This is not true, Yan Jinrui muttered in his heart.

How could she just leave?

Obviously they really love each other.

Yan Jinrui's head hurt and his heart was in turmoil, and he fell into a suffocating pain and panic.

But the letter in his hand was genuine, and so was her handwriting, and he had to force himself to face this fact.

After all, she still couldn't stand the resistance, and chose to deflate at the last moment.

It may have been a fulfillment for her, but it was a cruel exit for him.

Then, all the future that was once dreamed of and really planned will be lost in one day. Then, the home of love and spirit that he had built with all his might was gone in an instant. He slumped into the semi-recliner chair.

After a short period of distraction, he strode out of the door and said to Li Dong, the housekeeper, "Go prepare the carriage, let's go out." ”

"What, didn't you say you're hungry, eat some first, and then go out," Mrs. Lu hurriedly walked out and asked.

Yan Jinrui held back her sadness and smiled at her mother and said, "I'll be back in a while, you can eat first." ”

After that, he and Li Dong quickly walked up to the verandah.

"Is something wrong?" Yan Yunpei asked behind her back.

But Yan Jinrui didn't answer him, but quickened his pace and walked out.

He was going to go to Zhuangyuanzhuang, and although he knew that she had left, he still wanted to see what was going on.

Because Li Dong was specially instructed to drive the carriage fast, it didn't take them long to arrive at Zhuangyuanzhuang.

At this time, it was already night, and every household in Zhuangyuanzhuang lit up the lamp. Only Xu Qingqing's home was dark.

Yan Jinrui got out of the carriage and walked briskly towards the gate of Xu Qingqing's house, as expected, the gate was locked with an iron lock, which meant that there was no one inside.

She is really gone, where will she go A young and beautiful woman with a little boy will definitely encounter a lot of inconvenience, is she safe at this moment Yan Jinrui kept thinking in her heart.

So, he immediately rushed to the dock again.

He tried to inquire with the dock keeper and the dockman, but they all said that no one had seen the two men he was looking for. Obviously, she either wore makeup or didn't walk on the water.

If she had traveled by land, it would have been very difficult to find.

Yan Jinrui stood on the pier and looked at the whining boats in a daze.

After a long time, he sighed deeply. I took the bus back home.

When he got home, he found that the whole family was waiting for him.

He was slightly embarrassed. Hurriedly explained: "I remembered something in a hurry, so I ran out. ”

"Now that the situation in the capital is so tense, don't keep running out." Yan Yunpei said with a straight face. He guessed that the third child's behavior must be related to the woman.

Although the third child no longer mentioned the woman to him in the past few months, he always vaguely felt that the third child and the woman had not completely broken off the relationship.

"I see." Yan Jinrui replied coldly.

"Haven't you had dinner yet?" Mrs. Lu asked with concern when she saw that Yan Jinrui's face was very bad.

Yan Jinrui nodded.

"Hurry up and eat. The food is still hot in the pot. Mrs. Lu hurriedly pulled him to the dining room.

On the way to the dining room, Mrs. Lu asked him in a low voice, "The third child." You tell me honestly if something happened."

"Nope." Yan Jinrui didn't want to talk much.

"I've never seen such a pale face. Tell me and I'll see if I can help you. Mrs. Lu patted the back of his hand and said.

Suddenly, a sourness rose from Yan Jinrui's heart, but what was the use of talking about it now, so he still held back.

"It's really fine," he said. ”

Madame Lu glanced at him in disbelief. But he didn't ask any more questions.

She personally served him with vegetables, sat down directly across from him, and watched him eat.

Because of the bitterness in his heart, although the food was very delicious, he only ate a few bites casually and put it down.

"Isn't it delicious?" asked Mrs. Lu.

"No, it's my appetite that doesn't have a good day." Yan Jinrui said with a slight sigh.

"Do you want me to ask the kitchen to cook you some millet porridge?"

"No need, mother, I'm a little tired, go back to the room first." After Yan Jinrui finished speaking, he got up and walked out.

Mrs. Lu looked at his hurried figure and stopped talking.

That night, Mrs. Lu stayed until everyone went to bed and whispered to Yan Yunpei: "The third child seems to have something on his mind. ”

"I can see it."

"I don't know if it's about the woman." Mrs. Lu said cautiously.

Yan Yunpei's face changed.

Subsequently, Yan Yunpei said: "It's not me, but after all, the Yan family is a big family with a reputation for a clean family, such a combination." ”

He still couldn't help but say the word shame.

Yan Yunpei, who has been competitive all his life and regards reputation as his life, can't bear to let his son marry a widow.

Although he also tried to persuade himself to give in once, he still couldn't pass the level in his heart at the last moment.

"If he really wants to marry her, then wait until I'm gone." After a long time, he sighed.

"How can the people of the year say these depressing words." Mrs. Lu said angrily.

Yan Yunpei didn't say any more.

The husband and wife slowly fell asleep in an unstable mood.

The next day was the day when the officials returned to the government to report.

Therefore, the four fathers and sons of the Yan family entered the palace early in the morning.

A deep sense of sadness when passing by the Xiyi Pavilion made Yan Jinrui's eyes red, he hesitated for a moment, and walked in gently.

"Is the teacher named Xu Qingqing here?" he asked the female officer on duty.

The female officer hurriedly got up and replied respectfully: "Lord Hui Yan, she asked someone to submit her resignation yesterday, and I am afraid she will not come this year." ”

Although this was something Yan Jinrui had expected a long time ago, he couldn't help but feel a pain in his heart after hearing this fact with his own ears. He hurriedly suppressed the sadness in his heart and pretended to ask easily, "Did she say that she couldn't come because of something?"

The female officer raised her eyes and looked at Yan Jinrui in a little surprise. Yan Jinrui hurriedly said: "I heard that her teaching is very good, so I think it's a pity that she left like this." ”

"It's true, but I heard that she wanted to visit a distant relative."

"I see." Yan Jinrui smiled at her and walked out.

After a year, the emperors and grandsons seemed to be more well-behaved and sensible than before, so they didn't give him any anger all morning, but his heart still couldn't lift his spirits as if he had lost something.

He stood by the window of the imperial study and looked out, and from this position he could see the door of the Academy.

He seemed to see the dignified figure slowly walking out of the gate in the warm midday sun. His vision was blurred by a layer of mist.

On this day, he returned home early and plunged headlong into the pile of books.

However, no matter how he looked at it, he couldn't read a single word.

Loss took over every nerve in him, making him feel as if he had been hollowed out.

He went to the backyard to take out a bottle of wine and drank it in the shade of a tree in the backyard.

Slowly, he forgot where he was, but the last time she and he saw her was clearly in his mind.

How active she was at that time, did she already make a decision at that time?

Yes, he remembered her weeping in his arms, and she knew it was their last meeting.

He secretly scolded himself for being careless, and he didn't even notice it.

Well, there's a good chance she'd already had a place for herself before then. Well, it's all just because she can't bear to let him be with her at the risk of his family's opposition.

But what she didn't know was that she had taken everything he had.

After falling in love like deep into the bone marrow, this kind of separation will not be much better than a knife cut.

Yan Jinrui got up from the stool with a wry smile and staggered in the direction of the room, but he quickly collapsed in the open space in the backyard with his top-heavy and unconscious. To be continued

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