Hugo lay quietly on the bed. Looking out the window, there was an unknown bird perched on the tall pine tree, the bird standing on the branches, pecking at its feathers, the warm summer sun projecting on it, and the lightly dancing dust outlined an outline around the bird, as if inlaid with a thin layer of gold.

Then the bird suddenly flapped its wings and flew high, stirring up a cloud of dust that swirled violently, creating several whirlpools, but after the rotation slowly settled, and finally regained its calm, flowing slowly in the air.

Hugo lay quietly like this, looking out the window at the changing and unchanging scenery, without speaking, without movement, without expression, not even in those amber eyes, as if he had lost his soul, and was left with a shell lying on the bed. on, motionless.

This is what Adam Lancaster saw when he entered the room, he stood in the doorway stupidly, looking at his son, who had lost two circles, his pale face had no life, and he suddenly felt a panny in his chest, a little out of breath, and he couldn't help but look away.

I heard that this is the fifth day that Hugo has been in this situation, I heard that Hugo is still in the middle of the night and is still in great pain, and I heard that Hugo's friends and even girlfriends are helpless...... Otherwise, Joseph would not have contacted him. What he feared finally happened, and Hugo's immature shoulders were finally crushed by the heavy pressure.

After Hugo ran away from home at the age of fourteen, Adam was actually worried about this day, although Hugo has always been independent, but he is only a child after all, and the colorful fame and fortune circle in Hollywood is almost full of traps, and pressure is everywhere.

At one point, Adam earnestly hoped that Hugo would suffer a social blow and return to Lanches to live an ordinary life and never be hurt again. But this was his idea, he had no way to ask Hugo to do this, and he had no right to ask Hugo to do it, as if he couldn't blame Lena for leaving, and he didn't want Hugo to disappear from his life forever like Lena. So, Adam closed his mouth, worried and frightened in Lanchez's world, and then silently watched Hugo's every move.

But looking at his son, who seemed to have his soul drained, Adam once again doubted whether his decision was correct, and his hands began to tremble uncontrollably, and he couldn't tell whether it was fear or worry.

Adam took a deep breath, clenched his hands into fists, let the complicated thoughts in his mind settle, walked to the edge of the bed, and sat down in front of Hugo. Adam could see Hugo's amber eyes reflecting his own shadow, but Hugo didn't react much, still staring out the window.

This made Adam feel more at ease.

Adam has never been a man of words, he is not good at communication, he doesn't know how to express himself, so, Hugo doesn't look at himself, which can make him relax a little.

Adame sat quietly on the edge of the bed, not speaking, just a little nervous and cramped in front of Hugo, who was lying quietly in front of him, he had forgotten the last time he saw Hugo so fragile, was it when he fell off the straw stack at the age of six? No, it seems to be the night when I was seven years old with a high fever.

That night Hugo was completely burned out, scaring him and Lena to death, and the two of them scrambled to smear Hugo with alcohol in an attempt to cool him down. At that time, Hugo was small and thin, as if he would fall apart if he hugged him lightly, and Hugo, who was burned in a daze, kept shouting "Mommy", and the painful moans made Lena stand aside and didn't know what to do. Because they did everything they had to do, but the temperature still couldn't go down.

Later, Adam took off his shirt, hugged Hugo tightly, kept patting him to comfort him, and kept watch like that all night, before dawn, Hugo's body temperature finally slowly dropped. Adam looked at Hugo's lips, which were starting to crack due to dehydration, and didn't know what to do, so he woke up Lena, who was next to him and closed her eyes because she was too tired, and handed her son to her.

When Hugo woke up, all he saw was Lena's loving smile.

Hugo in front of him was like when he was seven years old, fluttering like a feather, and would leave him at any moment. Thinking of this, Adam's heart shrank suddenly, and he quickly avoided his gaze, lest his eyes would reveal the fear and panic in his heart.

Adam sorted out his feelings, and then looked at Hugo again, but Hugo was still motionless and did not react, which made Adam sigh lightly, in fact, there was a glimmer of hope in his heart, hoping that Hugo would find out the wolf bèi he had just now, and then tease himself.

