At first glance, hearing his father's words, Qi Miao was a little confused.

She didn't even realize who the Nine Princes were.

Just thinking about what my father is good to mention, what does the prince do?

She hasn't been back to Beijing for a long time, doesn't he know who she knows?

Thinking so in her heart, she asked, "Who is the Ninth Prince?" ”

"The son of King Jin." Qi Zhengzhi replied.

It turned out to be Ji Mo.

Qi Miao suddenly.

But she was even more puzzled, how did her father mention Ji Mo, and asked her if she was familiar with him, what did this mean?

Qi Miao didn't hide it, and said truthfully, "I saw him twice when I was treating Lord Rong Zhaojun, but I didn't know him well, how can my father ask this?" ”

She wasn't lying at all.

Although the number of times she has met Ji Mo is not very small, and she has said a few words, she is really unfamiliar with him.

She didn't know what he was deliberately approaching for?

I don't know his preferences, I don't know what the real person is like?

In this way, how can it be said that she is familiar with her?

"Really unfamiliar?" Qi Zheng asked as if he didn't believe it.

In fact, he believed that Qi Miao and Ji Mo were not familiar.

Just because he believed, he couldn't solve the mystery in his heart.

Instead, he wanted to hear Qi Miao say the word familiar, so that he could explain a lot of things.

"I really don't know, father, why don't you always believe everything I say? If you don't believe me, why do you ask me? Qi Miao was a little annoyed.

In the face of a person who always does not believe in himself, speaking has lost its meaning.

Qi Zhengzhi realized that he had unintentionally made another mistake. He hurriedly apologized, "Miao'er, don't be angry first, it's not that I don't believe you." It's just that there are some things in my heart that I can't explain, and I instinctively ask if it's mine or not. ”

Qi Miao sighed softly and asked, "What's the matter?" ”

Qi Zhengzhi's fingers tapped lightly on the tabletop, and his lips pursed, "Miao'er." I just don't understand, you are not familiar with him, and you have no friendship. Why will he speak for you? ”

"He helps me speak? When was this? What was said? Qi Miao was shocked.

His eyes widened and he looked at his father in disbelief.

Will Ji Mo's thief do good deeds?

Seeing her expression, Qi Zhengzhi knew that she really had nothing to do with Ji Mo.

But Ji Mo's accusatory words, how could he say it?

I thought about it for a while. He said thoughtfully. He ...... He said I wasn't good enough for you and didn't trust you......"

Belch!

Qi Miao was stunned.

How did he know about these things, and why did he mention them in front of his father?

What exactly is his purpose in doing this?

According to his character, the words should be very ugly, and he will definitely not be tactful and subtle, otherwise his father's face would not be so ugly.

The taste in my heart is inexplicable.

I was a little moved by what Ji Mo said, is this for her to stand up and hold grievances for her?

There is some sourness again.

Her father's partiality towards her was even visible to outsiders. This shows that he has done it too obviously, can it be said that it is her pathos?

Ay!

Qi Miao sighed quietly in the depths of her heart. He lowered his eyes and did not speak.

After a long time, Qi Zhengzhi asked, "Miao'er, why don't you speak?" ”

Qi Miao looked up at him.

Her dark and bright eyes were faintly covered with a layer of water, and she smiled softly.

The smile was helpless and bitter.

She asked rhetorically, "Father, what do you want me to say?" ”

Qi Zheng said goodbye.

yes, let her say what?

Is it for her to deny what Ji Mo said?

She definitely wouldn't deny it, otherwise she would have taken the initiative to say it herself.

Neither of the father and daughter spoke, but sat quietly as the room fell silent.

Time flows quietly in silence.

As the sun set, the light in the house dimmed.

Yuexia and Xia Shuang lightly palmed the lamp and tossed the silver charcoal in the copper tripod.

The fiery charcoal fire reflects the delicate faces of the two of them.

The two of them looked at each other, and their faces were burnt.

I thought to myself, why don't you leave yet, the food is going to be cold, and the young lady still has to have dinner.

If you have something to say, say it quickly, and do what you do.

Probably feeling the displeased eyes of Yuexia and Xia, Qi Zhengzhi's face was slightly hot.

He cleared his throat, looked at Qi Miao and asked softly, "Miao'er, have you complained about me all these years?" ”

Qi Miao frowned, looked at him with inquiring eyes, and did not nod or shake his head.

He sighed softly and said, "Miao'er, in fact, Daddy doesn't hurt you, you are my daughter, blood is thicker than water, how can I really not hurt you."

Maybe it's because you're my daughter, but I ignore your feelings, thinking that it's my own child, and I don't care about it. ”

If you don't like it, you don't like it, and you don't need to find a reason.

