Chapter 1537: Self-blame and self-doubt

72_72291Charlize looked at Hugo who was standing not far away, she could only see Hugo's back, just now she noticed Hugo's departure, Charlize quickly chased after him, Leonardo was supposed to chase after him, but considering the crew's affairs, Leonardo still stayed, trying not to let people realize Hugo's disappearance.

Hugo's footsteps were so fast that Charlize almost trotted all the way to not lose them, and she was even more out of breath when she stood in place, but she didn't have the heart to think about her own situation, just looked at Hugo worriedly.

Hugo clenched his fists tightly, bent over and roared angrily, roaring to the end, the sound had completely disappeared, but Hugo still maintained that posture, his mouth was wide open, and he roared silently, venting the irrepressible pain in his heart, his whole back was tense, like a bow and arrow that would break at any time, and the bowstring that was extremely tight was already in danger.

The tears in Charlize's eyes slipped down in an instant, almost uncontrollable, even if they were wiped away, the tears still kept coming out, she was not only worried about Hugo, but also deeply felt the despair in Hugo, the kind of despair that surpassed anger.

Thinking back to the happiness of Franco's family just now, recalling the feeling he felt when he met Lena, and thinking back to the lovely little Dave, Charlize knew that the stronger the feeling of happiness, the stronger the anger of betrayal at this time. Even if she was just a bystander, she couldn't suppress the anger in her heart, let alone Hugo?

Hugo's inner feelings at this moment, no one can understand, even Adam, even Charlize, even Joseph, there is no way to understand it, the bystanders are always just spectators, they never know the turmoil in Hugo's heart as a party. Just looking at Hugo's back, the broad and firm shoulders were completely tense at this time, as if they would explode in the next second, but the precarious explosive power did not make the back look strong, on the contrary, it looked extremely fragile, as if it only needed a light touch to shatter the bones. Charlize only felt a bitterness in her mouth, and the surging bitterness almost made her lose the ability to speak.

Hugo just stood there, clenching his fists and screaming silently, the storm in his mind made him stop all thinking, he just wanted to vent as much as he wanted, so crazy that the pain all over his body had disappeared. Until he lost all his strength, the whole person softened, and slowly sat on the spot, panting, his face full of tiredness, and his eyes were blank.

Hugo in front of him was like a soulless puppet, lost the traction of the rope, and fell into the dust with a lifeless face. Charlize wiped away the tears from his eyes, and although a layer of mist quickly appeared, Charlize pretended not to care, and then sat down cross-legged next to Hugo, "So, delivery car, clams?" How did you come up with this idea? Let me guess, the hike was inspired, inspired? ”

The corners of Hugo's mouth tugged slightly, and he sneered, but the smile didn't look like a smile at all, and even the curvature of the corners of his mouth didn't seem lifeless, "Am I such a person who has no sense of innovation?" Still need to be inspired? Isn't that a simple idea? Move the restaurant to the crew, it's as simple as that. ”

"The restaurant moved to the crew?" Charlize pursed his lips and nodded his chin slightly, "Then this restaurant is really a bit shabby." The words made Hugo shake his head helplessly, but the corners of his mouth pulled out a reluctant arc.

Seeing Hugo fall silent again, Charlize found that she was really running out of words at this time, and she couldn't say words of comfort, not even nonsense like "a qiē will get better"; She also can't say anything constructive, like, "She's a fucking bitch." I can't say such a simple and rude word.

It turns out that many times, language is so pale that a single silence is enough to smash all languages to pieces. "So, do you want to talk?" Charlize didn't shy away from the question, but simply asked. Charlize knew that at this time Hugo needed catharsis, he needed to say it and hold it in his heart, which would only make the situation worse.

Hugo didn't answer, his strong shoulders collapsed, and there was no movement, almost making Charlize think that Hugo had stopped breathing, which made Charlize a little flustered, raised his right hand, tried to put it on Hugo's shoulder, and patted it twice, but her fingertips reached Hugo's shoulder, but she couldn't help but stop, because she was worried that the strength of her fingers alone would crush Hugo.

Charlize's fingers hung over Hugo's shoulders, trembling slightly, and the sourness of her nose made her look very wolfy. Her love seemed to be even more excited than Hugo's, and Leonardo was also just now, and he was almost about to lose his mind, because they all knew that Hugo had gone through too much in the past year, and the last seventy days of travel had allowed Hugo to slowly recover, but Lena appeared at such a juncture.

