"Asleep?"

"Well, asleep."

Wang Jian looked at the dirty ceiling with his hands on his head, and a leaf he picked up from nowhere in his mouth. When Shanova's voice came from the darkness, he said yes as a matter of course.

"Liars. You're not asleep. Shanova's voice floated softly: "I will be twenty-six years old soon, and tomorrow is my birthday." ”

"Happy birthday." Wang Jian smiled, clicked on the lighter, and then put the orange flame in front of Shanova: "Make a wish." ”

"Hmm!" Shanova clenched her hands into fists on her chest, then closed her eyes and muttered quickly, then vigorously blew out the flames.

After she blew it out, the small warehouse was dark again, and both men were silent, and no one spoke again.

The cold wind of the night whined outside the house, and it was quite warm in the warehouse, but the atmosphere suddenly dropped to freezing. There is no reason without a reason, and it is because Shanova said that she herself is about to turn twenty-six.

"You know what? In the dead of night, I often think about death. Shanova whispered: "For people like me who can get what they want, the only regret is that they can't come on a trip that they can go, and they can't have a love that they can let go." I felt like a rag, dirty and messy. ”

Wang Jian clicked again and lit a cigarette: "What did you make just now?" ”

"I wish I could die in the arms of the man I like." Shanova no longer sells cuteness, and her voice has become very heavy: "Maybe tomorrow." Maybe someday in the future. ”

After speaking, she smiled slightly and said, "Baboon." I have a hunch that we are nearing the end of this journey. Thank you, I'm so happy. I think this is the happiest few days of my life, I don't have to pretend or worry, I am safe and stable when I am myself, someone to protect me when I am in trouble, someone to take care of when I am hungry, and someone can hold me when I am cold. Thank you, really thank you. ”

Wang Jian's voice was low, and he let out a "hmm" from his nasal cavity.

"Baboons. Can you tell me about your most desired life? I want to hear your hopes. ”

"Okay." Wang Jian opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling with a smile: "I have the most unrealistic dream in my heart, and I haven't told anyone else." ”

When Shanova heard this, her eyes suddenly lit up: "Didn't you ever sue your wife?" ”

"Nope...... I'm sorry. Wang Jian touched his head stupidly: "How do you know that I have a wife?" ”

"Because you brought your wedding ring, you stupid bird." Shanova pouted: "But I promise your wife is not as beautiful as me." ”

"Yes, yes, you're the most beautiful." Wang Jian shook his head helplessly: "What I hoped most at that time was to be with a few brothers, and we had long hair and shawls." Wear a denim suit with holes. In the cold winter, the poor people take out all the money on their bodies, eat a hot hot pot, drink two glasses of ** spicy inferior spirits, and then take out the guitar to sing a spicy song while the wine is dry. When encountering injustices, everyone rushed forward. Even if his head is broken and he has no regrets, even if he dies, he will still be a good man after twenty years before he dies. ”

As he spoke, Wang Jian rubbed his hands, sniffed, and his voice was full of longing: "We went from one city to another. During the day we do our own thing, and at night we get together and do what we like. One of them had a girl he liked. The others laughed at him together, but they would do everything they could for him. You don't have to think about betrayal, you don't have to think about how to get along, you scold when you scold, you don't have to fight, and you don't know if you win or lose after the fight. Race to drink, whoever lies down first is the puppy. There was also a group of people eating watermelon on the side of the road and whistling at a beautiful girl passing by, and the girl whitened us with her eyes, and we laughed. ”

"We have nothing to fear, because we can rely on each other, ignorant and self-righteous chivalrous deeds. And then slowly growing up, someone left us to start a family first, and a bunch of us would rush to his house in the middle of the night to eat everything in his refrigerator, and then put his daughter-in-law's mask on his face to pretend to be a little monster, but he would not be a little angry, but kicked our ass with his foot and told us to get out and buy some more to eat. ”

After speaking, Wang Jian turned his head to look at Shanova with a shy expression, although he couldn't see anything in the dark, he could clearly feel that Shanova was smiling at him: "Isn't it so naïve?" ”

"No...... I think it's so romantic. Shanova shook her head gently: "A man's romance is the real romance, why didn't you become the person you imagined in the end, I don't think it's difficult?" ”

Wang Jian smiled: "I live in this world, so I can't save it in my imagination." I'm a man, and no matter how much I think about it, I can't turn myself into a wisp of wind. I want to be worthy of my ancestors, and I want to be worthy of the people around me, and the most important thing my father taught me is a responsibility. As long as the man is responsible, it is enough, and the rest is put down. ”

"Wouldn't that be tiring?"

