I begged the Buddha to invite the Bodhisattva, but Fang Nan had already gently held my hand, and then took the cigarette that burned to a small half from my hand.

She took a half step back, looked up at me, and then slowly took a puff of her cigarette, and then slowly puffed it out.

After the green smoke, her eyes were hazy and her gaze flickered.

"I'm a woman." Fang Nan finally spoke, because she had cried, her voice was a little hoarse, and there was a little nasal: "And I'm not young anymore, for a woman, once she is over thirty years old, it is a terrifying thing." ”

I didn't speak.

Fang Nan leaned against the wall, holding his arms, the expression on his face was very weak, and there was a feeling of distress and care: "Chen Yang...... Do you know what it feels like to be a woman over thirty years old? ”

“…… I don't know. "I'm comfortable admitting it.

"It's tough." Fang Nan's small mouth spit out these three words, and then her eyes fell on the ceiling, she seemed to smile lightly, but there was no joy in this smile: "I dress myself up beautifully every day...... But it was only when I undressed myself every night that I knew that I had a little more crow's feet at the corners of my eyes, even though I gave myself the best of everything...... But a woman like me, how many years can I keep a young chūn? ”

"I'm the only one in the family...... Nevertheless. I was scared even when it got dark, and sometimes I tried to find an excuse to go home. I'd rather stay in the company until there's no one left, and then be the last one to leave. Because I know that the house is empty, and even if I sit all night, no one will come and say a word to me! At night, when I sit here, I feel cold! That kind of coldness comes out of the bottom of my heart! It's out of the bones! I would desperately turn on all the lights in my house! Turn on the TV, stereo, and all! Open for a night! Every room! Then I'll sit on the couch and wait......" She smiled wryly. Then he shook his head and said in a low voice: "Even I don't know, what am I waiting for." ”

Chen Yang ...... I'm over thirty years old...... There are very few green chūns left for me...... Maybe it won't be long, not ...... I guess it is now! Now that I'm walking on the road, some little girls can already call me Auntie! Instead of calling my sister! But I sometimes think about it, I'm thirty years old, but I'm still alone, and no one loves me. No one will accompany me, no one will come to 4 make me happy and put me to sleep...... When I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare, I didn't even have a quiet hug around me! Do you know......" She looked into my eyes, tears flashing in her eyes: "Often at night, after I have nightmares, I sit with the quilt until dawn......"

I can't say a word at all!

If a woman, she is willing to show all her weakness and helplessness in front of you...... So what else can you say?

"You do look like a man." Fang Nan sighed, a strange gaze slid through his eyes: "I remember I told you that you look very much like him...... Even the xìng grid is very similar, the same stubbornness. Strong, refuses to bow his head, and has a hard temper. But in your hungry eyes, what occasionally shows is a very gentle gaze...... It's also very similar to him, very similar. ”

I'm still speechless.

"First time I saw you. I just have some ...... I almost couldn't control my emotions. Fang Nan shook his head: "Do you remember those things I asked you to come to my house to help me do that afternoon?" ”

“…… Remember. I nodded.

Fang Nan's eyes showed a hint of shyness and guilt: "That day, I originally thought about it for one night. I decided to bring you back. I...... I originally had a plan...... Or made a decision that I was ashamed of. ”

"Huh?"

Fang Nan took a deep breath, his face flushed, and he trembled word by word: "I...... Intended to seduce you. ”

Airplanes!

My head almost exploded!

She...... Trying to seduce me?

She intends to ...... Seduce...... I?

Fang Nan's face was full of shame, his head almost hung to his chest, and he said in a very thin voice: "I...... Isn't it shameless? A very shameless woman? ”

When she raised her head again, tears fell from the corners of her eyes: "I also feel very cheap...... I thought about it for a night...... I can't take it anymore, I can't stand it! I just want to have a warm embrace, someone who can take care of me by my side. Be kind to me...... Even if it's just in turn, I'll be enough! That's enough! She reached out and gently cupped my face: "And you look too much like him...... It's too similar to Fang Nan I can't help but think in my heart, even if I can only stay in your arms for a while...... After a while, I was satisfied. …… I'm sorry Chen Yang...... I'm sorry, but I know my thoughts are dirty and mean...... But I really can't take it anymore. I don't want to wake up every night and sit until dawn! ”

Even though there were no mirrors, I could feel that my face must be ugly.

