Chapter 069: The Fear of Love
Chen Qiuniang talked to the two children for a long time before dispelling their fears and watching them fall asleep peacefully. Originally, she wanted to talk to Chen Liushi about going to work in the town, but Chen Liushi coaxed the two little ones to sleep early, she called a few times at the door of Chen Liu's house, but she didn't see her answer, but Chen Quanzhong heard her voice and began to curse viciously.
Chen Qiuniang didn't care about him, and washed and lay on the bed. As soon as the night came, she couldn't sleep, so she lay on the bed and thought that she had to arrange her trip to Liuhe Town. So I have been thinking about how to arrange it at home, and what to explain to Qiusheng Qiuxia, after all, Chen Liu's legs and feet are inconvenient, and he is old.
When she thought about it, coupled with Chen Quanzhong's sometimes humming and moaning, and sometimes scolding, she was even more sleepless, so she tossed and turned in bed for most of the night, and did not fall asleep until it was almost dawn.
As soon as she fell asleep for a while, in a daze, she heard Chen Liushi talking outside pointing at Sang and scolding, to the effect that the dog that couldn't keep a family would bite home when it was too big, and he didn't know how to be grateful at all. After a while, he was scolding again, and if he wanted to eat a hot meal, he had to do it himself.
Chen Qiuniang had already woken up at this time, and saw that the sun was bright outside the house, but it had been dawn for a while. But she was so tired that she really didn't want to get up, and she didn't want to face Chen Liu, who seemed to be crazy, so she simply lay on the bed. At this time, Chen Liu's two younger brothers made the two younger brothers cry loudly, and they were still scolding in their mouths: crying, you know crying, the things of the father and the mother, gave birth to you and raised you, will you know gratitude in the future?
It's not that Chen Qiuniang is sensitive. She felt that this sentence was directed at her. After all, Chen Liushi is an old lady in the countryside, and when she encounters these things, her narrow-minded side is undoubtedly revealed.
The two younger brothers cried even more, and Chen Liushi scolded Chen Qiusheng for being ignorant, not knowing how to serve his father, and not knowing how to coax his younger brother, which became more and more unlikely. After a while, it seemed that Chen Qiusheng went to coax the two younger brothers, and the two children stopped crying. Chen Liushi scolded Chen Qiuxia who was washing vegetables in the yard again: "Useless things, you can't wash vegetables, it's getting more and more unpleasant." Even respecting the elders and being filial to their fathers will not be able to learn the deeds of those little hooves and foxes. ”
Chen Qiuniang originally tolerated Chen Liu's family very much, and didn't care about her swearing at all. First, because she is in her thirties, this kind of swearing has no effect on her growth and development at all; The second reason is that she has also empathized with Chen Liu's and understands her. After all, the old lady has not had a good time in her life, and she has to live such a hard life when she is old, plus her son is not angry, and now she has broken her leg.
However, when she heard Chen Liushi cursing Chen Qiuxia like this, she was very unhappy. That kind of scolding, even if it is a scolding of a woman from a good family, is a great insult. She actually came to scold the five-year-old girl. Although this Chen Qiuxia is ignorant and simple-minded, she can't understand this kind of words, she must get it to understand, once she understands, it will cause a lot of harm to this girl.
Chen Qiuxia was scolded, but she just cried twice. Chen Liushi said sharply again: "You know crying, what can you do?" ”
Chen Qiu didn't even cry after that. Chen Qiuniang was angry and sad when she heard it. The angry thing is that the old lady is confused, and thinks that her son is reliable, unreasonable, and a good family, but she has to make trouble, and she has to make trouble with her grandchildren; The sad thing is that this Chen Qiuxia, in this kind of family, day and night worried about starving to death or being sold by her father, her personality has been completely deformed. Chen Qiuxia does not have the spirituality of a little girl at all, let alone the innocence and liveliness of a five-year-old girl, the whole person is stupid, she looks like a frightened bird all day long, and her speech and demeanor are timid.
Chen Qiuniang was upset when she heard Chen Liu's scolding, and felt that if she didn't get up again, maybe this Chen Liu's would scold something even more ugly. So, she rolled over and got up, and when she was dressed, she slammed the door open so hard that the whole wooden shelf was shaky. Chen Liu, who was scolding Chen Qiuxia in the courtyard, was stunned for a moment. Chen Qiuniang stood under the eaves like no one else, and shouted to Chen Liushi with a smile: "Grandma, good morning." ”
Chen Liushi was stunned for a moment, only snorted coldly, and continued to wash the iron rape leaves by the well platform. Chen Qiuniang went to the well to fetch water and wash, and while pulling the wheel, she said as if chatting: "Grandma, this child Qiuxia is always not clever in doing things, you should say a few words." It's just that what kind of fox is a charmer, grandma scolded it, let the people next to it listen, and think that our tutor is not good. ”
"You taught me a lesson?" Chen Liushi swept Chen Qiuniang unhappily.
Chen Qiuniang suppressed the anger in her heart, sighed and said, "Grandma, the intimate words that our grandparents and grandchildren said in the past, I think of them warmly. No matter how hard and tiring I am for this family, I also think it is worth it, with my grandmother and younger siblings to support me. Now, when grandma says these words, Qiu Niang is really--, really cold-hearted. ”
"Hmph, your wings are stiff, and if you want to leave when it's cold, just go." Chen Liushi lost such a sentence.
