Zhu Yan woke up from a long dream.

The dream was quiet, empty, and all around it was dark, but she remembered it as a dream.

When her consciousness was still very vague, she heard someone talking in her ear, and she could hear the conversation, but she could not taste the emotions hidden in it.

"Why haven't you woken up yet?"

"Do you need a needle?"

"Wait a while, if you still don't wake up, send a message to Mrs. Zhu immediately."

Zhu Yan subconsciously felt that he should wake up, but he really felt very tired, and hoped to sleep for a while from the bottom of his heart.

It wasn't until he heard the faint sound of choking that Zhu Yan realized that the people around him should be very anxious and frightened, and finally opened his eyes with sleepiness.

"Ah Yan, you can be considered awake."

As soon as he opened his eyes, Zhu Yan felt that he was being held firmly in his arms, and instinctively wanted to break free, but when he first woke up, his limbs seemed to be not his own, and he didn't have half the strength.

"Never, let her go, Ah Yan can't stand shaking like this." This is Qi Niang's voice, very calm, but there is also a hint of relaxation after nervousness.

Zhu Yan pursed her lips, closed her eyes again to sort out her thoughts, and her weak voice was as thin as a gossamer, dumb, "...... Did I faint again? ”

"Girl, you're scaring us to death." Bai Apple crouched beside the couch and handed the water to her pale lips, "It's all right." ”

"Don't be afraid." Zhu Yan took a sip of some warm water, felt a lot clearer in his heart, struggled to sit up, and joked softly, "Your body is strong, you can't be scared to death...... Besides, I've 'died' once. Again, there is a limit to the sadness. ”

Bai Apple had told her before, and at that time they all said that she was really dead. cried so sadly, it was all real, so others didn't realize that she was fake death.

The left and right have been sad for her once, and if they come again, the tears they shed are only limited - after all, people's feelings will also be tired.

Bai Apple's face turned pale with fright, and she grabbed her cold hand and shook her head, "Girl, don't think so. If there was another time, the white apple would have cried to death. ”

"You're a good girl, you're going to live a hundred years. I won't die so soon......" Zhu Yan smiled lightly and slowly closed his eyes, "I'm tired, and I'll never be with me for a while." Okay? ”

The rest slowly withdrew. Only Yongwu was left inside, looking down at the woman with half-squinted eyes nestled in the quilt.

"There are countless lives saved in Ah Yan's hands, and naturally they will not ......"

Zhu Yan suddenly opened his eyes, slowly raised his hand, looked at it for a while, and smiled, "But I owe a lot of lives in my hands." Count it out, and you can't pull it back. I had to pay it back with my own life. ”

Not this life...... But the woman who did whatever it took to calculate herself in the end was her after all.

After three reincarnations, she understood that if she couldn't pay it off early, she would suffer even more.

Forever silent, he confessed that he had never seen through the woman in front of him.

In the past ten years, he looked at rivers, mountains and beautiful waters, birds and beasts, which was extremely simple, and he had never had the ability to see what Zhu Yan was thinking.

Zhu Yan had told him that she was different from them, she seemed to know too much about the past and present lives—she knew that Yongwu didn't care about those things, so she didn't hide it.

But now it seems that she is afraid that she has hidden a lot, otherwise why would she have made herself look like this several times?

"Never ......" Zhu Yan suddenly leaned towards him, hugged him sideways, and whispered in a low voice, "It's cold......"

After fainting, her body was cold, she was really afraid of the cold, and she never thought about it, and sighed lightly around her, "If you know that it is uncomfortable, you should take care of your body." ”

"Hmm......" Zhu Yan rubbed his face against the placket of his shirt and rubbed it gently, "Will you never like me?" ”

"Ah Yan ......" never lowered her head, and she sent a very faint fragrance of bluegrass between her breaths, which was so faint that she almost wanted to break off, but it was so ethereal that it seduced people's souls.

Zhu Yan hooked his lips and smiled, obviously soft-spoken, but it sounded cold and abnormal, "I have been with Xuanqing several times...... I was pregnant with his child, don't you care? ”

"Aren't you dead yet?" Zhu Yan buried his head, as if talking to himself and persuading him.

She was born with her father's scheming, and was engulfed in that calculation, whether in the past or now, that kind of idle cloud and wild crane-like life is something she can't think of, and she doesn't dare to hope for.

There has never been such a fairy-like character, and she is not worthy of a person who is full of mundane affairs.

Vassalage is elegant, and he has done it for a while, but he can't do it for a lifetime, so there is no need to make himself work so hard.

From beginning to end, they can only be friends and nothing else.

When the two lives meet, nothing has changed, maybe there is only this pitiful one.

Neverless was silent for a moment, and slowly let go of her.

Admittedly, what she said was not wrong, even if she really didn't care about that, it was impossible to tolerate her thinking about others day and night.

"Heh, you're not Dou Pingyuan after all." Throwing down this incomprehensible sentence, Zhu Yan shrank back, lifted the quilt and struggled to get up, because of Fang Cai's coma, his cold and pale fingertips were still trembling inadvertently.

Never stopped her, "Be careful of the cold, what do you want to take?" ”

"What ......?" Zhu Yan raised her head and thought for a while, she didn't actually want to take anything, she just felt bored and wanted to get up and walk, but she was never asked like this, but she remembered some things on the side.

He covered his eyes slightly, blocking the complicated look in his eyes, "I just broke out in a lot of cold sweat, I should drink some more water." ”

Yongwu took the tea cup that she had just drunk a few sips of, and it was still warm.

Zhu Yan obediently drank a small half, held it in his hand for a while, and handed it to his lips, "You can drink some too." ”

She put some sleep aid medicine in the water, Zhu Yan saw him drink it all, squinted his eyes and smiled, his pale face showed a strange brilliance under the lamplight, "Never, you say...... Xuanqing He lied to me, how can I retaliate against him? ”

"Ah Yan ......" never soon realized that there was a problem with the water she handed over, but the house was already burning with soothing incense, and he had already found out too late with the tea with the tranquilizer.

"I'm sorry." Zhu Yan tightened his clothes and got up, and tucked the quilt for him, "I still have very important things to do......"

Yuan Rin owes her yet, and it is too cheap to die like this.

If she wants her to go back to Jiangnan, she just won't go back, and if she wants to see her live well, she will go to him and die to show him - nothing can make him get his wish.

The midnight of early winter was very cold, and the cold wind blew through her already thin clothes, making her weak body even colder.

Only then did he turn under the quiet corridor, a little dim light came into view, and the figure holding the lantern was lying on his back, very old.

Zhu Yan stood up and moved his lips lightly, "Mother." (To be continued......)