142- She said to herself: It's good to be alive

On April 3, 2000, the first day of the relationship between Tang Muchuan and Zhanyan, he took her slender hand, rubbed the jade on her wrist that was not very good, and asked with a smile:

"Is it important to you? I've seen you wearing it all the time. โ€

Zhan Yan lowered his eyes and looked at the jade bracelet on his wrist, and shook it slightly:

"My grandmother gave it to my mother, and my mother kept me, and I have been wearing it since I was a teenager, and it is my life."

It may not be Zhanyan's life, and Zhanyan doesn't see that what he said is the truth, but Tang Muchuan really regards it as Zhanyan's life because he loves Zhanyan, and when he heard this, he took Zhanyan's hand and kissed it gently: "Okay, I will guard it like I protect you." โ€

On July 7, 2003, Zhan Yan disappeared, half a month of searching only found this bracelet, everyone said that Zhan Yan had little chance of survival, he didn't believe it, so he began to be obsessed with it for five years, and later said that he was disappointed, saying that he compromised to reality, and he pinned all his feelings on Zhan Yan on this bracelet.

Guarding it is like guarding it.

It's still there, which proves that Zhanyan is still there.

But I didn't want to, this hope was shattered after all, and a woman who looked exactly like her face broke her.

Tang Muchuan couldn't help but be angry and couldn't stay calm, this was his spiritual sustenance, this was the outlet for all his feelings, and this was also what he protected with his life.

He didn't feel how ruthless he was to Qin Se, because she never understood the pain of losing the person he loved the most, he felt that he had indulged her too much, given her freedom, gave her status, and gave everyone respect for her, except for the title she didn't want, he gave everything he could, was it because he gave too much that it caused her self-righteousness?

Does she think that she can really replace her face, so she is so bold? was so bold that the only connection between him and Zhanyan was also ruined by her.

How not to hate?

It shattered, as if faith had collapsed with it.

Once a person loses faith, reason will gradually dissipate.

So he couldn't see Qin Se's pain, he couldn't feel her cold, he only knew that he was almost desperate at this time, he really wanted to kill the woman in front of him.

It's just that......

When the hot tears touched the skin on his hands, his heart seemed to be ironed, he was slightly stunned, looking at the familiar face in front of him, he suddenly let go, what was he doing? He actually wanted to kill Zhan Yan with his own hands?

Qin Se, who had lost her support, no longer had half the strength to support herself, and fell at Tang Muchuan's feet, coughing violently, every sound would involve pain all over her body, but she wouldn't say it, because it wouldn't be useful, and she wouldn't beg someone who tried to kill her.

Qin Se's coughing made Tang Muchuan frown slightly, and he lowered his eyes to look at Qin Se who was leaning down at his feet, and his voice was cold:

"You should be glad that you have such a face that is exactly the same as Yan Yan."

Qin Se smiled bitterly, yes, she was indeed glad, otherwise she would have been a dead soul under him by now.

"Yes, I should thank Zhanyan, but it's a pity that she's gone."

Qin Se's words made Tang Muchuan squat down, stretched out his hand to pick her chin, and just wanted to say something, but saw the calm in her eyes, Tang Muchuan was secretly surprised, she didn't even have a little affection, as if everything that happened in front of her had nothing to do with her, and she was just a bystander.

Tang Muchuan opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything, and he seemed to understand something.

Suddenly, he felt something drift away from him.

Qin Se couldn't wait for his words, and gently broke away from his clamps:

"If Mr. Tang is okay, I'll go first."

Mr. Tang? Heh, it's been a long time since I've heard her call herself, how long will it take to change this time?

Every slight movement would involve pain all over her body, but Qin Se had to leave, the air here was very thin because of Tang Muchuan's storage, and she couldn't breathe.

Tang Muchuan didn't stop her, let her stand up unnaturally, and walked towards the door step by step, Tang Muchuan kept his original posture and didn't move, and it took a long time before he reacted, looking at the limping back, he suddenly wanted to tear her disguise.

Why is she so calm? Why doesn't she shout and make trouble? Why didn't she beg for mercy? Why didn't she shed a single tear from beginning to end?

This made Tang Muchuan deeply powerless and angry at the same time.

"Qin Se!"

As soon as her hand touched the doorknob, the voice behind her came to her eardrums, perhaps because she was afraid of his means, so she shrank so unexpectedly, smiled bitterly, and did not look back, holding the doorknob to support her aching body:

"Do you have any other instructions from Mr. Tang?"

"You're no longer eligible to stay in the master bedroom."

Qin Se tugged at the corners of his mouth:

"I see."

Look at now, she who had been excluded from living in another woman's room from the beginning, and now she has been kicked out, how shameful it is, and how domineering he is, it is he who keeps her to stay overnight, and it is he who drives herself out. He is the king who dominates Yiqiฤ“, and she is just a grass people, and life and death are not up to her.

