Zhou Wanwan was still a little dazed when he was woken up, and he unconsciously sobbed twice at Shen Guodong in front of him, only to realize that his face was full of tears.

"Have a nightmare? Or do your hands hurt? Shen Guodong wiped her face with a towel, with careful pity in his eyes.

Zhou Wanwan shook her head, she really didn't dream, and her hands didn't hurt, but she often woke up crying after falling asleep these days, and sometimes when she woke up, she could only remember the feeling of wanting to cry at that time, and nothing else.

Maybe it's because I'm too depressed during the day and I will vent it when I fall asleep.

Zhou Wanwan smiled at Shen Guodong, trying to make himself look okay, "I had a scary dream, fortunately you woke me up!" I don't know if I will continue to do the next episode if I fall asleep for a while. ”

Shen Guodong also smiled back at her and touched her head, "It's not a TV series, can you still do it episode after episode?" ”

"Well, you wait until I'm asleep before leaving, with you in this town, I'm sure I won't have nightmares anymore." Zhou Wanwan slowly closed her eyes, her long eyelashes slowly fanned a few times, and she was ready to go back to sleep.

For three or four days in a row, Shen Guodong would wake her up before she cried and woke up. Then wait until she falls asleep before leaving.

"Little villain, am I a fierce god? Can anything scare away? Shen Guodong whispered softly in her ear, the eyes under the light moonlight were deep and gentle, but the pain hidden in the depths of his eyes could no longer be hidden.

Zhou Wanwan's breathing gradually calmed down and long, and Shen Guodong stared at her for a long time before he got up gently and came to the courtyard to stand still.

The night is still very deep, and the moon is bright and the stars are scarce. There was a faint sweet fragrance of wisteria flowers in the night breeze, Shen Guodong took a deep breath, and the unknown star in the sky slowly blurred in his eyes. It gradually became clear again, and the emotions in his eyes were turbulent and churning, but he remained motionless until the night dew wet his clothes and hair.

Zhou Wanwan looked at Shen Guodong in the yard, as long as he stood, she watched as long as she wanted, these days. Both of them had an unusually difficult night.

Since her hand was burned, although Shen Guodong has been as good to her as ever, he has even been more attentive and thoughtful than before. But Zhou Wanwan could feel that he had already made a decision.

Even if you don't say it now, you will say it at some point in the near future. Perhaps, the day her hand recovered. It was the day their relationship ended.

A lot of heavy bitterness pressed on Shen Guodong's heart. Zhou Wanwan could feel the hardship in his heart.

In the past few days, every minute and every second they have been together, Shen Guodong has had a very hard time, and she is the same.

In this regard, Zhou Wanwan was helpless. There is no misunderstanding between them, and no one is half-hearted, and they don't have any problems with men and women not getting along, but. The road just came to an end.

Zhou Wanwan slowly sat up and walked out gently.

"Brother Shen. You're not going to keep trying, are you? Zhou Wanwan's face was pale in the moonlight without a trace of blood, and her loose pajamas were blown by the wind, showing her slenderness and weakness.

But the voice is steady and strong, and there is no escape from fragility.

Shen Guodong turned his head slowly, looking at the amazingly beautiful Zhou Wanwan in the moonlight, all the emotions roared and gushed out, and he gritted his teeth and pressed him hard, and it took a long time before he said with difficulty, "I, let's not try it." Oh, I can't try it anymore. ”

He really couldn't try. originally thought that he would never say this sentence in his life.

Speaking out today, it was as if something had been pulled out of his body, his heart was instantly barren and dark, and the cold wind was howling and raging, and from this moment on, he exiled himself to a place where there was no more warmth and sunshine.

However, no matter how selfish, greedy, and longing for Zhou Wanwan was, he still had to do it.

He had to admit that Guo Kejian was right, if he clung to Zhou Wanwan and didn't let go, she would be ruined by himself.

