stay in the house every day?" I'll take a break in a few days, will I take you out of the house for a walk? ”
He tried his best to make her happy, of course Ye Qinglan couldn't help but appreciate it, and squeezed out a smile very loudly: "Of course, where are you going to take me to relax?" ”
Gu Xinian thought for a while and said, "I haven't been back to my grandfather's house for a long time, so let's go to Zheng Guogong's Mansion for a day." ”
Ye Qinglan's original smile was squeezed out, but when she heard this, she was an out-and-out surprise, hugging his neck and smiling, not to mention how sweet it was.
I haven't seen Ye Qingning for a long time, and there is no doubt about Meng Zijun Gu Xinian's careful eyes. Since getting married, Ye Qinglan has never proposed to go to Zheng Guogong's mansion, so as not to provoke Gu Xinian's unhappiness. Unexpectedly, he offered to take her to be a guest today
Gu Xinian stared at her happy smiling face, and waved the trace of sourness in his heart away. As long as it can make her smile, let her meet the friends she wants to meet!
The next day, Gu Xinian sent a letter to the Duke of Zheng Guo's mansion.
Ye Qingning is about to give birth, and he doesn't even take a step out of the courtyard gate, not to mention how boring and boring he is. Naturally, I was very happy to receive such a message. I talked to Zheng Junyan about it that night.
Zheng Junyan said with a smile: "It's okay to let the tenth sister accompany you, so that you don't have to be bored all day long." ”
Ye Qingning nodded with a smile, as if he remembered something, and suddenly said again: "By the way, you take advantage of the past few days to go to the Criminal Department, and let Cousin Meng come back that day, it is rare to have time to get together, and it will be more lively when there are many people." ”
Zheng Junyan was stunned for a moment, and said reflexively: "I'm afraid this is not good!" If Cousin Gu saw Cousin Meng, how could he not mind? ”
Ye Qingning smiled meaningfully: "This was ordered by Cousin Gu himself, I just did what he wanted." ”
Zheng Junyan was stunned.
Gu Xinian brought Ye Qinglan as a guest, and this matter still makes sense. can specially tell Meng Zijun to come back, what is going on? Meng Zijun had something to do with Ye Qinglan, but Gu Xinian knew it clearly, and he was jealous for a long time for this. Why is it so generous now?
I can't figure it out, I really can't figure it out!
Seeing Zheng Junyan's appearance, Ye Qingning couldn't help but purse his lips and smile: "Don't say you can't figure it out, in fact, I was confused when I heard this!" I don't know what kind of medicine is sold in Cousin Gu's gourd. After a few days of meeting, everything will be clear. ”
Zheng Junyan smiled dumbly and nodded. (To be continued......)