After dinner, the nanny cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks at the dining table, Yao Ze, Xu Zhuangyan and Mu Rong Cui Nan sat on the sofa in the living room drinking tea and chatting, of course, most of the time Yao Ze and Xu Zhuangyan talked, Mu Rong Cui Nan sat aside, her eyes were a little scattered, and she didn't know what she was thinking, but Xu Zhuangyan occasionally asked her, and she replied, speaking briefly, without nonsense.

When Yao Ze and Xu Zhuangyan were talking, they occasionally glanced at Mu Rong and Cui Nan beside him, and they didn't know if this indifferent woman was pretending to be cool or was born like this.

It wasn't until Xu Zhuangyan and Yao Ze talked about marriage that Yao Ze suddenly realized why Xu Zhuangyan specially called himself, an outsider, after Mu Rong and Cui Nan went to his house, and he could feel it from his intentional or unintentional revelation that he had the intention to be the matchmaker of himself and Mu Rong Cui Nan, but this Mu Rong Cui Nan woman had other men in her heart, and her temperament was so indifferent, how could Yao Ze stand it, these were put aside, thinking about Nalan Bingxuan, who had been lying in a hospital bed unconscious for several months, Yao Ze was not in the mood to talk about marriage.

Probably because Mu Rong Cui Nan also discovered Xu Zhuangyan's purpose, although he was unhappy in his heart, but out of respect for Xu Zhuangyan, Mu Rong Cui Nan was not easy to open his mouth and directly rejected his 'kindness', so he raised his hand and looked at his watch, and then whispered to Xu Zhuangyan: "Uncle Xu, I should go." ”

Xu Zhuangyan put down the teacup in his hand, and then said with a smile: "Look at me, this old man, talking to you young people about topics you don't like, it's boring." He got up from the sofa, then turned his head and asked Yao Ze, "Yao Ze, did you drive?" ”

Yao Ze shook his head with a smile and said, "I know that I have to accompany Xu ...... Uncle Xu was drinking, so he took a taxi. He was about to say Minister Xu, but remembering what Minister Xu said about calling him Uncle Xu when there were no outsiders, Yao Ze changed his words again.

Xu Zhuangyan smiled and said: "It's just right, Cui Nan didn't drink, let her send you, you young people have a lot of topics together, talk more." ”

Yao Ze's face was a little embarrassed, but Mu Rong and Cui Nan said to Xu Zhuangyan expressionlessly, "I'll see you next time", and then walked outside.

Xu Zhuangyan saw Yao Ze stunned there, and didn't know whether to leave with Mu Rong and Cui Nan, so he pushed Yao Ze with a wry smile, and said angrily: "What are you doing there, hurry up, do you want to stay with me for the night?" ”

Yao Ze smiled stupidly, and then said, "Minister Xu, then I'm leaving?" ”

"Let's go." Xu solemnly waved his hand, and then said with a smile: "Talk to Cui Nan more, that kid is kind-hearted, but his temperament is colder, if not...... Hey, forget it, don't mention the past. Go quickly, lest she go first. ”

When Yao Ze walked out, he was a little surprised, the army-green car outside Xu Zhuangyan's house had already started but didn't drive away, he thought that Mu Rong and Cui Nan would not wait for him.

Yao Ze trotted over a little flattered, then opened the co-pilot's door and sat in.

Because it had only rained, there was a vegetable field at the door of Xu Zhuangyan's house, Yao Ze came out with some dirt on the soles of his feet, so he sat in Mu Rong Cui Nan's car, and the mud on his feet was also brought into the car, Mu Rong Cui Nan turned his head and frowned at Yao Ze, and then glanced at Yao Ze's feet.

Yao Ze looked down at the soles of his feet, and couldn't help but laugh stupidly: "I'll get out of the car and wipe ......."

Mu Rong and Cui Nan didn't answer, stepped on the accelerator expressionlessly, and the car drove out of Xu Zhuangyan's place at high speed......