It took all her strength to open the heavy door, and it wasn't until it slowly closed behind her that Qin Se felt alive.

She tried to make herself smile:

It's good to be alive.

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The master bedroom can't go back, and I don't want to go back, the guest room is downstairs, but I don't know if it belongs to her, Qin Se has never been to the beach in the middle of the night, and has stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window to see its turbulence and horror, but at this moment close but I also feel that it is just so, how can it be so scary? It's nothing more than being in a greenhouse that magnifies its damage.

The forces of nature are indeed unpredictable, but more often than not, they are docile and easy to fall in love with, not like humans, moody.

The sea breeze was a little strong, but perhaps it was because of this wind that she blew away a lot of pain on her body, she bent her legs, hugged herself tightly, and comforted alone: Pain, pain, pain, it hurts harder, it can keep her awake for a long time, a long lesson, he is a tiger, why did he treat him as a cat before?

It was he who used gentleness to weave a web of intoxication, enveloping her, so that she was infected unconsciously, only remembering his gentleness and forgetting his cruelty.

She doesn't blame anyone, only that she is not sober enough, and if she keeps her sanity all the time, I'm afraid she won't let others have a chance to take advantage of it.

Who is the other? Except for Tang Qiqi, she doesn't make the second choice, as for why she did this, she doesn't know, and she doesn't want to know, if the ending has already appeared, how important is the process? At least she didn't take it seriously. But she won't let people calculate in vain, and she won't be willing to swallow this breath.

A person suddenly sat down beside him, Qin Se felt it, but he still buried his head between his knees, and he didn't mean to raise his head.

She didn't want to talk, no matter who she was with, she had to stay away from anyone on this island and keep the safest distance.

"Well, I'll show you it?"

It was Mu Yan, Qin Se heard his voice, but it was a little different from him to be so cautious.

"No, thank you."

"I think it's better to take a look, at least don't blow the cold wind here, you have injuries on your body, if you catch a cold and fever again, it will be difficult to deal with."

Qin Se didn't speak again, her attitude was already clear enough, I believe anyone can clearly know that she will not accept help, and would rather die alone.

Mu Yan was a little embarrassed, looked back at the figure standing on the second floor of the villa, and scolded secretly. It's really a long skill, and you actually learned to beat women? The subject is actually Qin Se, who is no different from Zhanyan! If it weren't for him Tang Muchuan himself, he wouldn't believe that this was something he would have done.

He didn't ask why, this reason was still not half interesting to Mu Yan, but he felt that since Tang Muchuan had given the death order and had to help Qin Se check it, the injured Cheng Dรน was definitely much heavier than the last time, and based on the professional ethics of a doctor, he should be responsible.

Mu Yan looked up at the night sky that was getting gloomy and gloomy, and his tone became stronger:

"It's going to rain soon, you'd better come with me, I don't want to be here with you in the rain, and besides, you can refuse me, but I'll still forcibly take you away, so you choose."

Qin Se finally had a slight reaction, raised his head from his knees, but didn't look at him, looking at the sea level in front of him, his expression was faint, and the street lamp not far away shrouded her lightly, revealing unspeakable loneliness and loneliness.

"Did he let you come?"

"I'm not a nosy person."

"I don't have room to refuse?"

Mu Yan sighed:

"In fact, he's standing in front of the window watching you right now."

There is really no pure land on this island that belongs to any of them, Qin Se smiled self-deprecatingly, and barely stood up from the beach:

"Let's go."

Mu Yan didn't know what Qin Se was thinking, but he was naturally happy with this result, he happily followed, walked in front of Qin Se in a few steps to lead the way for her, and when he walked a few steps and turned around to talk to her, he found that Qin Se had actually fallen far away, and the voice that originally wanted to greet her faster was stuck in his throat after seeing her limping walking posture.

Mu Yan turned back and stood in front of Qin Se:

"I'm carrying you?"

Qin Se shook his head, his face cold:

"Not necessarily."

"It's always okay to help you, right?"

"Not necessarily."

Mu Yan frowned slightly, he had never seen a hundred years of wanting to be nosy and was rejected so simply, he was inevitably a little depressed in his heart, but he was standing under the street lamp at this time, so he clearly saw the dark red mark on Qin Se's neck, and frowned slightly.

Qin Se didn't understand his silence, let alone ask, but she didn't want to stand in someone's sight for too long:

"Can I go?"

Mu Yan nodded:

"Yes."

This time, Mu Yan restrained his temperament, and slowly followed her side with Qin Se's speed, he thought, this woman looked like she was going to fall down at any time, and it would be much safer if he was closer. R1154