Finally, Fang Nan sighed: "But...... That day, after you came, I found myself ...... Still can't do it. She suddenly hugged me hard and hissed, "I'm not a lowly woman!" I'm not! No! Then Fang Nan seemed to lose his strength and fell softly into my arms, I quickly stretched out my arms to support her, and said softly, "Do you want to sit down?" ”

"Don't." Fang Nan whispered in my arms, "Let me ...... Hug for a while, just for a while, is that okay? ”

I sighed and tightened my arms.

Fang Nan groaned lowly, her head rested happily on the shoulder of my hand, and continued in a low voice, her voice was very blurry, a little like a dream: "You were here that afternoon, helping me do so many things...... I'm just watching you from behind, watching, watching...... It's you in front of me for a while, and it's him for a while, but it changes back and forth, and the decision in my heart collapses with hunger. Chen yang...... You know what? Since I've lived here...... You ......" she looked up, "You're the first man to walk into this house." ”

"I believe it." I nodded immediately.

"En......" Fang Nan snorted lightly: "That afternoon, I drank some wine and was a little dizzy, but I wasn't drunk...... At the time, I thought, forget it. Fall is fallen...... Anyway, I won't meet anyone who really cares for me in this life, and there won't be anyone else...... Just this once, just once......" She suddenly smiled, as if mocking: "That afternoon...... Do you think I'm really drunk? I didn't...... I actually knew, I was still conscious. You carried me upstairs, and I was still wondering if you couldn't help it...... You're not a good guy like the men outside, and you're just thinking about how to get a woman into bed...... I think. Forget it, just one more time, even if there is one more warm memory, so that I will have fewer nightmares in my future alone. Actually, I'm still very timid...... I didn't dare to take the initiative, so I simply handed myself over to you, and if you wanted to do anything to me at that time, I wouldn't resist. In the end, Fang Nan's voice cooled down: "But there is only one, if you really did something that day, I will let you leave the next day." ”

"And then?" I suddenly asked a very stupid and idiotic question.

Fang Nan suddenly smiled and raised his head.

At such a close distance, looking at Fang Nan's smile, it was really good-looking. It's fascinating. Her eyes are crooked, like a crescent moon, and the corners of her eyes are slightly raised, very charming and amorous.

And then ...... Kindness...... You carried me upstairs and I was ready. Thought you'd carry me into the room...... But I didn't expect you guy. Carried me up and down. I almost can't fit it...... At that time, I said to myself, you are such a strange person. Are you suddenly timid again when the matter comes? She blinked, a little dazed: "You men, aren't you all very impulsive?" ”

I opened my mouth and sweated a little on my head: "That...... I really didn't have any other evil thoughts that day, I just wanted to carry you up into the room and let you lie down and rest. I didn't think of anything else......... Conscience of heaven and earth! ”

Fang Nan nodded, his eyes full of tenderness: "I...... Believe you! ”

"That day...... You're really not drunk? "There was a bitterness in my mouth.

"A little." Fang Nan smiled faintly: "Although I have retained a little sobriety, I am really a little confused......

"How confused?"

"Confused...... I can muster up the courage to indulge myself in that. ”

I'm speechless......

Chen Yang ...... Thank you. Good thing you didn't touch me that day. Fang Nan then restrained his smile and looked at me very seriously: "Because you didn't touch me that day, it will give me the opportunity to slowly feel this feeling now...... Or rather, torture. ”

"Well......" I couldn't speak.

"That day, you didn't touch me, but then you went out to buy it for me, and then when you came back, I really couldn't support it, my brain was dizzy, and I wanted to ......sleep" Fang Nan blushed and said: "Later, you hugged me and slept on the sofa for an afternoon...... I was awake for a while, and I was already past the strength of the drink. I regret it in my heart and want to push you away...... But I couldn't help it. It's been a long time since I've slept so peacefully, you hugged me in the back, helped me, didn't let me fall, I felt very dependent, I was still a little nervous and uneasy, but then I slept very well. I said to myself, you are a good person...... A good man. ”

I felt a little burning in my face, too. In fact, all afternoon that day, I was holding Fang Nan in my arms, and I had been fighting between heaven and man all the time!