"Hugo......" Adam said with difficulty, with a myriad of ideas and words in his head, but not knowing how to organize them, made him feel a sense of frustration, "if you don't want to hold on, then don't hold on anymore." You've already achieved your dreams, so why torture yourself again? You know, last time I went to buy a saddle with Old Jack, and I saw the boss watching the video of 'Yihai Xiongfeng' there, and Old Jack talked to the boss, and the boss was an old cowboy in his forties, and he said that you are the only actor who can watch it in the last two years, and the others are either too fake muscles, or too sissy, or you are the most pleasing to the eye. Then that day I bought a whole set of harness with Old Jack. ”

When Adam had finished speaking, he didn't know what to say more, so he stopped dryly, groped in his pocket, and tried to take out the cigarette, but his fingertips touched the cigarette case, and stopped, and then put down his right hand in disgust, scratching his head in annoyance.

"I remember that after your mother left, there was a time when you were like this, locking yourself in your room and refusing to come out, and you would not answer whatever I said to you. Of course, I've never said anything, because I don't know what to say. You always have endless things to talk to your mom. Adam laughed a little, as if laughing at himself.

"Do you remember how you came out?" A slight smile tugged at the corner of Adam's mouth, obviously recalling the original situation, "It was old Jack who tricked you out, and he said he was going to take you to the movies, so you opened the door to the room." At that time, he said what movie was he going to take you to? ”

Adam paused, as if waiting for Hugo's answer, but unfortunately he was going to be disappointed, because Hugo still didn't respond.

After a long silence, Adam coughed dryly twice, but the voice in his voice revealed a hint of exhaustion, "I remember, it's 'Jaws'." Later, little Jack took you to see it, right? When you came back, you were terrified. At this point, a little more smile appeared on Adam's mouth.

"Maybe you've been determined to be an actor since then, right?" Adam found a clue in his memories and whispered, suddenly realizing that perhaps Hugo needed not persuasion or guidance, but encouragement.

Adam doesn't know if he thinks correctly, because he hears Joseph say that Hugo has a stress breakdown and has symptoms of split personality because he has been too deep in the play. Psychologists all say that this situation needs to be guided. Adam wasn't a professional after all, and he didn't know what to do with it, but looking at his son lying there quietly in front of him, Adam decided to give it a try.

"Do you remember the day you left home? You think I didn't know about your departure, but I was in the attic, watching your back. You were so small, as if a gust of wind was going to blow you away, and you were so thin on your shoulders that you were carrying one on your back, and it looked bigger than you, and you staggered as if you were going to fall at any moment......"

At this point, Adam fell silent, and he still doesn't know if he made the right decision.

"But you didn't," Adam took a deep breath, "and you resolutely disappeared from my sight and ended up in Los Angeles. Looking back on all these years, you are actually amazing, at least I can't do it. You relied on your own strength to finish college, and then step by step to get to where you are today, I don't know much about Hollywood, but I know that you are my proudest son, and you have achieved your dream with your own hands, which is what countless people dream of. ”

"So, I've always wanted to sue you...... You're great, you're really great. Adam's voice gradually lowered, as if he was a little choked, and then he embarrassedly disguised all his feelings, he was still not used to showing his vulnerability in front of his son, "Hugo, don't make me regret it, okay?" Don't make me regret my decision, don't make me think I made a wrong decision, don't make me think that your dream is worthless......"

Adam ran out of words again, he sat quietly in place, looking at Hugo, for a long time, after all, he still didn't know what to say, he could only stand up, turned around and prepared to leave, but after taking two steps, he couldn't help but look back at Hugo, the hoarse voice was full of tiredness and bitterness, "You have been doing well, without my help and without the support of others, you have always done well." ”

With that, Adam walked out of the room, but his steps slowed, one step at a time, and one step at a time, heavy and slow.

It's just that Adam didn't see it, and for the first time Hugo turned his head and looked at his father's back. Adam's broad shoulders looked a little blurry in the sunlight, but they were still strong, as he remembered, but at this moment, this strong back looked a little tired, a little old.

Hugo's eyes moistened unconsciously, he knew what was happening, he knew exactly what had happened in the past few days, but for the first time in his life, he had doubts about himself, whether his persistence was correct, whether his efforts were in vain, whether he was going in the wrong direction, because he had a good chance of strangling a life, simply because of his own ridiculous and ridiculous acting persistence, simply because of his shameless and ridiculous loss of control in the process of studying acting. It was a life, a life that could not be replaced.

Hugo had no way to forgive himself.

But today, Hugo knows that what he needs is not forgiveness, but self-breakthrough, but also self-redemption, and no one can help him except himself. choose to give up, choose decadence, choose to retreat; Or do you choose to persevere, choose to forge ahead, and choose to struggle? On this multiple-choice question, Hugo's choice has never changed, and it should not change now.

Just like Matthew, true salvation can only be performed by oneself.