The noisy streets of the day always seem empty at night, and occasionally a few cars are also moving fast; The snowflakes are scattered, and the pale yellow street lamps look bleak in this night; People walked along the streets, and the dim shop windows lined up with models of various shapes were cold and arrogant; Cold winter nights always make people's hearts infinitely sad, which is the torment of soul and perseverance.

Squeak, staggering towards the rental house at the end of summer on a second-hand bicycle that I had bought for five years. The beautiful Xiaoice crystals under the microscopic lenses flew and landed on her somewhat rough face, instantly turning into water droplets. The wind passed, the nose was slightly numb, the skin exposed to the air was cold and red, but the back was sweating all the time.

For her, who is slightly chubby, riding a bicycle for 50 minutes every morning and evening is a kind of torment, but she persevered for five years because she lacked money. She was in a trance, looking at the street, which was narrow because of the parking of private cars, her eyes suddenly blurred. Gasping slightly, inhaling, infinite sadness flooded in my heart.

How long has it been, from dropping out of high school to now, ten years. Waiters, clerks, hotel front desks, cleaning and now customer service of technology companies. She kept repeating that she was going to and from work, going to and from work. No friends, no parties, no entertainment for her age. All her time is either at work or on her way to work.

She also loves beauty and dressing up, but unfortunately she can only look at it and can't buy it; She loves singing and dancing, but unfortunately the tuition fee is too expensive, so she can only experience auditing or watching the computer to study. If there is a place that pleases her the most, it should be the major bookstores, which have air conditioning and books. It's just that these activities are too extravagant for her time to manage.

Many colleagues have asked her why she is like this, and some responsibilities can be avoided. Women don't need to work too hard, and when they are tired, they find someone to marry. But she never had such an idea in her mind, because since she was a child, she knew that only what she holds in her hands belongs to her, and what others give her will be sad if she asks for it.

At the end of summer, I sniffed, wiped my lower eyelids with my hands, and rubbed my nose, because the wind passed, and it hurt me. Speed up, and with two more red lights, you'll be in the rental area. She doesn't like this road, because she goes from the rich area with a clean and beautiful environment every day to the dirty and noisy rental area. It is deceiving to say that there is no gap, and it is self-deception to say that there is no envy.

Looking at the constantly flashing green light, Xia Mo quickly pedaled the pedal and rushed across the intersection at the last second. Suddenly, I heard a strange sound and scolding from behind, and the two cars were scraping, it was someone else's business, and I turned my head.

Bump, when he saw the car speeding quickly in the alley on the left, Xia Mo had already been knocked away. Bumped, hit the alley mouth butt off-road front and rear mirrors bounced off and fell to the ground. My head went blank and I didn't have any thoughts; The beautiful Xiaoice Crystal is still flying, falling on her face one by one, beautiful and cold; Suddenly, her eyes lit up, as if she saw the kind eyes of the old man who had been growing up with her but died in the hospital.

Then I heard a noisy sound, and the people on the street gathered quickly, and the owner of the car looked at her in horror as she continued to reflex convulsions, crying; Some people in the crowd gathered were talking, talking on the phone, and taking pictures, but none of them had anything to do with her.

Whispered softly: Grandma, you're here to pick me up, that's fine.

At this moment, her eyes were clean and bright, and gradually closed, quiet and well-behaved, just like the boasting of others in her childhood. It's just that this silence took away all her anger and left no trace.

At the end of the summer, she was woken up by a petite little girl, and then pulled her to hide at the top of the stairs, watching the two who kept arguing. The little girl naturally took her hand and protected her behind. It's a familiar little girl, I seem to have known it. With the constant quarrels, the woman casually picked up what was at hand and threw it over; Bump, the mirror hanging on the wall cracked piece by piece. The girl reflexively shrunk her neck, then turned her head: "Sister, don't be afraid." ”

Familiar eyebrows, familiar eyes, familiar face, like a young self. Yes, like, because she saved zài in the photo as a child. Her twin sister Xia Wei is an older sister who has not crossed paths since she was five years old. Suddenly, at the end of summer, my nose was sore, and I almost couldn't control my tears.

