Elan didn't know the answer.

When Huo Sibei came again, she softened, because she was moved by his journey through thousands of mountains and rivers, because she was reluctant to regret it in the future, because Huo Sibei asked her to believe in him again, because of the red eyes that he had boiled out of modifying the mecha day and night, because of the flaked house standing alone in the wilderness.

It was also because of those years that she clearly knew that Huo Sibei was rejected by her, so she never had any illusions or expectations for him when she was going through hardships and pains, and therefore she never experienced disappointment.

But what if she hadn't blocked his contact number? The truth is, he didn't want to contact her at the time, and her actions were exactly what he wanted. In those years, she was also tired and depressed, especially when she was told to take a vacation by the base, but she had nowhere to go, and when traveling alone made it like a wandering, how could she not expect him? When she didn't block his contact number, but her expectations came to naught again and again, and she was lost again and again, when he came again, could she still be moved? I'm probably used to indifference.

Taking a step back, if she had kept his contact number, when he wanted to find her one day, he would have given her a video call first, how would they talk at that time? Zuo is just plain as asking each other, how are you? And then each of them will answer, I'm fine, and I'll cut off the video.

And then what? There was no more, as Huo Sibei said personally, he would inquire about her situation at most, knowing that she was all right and would not appear in front of her.

Ilan imagined that ending, and her heart ached. But I knew it was possible.

If it weren't for her blocking Hothbei's contact number, he would have gone to great lengths to inquire about her, knowing that she had lost her farm and was in distress. The shock in his heart was too great, and he wouldn't come to her.

Hosbei once said that he didn't feel guilty about her, but when Ilan thought about it now, at least half of it was guilty, after all, he proposed the breakup, and he blamed Ilan's disobedience on his own coldness.

And half of it is obsession. People inevitably have an obsession with what they have put their hearts into doing, and they want to complete it perfectly. So Huo Sibei couldn't video confer with her, and it took a lot of effort to listen to her, and the more complicated the process, the deeper the obsession. He had to find her. She had to accept him again. And all that. If she hadn't blocked his contact number, it probably wouldn't have happened. If he could easily give her a video, he wouldn't have this obsession, and with his decision that day, he and her would not be together again today.

Ilan didn't know why she was doing this, breaking apart a thing that had gone in the past, and guessing about other possibilities over and over again. She knew that this was absolutely irrational, and she should talk to Huo Sibei directly. She shouldn't be angry with him because of his family's attitude. Obviously, she was thinking about him. Obviously, she was overjoyed when she came, but because her pajamas were seen by his mother, she felt uncomfortable, and then thought of his mother's statement, so she thought like this.

Feelings and reason are always two different things, intellectually Yilan knew that she should stop thinking immediately and find an opportunity to communicate with Huo Sibei face to face, but emotionally she was still thinking about it, she felt wronged for no reason.

Huo Sibei used to say that he compromised, in fact, because of the uncertainty of the future of the two, she has always cherished the opportunity to get along with the two very much, every time she came to him in a hurry according to his wishes, he let him live wherever he wanted, he let him live how he wanted, completely listened to him, and did not hold it at all.

She has never been reserved in front of Hosbei.

Ilan was a little sad when he thought about this. But she is willing to do this, it is originally her own business, and she can't complain about Huo Sibei's head, he has paid no less to her than her. At least Yilan can vaguely feel that he came to Bailuan specially after graduation, and there must be her factor.

Ilan was just irrepressibly terrified.

She was really afraid that Huo Sibei would be obsessed with obsession and guilt, and he would not be able to see his own heart clearly. Especially when she thought that Huo Sibei suddenly proposed to sign the marriage certificate, it was after she was frightened and had nightmares, Yilan couldn't help but put her head on her knees, and smiled bitterly and tears were about to flow out.

Her life is okay now, and in the future, Huo Sibei will find that he doesn't need guilt and sympathy, they are close, and his obsession will gradually fade in the future. But she is still her, her temper has never changed, and sooner or later Huo Sibei will still feel that he and her are not compatible.

She is actually a bit strong, accustomed to making her own decisions in her own life, Hoss is willing to take care of her first in every small matter, but he has a bottom line and principles in his bones, at that time he is no longer as obsessed with compensating her and accompanying her as he is now, what should she and him do?

In fact, Yilan is willing to sign a marriage letter with Huo Sibei, isn't it an obsession? She wants to have a home, she wants to have a place to go and a family to wait for when she is on vacation. If that person was Hosbei, she felt heartfelt joy.

But that night, Ilan began to ask herself, did she give Hosbei too heavy a feeling? Years ago, he walked into her farmstead and let him know that she was alone, and he immediately apologized for his harsh words. He had been accustomed to letting her go ever since, for she did look more pitiful than the others. He was thinking about taking care of her even when he graduated from college. Angry that she didn't keep her promise, and resolutely left her for so many years, when he heard that she was almost dead, he ran back to her, and she had a nightmare, so he wanted to give her a home.

Ilan lay on his knees and cried and laughed, complaining that Huo Sibei had made her afraid of his determination, and that he had sympathized with her.

Huo's mother is right, what marriage letter to sign at a young age, what to do to detain your youth, how many possibilities there are in the future, he and she are, no one should stop anyone. Once the relationship becomes heavy, who can bear it for a long time?

Ilan wiped away her tears, put aside the messy thoughts, and sat quietly alone. Huo's mother said that she had already talked to Huo Sibei about the same topic, and Huo Sibei must also know his mother's attitude, and Yilan felt that it was unnecessary to mention Huo's mother's conversation with Huo Sibei again, as if she was provoking their mother-son relationship.

She slipped back into the covers and closed her eyes. She had just had a snake spirit attack, which made her tired and very haggard. She pretended not to know the attitude of the Huo family, and she didn't think about anything, she walked slowly with him to see, which step was which step. She tries to make herself better, she is cheerful and cheerful every day, don't let people think that she is lonely, and she also moderately distances herself from Huo Sibei, so that he feels more relaxed, and doesn't make him feel responsible for her.

Hosbei doesn't owe her. In fact, if he hadn't arrived in time for the semiba, she might have had to go to the hospital to sew up inside and out. It's her, she owes him her promise, and now she owes him the grace to save his life. She should let him relax and slowly see his own heart, if it is a matter of course in the future, it is best if they can bear positive results, if not...... She didn't complain about anyone.

I don't want to sign the marriage letter anymore, I disobey the opinions of my elders and insist on going my own way, if it is really a happy and happy relationship, of course it is worth it, but Huo Sibei brought it up after she had a nightmare, and that nightmare was related to her experience of nine deaths, saying that he was not guilty and blamed himself, saying that he was out of pure love, and Yilan didn't believe it. If one day they have a disagreement again, and there is a marriage stalk in it, once they tear their faces, everyone even hopes to be passers-by.

So be it, let it be, and wait for providence. She didn't let go, and still walked with him, but she didn't force the marriage proposal. (To be continued......)