Outside the past
Severe winter.
This year's winter in Shengjing, as in previous years, was full of snow and silver.
The stone lion in front of the gate of the Weiguo Mansion is still majestic and solemn, but in front of the Guogong Mansion in the past, it is now depressed and desolate, only the white flags that have lost their color are swaying in the cold wind, making a grinning wind.
The entire Guogong Mansion was shrouded in a haze.
The mourning hall arranged in the main hall of the front yard was full of white silk, and the ladies of the house wore linen and filial piety around the coffin, crying continuously.
The tears on my face have dried and wet a few times.
In the past few days, she has been running around for help, and she is in charge of her father-in-law's funeral, she is extremely tired, and she is in a trance, and she has many illusions.
Familiar faces appeared in front of her eyes, either hideous, miserable, wolf, disgusted, or despairing, surrounding her, pestering her, as if to pull her into the abyss of hell. She couldn't tell which ones were illusions and what were real, only her heart was constantly clenching to let her know that she was still alive in this world.
"Ma'am? Madam? The voice of the close-fitting big girl Bailing suddenly sounded in his ears, with a hint of hoarseness, An Ruolan was pulled back from the illusion. She turned her head blankly and saw Bai Lingzheng kneeling beside her with a worried expression.
She blinked, and finally turned her sloppy gaze on the person in front of her.
"Madam, the prince has come back from the palace, let the slave help you back to your room to rest." Bai Ling whispered with red eyes.
An Ruolan shook her head stiffly, "No need, I will keep the ...... for my father-in-law" After saying that, tears flowed down her red eyes again.
"Madame......" Bai Ling called in embarrassment.
"Go and rest." Old Madam Wei, who was beside An Ruolan, suddenly spoke lightly, she didn't look at An Ruolan. Just kept throwing the paper money in his hand into the brazier, his gray hair, his face was full of wrinkles, and his eyes were dull under the reflection of the firelight.
In just half a month, this energetic and energetic old lady. Now it's like that.
An Ruolan's heart thumped. finally bowed his head silently, said goodbye, and was supported by Bai Ling. Shook out of the mourning hall.
Behind her, countless resentful gazes pierced her spine.
For a short period of time, An Ruolan walked on the tip of a knife, when he went out. The back is already cold.
was half-supported and half-carried by Bailing and returned to Nuolanju, but when he entered the door, he saw his husband who had just returned home sitting at the table. is still so majestic and heroic, but I don't know how many vicissitudes and sadness have been stained.
Suddenly, the tears that had just stopped poured down again.
She has always been proud. She rarely cried in front of others, but during this time, she didn't know how many tears she had shed.
The guard raised his eyes to look at An Ruolan who entered the house. I saw that her face was pale and her face was mottled with tears. I couldn't help but feel a pain in my heart, and pity flashed in my eyes, but I quickly disappeared.
He sat upright at the table, looking at An Ruolan with calm and unwavering eyes, his hand hidden under the table clenched into a fist, and he didn't step forward to help, only bowed his head slightly and said, "I have something to say to you." ”
An Ruolan suddenly panicked in her heart, and intuitively felt that her next words would send her to hell.
She hurriedly avoided his gaze, lowered her eyes and diverted the topic: "The prince entered the palace early in the morning and came back, presumably before he had eaten, so the concubine ordered the following to send some food......
"No need." The guards interrupted her.
Knowing that he couldn't hide, An Ruolan had to restrain his mind, pushed away Bailing's hand, forced himself to walk to the table and sat down, pulled out a light smile, and said: "That's the case, the prince said, the concubine listened." ”
The cold attitude of the previous made Wei Xing's eyes light up, and then he returned to normal, his eyes as deep as an ancient well stared at the person in front of him, as if he wanted to engrave her into the bottom of his heart.
For a while, neither of them spoke, sitting opposite each other, looking at each other in silence.
