Chapter 68: Epiphany
With such a secret, Cheng Wanyu felt that she seemed to have a better relationship with Steward Fan and others in the front yard.
Not because they knew the absurdity of staying overnight with an adult man, but because they didn't bring it back to Donglianghe in the days since they disappeared.
Cheng Wanyu suddenly felt that she might be able to trust these people, or hopefully turn them into her confidants.
Strange to say, since that day she killed someone. The suppressed feeling in my heart seems to be released all at once from the shackles that I can't break free.
At first, Cheng Wanyu was still confused, and couldn't believe that she was a restless bloodthirsty woman in her bones.
Later, when I thought about it deeply, the most comfortable days since I was reborn were not to return to Huaizhou Mansion.
Isn't it the guilt that she has been suppressing herself that she wants to fulfill others. Isn't it just holding a heart of atonement and begging others to spoil you?
After the killing, Cheng Wanyu realized a truth. It turned out that in his previous life, he sent himself into a dead end. It's me who got into the horns of the bull, thinking that everyone in the world can't stand me.
She regretted it, regretted the marriage she had forced over all of her. But she couldn't help it, her self-esteem didn't allow others to see the slightest bit of her unwillingness.
She learned from the women of Tracy Min, the ones she used to disdain the most. She thought that she had become someone else, and she could change it in one qiē.
The more you learn from others, the more you beg for the whole life, the worse your life will be. A sweet date and a slap, pretending to be generous with a sweet smile and letting Li Muxue enter the door. pretending to be a good wife to others. One day she couldn't pretend to be able to do anything, so she turned her head and did something hurtful.
Cheng Wanyu thought about it carefully, isn't that what it is. She was given a new life, and she wanted to learn to be a living bodhisattva.
Look at her since she came back. When a good heart does a good thing, when a furious crown ruins a business. Isn't this all her contradictory sandwich rice!
In her last life, she did a lot of good deeds for the Cui family. The crops were saved by her, and her father-in-law Cui Ming was also killed by her. Qu Daya's mother and son were brought back by her kindness, you must know that Cui Ximin didn't care much about that concubine at that time. But in the end, didn't she also sell that child? Cui Ximin's life was ruined in his own hands, and he went to guard the grave of others.
Cheng Wanyu slapped herself lightly, she deserved to be uncomfortable for the rest of her life. Eating a hundred beans is not fishy. I found it all myself.
"You are yourself. I am the wicked woman Cheng Wanyu. Don't pretend to be pitiful and innocent anymore, and try to please men. Cheng Wanyu angrily broke the wooden hairpin in her hand, and the determination in her eyes was revealed.
Xiaocui watched Cheng Wanyu break the wooden hairpin she had always loved. There was a flash of relief and joy in his eyes. It seems that Miss's 'going up the mountain to Bigu' is really effective, and she doesn't even want the love token given by Cui Ximin.
Worried that Cheng Wanyu would regret it when she saw things and thought about people, Xiao Cui hurriedly took out the two halves of the wooden hairpin when Cheng Wanyu went out. I turned the corner and went into the kitchen, and threw it into the fire that had not yet been extinguished.
Watching the polished and shiny hairpin suddenly be swallowed by the fire. Xiao Cui nodded secretly: Even if the young lady finds out, I will admit it if I let people whip me.
Inside this home. Only Cheng Wanyu and Xiaocui know about this wooden hairpin. One day, Cheng Wanyu was in a good mood and talked about the past with this wooden hairpin.
That was when Cui Ximin rescued Cheng Wanyu, and the Cheng family gave Cui Ximin twenty taels of silver as a token of gratitude. Cui Ximin didn't accept the money, sent Cheng Wanyu home and left.
Cheng Wanyu was not happy. thought it was her father who slammed the door. Later, he saw Trish Min in the market and had to give him a small piece of broken silver. Cui Ximin reluctantly took the money, turned his head and bought a wooden hairpin with exquisite workmanship.
Tracy Min's unintentional move. But I want to give it back. But I didn't expect Cheng Wanyu to be a girl, because this wooden hairpin had the idea of making a promise with her body.
Later, the two occasionally met. Tracy Min didn't take it to heart either. After all, the age difference between the two is somewhat, and he always thought in his heart that he would marry Qu Daya.
It was precisely because Cui Ximin was a teenager at the time that he mistakenly thought that Cheng Wanyu's closeness was only because he was a life-saving benefactor. And Cheng Wanyu saw that Cui Ximin did not resist, and thought that the two of them were interested in Lang You's concubine.
If it weren't for the conversation when the two broke up in the end, I didn't know that this knot and misunderstanding would lead to a lifetime of regret.
Cheng Wanyu is a person who does what she says, and since she wants to understand her own problems, she must continue to do it in one go.
When she returned to the room and saw that the hairpin had been broken by herself, the hairpin that had been broken by herself was gone. Although I felt a little sad, I still decided to give up all my past.
Cheng Wanyu changed her clothes and beckoned Steward Fan to follow her out. With the fright a few days ago, even if Cheng Wanyu didn't say anything this time, a few men in the front yard would follow.
Steward Fan followed Cheng Wanyu to Xicheng and saw with her own eyes the house and shop she bought at a great price. Before I reacted for a while, this alley was really broken.