"Later in the evening, I was physically ...... Well, I'm not feeling well, and you take good care of me...... It's been a long time since I've been taken care of so much. Fang Nan's eyes were full of emotion: "Do you remember when I lost my temper with you?" For Kuratama...... I was very sad...... Suddenly, a childlike temper came out of my heart, as if I was afraid...... I'm afraid that a favorite toy I just fancy will be snatched away by others! ”

"Do you remember when we came out of dinner dinner in the evening and I lost my temper with you in the car? In fact, I knew in my heart that my tantrum was very unreasonable, and the words I said were also very childish...... But I just can't help it! Fang Nan blushed and hung his head and said, "Actually, girls are like this, I just want to deliberately lose my temper and be deliberately unreasonable...... I don't know why, but I really want to feel that feeling of being coaxed by you...... As a result, you really said good words to coax me. Actually, it's a lot of fun to argue with you, especially when I look at your gentle tone to coax me, I was about to cry at that time......"

Me: "............"

Eldest sister! Please, you're my boss! I'll give me a big rice bowl with you. Can you not coax you without saying some soft words?

Of course, this kind of thing is absolutely not allowed to be said now!

"Later, you took me to eat and spend the night...... I haven't been to that shabby roadside shop for a long, long time! Fang Nan's eyes lit up: "Usually when others invite me to dinner, they all book those very high-end restaurants, but you take me to eat those barbecues, but I think it's very interesting, it's fun to grab the meat skewers with your hands and gnaw them." Speaking of this, her tone sank: "Later, I met those hooligans. They insulted me when they spoke, and you stood up and fought with them......" She suddenly stared at me, "Also, you pulled me behind you at that time. Stand in front of me with your body......"

Fang Nan suddenly hugged me hard: "Chen Yang, do you know that after you were taken away by Jǐng Cha, I cried all the way back?" I even broke my oath and called the ...... Their relationship helps! I've forgotten how long it was...... How long has it been since I've cried for a man! She bit her lip and stared at me: "After I got to know you, I cried much more than all these years combined!" ”

"I ......" As soon as I spoke, Fang Nan had already reached out and blocked my mouth, stopping me from speaking.

"I do!" Fang Nan said resolutely: "I am willing!" I volunteered! That night, I'd rather you send me home. That's because I just want to be with you a little longer, just a little longer! ”

"But ......"

"No, but!" Fang Nan's eyes suddenly showed an unprecedented light: "I don't have time anymore!" I'm not young anymore! I sometimes wonder if God has mercy on me and finally sent you to me...... After you took me home that night, I stood behind the door for a long time, and several times I almost wanted to rush out and chase you......"

I thought to myself: It's good that you didn't come out, otherwise you would have seen me and Wu Gang fighting......

"I thought about it for a night. The decision to be made again...... I decided that I couldn't let go this time, and I decided to try to catch you! Fang Nan's eyes suddenly dimmed: "But the next day, I knew that you had an accident...... Wait until I get to the hospital...... See your ...... Girlfriend ......" she smiled miserably. Said softly, "You know what? I even had the heart to die...... I finally saw a little hope, but you snuffed it out alive in front of me! ”

"Yes, I'm sorry."

"Don't tell me I'm sorry." Fang Nan said quietly: "I almost used all my strength to control myself and didn't go to the hospital to see you again, do you know?" Every day I go to Korea, I think of you at night when I can't sleep...... I will remember the scene when you protected me behind me that day, and you carried me out after I injured my foot...... I called Qian Pan every day and asked her about you. ”

The gaze in front of me was a weight that I couldn't bear, and a tenderness that I couldn't refuse.

It took almost all of my willpower to remove my eyes: "Fang Nan...... I don't know what to say. I don't know how to express the shock in my heart...... Grace ......"

"I know what you're trying to say!" Fang Nan bit and said: "You want to say that you have a girlfriend, and then you want to say that it is impossible, no, and then say sorry to me, isn't it?" ”

I really wanted to say "yes", but in the face of Fang Nan, this word couldn't come out of my mouth.

"Chen Yang......" Fang Nan's shout seemed to be infinitely affectionate, and I couldn't help but feel a wave in my heart when I heard it, Fang Nan had already reached out and hooked my neck: "I don't want you to do anything...... I'm not going to ask you anything about it...... All I ask is you to stay with me...... Don't step out of my sight, so I can see you all the time, okay? ”

“……”

"I really don't want much...... I'm not going to grab anything with your girlfriend. I don't want to disturb your life either...... I just want you to stay! Just stay! Fang Nan was almost happy to use a pleading tone: "Don't you go, okay?" Whatever you ask, I'm willing to say yes! As long as you give me one last bit of hope, don't take it all away, okay? ”

To be honest, my heart has completely softened.

How do you say that sentence: 100 steels become soft!

In this situation, such a moving beauty, with a cross-section of expression in your arms, tells you her heart...... What more could you ask for!

