Chun Tao put on the phone and told the sea about the situation.

In moments like these, she does not hide from her nearest loved ones.

Yu Hai fell into deep thought after listening.

"Go out and talk."

He led Chun Tao out one after the other, Xiao Miao looked at their departing backs and didn't know what was happening, but he understood the seriousness of the matter from the expressions of the eldest brother and sister-in-law.

The words of his sister-in-law came to mind, and looking at the figure of his brother and sister-in-law going out one after another, he seemed to understand what his sister-in-law said.

He excessively consumed his brother's affection for him, Yu Hai is like a mountain, firmly guarding every one of his valued relatives, and he will always be at the forefront when there is a problem.

At this time, what the man had said to him also came to mind.

"The reason why you are still a child is because of your immature feelings, and any kind of love should not be based on hurting your family, which is why I don't plan to start a family in this life."

When he said this, he seemed to be carrying the weight of a world, and Xiao Miao really wanted to help him protect something and make his life easier.

He felt that if his family really loved him, they should bless him and respect his choice, and his sister-in-law's words made him feel empowered.

The eldest brother has such a resolute attitude, not because he thinks his choice is disgusting like ordinary people, but more because he is afraid that he will not be able to face the difficulties of the future.

He wants to become stronger, he wants more people to recognize him, but he can't change it. The so-called rules and the world's opinions are like the sinful banana that has no reason, no one knows why, maybe the so-called rules themselves are wrong, but as long as you live in this circle, you must abide by the rules of this circle. He didn't care what others thought of him, but he couldn't bear to let his brother and sister-in-law who loved him share that kind of discrimination.

That kind of vision, once is enough.

A relationship, why carry so many heavy things, he just simply likes a person, why should he face these plus or minus things. Why can't the people he loves be accepted by the world? Even the relatives who love him have to carry it with him. When people live in the world, there are always many reasons that cannot be answered.

A light rain fell outside the house, ticking on the windows, and Xiao Miao felt that she understood something. But there is also something to lose.

I don't know how long it took to do it. He stood up numbly. Dial a number that you already have in mind.

"Hello?"

The voice over there was a little hoarse, and Xiao Miao's heart was like a knife cut, this should be the last time, right?

"It's me."

"Yes. How's it going? ”

"Fortunately, I plan to apply for the military academy, you, you will have a good life in the future." Unspeakable goodbyes, tears that can't be dried.

"Well, I've always been very good, I have selected a few books on Western philosophy and mailed them to you, I hope you can better understand the meaning of human beings after reading them, and be able to cherish the time with your family."

"Is there nothing else besides that?" Xiao Miao's tears kept flowing, and he knew that this was also the other party's gentle and resolute statement.

"Also, a VCD, I remember you seem to like listening to it very much, I found the original version for you, you are a man, be kind to yourself and your family."

After that, there was silence on both ends of the phone.

The rain outside the window kept falling, Xiao Miao couldn't say goodbye, and the other party was also very patient waiting for him to speak.

"I'm going to live well, study hard, and want to be like my brother...... Actually, it's not about that, I want to say, what I said I like you, it's true, it's just me, I-" I just complain that we met at a bad time.

Why did I meet when I didn't have the ability to rewrite the rules, a relationship had to hurt everyone, it was too heavy, he was always a kind child, and there was no way to be completely free, but at this moment, he wanted to face his true thoughts in his heart and say like it out loud.

Just once, just once.

Even if it is after today, he will be a monkey who only obeys the rules, and at this moment, he only wants to be himself once.

"Well, I know, you are a good boy, you have to live a good life in the future, to integrate into the world, don't always think about rebellion, and don't want to take revenge by hurting yourself, the world will not change because of one or two people."

Just because he saw through all this, he felt that life was so vicissitudes and helplessness, Xiao Miao was different from him, he grew up in a big family of deceitful people, and rarely experienced the warmth of his family, but Xiao Miao had a brother and sister-in-law who loved him, for this little boy who was much younger than himself, Xiao Huihui only hoped that he could live a happy life.

"Will you forget me?"

When Xiao Miao's voice came from the microphone, Xiao Huihui looked at the hanging bottle that had been quickly lighted, and made a shushing gesture to the nurse who came in to change the dressing.

"I'll be discharged from the army after a while, and when the time comes, I want to travel to some places that I have wanted to go to for a long time but haven't had time to go, you have to take care of yourself, okay, hang up."

This was the last call, but Xiao Miao didn't get what he wanted to hear, in fact, it didn't matter if he listened or not.

"Dr. Xiao, your situation is really not suitable for going to the front line, although you have become a chronic cor pulmonale because of the lack of proper treatment of acute respiratory infection, but this is not a terminal illness, the conditions on the front line are very difficult and not conducive to the development of your condition, you should find a place to slowly recuperate, you are tantamount to chronic suicide."

