Chapter 42: I still cared

Dusk is approaching, and the cool breeze of the evening has slightly relieved the sultry weather. Xiao Han walked in the long alleys of the palace, listening to the comments of the officials around him who were dissatisfied with him, as well as the speculation of tomorrow's competition.

Xiao Han moved slowly, watching the officials who were talking about her drift away.

"Come out!" Xiao Han called to the back mercilessly with a cold face, but he didn't look back.

Sure enough, a person walked quickly, he was wearing a bearded suit, although he was middle-aged, he was still handsome. "You're really alert." The middle-aged man walked quickly to Xiao Han's side and looked at her with a charitable face.

"Why follow me?" Xiao Han didn't look at him, he was very indifferent.

The middle-aged man looked at Xiao Han with a smile, and said kindly: "I want to find out one thing." ”

"Lord Chen is so strange, what can Xiao Han know?" Xiao Han looked ahead, his gaze cold.

"Your eyes are very similar", Master Chen suddenly said, the gaze was very deep, and the tone was more like a sigh, "It's very similar, very beautiful!" ”

"What is Lord Chen doing with me?" Xiao Han replied to him coldly.

"I've never been able to live with that person for the rest of my life," said Mr. Chen, "and your eyes are very similar to hers." ”

"Since you can't live with her, what's the use of talking about it now?" Xiao Han was cold and indifferent, but he meant something.

"yes, what's the use now?" Master Chen sighed, as if the past was also a pain for him. However, after a moment, he turned his head to look at Xiao Han again, his eyes were focused and kind, and said, "I have a daughter with her, also named Xiao Han, but she died of the epidemic more than ten years ago. ”

"Yes, since she is Lord Chen's daughter, why is she not surnamed Chen?" Xiao Han spoke lightly, and his face remained as cold as ever.

Master Chen didn't answer her words, but looked at her directly and said, "Han Han has been very cute since he was a child, but his temperament is as cold as you!" ”

Xiao Han finally couldn't stand his kind and loving gaze, stopped, looked at him coldly, and said, "There are so many people with the same name in the world, not to mention that Ling Ai has died. ”

"I was negligent, and after Hanhan became ill, she was thrown into a mass grave, and when I went to look for her again, I didn't find her bones." Lord Chen's tone was full of self-blame and guilt.

But how could Xiao Han believe it, what is a momentary negligence, and what is this person's idea?

"Since they are all thrown into mass graves, how can we find her bones!"

"I've always believed that she's still alive." Lord Chen's tone was very firm.

"Lord Chen, please recognize clearly, I am not Ling Ai, and you don't need to tell me this." Xiao Han stood staring at him, his gaze as cold as frost.

"Hanhan also looked at me like this when he was a child." Lord Chen sighed deeply.

Xiao Han looked away but stopped looking at him.

"Hanhan, I'm sorry for you." Lord Chen closed his eyes and felt deep heartache.

"Lord Chen, please go back to the post house, you and I will say goodbye." Xiao Han didn't want to see him like this anymore, and he didn't want to listen to his so-called confession anymore.

If regret is useful, then what is the official mission?

"Hanhan, I know you hate me and hate me in your heart", Master Chen kept up with Xiao Han's footsteps and said with tears in his eyes, "But I had to treat you and your mother like this at the beginning." ”

"Master Chen, you and I have no grievances, why do I hate you and hate you", Xiao Han suddenly stopped and looked at him again and said, "Do you know why His Majesty gave me the title of 'ruthless son'?" It's because I'm heartless and ruthless, why does Lord Chen have any grudges with me, a heartless and ruthless person? ”

"Hanhan, if I do it all over again, I will still be like this", Master Chen ignored Xiao Han's cold words and continued to say to himself, "I have to be like this, even though it hurts your mother and you!" ”

"That's it, Lord Chen doesn't need to say much, Xiao Han is not Ling Ai, and he is not willing to listen to Lord Chen tell these past events that have nothing to do with Xiao Han."

"Hanhan, it doesn't matter if you forgive me or not." The kindness in Lord Chen's eyes made Xiao Han feel particularly compelling, "You are walking in the officialdom like this now, if you are exposed one day, you will never recover!" ”

"Lord Chen, what are these words, Xiao Han has to sit upright, how can I expose it!" Xiao Han coldly put down a sentence.

"I know you don't want to talk to me," said Master Chen, "but you must be careful and be more mindful of everything." These words are like the parents' instructions to the wandering son, which is very heartwarming, but it is not the case in Xiao Han's heart, she is extremely reluctant to talk to this Lord Chen.

"Lord Chen, there is the gate of the palace in front, please tidy up your appearance, so as not to be left behind and say that the envoy of Zhao State was humiliated in my Jin land." Xiao Han glanced at him and continued walking.

Chen Jian stroked his face, and Fang took out the posture of a senior official and walked towards the palace gate with Xiao Han.

"Your Excellency, Your Excellency." The guards at the gate of the palace greeted the two of them and said hello.

Xiao Han still walked over with a cold face and Chen Jian, who was a little kind.

"Hanhan, don't come to Zhao Kingdom in the future", Chen Jian suddenly said to her at the fork in the road, "That is a place of right and wrong." ”

Xiao Han pretended not to hear and walked quickly.

However, in the evening, the streets were very sparse, perhaps because the arrival of Yan Zhao's envoy had extremely high requirements for public security!

Inexplicably weak hands and feet, Xiao Han's left chest was shaking deeply, she held on to the wall, walked to the side and slid down the wall, until she squatted against the wall.