You are the end, I am the future, I am my sister, you have to listen to me, I will always accompany you and protect you in the future. It's just that in the end we get lost, and then we get farther and farther away. In the end, what was left was her back as she went, and the vague oath in her memory.

One is the end and the other is the future. Just like it was predestined, the end of summer made his life the end, and Xia Wei has always had a bright future. At the end of the summer, before she died, she heard that her sister had given birth to a child, and her family was harmonious and beautiful, and she also had a good future in the hospital. It's true that the same people don't have the same fate.

The woman was in her early twenties, one meter seven, fair-skinned, and just thin. She became more and more excited, and roared: "I worked hard to earn money to support my family, but you hooked up with other women outside, you think I don't know, if it weren't for the two children, I wouldn't live with you." ”

The man is twenty-five or sixteen, not tall, but his facial features are very handsome, especially those big eyes. He angrily pushed the scuffling woman away: "Don't live if you can't go on, it's noisy and annoying every day, I live well without you." ”

The woman sat down on the ground and cried, "Yes, you will be fine." I shouldn't have listened to you, or I wouldn't have ended up like this. My dad was right, what can you do as a bastard. ”

The man overturned the table in a big way: "I'm not promising, and your stinky iron still looks down on me, I didn't ask you to follow me." Bump, followed by the sound of a man slamming the door and going out. The next-door neighbor cautiously came in, picked up the crying woman, and whispered comfort.

The girl touched the end of the summer's head: "Sister, you are not well yet, go to sleep, I will coax my mother." The girl carefully ran down the wooden stairs and ran to the woman: "Mom, don't cry, my sister and I are very well-behaved, don't be angry." ”

The woman hugged the girl and sobbed in pain, and the neighbor next door said that the child was sensible, and said that although the man was not good, he had to endure it in front of the child. It's normal for young couples to quarrel, but you can't say it lightly, because this will cheapen the women outside. The women present agreed and persuaded each other.

At the end of summer, he looked indifferently at the similar scenes, as if it was a mime, with no sound, only expressions and body movements. Tears fell one by one, looking at my young hands that had become smaller, I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. For a person who knows the tragedy, why let her repeat the plot?

A man who failed in business in a small southern city but was not a producer but was good-looking, coaxed the daughter of the owner of the blacksmith shop, and gave birth to a child but was not recognized; The man's mother is a farmer, and his father watches the gate in the county factory, and he doesn't care about the family, and the family lives a tight life with a meager income; The woman's family is complicated, and she has no house or money;

The child grows up day by day, and the two keep arguing; Then the family broke up and each started a family; The child who was left behind was not lucky, he bore the anger of men, and the disregard of his stepmother; The only warmth comes from the grandmother who has no culture and farming, and day by day she grows up, the girl is kidnapped by her family and suffers a qiē that she should not have to bear.

She thought that all suffering would end on that cold winter night, but reality made her understand that this seemed to be another plot deliberately arranged by fate. Do you fight for change, or do you go with the flow? She didn't know because she was afraid. At the end of summer, he curled up in the quilt, hugged his arms, and gently closed his eyes, hoping that this qiē was a dream.

Only when you open your eyes do you know that reality is the cruelest.

Things didn't change because of the special nature of the end of summer, and the woman showed up in this rented cabin on time for a month, bringing an unprecedented storm.

She was a woman who was neither tall nor beautiful, but she was dressed fashionably and had a ruddy face. Well-trimmed eyebrows, a low nose bridge, and bright red lips lightly opened: "We are all women, and I know it's not easy for you, but I'm pregnant." The doctors at the hospital all said it was a boy, and you know that Guoan has always wanted a son. And you didn't get a license either, we went to the police station last week. ”

The woman touched her belly and continued: "I have a house in the town myself, and you are also renting a house anyway, you can continue to rent a house with them, but the money has to be paid by yourself, but Guoan can't live with you." After all, now he is in the same household register as me. ”

Lin Feng was completely stunned, he had thought of many scenes in his mind, but he was not as cruel as this time. She has been with this man for almost six years, and the child is five years old, and someone actually sued her for her name? She didn't know what to do but cry, and she couldn't do anything about it.