After Yao Ze and Mu Rong and Cui Nan left, Xu Zhuangyan sat quietly on the sofa for a while before sighing and getting up and walking towards the study.

On one side of the interior of the study is a black-and-white photograph of a young man in a military uniform with a handsome face.

Xu Zhuangyan walked over with a sad face, stretched out his hand and took three sticks of incense on the desk, then lit them, and said in a kind tone: "Junjie, it's been five years this time, are you doing well over there?" Dad often thinks again, if I could dissuade you from going to the army to be a soldier, you wouldn't have an accident, Dad regrets it very much, regrets that he didn't let you stay by my side at the beginning, you did what you wanted to be a good soldier who sacrificed his life for the country, but what should I do? I'm lonely, your mother left early, and our father and son have been dependent on each other for so many years, but in the end, I didn't expect to have to let me suffer the pain of this white-haired man sending a black-haired man, hey...... Look at what I'm talking to you about. Xu Zhuangyan wiped his cloudy eyes, then smiled and said, "Junjie, have you seen the guests who came today?" You're so alike that sometimes I think of that kid as if he were you, could he have been sent by you......"

There was some silence in the car, Mu Rong and Cui Nan didn't speak, Yao Ze didn't say anything, just looked out the window quietly.

The car kept driving out of Yanjing City, and Yao Zecai finally couldn't help but turn his head to look at Mu Rong and Cui Nan, and asked, "Where are we going?" ”

Mu Rong and Cui Nan didn't answer Yao Ze, but said quietly: "Do you know why Uncle Xu is very special to you?" ”

Yao Ze was surprised, then reacted, and wondered, "Why?" ”

Mu Rong and Cui Nan didn't know where to find a photo and handed it to Yao Ze.

"He ......" Yao Ze took the photo and glanced at it, touching his cheek in some shock, "Why is he so similar to me!" ”

"He is Uncle Xu's son, Xu Zhuangyan." Mu Rong and Cui Nan said quietly: "I think you know a little bit about Xu Junjie." ”

Yao Ze's head was a little dizzy, why is this Xu Junjie so similar to himself, Yao Ze stared at the photo for a while before answering Mu Rong Cui Nan, "You told me a little bit, he ...... to save you"

"Give me back the photo!" Mu Rong Cui Nan put away the photo, no longer spoke, and the car drove out of the city and headed towards the suburbs.

Yao Ze looked at the dark and dark area of the suburbs, only occasionally a few farmhouses lit with dim yellow lights, he sighed softly, and whispered as if to himself: "Is it because of that incident that you plan to live like this for the rest of your life?" ”

The speed of the car was faster, Mu Rong Cui Nan had an unshakable belief in her eyes, she glanced at Yao Ze indifferently, and said in a deep voice: "Don't make any foolish ideas, Uncle Xu just doesn't want me to feel guilty, although you are somewhat similar to him, but you are not him, so don't have any thoughts." ”

Hearing Mu Rong Cui Nan say this, Yao Ze suddenly laughed angrily: "Yes, I really am not him, and I don't want to be him, what is so great about him that I have to be his stand-in?" Not only do I not think he's a hero, but I think he's selfish......"

Zizi ......

Mu Rong Cui Nan braked suddenly, and the car rushed forward several meters before stopping, fortunately, Yao Ze was tied to a seat belt when he got into Mu Rong Cui Nan's car, otherwise he would have to make his forehead bloom just now.

As soon as Yao Ze calmed down, he saw Mu Rong and Cui Nan's cold eyes staring at him, and a cold sentence squeezed out of her mouth: "What did you just say?" ”

The voice was as cold as a ghost in the eighteenth layer of hell, which made Yao Ze shiver unnaturally, but Yao Ze also had his own temper, especially when his temper came up, even if the Lord of Yama came, he would have to be tough.

"I say he's selfish, he's ......"

"Believe it or not, I'll kill you right now." The cold muzzle of the gun was pressed against Yao Ze's temple.

