*I feel like I'm missing something, so I've added this chapter again.,Finally, you can rest assured that the ending.,There's still a chapter in the finale to be sent later.,Hehe*

"I thought you'd eventually go back to the North and be my wife. But after all these years, you still don't have me in your heart. Only I wrote to you, sent things, and came to see you secretly. But you never thought about going back. Zhirong, I am also a sad person, and I also need someone to accompany me. Heartbreak is heart death. I'm dead set on you. ”

Zhirong felt unable to move, her head buzzed, and her trembling lips struggled to squeeze out the words. "Jin Zixuan, no, in fact, I, in fact, things are not what you think. I don't have Yanhua in my heart anymore. ”

Oops, Zhirong said secretly, what is Yanhua in front of Jin Zixuan at this time, although these two people have not had disputes over the years, the fact that the enemy is irreversible.

"Oh?" Jin Zixuan's face was surprised, and then he stared at the mask in his hand and was silent for a while before asking, "So, do you love me?" ”

Do you love me?

For the first time in so many years, Jin Zixuan asked her so bluntly.

However, Zhirong felt her heart beating faster and was inexplicably excited. This question was too sudden, and Zhirong was also blindsided all of a sudden, and her speech was a little incoherent.

"I, I don't know." She realized her mistake and stopped talking, but at this time, Jin Zixuan's face was already very ugly, and she immediately put on a mask and walked out. All that was left for Zhirong was the silver hair, which fluttered, and Zhirong's heart trembled.

I only heard his cold voice echoing in my ears: "I don't know, I've been waiting for so many years." As a result, what I was waiting for was your sentence that I didn't know? Bai Zhirong, you are too selfish, you haven't thought about my feelings all these years? I don't want to wait any longer. ”

Wait until the figure is gone. The voice dissipated, and Zhirong's whole person suddenly felt weak, and fell on the bright red fabric, tears streaming down the embroidery, "Jin Zixuan, actually, I seem to be in love with you." It's just that I'm scared. ”

In the past, she would not have thought of retreating emotionally and would only face difficulties, but this time she suddenly felt scared and fearful. I have been running away until today to watch the person I love marry another woman.

The wedding dress in this hand is the happiness of the lucky woman, but it is the bondage that she Bai Zhirong sewed for herself. Jin Zixuan married someone else, in this life. She can really only spend time in the court dispute monk palace bureau.

She will be greeted by a long night. Danger everywhere. However, in the current situation, who is she to blame. Zhirong looked at his hands, it was these hands and that cowardly heart that personally buried his happiness.

Since Jin Zixuan came, Zhirong rarely went out, embroidering day and night. Only embroidery can relax her temporarily. The rest of the time is spent in dreams of being in a daze and crying. Such days lasted until the wedding dress was completed.

Chunhua and a few girls couldn't stand it, but no matter how much persuasion they tried, it didn't work. Wen Xin and Zhiyan often come to see Zhirong, but Zhirong is also wilted and can't keep up her spirits. The preoccupied appearance was all revealed, just listening to the two of them talk about the things in the palace. But he seldom speaks.

Only Shen Qing is still the same as before, happy all day long. Shen Heng went out to run errands these days, and she became more unrestrained. Either looking for someone to compete everywhere, or taking the child to watch Zhirong embroidery on the side, and keep saying some interesting things. However, Zhirong didn't seem to hear it at all.

Everyone is trying to make Zhirong happy, but at the same time, they are unified, and no one will mention anything related to Jin Zixuan. However, only Zhirong understands best, and the wedding dress in her hand reminds her of the fact that Jin Zixuan is about to get married.

"Shen Qing, I want to go out for a walk alone. Go back. Zhirong kissed Shen Qing's forehead, and gently pinched the chubby little face. Take the kids home. ”

Shen Qing put on a cloak for Zhirong, "Lord, it's just rained and you are careful of catching a cold at night." After becoming a mother, although Shen Qing is still so naughty, she is more careful in doing things.

Zhirong left the mansion, and Shen Qing sent Ling'er and Jin Ming to follow. and instructed the two to follow quietly, keep a distance, and don't let the master find out. With the Dark Guard to follow, she was relieved to go back.

The streets were wet, and Zhirong walked slowly, aimlessly like a wandering spirit. She has walked this street countless times, but the most vivid memory is the night when she was assassinated at the Apricot Grove Restaurant, and the stormy night when her silver hair fluttered in the wind.

Unconsciously, she stood at the door of the Apricot Grove Restaurant again. She walked in slowly, and the shopkeeper immediately saluted when he saw her, and Zhirong made a gesture and hugged herself. The shopkeeper wanted to open his mouth to say something, but was stopped by a man.

Pushing open the door, the room was pitch black, and the shopkeeper didn't even send someone to light the lamp, which was too strange. However, the smell of good wine on the apricot grove still wafted over, and she smelled the wine with a cold light in her eyes, and at the same time the golden needle in her hand flew out.

More than a dozen golden needles flew out and all fell silently, without even the sound of landing. Then Zhirong felt that her body seemed to be disobedient, and a gust of wind came to her face, followed by a palm.

The palm of his hand covered her eyes, the other wrapped his arms around her waist, and then something felt like something was covering her lips, and then a strong and warm old wine entered her mouth, down her throat and into her abdomen.

If it was usual, she would have fought hard a long time ago, and even if she resisted, she would not let the other party succeed. However, while smelling the wine, she also smelled a special light medicinal aroma, a smell that she could not forget until she died.

After she was poisoned by the cold poison that year, Jin Zixuan turned gray in order to save her. At that time, in order to regain his vitality, he had been taking medicinal baths. And the last time we met, she could smell that special smell.

I remember Wei Ting said that Jin Zixuan may not be able to do without medicinal baths in this life. Once you don't take a medicinal bath for more than half a year, the cold poison will attack again, and it will be more severe than before.

Every time she mentioned the matter of medicinal baths in the correspondence, Jin Zixuan mentioned it in passing. Zhirong sniffed the scent on his body, thinking about the loneliness he had suffered alone in the north all these years, and resented himself more and more in his heart.

Loneliness is a more painful thing than death. And she knows better than anyone the suffering of those who endure loneliness. She hugged Jin Zixuan instead, tears sliding down her cheeks.

"In this life, I owe you so much. I finally understood that no one will always be waiting for you, and it will be difficult to get it back if you lose it. No matter who you marry, as long as you are no longer lonely and have someone to accompany you for a lifetime, I will bless you. ”

As soon as the words fell, she was pushed away by Jin Zixuan, and then she heard the other party roar angrily: "Bai Zhirong, you are such a bastard!" (To be continued......)