Xiao Huihui calmly watched her change her dressing, she didn't listen to what she said, and when the nurse was about to repeat it again, he suddenly said into the phone that had hung up.

"I won't forget."

The nurse was stunned, "Doctor Xiao, what did you say?" ”

Xiao Huihui looked at the goose feathers and snow outside the window and stopped talking.

He knew that he was different from a young age, he carefully hid it, and tried to make himself look no different from others, but in the end he was extremely tired, some things, not without mentioning and not wanting to change without looking, everyone knows that people with different sexual orientations can take a sip or two, but they don't know. After that, those who were born like this will not disappear, they still exist in any corner of society.

It's time to make your life easier.

He can't choose his gender, he can't choose who he will like, and he can't change everything around him, so choosing a way he wants to leave quietly may be his greatest happiness.

It's just that he will never forget that there was once a very beautiful little boy who told him seriously that he liked him.

Silly boy. At such a young age, I am afraid that I don't understand anything. But he stupidly said that he liked it, he didn't know enough about this little boy, he couldn't talk about the death of love, and he couldn't even talk about liking it, after all, he was still so young. No matter how human he is, he can't do anything to such a young child.

But he thought. No matter where you go. He will remember that heart-warming smile, which once warmed his heart briefly when he was very cold, and was able to simply like someone. It's also good.

If I can, I really hope to see what the child will look like when he grows up, whether he is the same as now, protected in a pure glass bottle like a little prince looking for a rose that will never wither, oh, no, he can have the courage to make a choice to call himself, and know how to exchange his forbearance for the happiness of his family, which means that the little prince has grown up.

It's a pity that he can't wait for the day when the little prince becomes a real responsible man, he thinks that the little boy who is very serious and has a warm smile will be very happy when he grows up.

At that time, I will also laugh at your growth in another time and space, and look forward to meeting the little princess that belongs to you as soon as possible.

Good bye.

Xiao Miao hung up the phone and looked at the rain outside the window, which suddenly became heavier.

When a person knows how to protect his family, and makes concessions and compromises, and no longer uses personality and love as an excuse to hurt those who love him, then he will grow up.

It's just that the price of growth is always so painful.

He really hopes that time will change faster, that he can grow up quickly, that he can have enough power to change the so-called rules, that he can protect the people he likes and not hurt his family, but he doesn't know if the people he likes will still be waiting for him when he has enough courage and strength to do all that.

If he can't love the person he loves, then at least he can use his own efforts to make his family who loves him better, and he will also work hard to live, no matter whether he is happy or not, he must also work hard to make himself happy, he can't fall, and he can't indulge, because he is not only a person, he still has the bonds of his family behind him.

No matter what the future holds, he thought, he will remember this pouring rain in the summer, he once tried hard to like someone, and then, grow.

On the heavy rain on the seaside, Chun Tao and Yu Hai stood side by side, looking at the stormy sea.

"Old man Han has arrested my sister now, I think he must have laid a net waiting for us to go over." Chun Tao wiped the rain off her face vigorously, which was really not a very refreshing feeling.

knows that the other party intends to yin himself, but he still wants to pass.

What's even more unpleasant is that she has to drag the man she loves to go over with her.

"But he wasn't very clever enough to put the meeting place at sea." Yu Hai said.

Chun Tao nodded, this is also what she can't understand.

Old man Han didn't know that she had an ocean system, and she had a unique advantage in fighting in the sea.

But this doesn't seem to be logical, if Old Man Han is bent on taking revenge on Yu Hai and her, a smarter way should be to let her and Yu Hai go to an unknown island, ambush a bunch of people, and kill her in 10,000 ways, the meeting place is set in the sea, there are too many uncertain factors, isn't it enough for Old Man Han to suffer in the sea last time?

"If I say, let you go back, I'll go over and fight myself, will you be angry?" Chun Tao asked tentatively, and Yu Hai smiled casually.

"Guess?"

"I know you love me, but this time it's estimated that it's also a life of nine deaths, I think so, if I can't fight that old man, you can stay and help me avenge, we still have 2 children underage, if we really go together and be wiped out, what should the children do?"

Chun Tao thought more completely at this time, she was not only a man's wife, but also the mother of the child.

She didn't think about hiding Yu Hai's matter, nor did she think about hiding her current thoughts, her feelings came to the sake of living and dying together, she didn't care about deception, she didn't want to hide anything from him, she just wanted to tell him what she really thought in her heart.

(To be continued.) )

PS: That's it for Xiao Miao's story, 5 years later, he died on the front line, and the two didn't see each other until they died.