"No, people always have to have a little vision, and a life without flaws is imperfect. My life is already wonderful and perfect, the woman I love, the friends around me, a man who can make friends safe, enemies respect, everyone who thinks he is not a bad person, I think I have done well enough. After all, I'm not an immortal, I'm not a saint, I do my best, that's all. ”

Shanova snorted, and then fell into silence for a while, as if she couldn't bear to interrupt Wang Jian's reminiscence of his once naïve and immature dreams.

"But at the end of the day, it's really silly to think about it now." Wang Jian suddenly laughed stupidly: "Where is there such a life, it's really ......"

"I can't imagine it." Shanova took a deep breath: "The world I have been exposed to since I was a child is completely different from yours, my world is full of hatred, killing and interests, my father told me that the people in this world who can bring you benefits are useful people, friends are not needed, and lovers are also used to achieve a certain purpose." I have a strong sense of distrust of people, and I am very, very afraid of betrayal. So I often choose to nip in the bud those who might betray me. So I can only try to imagine what life you are talking about, but I can't paint it out. ”

"yes. You're a bad person. Wang Jian was happy: "He is a heinous bad person." ”

"Well, I'm a bad person, you're a good person. Maybe that's the biggest difference for us. ”

"Probably." Wang Jian smiled: "Go to bed early, happy birthday." ”

"Thank you."

After that, although neither of them slept, they never spoke again, quietly listening to each other's breathing until the sky was dark. They all fell asleep together.

When Wang Jian woke up, it was noon, and he sat up in a daze, only to find that Shanova was gone, replaced by a note on the flour bag where she slept.

"Wang Jian, thank you. In fact, I already knew it was you from the first day you came to me. You stupid baboon. I love you so much, how can I not see your habitual little actions. I've wanted to expose you for a long time, but when you flick me on the forehead and slap my head with your hand, I can't give up.

Thank you for being with me on this journey, maybe it's the best and most perfect gift I've ever received in my life. I love you. But we are born enemies, and I can't get caught up in them anymore.

I went without asking why. We are enemies and I want to let go, but it's like you say. I am equally accountable to those around me, and I have my promises and vows. I also have my persistence and persistence. I want to indulge with you, but I know time is running out for the future.

Listen! I said that if that day comes, I will definitely carve a scar in your heart. ”

When Wang Jian walked out, he was somewhat depressed. As if he had lost something, he silently looked up at the gray sky, and the sounds around him were as if they were in a different world, and the sound of human voices and rain merged into a buzzing noise in his ears.

Of course he knew that this day would come sooner or later, because when he came into contact with Shanova on the first day, her eyes were already clear, and she recognized herself.

But she doesn't say it, and Wang Jian naturally doesn't say it either. Along the way, Wang Jian contained all her lovely willfulness, all her delicate fragility and all her helpless dependence.

Shanova's sense of revenge is really strong, and Wang Jian's farewell on the rooftop was a perfect revenge. Now, all Wang Jian's memories of Shanova are left on the little red rope bracelet that Shanova knitted for him when he had nothing to do.

Leaving this time, Wang Jian knew that she might never come back. The days of fighting and slapstick are almost over, maybe she had already made plans yesterday when she told her that today was her birthday.

So be it, as he himself said, people are imperfect without a little regret in their lives.

After smoking a cigarette vigorously, Wang Jian put his hands in his pockets, cleaned the ridiculous baboon makeup on his face with the water dripping from under the eaves, restored his angular face and murderous eyes, and the beard on his chin had turned blue, making Wang Jian look much older than before, but also a lot of vicissitudes.

"You've followed me all the way, come out." After a long detour, Wang Jian stopped at a cul-de-sac, surrounded by nothing but a few wild cats warming themselves under the eaves: "Don't force me to do it. ”

When Wang Jian spoke, he didn't raise his head, just silently looked ahead, as if he was talking aimlessly, but after he finished speaking, two people suddenly appeared behind him.

"Are you looking for me or Shanova?"

Wang Jian's brows furrowed, and his eyes began to be murderous. When Wang Jian was in a bad mood, he was definitely a cold-blooded meat grinder, and when he saw these two people, he felt that these two people were not good people.

"Hand over the eldest lady." One of the men with Dwayne Johnson's physique raised his chin.

Wang Jian shrugged: "She's gone." ”

The two people looked at each other, and then took out a short knife from their waists: "Then you don't need to save zài." ”

Wang Jian whistled and leaned against the wall: "It's not what you say. ”

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