Moreover. A woman so weak and helpless, can I bear to hurt her?

"Actually...... Actually, I'm not a good person. I hesitated.

"I know!" Fang Nan suddenly blinked, and said in a low voice: "I was drunk on the sofa that day, right here, you thought I was asleep, didn't you say something to me, 'Fortunately, I have withdrawn from the rivers and lakes, otherwise you will ...... me'............ Hehe, those words show that you are actually still a very good person. ”

Seeing that I finally didn't speak, Fang Nan suddenly flashed a strange look in his eyes. The arms that hooked my neck shrank gently, and the delicate face slowly approached me with infinite shyness...... Near......

Finally, my mouth tasted a soft and fragrant fragrance......

That feels......

…… It's sweet......

My brain quickly went blank. His arms involuntarily hugged her......

…………

I felt like my head was empty, dazed, and a little fluttering and lightheaded. There is a hint of sweetness in my heart, meaning joy, a hint of pleasure, and a hint of unease.

I can't even remember the details of how I got out of Fang Nan's house......

I just remember that after a long kiss that even I was about to suffocate, Fang Nan was already as soft as a puddle of chūn water, falling into my arms, and a pair of eyes were almost dripping water!

I immediately realized that I had to leave right away! Otherwise, I'm afraid my self-control is not as good as I thought!

And then what?

Kindness...... Then, it seemed that Fang Nan was holding my arms and sending me out, and his face was still shy before leaving. Like a girl, she lifted her feet and kissed me on the face: "Chen Yang...... Come pick me up tomorrow."

How do I answer?

Oh...... By the way, I was saying, "Okay. ”

Standing outside the door of Fang Nan's house, I was blown by the wind, and I came to my senses, and I couldn't help but pat my face hard.

Demon jīng! Absolute demon jīng! I was almost so fascinated that I didn't even know if I was sleeping!

I turned to look at the closed door, but I couldn't muster the courage to knock.

Patting myself on the forehead hard, I had no choice but to get into the car, start, and leave on the road.

I was a little flustered along the way, and almost ran a red light a few times. And on the other two occasions, when I was waiting for the red light, I thought about things and came up with a god, and when the car behind me impatiently honked the horn to urge me, I also stuck my head out in anger and scolded: "What to press!" Do you have a trumpet? Press! ”

Then start scolding.

After a while, I suddenly felt that I really wanted to find someone to talk to, I needed to find a friend to talk about this matter, so I drove the car onto a remote road, parked on the side of the road, took out my mobile phone and looked at the number on it.

Jojo...... Well, forget it, she seems to be upset with me.

Aze ...... This big mouth, I can't talk to him, if it reaches Yan Di, I'll be finished!

Wood...... Or is it better to be wood...... Mouth tight!

Fluctuating the phone, the wood fed on the other end, and I immediately sighed: "Wood, I'm in big trouble!" ”

Subsequently, I told all about what happened at Fang Nan's house in the afternoon, and even the last affectionate kiss and hesitation also said.

Of course, I hesitated for a moment when I accidentally broke Fang Nan's bath, and finally didn't say it.

The wood didn't say a word in the whole process of my narration, just listened to the knowledge, listened quietly.

Finally, when I finished speaking, the wood jumped out coldly on the other end:

"Yan Di is a good girl."

"I know!" I was a little impatient: "That's why I'm bothered!" I don't want to do this kind of thing of stepping on two boats with one foot! ”

"This Fang Nan is also very good."

“…… I know that too. I said loudly, "I'm not looking for you to judge whether other girls are good or not!" I need your advice! What am I going to do!! ”

The other end of the phone was silent for a long time, and the wood spoke: "Cold salad." ”

I was furious and furious: "I said what do you mean by this! I originally wanted to find out about this matter from Fang Nan today! But I didn't expect it to be like this! Do you think I'm willing? Do you think I'm trying to make this scene? You think it's fun and fun for me to pedal two of them, and it's fucking cool, don't you!! I complained angrily and loudly: "People, it's all fucking forced out!!" Forced out !!! ”

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and suddenly the voice of the wood came smoothly and clearly!

This guy actually said a few more words!

I only heard the voice of the wood on the phone and said very clearly: "It's not all that is forced out...... As a doctor, I correct you a little, there are also quite a few people who have cesarean sections. ”

"............" Me: "%¥......*・#......"

"Okay, aren't you going to pick up Fang Nan from work tomorrow...... Don't be late. ”

The phone hung up, leaving me there.