Chapter 15: The Way of the Heart
When I opened my eyes again, it was already daytime.
Bai Zhen'er opened her eyes and slowly sat up.
"Miss." Xiao Tao was already waiting in the inner room, and when she saw her young lady get up, she hurriedly stepped forward to serve.
"What time is it now?" Seeing the sunlight outside the window, she realized that it seemed that it was not too early.
"It's three quarters of the hour, Miss." After getting dressed, Xiao Tao called in the people outside.
By the time she had finished her breakfast, it was already early, and the sun was shining.
Today's weather is not bad, the spring sun is warm.
Under the leadership of Xiao Shami, they turned left and right and went out of the backyard door, not knowing which way they went, and they didn't meet any other people along the way.
After exiting the backyard door, you will be greeted by countless ladders, and stone stairs are scattered all over the mountainside.
"We, are we going to go up?" With so many ladders, how to get there?
"The Ancestor is waiting at the Wangfeng Pavilion not far ahead."
After receiving an affirmative answer, she looked at the little novice in front of her and did not speak for a while.
In the end, she took off her outer cloak, revealing her cute little embroidered shoes, and slowly began to climb the mountain.
One step, two steps, three steps.
She was so tired, she had to admit that the original owner's body was not much better, and she was too tired after only climbing a few steps.
"Miss." Xiao Tao was a little worried and helped up her own lady.
"It's fine." She pushed Xiao Tao's hand away, rested for a while and continued to walk up.
There must be some reason why Master Repentance had placed the location here, and since that was the case, she accepted it all.
No matter how long the road is, there will be an end.
The pace grew slower, and finally the sun hung high in the sky, half hidden in the clouds, looming.
At this time, there were two people sitting in the Wangfeng Pavilion not far away, one wearing a robe and the other wearing a robe.
Jue Cheng looked at Bai Zhen'er, who was crawling slowly like a snail below, "I said friends, can that girl get here?" ”
"Don't you know in the end?" Scarlet bamboo took the tea and lifted the corner of the hat.
Jue regret twitched the corner of his mouth, this person is a friend of his senior brother, originally he didn't put this person in his eyes, but when he met today, he found that this person was unfathomable.
He couldn't detect the depth of this person, and he hadn't even seen the face under the veil, which was really, really a little aggrieved.
The sun was still there, and the stone staircase in front of him meandered forward, as if it would never be finished.
I was so tired, it became difficult to breathe, and the air in my chest was slowly squeezed out, and then I inhaled hard.
"If the donor is tired, you can rest for a while." The little novice on the side followed without blushing or panting, and after walking for such a long distance, she didn't see any change in him, but most of the slaves who followed her were too tired to work.
After Bai Zhen'er stopped and sorted out her breathing, she turned to look at Xiao Tao and the servants behind her and said, "You are tired and resting in place, you don't have to follow me." ”
After speaking, she looked at the road in front of her again, and she had walked for so long without seeing the end.
Is there an end to this road?
After a moment of rest, Bai Zhen'er walked forward again, she didn't believe that she couldn't walk to Wangfeng Pavilion today.
I don't know how long I walked, I don't know when the sun set, the night was shrouded, she just knew that she kept moving forward, kept moving forward.
"There is no way forward, why do you still want to go?" The voice came from nowhere, ethereal and vain.
"Why is there no end? If you don't go to the end, who knows there is no end? She yelled ahead as she walked.
"Idiot, idiot." There was a sigh in that voice.
As soon as the man finished speaking, the wind rose, and a moment later it began to rain heavily.
The heavy rain soaked her clothes in an instant, and her steps became heavier, and the people who had been following her did not know where to go.
The vast land, the road is indefinite, the world is so big, and in the end she is still left walking alone.
Just like back then, in order to repay her kindness, she devoted herself to the emperor and became one of the many concubines in the palace.
So far, she has joined the army of the harem and has been up and down all her life.
first repaid the favor, and then took revenge, so that the Hao family was once again among the capital, and then it was to seize power, compete for the crown, and finally listen to the government, and become the one above the ten thousand people.