Charlize even wondered if Lena did it on purpose. Of course, she knew that this idea was ridiculous, but as a friend of Hugo, she was only worried about Hugo's condition.

"Sally, did you say it was because I did something wrong?" Hugo's voice was a little hoarse, and the slow tiredness spread out in that gentle voice like the smell of cigarettes, but it made people feel pervasive.

Charlize's fingertips curled up suddenly, clenched into fists. She knew what Hugo meant, and Hugo wondered if he had done something wrong, which led Lena to leave the family. The idea hit Charlize like a meteor.

"Are you kidding me?" Charlize gave Hugo a hard slap on the back of the head, "You know it has nothing to do with you, this is a matter between Lena and Adam, you shouldn't blame yourself." After saying that, Charlize muttered, "Although I don't think it's Adam's fault either." ”

There was a buzzing pain in the back of his head, which made Hugo smile shallowly, but he heard Charlize continue, "Remember how you told me in the first place?" It's no one's fault, at least we shouldn't blame ourselves, because we all have people to guard. ”

This is what Hugo said when he was comforting Charlize, Gerda killed Charles's father Charles with his own hands, and the young Charlize witnessed Charles lying in a pool of blood, and the shock was even more terrible than Hugo's experience. Charlize also once thought that it was his fault that it was because he led Charles to drink heavily, and Charles also blamed all the faults on Gerda and Charlize; Gerda also wanted to protect her that day, so she clashed with Charles.

Man is such a complex animal, either self-centered, blaming all the fault on others, and he is always right; Or make yourself invisible, as if you think that all faults are self-inflicted. Charlize could barely get out of it, and was so enveloped by the nightmare of ignorance that she still doesn't want to believe in fairy tales.

Today, Charlize uses Hugo's words of comfort for himself.

Hugo pulled out a wry smile, "It's always so simple to speak, how many people can really do it." That's why it is said that bystanders do not have a backache when they stand and talk, and only the person concerned knows what happened to them.

Lena left Adam and Hugo and started a happy family. Whatever the original reason, it turned out that Adam and Hugo had no reason or motivation to keep Lena, and the Franco family kept Lena for the rest of her life. Unable to control it, Hugo will think: Did he do something wrong?

"Hugo, you should think of Adam." Charlize let out a long sigh and spoke. It was Gerda who kept Charlize going and made her grow up quickly, she spoke loudly and flowed like a boy, she was mature and sensible and self-sufficient like a big child, because she knew that Gerda only had her one to rely on.

The same goes for Hugo.

Adam...... A hint of tenderness flashed in Hugo's eyes, "You know what? Adam called me yesterday and talked about the current situation on the ranch, and you can tell that he is really happy. Last time, Old Jack also joked that Adam was so old to realize his dream, how could he not be happy. At this, Hugo chuckled twice, but the weight of the corners of his mouth made the laughter disappear quickly, and the corners of his mouth smoothed again.

Adam is still so stiff and wooden, never willing to express the truth of his heart, which Hugo seems to be very similar to Adam. Hugo knew that along the way, the person who really accompanied him was Adam, and only Adam, but every time the sentence "I love you" came to his lips, he couldn't say anything.

"You should be glad that you have lost an irresponsible mother, but you have gained a father who protects you wholeheartedly." Charlize was silent for a moment before speaking.

"Just like Gerda?" The seemingly nonexistent curvature at the corner of Hugo's mouth did not completely disappear, and he looked at Charlitch.

"Well, just like Gelda."

The two of them fell into silence like this, and after a long time, Hugo only felt that the burning fire in his chest had finally calmed down, as if he could breathe again, he took a deep breath, and the slightly hot temperature in the air made his lungs rejuvenate again. "Let's go, Leo probably has to worry about it."

"It is conceivable that if I wasn't worried about you just now, Leo would probably have rushed up and beaten those two children." The two walked side by side in the direction of the crew, Charlize said teasingly, which made Hugo uneasy.

"Typical Leo ......" Hugo's words finally relaxed a little, but his voice was suddenly cut off, and Hugo walked away from Charlize quickly, and hastily hid behind a spruce tree next to him, leaving a stunned Charlize standing in place, full of question marks