If his feelings for Zhou Wanwan were not so deep, maybe he would not let go of him or die as he thought at the beginning.

But he cares more about her than himself, and every bit of grievance she suffers will be reflected in his heart a hundredfold and a thousand times.

Even what she doesn't care about, he will care about it for her and be wronged, how can he endure for a long time that he is the one who brought her the greatest grievance?

This child has been raised by him since he was a child, he is used to giving her the best, used to doing everything he can to make her happy, but he will never get used to bringing her hurt and pain.

Like is willful, love is restraint.

Shen Guodong never thought that he would let her go because he cared too much about Zhou Wanwan.

Yes, let her go, as that damn Guo Kejian said, give her back to herself.

"Brother Shen, don't be in such a hurry to make a decision, maybe, maybe......" Zhou Wanwan suddenly couldn't go on, she and Shen Guodong both knew how much struggle and helplessness he had experienced in his heart when he made this decision.

A long, long time ago, they all had a premonition, but they just refused to face it and accept this reality.

"Brother Shen, I'm sorry." Although it was Shen Guodong who finally said that he would give up, Zhou Wanwan knew that the reason was on himself.

"Little fool, it's me who should say I'm sorry." There was a moment of tears in Shen Guodong's eyes, and they quickly disappeared, "All of this is my fault." I shouldn't have ......"

"Brother Shen!" Zhou Wanwan interrupted his self-blame, but she didn't know what to say about the matter between them, her heart was chaotic, and she could only ask Shen Guodong repeatedly, "Brother Shen, don't talk about yourself like that, it's not your fault, don't talk about yourself like that......"

"Nannan, don't worry, I'm still your brother Shen, this will never change." Shen Guodong walked up to Zhou Wanwan, gently touched her long silky hair, and tried to pull the corners of his mouth to make himself smile like a real brother.

"In the future, I will still be your brother Shen, just like the eldest brother, the second brother and the dunzi, only your brother. We're still the same as when we were kids, and you still recognize me as an older brother, right? ”

Zhou Wanwan shook her head and nodded, tears streaming down, and she couldn't say a word.

The stars in the sky faded. The coldest darkness before dawn weighed down heavily.

Two days later, Zhou Wanwan's hand went to the hospital to change the dressing, and the doctor removed the bandage. Seeing her white and pink palms, I was dumbfounded.

Such a serious burn is impossible to heal in a month or two, but Zhou Wanwan and Shen Guodong's hands were intact in less than ten days.

"We used the ointment left by an old Chinese medicine practitioner, which was his own secret recipe." Shen Guodong could only attribute this matter to the ointment left by Mr. Guo, otherwise he would have no way to explain it.

The doctor chased Shen Guodong and asked a bunch of things about that kind of ointment. In the end, there was no result, so I could only sigh, "The quintessence of the country." How many national quintessences have been ruined like this! ”

Zhou Wanwan was ready to go back to school that day, although the matter of going to the Provincial Academy of Fine Arts had been decided, but if there was a perfect final grade, it would be the icing on the cake.

And. The main thing. She and Shen Guodong both need time to adjust themselves, and now they don't know how to continue to get along, every minute is awkward and awkward, and it is good for both parties to be separated.

Shen Guodong looked at the bag in Zhou Wanwan's hand, which was obviously much larger than usual, moved his lips, and finally didn't say anything, helped her lift it up and put it in the car.

Before Zhou Wanwan walked out of the courtyard gate, he glanced back at the small courtyard. The wisteria flowers are in full bloom, and clusters of small green fruits hang from the grape trellises. There was also a book on the swing that she didn't know when she pulled it down.

As usual, he looked like he was waiting for her to come home at any time. However, she will never return.

The jeep was speeding down the road, and Zhou Wanwan had been looking at the shadows of the trees speeding by outside the window in a daze.

She had long been prepared to be with Shen Guodong for a long, long time or even a lifetime, and in those sleepless cold nights, she gritted her teeth and survived alone, always thinking that as long as she didn't give herself a way out, as long as she could keep persevering, they would always be together.