The corners of Qi Miao's lips raised slightly, and she said with a sarcastic smile, "Father, in fact, I really don't care if you hurt me or not, anyway, not every father will definitely love his own children, I don't mind being one of them."

I just beg you to stop hurting me with questioning eyes in the future, nothing else really matters. ”

She has been completely disappointed in her father and no longer expects her father's love.

Qi Zhengzhi hurriedly waved his hand and said, "Miao'er, don't be angry first, and listen to what I have to say, I came to you today, I don't want to deny anything, I just want you to know what I really think in my heart." ”

Qi Miao nodded slightly.

Qi Zhengzhi continued, "Miao'er, you know, after you were born, I was very happy, thinking that I have children and daughters, and both children are all for the word 'good'.

I have a virtuous and kind wife, a pair of smart and clever children, I am the happiest person in the world, what is there not to be satisfied.

After I was busy with official business every day, I hurried back, and when I came back, I hugged you and teased you, watched you squint and smile at me, and listened to you call me daddy softly.

Watching you and Zhan'er grow up safely and healthily, your mother and I are very pleased. ”

After a slight pause, he continued, "I thought we would always be happy like this. Who knew that this happiness was torn apart on that night nine years ago, when Bailian's father fell off a cliff and died trying to save me.

Miao'er, you know, I was looking at the heartbroken and lonely White Lotus mother and daughter. I feel guilty beyond measure, how I wish it was me and not your Uncle Bai who died.

If it weren't for me, Bai Lian wouldn't have lost her loving father, and your Aunt Yao wouldn't have lost her husband, it was me who ruined their happiness.

So I did everything I could to make amends for them, hoping to reduce their pain and my own deep guilt.

I understand better that no matter what I do. will forever make up for the deep pain in their hearts, and there is no day when I am not living in torment, and I can't get rid of it. ”

Speaking of which. His eyes were red and his voice was slightly choked.

"Miao'er, you know, I went to Yanguan with your mother to see you, and saw that you were pampered and cared for by your grandfather's family like a princess. Listen to you put your arms around my neck and call me daddy sweetly. While I am relieved and grateful, I can't help but think of White Lotus.

Thinking that she has no grandfather's family to rely on, and the only father she can rely on has lost his life because of me, she can no longer hug her father like you, and can no longer enjoy her father's care, the guilt in my heart has reached the extreme.

Maybe it's because you and Bai Lian are the same age, when I see you, I think of Bai Lian's sadness, and I feel guilty and want to die. I didn't dare to come to see you again.

So I did everything possible to be nice to Bailian and snub you at the same time. I was comforting myself again, it's okay, Miao'er has a lot of people who dote on her besides me, it makes no difference with me or not, ignoring your sad eyes.

At first, I may feel ashamed of you, but after a long time, it has become a habit, and I don't think there is anything wrong with me.

It wasn't until you returned home, and after facing your strange and detached eyes, I suddenly felt as if something was wrong, but when I think about it, it doesn't seem to have done anything wrong. ”

……

"It wasn't until today that I realized I was really wrong, and I was wrong.

I can't snub you because I want to make up for Bai Lian's lost father's love, and I can't impose my guilt on you and deprive you of your right to enjoy father's love.

The love that anyone gives you is the only one, and it cannot be replaced by others, and the love of my grandfather's family for you, which they gave, cannot be an excuse for me to escape.

What a bastard I used to be, what I thought and did all these years.

It was clearly a mistake, but I did it so rightfully and so peacefully, but I didn't know that I had inadvertently injured the people closest to me. ”

Qi Zhengzhi raised his head, desperately suppressing the light in his eyes.

In the past, when Hui Niang said that he was wrong, he said that he knew that he was wrong, but he didn't think so, thinking that Miao'er was their daughter, Hui Niang naturally spoke to her.

He also thought that Hui Niang said these words because she didn't like Bai Lian, and she was biased.

Until today, being scolded by outsiders who have nothing to do with him, he is like being enlightened.

If he hadn't been too wrong and too obvious, how could outsiders know about these things.

After returning to the study, he seriously and meticulously recalled what he had done over the years, and suddenly he understood a lot of things.

Only now did he understand that he didn't know if it was too late.

Qi Zhengzhi got up and slowly walked in front of Qi Miao.

He gently stroked the top of her head and said softly, "Miao'er, I'm sorry, it's my father who has been ashamed of you all these years and made you suffer a lot of grievances."

Daddy doesn't ask for your understanding, and he doesn't say how to treat you in the future, if I continue to be confused, it's really not human......"