It's been so long that she has forgotten why she did it in the first place, it's like a road of no return, once she sets foot on it, she can't die, she climbs up.
In the end, she won, because no one is more ruthless than her, because she has no heart, and she doesn't have the love she cares about, and the only thing she cares about is long gone before she becomes a beauty.
She won, no one can do it like her, the harem, the court, which one is not in her control?
Bai Zhen'er laughed: "Hehe, in the end, I won, wasn't it the same at the beginning?" I couldn't see hope or the future, but in the end, I won. ”
"Did you win?" There was a sigh in the air.
"I won, I won." As if emphasized, she continued: "I, Hao Zhen'er, the Empress Dowager Zhenci of the Great Ming Kingdom, which of those princes and gate lords didn't see the mourning family and didn't act with his tail between his legs? Even the daughters of the Wang family can only marry low in order to avoid my edge. ”
"You're regretting it." The man's voice was affirmative.
Bai Zhen'er immediately retorted: "Nonsense, the mourning family has never regretted it, those people deserve to die, they are all defeated by the mourning family." ”
"If you are sad, you are all forced, and your past life has passed, so why cling?"
"I don't have attachments." After saying that, the heavy rain seems to have gradually become lighter at this time.
She has no attachment, she just doesn't know what to do, she entered the palace at a very young age, lived in the darkest and darkest corners of the bottom, and all she learned was how to survive and how to live without compromise.
At that time, she had no choice.
She also wants to live happily alone in the attic as before, without worrying about food and clothing, and doing some things that a boudoir woman should do.
But the family was exiled, her mother died of illness on the way, and her father died after not staying up for long at the border, and when she came back in the palace, the closest people in the family were long gone, and the later Hao family were all those side branches.
She has always been a loner, and she has no scruples, so she has gone the farthest.
In her eyes, those people were just a chess piece, a chess piece that could support itself in the back.
"There is a cause, and there must be an effect. That is, if you plant the cause, you will get the effect, and you will be destined. ”
"Fate? Oh, I don't believe in fate. "She never believed it, and if she did, she wouldn't have taken that step later.
was forced by fate, and had to fight up, and if he believed in his fate, he would have been crushed under the iron horse of fate.
"Now that God has given you a chance, it's still too late, why not let go of the past and live according to your heart this time."
"Put it down?" She didn't know.
Is this really a chance to give her a new life, not to punish her?
In an instant, her mind was in turmoil.
She gritted her teeth, her lips turned pale, and her voice trembled: "Yes, can you do it all over again?" ”
The voice was small, with a begging undertone that she didn't even notice.
"Why not start over? If you come here, you will be safe, and this is the road you really want to take. ”
Is it really possible? Do it all over again.
Bai Zhen'er covered her face, and tears finally couldn't help flowing down her fingers.
Just like those unbearable pasts, dyed with blood and tears, they fell into the red dust.
The old things are gone, and now later, Zhu Yang is as beautiful as Kodan, and no one asks about hunger and cold.
It's not that she can't let go of that supreme power, she's just afraid, afraid that this qiē is just a dream, and when she wakes up from the dream, she still stays in that cold palace, a palace that is cold to her bones all year round.
Her hands were stained with blood, and she was guilty, so she never had the luxury of expecting to start over one day.
"A qiē karma, there is cause and effect, remember to ask your heart in everything." The man's voice faded away.
After a while, the rain stopped, and the sun slowly came out.
Bai Zhen'er stood stunned in place, only the wet and heavy clothes reminded her that what happened just now was real.
What happened just now, why did her love suddenly get out of control?
At this moment, she noticed that the road in front of her seemed to have changed, and a pavilion appeared not far away.
Looking back, I saw that the road behind me was also hidden in the clouds, and suddenly gave people the feeling of being in the clouds.
She didn't know what it was like, she only knew that at that moment, something seemed to have broken in her heart and something had left.
The corners of her mouth rose slightly, and suddenly the sky swirled, her eyes were dizzy, and her body finally couldn't support it and fell to the ground, and everything was quiet from then on.
It's just that this time, it's no longer tired, it's more relaxed.