However, they came to an end so quickly.

This result is not easy for Shen Guodong to suffer, and it is also extremely difficult for her to accept.

Shen Guodong parked the car at the edge of the grove next to Zhou Wanwan's school, and turned his head to look at her seriously, "Nannan, what I said that day was serious, you understand what I mean, right?" ”

Zhou Wanwan nodded, still not knowing what to say. She understood what Shen Guodong meant, but she also knew that they couldn't go back to the past.

Emotional matters, when they cross that line, change forever.

It is impossible to go back to the time when they didn't start anything, and get along with simple and happy brothers and sisters.

She knew that she couldn't do it, and in the near future, Shen Guodong would know it too.

Shen Guodong sent Zhou Wanwan back to the dormitory, and before getting out of the car, he opened his arms to her, ready to hug her for the last time as usual, but suddenly remembered that he was no longer qualified to hug her.

I'll never be able to hold her like that again.

Zhou Wanwan lowered her eyes and tidied up her skirt, pretending not to see Shen Guodong's momentary embarrassment and huge loss.

The two walked to the door of the dormitory without saying a word, and Shen Guodong cleared his throat a few times before he barely made his voice sound normal, "Nan, I'll come to pick you up on the weekend, and we'll go back to see Little Eleven together." ”

Eleven is the nickname given to the child by Zhou Yang and Shi Yun. He gave birth more than ten days earlier than his due date, and Shi Yun was taking the exam for private teachers to transfer to public schools when he gave birth to him, and some of the questions were still unanswered when the labor pains began.

"I did the math, and I passed with eleven points left, and I have been preparing for more than a year, so I can't just give up just because this kid is in a hurry, right? I endured to answer the eleven points! Shi Yun thought it was funny when he talked about it, and he didn't feel embarrassed at all about giving birth to a child in the examination room.

"There are still ten days before the exam, I will stay in school this week to review, and when the exam is over, I will call you, and you will come to pick me up." Zhou Wanwan took the bag in Shen Guodong's hand and pointed to it, "I brought a lot of things, so I was ready to fight at school before the exam." ”

Shen Guodong looked at the big bag, his eyes darkened, and then said goodbye to Zhou Wanwan with a smile, and watched her walk into the dormitory before turning to leave.

When Shen Guodong returned home, it was already completely dark, he didn't turn on a single light, and sat quietly in Zhou Wanwan's room for a long time.

There seemed to be a smell of her in the air, a very gentle sweet fragrance, every time he smelled it, he would feel happy and warm, and now was no exception.

He needed something to relieve it now, his emotions were too tight, the cold wind in his heart was blowing too quickly, he thought he was ready to face everything, only to find out now that he was far from being as strong as he imagined.

When the phone in the living room rang, Shen Guodong was awakened from his dreamy mood. He slowed down for a long time before groping his way to turn on the light.

When the light tilted down, Shen Guodong didn't know why, and at first glance he saw the thick stack of passbooks on Zhou Wanwan's desk.

That's the New Year's money he secretly gave her every Chinese New Year, and it was all the money he earned that year.

Shen Guodong walked over slowly, his arms were so heavy that he couldn't stretch them out at all, and it wasn't until this moment that he really realized what kind of decision he had made.

Shen Guodong looked at the stack of passbooks, and slowly turned his head to look at Zhou Wanwan's room, only to find that all her things were put away.

She will never come back.

Shen Guodong's chest was stuffy, he coughed lightly, and something came up in his mouth, but he was unconscious, staring at the stack of passbooks.

The coughing became more and more intense, and Shen Guodong stood there expressionlessly, motionless.

The placket of his chest was already stained with blood, and with every cough he made, mouthfuls of blood poured out of his mouth, and the blood on the placket became more and more until the passbook in front of him was also stained with blood. (To be continued.) )