An Ruolan also looked at Wei Xing, looked at his heroic eyebrows, deep eyes, straight nose, thin lips, looked at it, and didn't feel bitter in her heart, this is the first time she looked at her husband since she got married, only to find out how stupid she was when she looked down on her husband who was born in a reckless family in the past, and she couldn't help but regret it.
Her husband, brave and upright, restrained and steady, seems to be cold and ruthless, but in fact he is gentle and considerate, he is worthy of the best woman in the world, but she is ruined and let down by her.
Thinking back on the past, An Ruolan trembled uncontrollably, she felt sorry for this gentle and tolerant man, and all the sourness in her heart turned into tears, wanting to snatch her eyes out. However, in the past, she didn't know how to cherish it, pushed him away again and again, and hurt him again and again, to this day, what right does she have to cry in front of him? She no longer dared to ask for even the slightest mercy from him.
She could only cover her lips tightly and stubbornly hold the cry in her throat.
She hated - hated her own stupidity, and hated even more the relatives who took advantage of her care and trust, deceived her, and hurt her husband!
The suppressed sobs pierced the heart of the guard like a sharp sword, and he took his eyes off his wife, closed his eyes in pain, and finally broke the silence for a long time.
With trembling fingers, he took out the letter of resignation that had already been written from his arms and handed it to An Ruolan, the guard condensed his face, and said as little as possible without the slightest emotion: "You go." ”
A fluttering sentence made An Ruolan tremble, she suddenly looked up at the guard, her moist eyes were full of horror.
Not daring to pick up the thin piece of paper, An Ruolan stiffly pulled out a smile for a while, and said in a trembling voice: "Shiziye, the concubine doesn't know what Shiziye means......
Wei Xing raised his eyes to meet her panicked and frightened eyes, a burst of fishy sweetness welled up in his throat, suppressing the discomfort in his throat, and he said coldly: "Wei Mansion can't tolerate you anymore." After a pause, he added: "You go, ...... in the future." Find someone who understands you, cherishes you, and lives a good life. ”
Unable to bear to look at her tearful face anymore, Wei Xing put the resignation book on the table and got up to leave.
"No!" An Ruolan screamed nervously, jumped up and grabbed his sleeve, shook his head in fear, and begged: "Guard, please, please don't drive me away!" I was wrong, I was really wrong. Please! ”
At this moment, she no longer cares about her pride, as long as this man is willing to let her stay, she is willing to do anything.
Tears splashed onto the back of the guard's hand, and the hot temperature made his chest constrict.
But no, she can't stay.
Tilt your head slightly. Hold back the sourness in your eyes. Wei Xing said in a dumb voice: "No, you are not wrong, it is me who is wrong." I shouldn't have met you, I shouldn't have rejoiced in you, I shouldn't have forced you to marry you, I shouldn't have forced you to stay. One qiē and one qiē are all my faults. Today, I will let you go, and in the future the sky will be high and the sea will be wide, and you will be free. I just wish to be strange...... Not meeting. ”
ruthlessly broke An Ruolan's hands on the cuffs one by one, and the guard resolutely left.
"No—!" An Ruolan shouted helplessly and staggered to catch up. She tripped over the threshold and fell to the ground without checking for a while, and she finally struggled to get up. But she only saw the back of Wei Xing disappearing outside the door, and she couldn't help crying: "Wei Xing-!" ”
"Madam......" Bai Ling couldn't bear it, so he hurriedly stepped forward to help her up, and comforted her with a cry: "Madam, the Weiguo Mansion can't be saved, the prince is for your good, you just listen to the words of the prince." ”
An Ruolan didn't know if she heard Bai Ling's words, she just kept shaking her head and crying: "No...... I don't want ...... "......Tears wet the placket of his clothes.
"Madame......" Bai Ling hugged her weak and trembling body, crying bitterly.
As soon as he came out of Nuolanju, Wei Xing saw Qin Yiqing, who was dressed in plain white and linen and wearing filial piety, he only glanced at her lightly, and his footsteps did not stop for half a minute.