Yao Ze looked at each other coldly, and continued without changing his face: "If he wasn't selfish, he wouldn't die for you, his death hurt you, hurt his father, and he fell into the title of a great hero, did he think about the feelings of the living?" Isn't it more painful for you to live than to die now? Tormented every day? As for Uncle Xu, he seems to have walked out of the years of grief on the surface, but how can the pain of losing a child be cured by time? ”

"Isn't he selfish enough?!" Yao Ze's words were like sharp knives poking into Mu Rong and Cui Nan's hearts, and the hand holding the gun trembled a little.

Perhaps, he is right? What is the difference between the current self and the walking dead?

"Shoot, if you think what I said is wrong, you can shoot......" Seeing no movement from Mu Rong and Cui Nan for half a sound, Yao Ze unbuckled his seat belt and said, "If you don't shoot, then goodbye!" He pushed the door open and walked out resolutely, goosebumps in the cold mountain wind.

"Paralyzed, I almost ......hung up Lao Tzu" Yao Ze scolded secretly in his heart, his legs kept shaking, so that Mu Rong and Cui Nan sat in the car and saw Yao Ze's figure slowly moving forward in the dark, and the car lights saw his back stretched a little bit, looking so majestic and tall, which made her eyes become a little trance.

If she knew that Yao Ze was too frightened to walk at this time, I don't know how she would feel?

If Yao Ze's legs hadn't been weak, he would have spread his feet and crawled with a roll.

Mu Rong Cui Nan was originally going to take Yao Ze to Xu Junjie's cemetery, but she didn't know why she had the intention of taking Yao Ze to Xu Junjie's cemetery, maybe it was because the two looked very similar, but the contradiction just now made Mu Rong Cui Nan have to worship Xu Junjie alone.

Today is Xu Junjie's death day.

In front of the tomb, Mu Rong Cui Nan put a bunch of lilies prepared earlier in front of Xu Junjie's tombstone, then looked at Xu Junjie in the photo, and said softly: "Junjie, another year has passed, it has been five years since you died, but every time I close my eyes, the gunshot and the bullet that pierces your heart keep playing back in my mind like a dream demon, five years, that strong feeling has not diminished at all, I really feel ...... pain."

She looked at Xu Junjie's extremely pale photo, remembered what Yao Ze had just said, her lips squirmed, and she said in a low voice: "Maybe he is right, now I am more miserable than dead, you saved me, but made me more miserable, should I be grateful to you or hate you?" ”

The cold wind was blowing gently, Mu Rong Cui Nan's body in military uniform looked a little thin in the empty cemetery, she stared at Xu Junjie in the photo, and sighed faintly before she sighed faintly, and said: "Actually, until you died, we didn't become a couple, didn't ......"

That year, Mu Rong Cui Nan first joined the army and met the first instructor of her career - Xu Junjie, the young and handsome Xu Junjie has the blood and extraordinary skills of a soldier, whether it is hand-to-hand combat, firearms and ammunition are all proficient, how can such a soldier not attract young and simple female soldiers?

When Mu Rong Cui Nan saw Xu Junjie, like many female soldiers, she was attracted by Xu Junjie's unique temperament as a soldier, and Mu Rong Cui Nan's fairy-like appearance also fascinated Xu Junjie, which was also the beginning of the emotional entanglement between the two, because when they were soldiers in the army, even if they both had a feeling of mutual affection, they would not say it face to face, and that kind of relationship of mutual admiration lasted until five years ago.

On that day, the above sent an order to carry out a cleaning mission of the border drug lords, Xu Junjie and Mu Rong Cui Nan were among the mission candidates, and the two agreed with each other before getting on the helicopter to the border that when they came back from this mission, they would determine the relationship between the two, but it was a pity......

A cold wind blew, Mu Rong Cui Nan woke up from her memories, her face was a little pale, she sighed softly, and then glanced at the photo on the tombstone again, and then turned to leave.

In the cold wind, the lily in front of the tombstone lay quietly, looking a little lonely and sad......

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