Chen Qiuniang didn't speak for a while. To be honest, don't want this old and young oil bottle of the Chen family, she goes out to mix, not limited to the surroundings of Liucun, it must be better than now. But she couldn't let go of these children who were counting on her, and she was reluctant to let Chen Liu's evening scene be too bleak, because Chen Quanzhong was really unreliable. As soon as she leaves, the family will soon be separated and collapse.
"Grandma, you're angry again. You will always be my grandma. I've been trying my best to keep our family from being separated by the difficulties of life. This is a good home, and it can't be dispersed. Otherwise, even if the two younger brothers are lucky enough to find a family that can support them, life may not be easy. The future was ruined. Chen Qiuniang said from the bottom of her heart, I just want this old lady not to make such a fuss, making each other unhappy.
Chen Liushi lowered his head to wash the vegetables and did not speak for a long time. After Chen Qiuniang finished washing, she felt that she still had to speak thoroughly, if Chen Liushi was still obsessed. She didn't think much about trying to do anything to her in the future. So, she said, "Grandma, I know that you are bitter in your heart, and I also know that you feel sorry for your father." However, Qiu Niang is also your granddaughter, and you brought it to such a big one-handedness. I care about my grandmother and want her to have a good life. Not only that, but I also want to live a decent life without being a rural village man; I also want Qiuxia to marry beautifully and have a good time; I want the two younger brothers to be healthy and promising. Grandma, our family has to survive, Qiu Niang is only nine years old, you are the backbone, the guiding light. How can you misunderstand Qiu Niang like this. Besides, what did grandma say, this is my home, and all my relatives here, how could I leave. ”
Chen Liushi lowered his head to wash the vegetables, and only after a while did he come out: "Don't just say that you are obedient." ”
Chen Qiuniang chewed this sentence repeatedly, and suddenly understood the meaning of this sentence: Don't just say that you won't leave, and then you won't care about the family. At this point, she somewhat understood that Chen Liu's scolding was actually afraid that she would leave this house and leave them. Probably Chen Liu's more and more feel that Chen Qiuniang is becoming more and more orderly in speaking and doing things, and she will not starve to death anywhere, but will live a better life. Now Chen Quanzhong has injured both legs again, and this family will drag her down more and more. Maybe one day, she'll be gone. If she leaves, the situation at home is simply unimaginable.
"Grandma, Qiu Niang did what she said. You can rest assured. Chen Qiuniang said to Chen Liushi word by word.
Chen Liushi snorted, his tone obviously relaxed a lot. But she also felt awkward, so she got up and limped to the kitchen to boil water.
As soon as this Chen Liu's family left, Chen Qiuxia, who was looking timidly in the house, immediately came over, pulled Chen Qiuniang, and shouted timidly: "Sister." ”
"Hmm." Chen Qiuniang touched her head and said, "Be good, go play with the two younger brothers, I'll cook, and I'll have to eat in a while." Chen Qiuxia jumped up and went to the house to talk to her two younger brothers.
Chen Qiusheng stood aside, and waited for Chen Qiuxia to walk away before he whispered, "I'm sorry, eldest sister." ”
"Why?" Chen Qiuniang looked at this five-year-old baby in surprise. The hard life makes this little boy look so old that it is distressing.
"Grandma, she doesn't know what's wrong, it's been like this for the past few days." Chen Qiusheng whispered, burying his head low, more and more like guilt. He was still young and didn't understand that his grandmother was actually as afraid of Chen Qiuniang leaving them as he was. Because unconsciously, they all regard her as the pillar of the family.
"Autumn birth. Don't you treat your sister as a family? Chen Qiuniang asked very sternly.
Chen Qiusheng's head shook like a rattle, and he said vigorously: "For me, the eldest sister is a relative, a relative who depends on each other. It's just that my father and grandmother said that the eldest sister was raised. I thought: The eldest sister is so capable, she could have left us to live a better life. But the eldest sister has always been there, just for us. But Daddy and Grandma still do that to you. Therefore, as the eldest son of the Chen family, I feel very sorry not to go. ”
Chen Qiusheng lowered his head as he spoke, and his whole person was full of apologies. Chen Qiuniang was sad to hear it, this kid has good expression skills, but she heard from his words that he had been afraid. This child is afraid that he has always known that the eldest sister is not his own sister, so he can leave at any time, but he is afraid that the eldest sister will leave.
"Don't say anything like that in the future. You are the eldest son of the Chen family, but I am the daughter of the Chen family. I've said before that my younger siblings, grandma and dad all depend on us. Qiuxia doesn't understand, you have to understand. You know what? Chen Qiuniang said to Chen Qiusheng very seriously. She knew that she was going to Liuhe Town, and this child could be said to be the only person who could help her take care of this family.
Chen Qiusheng nodded, Chen Qiuniang said that she was going to work in the town, and in order to save money, she would not come back often, and this family had to be taken care of by him, a little man.
"I'm not afraid. Rest assured, eldest sister. "Chen Qiusheng is like a little adult.
Chen Qiuniang smiled, touched his head and said, "Wait a while, I will earn a lot, you don't have to work so hard." After the beginning of spring, you can go to school. Do you believe the eldest sister? ”
"Believe." Chen Qiusheng raised his head and looked at her, his bright eyes full of trust. RS