Xia Wei looked at his mother and shed tears again, and angrily pushed the woman standing in front of him: "Bad woman, I'll beat you to death and make you make my mother angry." ”

Ah, the woman was pushed to the wall by the little girl without checking, looking at the little girl who kept slapping herself, Huang Zhen was a little annoyed, but she couldn't do it, because she knew that the man hurt the most was the eldest daughter. I can only protect my stomach with one hand and stop it with the other. I heard a man say that the eldest daughter is smart and clever, with a sweet mouth, and the younger daughter is quiet and timid, but she is actually a little stunned.

As soon as Xia Guoan entered the house, he saw his daughter slapping the woman's stomach, rushed over in a rage, and pulled it away, but he didn't pay attention to the little girl who fell heavily on the ground and hit her forehead against the wall.

The man asked anxiously, "Huang Zhen, how is it, is there anything?" Does it hurt in the stomach? The woman answered softly, just holding her back with one hand, and touching her stomach and gritting her teeth with the other, feeling very painful.

The end of summer was the quickest to react, and immediately rushed to the little girl and looked at her forehead carefully. There was no broken skin, just a little red and swollen. Fortunately, it is a wooden house, otherwise such strength would have to be red.

Hearing the girl's cry, Lin Feng's anger immediately turned up: "Xia Guoan, you tell me clearly, you and her went to get the certificate?" What about the three of us, mother and daughter? How can you be so unconscionable? ”

Seeing that the man ignored her words but looked at the other woman's stomach with a distressed face, Lin Feng slapped it: "Ah, you are talking?" What should we do? No wonder the eldest sister has been looking for her mother mysteriously recently, and it turns out that she is doing this. Do you have a conscience, I have been with you for more than six years, and you refuse to move your account, saying that you can't open an account if you don't have a house, you can only hang it on your parents' side. My hukou has always been in my mother's house, and they are also your children, do you treat them like this? ”

Xia Guoan was still a little guilty, he didn't have patience when he looked at the woman who kept sprinkling, and a slap fell on the woman's face, a little awkward, and her face quickly swollen. "Don't you know if I have a conscience? How to settle down without a house? Your account is also your parents who refuse to pay money, and as for the children, I don't have a wife, where did the children come from? If I don't have a conscience, take the child away if you want it, and leave it here if you don't want it. In the past, we didn't have alcohol or a marriage certificate, so be it. ”

Leaving a fluttering sentence, the man took the woman away, and the woman chased after her, and finally fell on the gravel road. Men are like this, they dig out their hearts and lungs before taking off their pants, and poke other people's hearts and lungs with knives after lifting their pants. However, there are still many women who are willing to listen to those ridiculous vows, willingly, and repeatedly refrain from changing their ways.

Squatting at the door at the end of summer, looking at the men and women who kept pulling, listening to the sound of constant crying; There was also a crowd of people around who were pointing and saying 'poor', lowering their eyes and showing no expression.

The viewer has eyes and mouths, but they are unintentional.

In their eyes, events of any nature are like dramas, with no psychological reactions of understanding and empathy, and their own preferences are different.

suddenly remembered a passage in the preface of Lu Xun's "The Scream": "All foolish citizens, no matter how healthy their physique is and how strong they are, can only be meaningless materials and spectators for public display, and they don't have to think that they are unfortunate when they die of illness." ”

In this small city on the southeast coast, with the rapid development of the economy, people are becoming more and more indifferent, and more and more people have become spectators.

The end of summer has also become a spectator, is it the pleasure of evil, the fear of society or the panic of morality? She didn't know because no one cared.

At the end of summer, this sentence kept coming to mind: I am not an actor, why should I hold a position, I am just a spectator.

An open space, gradually empty, all the hustle and bustle, disappear, so good.