The snow-white clothes were stained with the dust on the ground, and the bottom of the clothes was covered with a layer of dust, just like her heart at the moment, which should have been indifferent and ruthless, but why did it hurt at this time, as if she had been stabbed inexplicably.

Since you chose to abandon her more than ten years ago, why do you want to recognize her at this time? This is an old scar, hidden deep in Xiao Han's heart, it doesn't hurt at all, there is no trace of feeling, you can ignore it, you can think that this scar is healed, but you don't know that once it is offended, it will be a river of blood.

She buried her head deeply in her knees, held her knees with one hand, stroked her chest with the other, and muttered to herself: "Xiao Han, don't you pride yourself on being indifferent and ruthless, why do you have heartache." Didn't you say you didn't care, even if you meet, you can be like a stranger, but why do you have to be sad at this time? ”

"Just like Fang Cai, you can be cold and ruthless, you are cold and ruthless!"

She squatted and kept her head buried in the crook of her knees, she couldn't be as cold and ruthless as she said, ignoring all the qiē. If she was just out of the paradise, she could still do it, but now she has been contaminated with vulgar dust and emotions.

Emotions are addictive, and it's not something she can quit if she wants to.

She silently felt the strangeness in her heart, unwilling to raise her head to face such herself. For a long time, as if it was already dark, she slowly raised her head, but suddenly found that the man standing in front of her who thought she was slender was not dark, it was the man's tall figure that blocked the residual light she didn't want to face.

The man's good-looking face was filled with a warm smile, just like a gentle moonlight, he stretched out his big hand to Xiao Han, and his voice was like a jade crushed ice spring but gentle and elegant: "Hanhan, come." ”

Xiao Han stared at him, unwilling to put it on his hand.

The man withdrew his hand, but stepped forward and helped her up by the shoulders, moving very carefully as if he was holding the He's bi.

"Yu Yi, you?" Xiao Han finally said a word, and his eyes were staring at him tightly.

"Let's go, said the car." Yu Yi grabbed her by the shoulders and carried her onto the frame.

"Didn't you go first?" Xiao Han finally spoke.

"I've been waiting for you, Hanhan!" Yu Yi's gentle words are like a moist spring breeze.

Xiao Han curled up in the corner of the carriage, she had always been indifferent and resolute, she didn't want Yu Yi to see herself like this.

"Hanhan, come here." Yu Yi gently stretched out his hand and called out to Xiao Han, his tone as soft as a feather or a layer of mist.

Xiao Han leaned on the wall of the carriage with his whole body, far away from Yu Yi, ignoring his gentleness.

Yu Yi lowered his hand but sat next to Xiao Han, next to her. Gently stroking her seaweed-like black hair, Yu Yi was full of soft eyes: "Hanhan, Fang Cai, that person, you are your biological father?" ”

"Don't talk to me." Xiao Han ruthlessly knocked off Yu Yi's hand and said coldly and ruthlessly.

"Hanhan", Yu Yi grabbed Xiao Han's shoulder, and Xiao Han couldn't resist with such great strength. Yu Yi gently placed Xiao Han in his arms, and said warmly, "You must have been very miserable by that person when you were young!" ”

Leaning on Yu Yi silently, Xiao Han's eyes were scattered, as if he was a different person compared to his usual life.

"Now, I can probably understand why you're so cold." Yu Yi gently stroked Xiao Han's arm, like a gentle and gentle reassurance.

"Now, no one will be able to hurt you anymore," Yu Yi hugged Xiao Han tightly, making her feel the warmth of her chest tightly, "I will never allow it." ”

"Don't talk to me, don't talk." Xiao Han is on the verge of collapse.

"Hanhan, cry if you want to!" Yu Yi held Xiao Han's face and cared for him.

Cry? She Xiao Han has never cried since she was born, and she Xiao Han has never known what crying is!

Throwing Yu Yi's hand away, Xiao Han's cold eyes stared at her fiercely, and his tone was as cold as frost: "Why am I crying?" ”

Yu Yi didn't mind her unappreciative at all, but reached out and stroked her face, and said with a smile: "In front of me, you can!" ”

"I can't, and I won't!" That hard gaze was like fighting against Yu Yi.

In the end, Xiao Han was defeated, so she closed her eyes lightly and muttered, "Maybe you're right, it turns out that I still care." ”

Yu Yi gently took her into his arms and said in a caring tone: "You are not as cold and ruthless as you imagined. ”

"No, I'm cold and ruthless!" Xiao Han retorted to him, but his momentum dropped in an instant, and he sighed, "But I'm still uncomfortable!" I thought it was a bad thing and I didn't care anymore, but now that he talked to me, I felt so uncomfortable. ”

"Since he has made you so miserable, do you want to take revenge, I will avenge you!" Yu Yi said lightly resting his chin against her supple hair.

Xiao Han pushed him away, his eyes were surprised, and said, "I never thought about revenge, even when I was at my worst, I never thought about revenge!" ”

"Then I knew it was you." Yu Yi smiled.

"Revenge will only make my life more miserable, and I just want to go back to my paradise in the future."

After being speechless for a long time, Yu Yi did not refute Xiao Han's words that he wanted to return to Taoyuan. For a long time, gently stroking Xiao Han's back, Yu Yi said: "It can be seen how hard you lived when you were young!" Hanhan, if only I had met you at that time. ”

"But I'd rather never meet you."

"But I've already met, Hanhan!"