Chapter Eighty-Nine: I'd Rather Miss Than Get Hurt
"Yan Yilong, I ask you, don't you don't have surgery on my mother, okay?"
Now that your heart has been exposed, it's better to be honest. Anyway, the little Jiujiu in his heart can't hide it from Yan Yilong, so it's better to beg him.
"You think I can do what you say?"
Long Ye was very irritable in his heart, did he need to ask for anything between him and her? What she wants, what can't he satisfy her? Why, why did she still have a relationship with Nan Lichuan?
The average man will ask right away, asking why his girlfriend is talking to another man on the phone, and the key is that person is still a rival. But Long Ye is different from them, he can't let go of his face like jealousy to verify the problem, and he doesn't need to ask for verification or listen to women's justifications. Facts are facts, and he will not believe any explanation unless time proves that it is false. Time will tell. So, sometimes, he will numb himself with words that hurt each other, as if this can make him feel better, is this the legendary masochism?
"I, I have nothing to do with Nan Lichuan, really, do you believe me?"
"Don't mention that name!"
There was a terrible bloodlust in his eyes, and the little force in his hand was getting bigger and bigger, and the blue tendons that burst out on his forehead because of his patience made people really afraid that he was going to explode in the next second.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
She was like a wounded little white rabbit, choked and helpless, staring at Yan Yilong with innocent eyes. The next second, he let go of his hand, maybe, maybe they really didn't have a relationship or necessarily.
"Don't bother me."
He turned and went upstairs, his steps frivolous. It may be that he drank too much, and one was unstable, and he almost fell.
"Slow down."
Mu Xiaoxiao hurriedly ran over to support him, Yan Yilong did not refuse, and let her petite figure support his tall body, and even, he deliberately pressed on her, deliberately looking at her and looking very hard.
"I'm sleeping in a guest room today."
He pointed to another room, and Mu Xiaoxiao knew that he didn't want to sleep with him. He said,
"Go back to the master bedroom. I went to sleep in the guest room. ”
"Huh?"
A word was spat out in a heavy nasal voice, and he looked at her with a frown, that unquestionable momentum, even if he was drunk. Even if they can't stand still. But it's still so intimidating.
Mu Xiaoxiao thought: Follow him, follow him. He dragged him to the guest room.
Lying on the bed, Mu Xiaoxiao wanted to go out, but Yan Yilong dragged her back at once. Some of them pointed to their heads and said:
"Headache."
Mu Xiaoxiao was speechless, one minute ago he was still so terrifying, such a terrifying Hades face, but the next minute, he was like a child, how could he look at Yan Yilong, who is drunk now, so cute?
Mu Xiaoxiao sat on the bed, put his head on his lap, and pinched him one by one, Yan Yilong felt that he was crazy just now? Didn't you want to be cruel to her? Isn't it good to bully her? Why is this still the case? Because he covets her warmth.
Although he didn't know if there was anything between her and Nan Lichuan, and he wouldn't believe Mu Xiaoxiao's words, wouldn't it be possible that there was a misunderstanding? In that case, just keep her by your side and wait for the results.
"He's going to rob me of everything."
After drinking too much, he became more talkative, only then did he become childish, and he even spoke out the grievances in his heart. Mu Xiaoxiao didn't understand, thinking that he was talking to himself, so he didn't ask.
"I robbed my mother since I was a child, and now I want to rob my woman, I really want to kill him."
He continued, and Mu Xiaoxiao realized that he was talking about Nan Lichuan. However, listening to what he means, he seems to be very important? It's as important as his mother, but why, does he cheat? Naturally, Mu Xiaoxiao thought of the white shirt with red lips that day, and Yan Yilong's attitude that day did not deny it and blamed her in turn, and her eyes turned unnaturally red.
Why, you're always so fickle. What kind of heart is hidden for me under your amber eyes? I don't understand itself, I'd rather get hurt than miss it. But now, having heard too many of your hurtful words, I'd rather miss it than stay here and suffer the cruel truth. I'd rather have a little more good memories, even if it's an illusion.
"Does it still hurt?"
His hands were sore, but the man lying on his lap still didn't say stop.
For a long time, he didn't answer, so long that Mu Xiaoxiao even thought he was asleep, and suddenly, in the dark, his amber eyes opened, which were full of sadness and pain, and in the faint moonlight, it made people feel pain in their hearts.
"Every night, my head hurts."
Although I am drunk, there are some things that I still can't forget, and some things, when I get used to it, such as headaches at night, I will have difficulty sleeping.
"Why? Have you ever been to the hospital? ”
Although he was no longer good to himself, Mu Xiaoxiao still couldn't escape his sincerity, and seeing his distressing appearance, she couldn't help but ask him.
"Is there any cure for heart disease? As long as I think of Lu Fan, I will have a headache. ”
This is the first time that Long Ye has told others about his vulnerability. Every night, I think of the scene when Lu Fan blocked the bullet for himself eight years ago. Ling Shaotian said that he had forgotten it, but he was used to it. So much so that every time I think about this, I have a headache and hate myself.
Why fail? If it weren't for the fact that he was discovered by the other party's snipers because he was immature eight years ago, he would not have asked Lu Fan to block the bullet for him.
Letting others pay for their lives because of their own mistakes is something that no one can let go of for a lifetime, right?
Therefore, Long Ye will be so demanding of himself, and he will not allow himself to make a little mistake.
"Don't keep being stuck in memories, if the situation back then, when I met you, would you watch your comrades-in-arms die who lived and died together?"
Yan Yilong didn't speak, just wrapped his arms around Mu Xiaoxiao's waist and buried his head in her stomach, that kind of warmth, that kind of steadfastness, was the sense of security he wanted.
"Mu Xiaoxiao, you sue me, I want to listen to the truth, are there anything wrong with you and Nan Lichuan?"
Suddenly, a soft sentence came out of Long Ye's mouth. yes, he asked anyway. Long Ye, who has always only believed in the facts and will never believe other people's words, took the initiative to ask Mu Xiaoxiao. In fact, in Long Ye's heart, he was willing to believe her.
"Nope."
"Hmm."
Believe it or not? He didn't know if he believed it, he only knew that when Mu Xiaoxiao said no, he was not so irritable. There is no way, I can't hate Mu Xiaoxiao. However, Long Ye hated himself very much. (To be continued......)