I am Ling Rui, she is Mingya, a letter difference, completely widening the distance between the two of us.

But I'm an older brother and she's a younger sister, and that never changes for any reason.

Before I was 10 years old, I was ignorant and thought I didn't have a father.

Although I have also looked forward to and fantasized, it is just a small idea in my heart.

It wasn't until I was 10 years old, when my mother died of a serious illness, and my uncle's family adopted me with disgust, that I knew that I actually had a father from my aunt's occasional scolding.

And the father, who has never been seen, may be alive.

Later, from my mother's diary, I learned that I did have a father, and that I was a handsome young man with a wealthy fortune.

's father is the second young master of the Ming family in Jiangshan City-Ming Jihui.

Spending thousands of dollars outside, it seems to be amorous, but in fact, widowhood is the true face of the two young men of the Ming family.

His mother was just one of his many women, though he didn't know what he thought when she was young.

But I am full of gratitude to my mother, who brought me up with difficulty.

How much did I hate when I knew the truth?

I'm afraid I don't even know about it.

The only thing I know is that I will not let go of the man who hurt my mother, deceived my mother, and abandoned us.

It's just that I was still young at that time, and I was still living a life of my aunt beating and scolding, and my uncle sneering.

But hatred had been planted in my heart, and at that time my heart was so dark that I was full of disgust.

I studied hard and vowed to get ahead. One day, he will let that man know what the result of the debt he has done will be in the end!

Because of this, I tried to get close to Minglang and gain his trust, but I just wanted to get closer to Ming's family and that man.

And Minglang seems to be looking the other way for me, and the relationship between the two is getting better and better.

It was only after a long, long time that Minglang said to me very arrogantly: Your little bit of caution. Play with me? Hehe......

Because it's close to clarity. After getting acquainted, he took me to Ming's house, where I got to know the calamity of this life, and it was also so many years. The only sunshine in my heart?

Look at such a bright girl. He looked at me with crooked eyebrows. Say to me, "Brother Ling Rui."

At that time, I thought that I had strayed into the fairy world and saw a fairy.

At that time. I said, I'm Minglang's friend, Brother Ling Rui.

In fact, in my heart, I also said the same, Sister Xiaoya, I am my brother, an older brother with blood relationship.

But some words can't really be said, close to Minglang, close to Xiaoya's sister, and slowly close to his biological father.

If you talk about the pain of being tormented by hatred all these years?

Naturally, it hurts, and the sound of my aunt's beating and scolding in my memory, as well as the sneering voice of my uncle on the side, is also very painful to think about now.

But when I saw that the heinous man in my memory, because he was old, because he had no status and no ability at home, lived a life of looking at people's faces, I couldn't tell what it was like in my heart.

Hate?

And also.

Pity?

Maybe there is, maybe not.

However, he gave up the idea of revenge on him since then, but this idea was not because of Ming Jihui, but because of Xiaoya's sister.

I don't want Sister Xiaoya to have a brother with a dark psychology, and I don't want Sister Xiaoya to know that she also has a brother who is not from a high background and has a treacherous mind.

In that case, even if I really take revenge on Ming Jihui, I won't be really happy.

took revenge on an insignificant person, but from now on he has to face all kinds of cold eyes from Xiaoya's sister.

At that time, I couldn't bear such a heavy psychological burden.

Therefore, I chose to give up the obsession that I had persisted in my heart for so many years.

All of this was just for the girl who appeared in the summer when I was sixteen, for that warm and intimate smile.

I know Sister Xiaoya's thoughts, and it is precisely because I know that I have to restrain those thoughts that I shouldn't have in my heart.

It's just that in the end, I still can't bear to let Xiaoya's sister just look at it, don't ask, and don't care.

If it weren't for the reason in my heart restraining myself, I really don't dare to imagine if I would take Xiaoya with me to bear this bad infamy.

After all, we are brothers and sisters, blood relatives, no matter where we go, no matter when we arrive, this will not change!

Even if I refuse like this, it will break Xiaoya's sister's heart.

But she is still so young, still at an ignorant and naïve age, I don't want to show her the dark side of this world.

I want to protect the warm sunshine when I first see it.

I like Xiaoya, but this liking is accompanied by restraint and forbearance, just like the sentence I once said to Tongtong when I was drunk a long time later.

I can't love Xiaoya.

It's not that you don't love, but you can't love!

A sentence that can't be loved, in fact, there is too much helplessness in it, but what can be done?

After all, we are brothers and sisters with blood relationship, how can we break the world's vision and be criticized together?

Even in the end, I chose to cowardly escape, to escape from this elegant place, to another place, to start a new life.

Although it is difficult to say goodbye in this life, at least in Xiaoya's heart, I am still the perfect Ling Rui brother, not a bad person who guides my sister to make mistakes, a shameless person who does not know ethics!

During the years of self-exile, I got to know Tongtong.

If Xiaoya is the only ray of sunshine in my heart, then Tongtong is the salvation of my life.

She accompanied me through the darkest period of my life, when I first arrived in a foreign country, I didn't know anything except language, and I even had to find all kinds of ways to live on my daily expenses.

At that time, Tongtong was by my side.

Maybe at the beginning, I was really with her out of gratitude, but after getting along slowly, I realized that Tongtong and Xiaoya were different.

If Sister Xiaoya is the only ray of sunshine in my heart that brings me warmth, then Tongtong is the one who takes me out of the darkness and towards warmth.

She knew me when I was the most depressed in my life, but she didn't dislike everything I had, stretched out her warm hands to me, and then took me step by step on the road to warmth.

Maybe I haven't fallen in love with Tongtong yet, but after walking together for so long, there is no thrilling excitement at the beginning, and now the two of them are walking together, more like the two closest relatives, two men and women who are most suitable to walk together in this life.

I am grateful to the two girls who appeared in my life, in my heart, Xiaoya is just a sister, and Tongtong is the person who I want to hold hands with me for a lifetime and be warmly accompanied.

Tongtong, I may have fallen in love with you, but I didn't even feel this kind of delicate thought.

Although Sister Xiaoya still occupies a special place in my heart, this does not prevent me from loving you.

Because, Xiaoya's sister can really only be a sister.

This protection has nothing to do with love. (To be continued......)