Chapter 30: A Moment of Happiness. A hesitant heart, a warm heart, a happy heart

Mountains, things that make people feel stable, things that change over time.

Water, something that makes people feel comfortable, something that is cheerful.

The sun, something like no other. The golden sun gives people something warm. Something to crave for something.

The moon, the unique thing, the silver moon, the soft thing, the lonely thing, the thing I have. Dislike.

The sky, the blue sky, what the eye can see, what the eye can't see.

Blue, hair color, favorite color.

The sky, the sky at sunset. Red sky.

Red, eye color, blood color, nasty color. Dislike.

Flowing water, blood. The things you see when you're hurt, it's painful, it's annoying.

Beautiful. Rei Ayana. My name, who am I......

In the hospital room, Leigh slowly opened her eyes. After the battle with the Thunder Angels, Rei and Shinji are rescued by the staff of NERV. Due to her injuries, when she was carried on a stretcher, Li fell asleep from exhaustion, and was sent directly to the treatment room. And Shinji was also burned by the ultra-high temperature of the plug, and also came to the hospital for treatment. After some treatment and bandaging, Shinji looked at his tightly wrapped hands and was a little speechless. After shrugging her shoulders, she began to ask Ritsuko about Rei's hospital room. After finding the ward, he moved a chair and sat on the side of the bed, just by Li's side. However, after a fierce battle, coupled with that extreme fighting style, even the iron body couldn't stand it, and it didn't take long for Shinji to lie on the side of the girl's bed, looking at the face as white as moonlight. Gradually fell asleep.

Shinji-kun. He's by my side again. A hint of emotion flashed in the girl's eyes. She didn't want to disturb the teenager's rest. So he looked at the ceiling with red eyes. And in her mind, different figures gradually began to emerge.

Commander Ikari, the one who made me. The one who saved me. Someone who has smiled at me. Someone who used to give me warmth.

But.

Every time I look at him, I can't see my existence in his eyes. I can't disobey his orders. Very scared.

Dr. Akagi. The people who treated me were very gentle with me.

But.

Every time I looked at her, I saw a deep disgust for me. I don't understand why. Very scared.

Katsuragi Lieutenant, the one who lives with Shinji-kun. Cheerful person, very kind.

But.

People who rarely talk to me and don't care about me. Her relationship with Shinji-kun is very envious.

Maya Ibuki, Makoto Hinata, Shigeru Aoba, the person of Fuyutsuki Deputy Commander RV, a familiar person.

But.

Someone who has never spoken. Strangers, they don't like me, don't like me.

Heart. Something unknown, something I have. Something warm, but I can't feel it in storage. It's cold.

Blood. Something inside the human body. Something you see every time you get hurt. Very scared. Every time it comes out, it's cold.

Hurt, painful. Injuries are injured every time you drive an EVA. But I had to drive. I saved it for the purpose of driving EVA. Injuries have long been a habit.

But.

It's really painful. Nobody cares. It hurts. Even if the injury is healed, it still hurts, and my chest hurts. The teacher said that that is the location of the heart, and the heart hurts. It is only when I am in pain that I can feel the presence of my heart. But I don't feel the warmth. It's painful, it's hard.

The room was messy, no one taught me how to make it tidy, and it wasn't taught in the school books.

The food was delicious, no one taught me how to do it, and it wasn't taught in the school books.

Fairy tales, things to yearn for, but that's not reality, even if you want a story you want, but I'm the only one, and I can't do anything. The school books don't teach how to do it. It's lonely.

Nobody cares about me.

First Lieutenant Katsuragi doesn't care, Dr. Ritsuko doesn't, Maya Ibuki doesn't, and Deputy Commander Fuyutsuki doesn't care. It's very uncomfortable

Commander Ikari. Concerned about me. However, that feeling is very uncomfortable. There was no zài me in his eyes, and he was very afraid.

Beautiful. Rei Ayana, my name, who I am. I don't know, there are many of them, and I'm just one of them.

Dolls. The people at nerv said so about me privately. I'm just a puppet at the mercy of Commander Ikati. There is no heart, only obedience to orders. I was born to fight in EVA. It doesn't matter if I get defeated, because someone will replace me.

"I'm a puppet. A doll that can only drive an EVA. No one will care about me. There was a hint of self-deprecation in Leigh's eyes. Looking at the familiar ceiling, he muttered to himself. A crystal teardrop slipped down the corner of his eye.

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"Li, your storage zài, for me. Very important! ”

"Huh?"