It has been raining for the past two days, and when I entered the back alley, I saw small mud puddles one by one. If you go further inside, you can even smell the stench, not to mention how difficult the road is.
I watched the young lady wearing delicate white embroidered shoes embroidered with peonies, carrying her skirt and stepping on the tiles little by little. Steward Fan finally let go of the prejudice against Cheng Wanyu in his heart, turned his head and stepped into the mud. Stretched out his arm to help Cheng Wanyu walk into the alley steadily.
When the people around saw Cheng Wanyu's style, they immediately understood that this was a young lady from a big family.
One by one, they stood aside, staring at the freshness without speaking. Watching Cheng Wanyu walk into the alley and stop, then the man who was like the servant in charge opened the door and walked in.
"Hey, look how handsome this looks. It's the lady and wife of a big family! ”
The self-contained and well-informed one pouted: "How can a big family come to see the house in person?" They all sent the girls around them to run errands, so this is a maid in a big family. ”
This Ma Po is well-informed on weekdays and is a well-known stable woman in the neighborhood. Occasionally, I have the opportunity to go to a large family, and everyone is convinced by what she says.
"It turned out to be a maid from a big family, and she was also a powerful housekeeper!" Someone is curious. Keep asking.
Ma Pozi pouted: "This may not be, some little girls are climbing high branches in their hearts!" ”
talked about the concubine I gave to a big family a while ago. It's called a thrilling one, and the intrigue in the back house is vividly said. Let a group of women who have only been to the city gate at the farthest on weekdays and go to the grave of Lao Tzu Niang sigh for a while.
"I saw it there, it was real. The master doesn't care at all, anyway, he doesn't lack concubines or sons. The wife in charge is different, her face is anxious like something. When the master of the house comes. Pretending to have his back to the people, he was there with his hands folded and his eyes closed to worship the Buddha. ”
Ma Pozi said as she shook her hands. Learn from that lady vividly.
When the master saw that his wife was so virtuous, he was so moved that he almost cried. Wait until the master is gone, hum! Ma Pozi pouted: "The wife of the house has tears in her eyes." Pull down your face, and your eyes seem to have poison. ”
Ma Pozi learned to make a devil's face again: "Quick, go and see." If you can't give birth, you can give medicine, ...... stable woman."
When everyone saw Ma Pozi's body, they changed their voices: "No matter what, the little one must be given me to survive."
Then Ma Pozi pouted: "Women." The first production was quite slow. Later, the child was born, and it was a big fat girl. ”
She sighed, "I heard it's a girl." The little concubine howled at that time. said everything, and the little girl who was born was scolded by her mother for being an unlucky ghost and a money-loser. ”
When everyone heard this, they frowned, and they all said: "This is too vicious, this is biological!" ”
"That's right. It doesn't matter if it's a male doll or a female doll, it's all your own flesh! ”
Ma Pozi laughed and said: "I don't have a son, I'm afraid I won't be able to trap a man." But it was the wife in charge, who changed her face when she heard that she was a daughter. It's like something rare. Hurriedly asked someone to get it for the waiter. I personally hugged it to the master of the house, and I was so happy that it was like I was born. ”
The daughters-in-law and children present sighed. said that the concubines of big families were not happy.
As he was talking, someone suddenly realized, pointed to Ma Pozi and said, "No wonder you, your flower-like girl is married." ”
When everyone heard this, they immediately laughed and scolded Mrs. Ma for being an old fox, and someone had taken a fancy to her daughter and wanted to accept her as a concubine. Ma Pozi didn't agree at all, and within a few days, she got engaged to her daughter for a marriage. Married to a big-headed soldier who ran out of the mountains, no father and no relatives, and tied his head to the waistband of his pants.
How many people in the whole alley spat behind their backs, saying that Ma Pozi was out of tune. I don't want to let the rich people go, but I actually find such a person. If you want nothing, one day you will be a widow if you die.
Today, I heard Ma Pozi say this, and being a little wife for others may not be able to have too many good days. There is food, drink, and new clothes, but this life is also clutched in the hands of other people's wives.
Everyone was talking energetically, and a little daughter-in-law dressed in blue came over.
Isn't this the daughter of the Ma Pozi I just mentioned, the one who married the big-headed soldier!
Ma Pozi proudly looked at the spring breeze, and the big bag and small wrap were chickens, ducks and fish and rabbits. pretended to be a tiger and shouted loudly: "How many times have I told you, don't always go to your mother's house to get things." Uncle is not angry, you have to know how to live! ”
Ma Mingyue smiled brightly disapprelicly, and she accompanied the old lady and said angrily: "He can't get out of the camp all day, and he is afraid that I will be afraid of being alone at home, so he will send me back to my parents' house for two days." ”
deliberately raised the things in his hand, looking at a group of women with red eyes and jealousy, he couldn't express the joy in his heart: "This is my food expenses." ”
Ma Pozi smiled and danced her teeth and claws, and showed off to a group of women: "Ah, my uncle." I'm afraid that I will treat my daughter badly, and I will send food and drink to my home all day long as if I don't need money! ”
Ma Mingyue was content to enjoy the fanatical and jealous eyes of the neighbors, and accidentally caught a glimpse of a beautiful woman coming out of the alley.
She didn't know if her face was pretty, but she saw the pearls faintly peeking out of her earlobes from a distance.
couldn't help frowning: When did such a woman appear in such a place? (To be continued) R655