"Lord Shizi!" Qin Yiqing shouted, stepped forward to stop in front of him, first stared at him silently for a while, and then suddenly cried and grabbed his clothes, tears rolling down, "You love her so much, and you still have to protect her ...... now"
Wei Xing pursed his lips, brushed away his hands on his chest, and walked past her without saying a word.
"She doesn't love you at all!" Qin Yiqing shouted hysterically at his back: "She took a concubine for you, she spoke coldly to you, she caused the Weiguo Mansion to fall to this day, she doesn't love you at all, she hates you!" It's been two years, why don't you still understand?! ”
Wei Xing's footsteps paused, his shoulders trembled slightly, but he still ignored Qin Yiqing and strode away.
"Cousin!" Qin Yiqing roared, fell to the ground like a loss of strength, and sobbed in a low voice with his eyes distracted: "Why don't you want to look at me...... Where the hell am I not as good as her......"
There are thousands of things in this world, even if there are thousands of things that go wrong, but they cannot be transferred and changed by personal will.
The dismissal of Mrs. Shizi is known to everyone in the Weiguo Mansion, and there are those who sigh and those who cry out for joy.
Early the next morning, An Ruolan was in a daze, and was helped out of the Weiguo Mansion by Bai Ling, her stiff and numb feet seemed to be not her own, and she stumbled and stumbled on the threshold.
She couldn't help but glance back.
The gate of the Weiguo Mansion is still majestic and solemn, but the white silk on the door plaque, the white banner under the eaves, and the coldness in front of the door make all the qiē dyed with a depressed and desolate color.
I still remember the scene I saw from the sedan chair back then, lively and prosperous.
However, after two years, it is now a matter of people and things.
She carefully swept every nail on the door, every grass and tree in the courtyard of the door, with unspeakable guilt and nostalgia.
In the past, she always wanted to run away from here, but now, even if she was asked to kowtow and lose her dignity, she wanted to stay.
Her eyes inadvertently swept to the tall figure hidden behind the trees, her pupils shrank suddenly, she subconsciously took half a step forward, and couldn't help but whisper: "Wei Xing ......" Her eyes were swelling with soreness.
Her husband, still so majestic and heroic, under that cold and indifferent countenance, is a gentle and tolerant heart, he should have been worthy of the best woman in the world, but she was ruined, let down by her, and now, she has finally been retributed......
Even if you regret it, you can't get it back.
An Ruolan came from the sadness, unconsciously covered her mouth and cried bitterly, tears blurred her vision, she quickly wiped it off, just hoping to look at him again.
She looked at the deep and calm eyes, which once contained endless affection, but now they were dyed with vicissitudes of life, praying that the passage of time could be slowed down, slower, and slower to stay in this moment forever.
However, this is an extravagant hope after all.
She saw his thin lips open and close slightly, and before she could recognize his silent words, a shout of closing the door suddenly sounded in her ears, and her heart suddenly tightened, and she hurriedly stepped forward and shouted: "Guard! ”
I wanted to go further, but my body was entangled by the bride and maids behind her, and she heard them advise fiercely: "Madam, the Weiguo Mansion can't be saved, let's go quickly!" ”
She shook her head wildly, crying and begging for not, but she couldn't break free, and could only watch the door slowly close in front of her, watching the man's figure gradually obscured by the door.
With a bang, the vermilion door closed tightly, and the dull sound seemed to knock on her heart, completely crushing her broken heart.
She kept banging on the heavy door like a masochist, but until she cried and swollen her eyes and red hands, the door of the Weiguo Mansion still did not open.
The cold wind howled, rolling the white flags swaying in the air, making a grinning wind, and in the midst of a mournful and terrible cry, the first snow of this harsh winter fell, and they rose one after another, coating the world with a layer of cold silver white. (To be continued)
ps: New Year's Special, I wish you all a happy New Year and a happy New Year! R655