The voice was choked.

A warm tear dripped between Qi Miao's hair and slowly swam away.

Qi Miao had already sworn that she would not shed any more tears or be sad, but the tears still burst out of her eyes.

Not only for his father's belated apology, but also for the grievances in his heart over the years.

Just because Bai Lian lost her father, she should also lose her father's love, this idea is really weird, and her father really did it.

The guilt caused by the word 'en', my father's personality and outlook on life have been distorted, and many ideas are unthinkable and unacceptable to ordinary people.

I really don't know how he survived all these years?

She didn't know whether to say that her father was too kind or that he was too stupid.

Qi Miao shook her head secretly.

Suddenly, her mind sank and she thought of something.

Father is so guilty and guilty, is it possible that the white father did not fall off the cliff because he saved him, but was ...... by him

Otherwise, what would he do with such guilt.

Qi Miao was shocked into a cold sweat by the sudden thought that came to her.

No, no, my father probably wouldn't do such a thing.

She desperately denied her idea.

The more negative it is, the stronger the idea.

After a while, after the mood calmed down a bit, Qi Miao quietly wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

She looked up at her father.

He was found standing with his back to him.

She sighed.

Regardless of whether he can do what he says in the future, it is really not easy to say this.

Not to mention admitting her mistakes to her children, like in her previous life, she sometimes made mistakes, and it feels so difficult to take the initiative to apologize to her mother.

"Father." Qi Miao.

She doesn't have to worry about it, she really doesn't care if her father can change it.

Qi Zhengzhi gently sniffed, wiped the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and then turned around.

The eyes are a little red.

He smiled lightly and said, "I just didn't know what was blinding me. ”

"Oh, it's okay now." Qi Miao smiled.

Qi Zhengzhi shook his head slightly.

He suddenly said, "Miao'er, can you stop calling my father in the future, and call me father like before, okay?" ”

Daddy!

Qi Miao muttered softly in her mouth.

I found that I was so unfamiliar and embarrassed.

She replied, "Why should father care about titles, I want to ask you something." ”

Shifted the subject.

She can't call the word daddy right now.

Alas, this is all self-inflicted, and I don't complain that Miaoer is unwilling to shout.

Qi Zhengzhi pursed his lips tightly, regretted in his heart, nodded and said, "Miao'er, you say." ”

Qi Miao asked, "Father, can you tell me about that incident nine years ago?" It's the thing in the mountain behind Lin San Temple. ”

"Miao'er, why do you think about this?" Qi Zhengzhi frowned slightly.

This incident was the source of all his suffering.

Don't want to mention it again.

Qi Miao paid attention to his expression, and did not show any abnormalities such as panic.

She said with a straight face, "Father, I know that you have been very bitter in your heart over the years, and your life has not been easy, and the strangeness of the relationship between you and my father and daughter is all due to this incident.

To tell you the truth, when I went back to Lingshan Temple, I went to the back mountain and found that although the cliff there was high, the top of the mountain was flat, and under normal circumstances, there would never be such an accident as falling off the cliff.

I really want to know what happened on the top of the mountain in the first place to put you in danger, and Uncle Bai tried to save you...... Sometimes when you talk about things, even if you can't change anything, your heart will feel much more comfortable. ”

After her kind and seductive, Qi Zhengzhi finally wavered.

At the same time, he also wanted to please Qi Miao, and he couldn't bear to disappoint her.

After a moment's hesitation, he told him what had happened.

He remembered very well that it was the summer of nine years ago, and the weather in the capital was as hot as a furnace, and Bai Yanfeng took the initiative to ask him to go to Lingshan Temple to escape the heat.

Bai Yanfeng said that the mountain behind Lingshan Temple is not only as cool as autumn, but also can watch the beautiful sunrise.

He agreed, originally he wanted to take Hui Niang and the children to go together, but Hui Niang said that the road was far away, in case the children were hit by the heat and it was not good, so he didn't go.

Later, he and Bai Yanfeng went to Lingshan Temple.

The back mountain is really cool, and the scenery is pleasant, so the two of them sit in the pavilion to chant poetry, enjoy the scenery, he tastes tea, Bai Yanfeng drinks wine, the two are very happy.

When the sun had taken away the last of its magnificent afterglow, he proposed to go down the mountain and return to his lodgings, and to get up early tomorrow to watch the sunrise.

At this time, Bai Yanfeng proposed, saying that it was not easy to come and not sleep at night, and they waited for the sunrise while talking at night.

Seeing that Bai Yanfeng was full of interest, he was not good at disappointment, so he responded.

Unexpectedly, something happened that night. (To be continued......)

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