Rei looked at the boy beside the bed. The boy was still lying quietly on the side of the bed, and there was no movement. But there was a smile on the boy's face. Very satisfying and warm.

"Shinji-kun."

Yes. Shinji-kun, Shinji Ikari. Commander Ikati's son. The third qualified. Since he appeared, my world has changed.

The first touch. I was very injured but had to drive the Eva. As a result of the Apostle's attack, the zenith city collapsed, and a huge chandelier fell on me, and it was he who saved me. Even though he was covered in wounds, he still smiled at me, he cared about me. His smile was full of self-reproach. Although I don't understand why, leaning on his arms, the feeling of security.

The second touch. The start of the zero machine failed, and I was rejected by the zero machine again and ejected from the body. Huge concussion, I was injured again. He was the one who saved me, risking his own safety to get me out of the plug, and he still smiled at me. He cares about me and his smile is gentle. Although I don't understand why, leaning into his arms, the feeling of dependence.

The third touch. In my home, I saw his panicked look as I had just finished taking a shower. I wanted to figure out why I cared, but he said it was his instincts. Gut feeling? The first feeling of a person. Why care? I don't deserve his care, even though I would love to be cared for, but, why not Commander Ikari.

"I don't deserve your attention." I said to him self-deprecatingly. "I'm just a puppet." Right. I'm just a puppet. I don't deserve anyone's attention. But he grabbed my shoulders and said to me very seriously, "Li, your storage zài is very important to me!" "He didn't smile, but from his eyes I saw my snack. The storage zài that is concerned by people. He cares about me. I burst into tears. For the first time, I took the initiative to touch someone. I seem to get it. Leaning into his arms, the feeling of happiness.

The fourth touch. The battle with the Fifth Apostle, it was my job to protect the first machine from sniping. The apostles were so powerful that even the shields used for defense were shattered. I barely managed to block it with the body of Machine Zero, but the Apostle's attack was too powerful. I'm in pain. Just when I couldn't hold on, it was he who propped up the powerful A.Tfield to protect me. He saved me again from the plug insertion. Unlike last time, he hugged me tightly, he cried, and I felt his tears slip down my shoulders. Why is he crying? I don't understand.

"The reason I drive EVA is because I want to protect the people I love and love me...... And you are the one I want to protect. "At that moment, my heart was beating, and I felt its snaming, its snag except for pain.

"Li, don't say that you have nothing, from today onwards, you have a family, me, Miri, Pianpin, and the future. Don't say goodbye when you part, because from this moment on, I will always protect you, and we will not be separated again. Never ......"

He took me into his arms again, and I could feel his heartbeat. Bang bang, nice to hear. It was warm.

I understand. That's caring, I see myself in his eyes, his smile makes me happy, and his arms fill me with happiness. And his heart. It gave me warmth, warmth that I have never felt before, the warmth of my heart. I'm no longer alone.

Yes. I'm no longer alone.

The girl smiled happily. Her smile was so touching.

"Leigh, are you awake? Sorry, I fell asleep. Feeling better? The boy rubbed his sleepy eyes. Look at the girl on the bed. The boy couldn't help but be stunned. Because he saw the most beautiful picture in the world. Li's sweet smile made the angel feel ashamed, and the moonlight was eclipsed.

"Li, your smile is really beautiful." The teenager was drunk. I couldn't help but blurt out the thoughts in my heart.

"Thank you, Shinji-kun." The girl's cheeks were slightly red, but she didn't let go of her happy smile because she was shy.

Shinji blushed a little because of what he thought. But seeing the girl's happy smiling face, he understood, maybe from this moment on, the girl in front of him finally opened her heart to herself. No matter what happens in the future, he wants to record this moment forever.

"Leigh. Although it is a little difficult for you, but. Can I take a picture? Your smile, I want to record it forever. Shinji was a little squirming, but he still spoke his mind.

"Hmm." The girl didn't refuse his request, "Shinji-kun, can we shoot together?" Is it okay for us to take a group photo? The girl's red cheeks looked particularly seductive.

"Well, of course." Shinji smiled, his handsome smiling face was so sunny and so warm.

Shinji wrapped his arms around Rei's shoulders and lifted Rei up from the bed. took his mobile phone on the cabinet next to him, turned on the camera function, two different smiling faces appeared on the camera at the same time, one sunshine, one gentle, the same thing, the smiles of the two people were filled with that thick happiness.

Click.

The flash flashed. The happy moment was permanently recorded by the mobile phone. That kind of smiling face is the happiness that belongs to two people.