Mother Dou left in response, and after a while, footsteps came from behind the bead curtain.

Gentle and steady, the shoes on the feet of the visitors must be soft-soled.

There are many people coming and going in the Thousand Garden, but the noise between the people has always been slight, and no one dares to make a noise. Whether it is the mother-in-law, or the group of people raised by Mrs. Yun Zhen in the garden. Even the most favored among them, if it were not for Mrs. Yun Zhen's instructions, he would not dare to say a word out loud.

The most unsightly thing for Mrs. Yun Zhen is the presumptuous person, especially the person who relies on her love and acts presumptuously.

Over the years, because of saying the wrong thing, there are not a few people who asked Mrs. Yun Zhen to order someone to slap her mouth and throw out of Qianzhong Garden.

However, everyone is cautious, but no one has ever been as comfortable as Yuyin. For him, this kind of life seems to be innate.

Sometimes, even Mrs. Yun Zhen looks at him by herself and feels that he is very different.

His brother Yuzhen, it is said that this life is also leisurely, but the ease between the two of them is so different. To go deeper, it can be called the opposite of each other.

Yuzhen is frivolous and likes pleasure, so the extravagant days in the Thousand Gardens make him happy and comfortable.

But Yuyin is not.

If he was placed with the group of people below, dressed in the same style, clothes and shoes of one color, and combed in the same hairstyle, he would still look like a chicken.

He has a completely different aura from the people who are raised under Mrs. Yun Zhen's hands.

At this time, he stood behind the beaded curtain with his head bowed, and greeted him.

Mrs. Yun Zhen sat crookedly on the rosewood beauty couch, her eyes followed the prestige, and she stared at the figure looming between the beaded curtains for a while. Fang Cai opened his mouth and said casually: "Come and come." ”

"Yes." The man behind the curtain answered, gently raised the curtain, and walked slowly inside.

The people raised by Mrs. Yun Zhen, regardless of the four seasons, wear white clothes.

The moon is white, and at first glance, it looks like a monk's robe.

Under the plain color. A young man in this garment. The face with clear eyebrows and beautiful eyes also seemed to be more and more clear and warm, as clean as an epiphany blooming on a moonlit night.

It's hard to look away.

Mrs. Yun Zhen looked at Yuyin in front of her, and she really couldn't take her eyes away.

She just wanted to look at him. As soon as she saw it, her gaze seemed to be fixed on him, and no matter how much she tried to open her eyes, there was nothing she could do.

Yuyin stopped three steps away from the beauty couch.

Thou shalt not command. He couldn't go any further.

Madame Yun Zhen didn't say anything more and ordered him to approach, she just looked at him. His voice was slightly hoarse: "Raise your head." ”

He looked up and met her eyes.

At this moment, he seemed to see a different kind of emotion in Mrs. Yun Zhen's eyes in a trance.

-- It's mourning.

He was stunned, too late to chew on the strange sadness. Mrs. Yun Zhen then ordered, "Turn your face sideways." ”

The air is filled with a glitzy and beautiful fragrance that is soothing to the listener. But Yuyin sniffed, and his heart slowly lifted.

He wondered. I don't know Mrs. Bai Yunzhen's intentions, but since she spoke, he can only obey his fate.

So, he turned half his face to the right and looked at the precious tea vessel on the long table not far away.

On the side of the tea vessel, there is a small jar with an open mouth and a few sun-dried petals on the side.

It's filled with flower tea!

He suddenly remembered that the girl in the second room was said to have gone to Pingzhou a few days ago, and this tea was naturally brought back by her from Pingzhou Mansion.

This is the flower of Pingzhou......

He watched fixedly, and for a moment, he left Mrs. Yun Zhen behind.

And Mrs. Yun Zhen looked at him, but she didn't move, didn't speak, just watched quietly, and her eyes gradually became confused.

She was clearly looking at him, but it didn't seem to be him.

When she saw Yuyin for the first time, she felt like it from the bottom of her heart, with a positive face and a more similar side.

Eyes, nose, mouth...... It's not all the same, but it's the most similar one she's seen over the years.

It's just that the person in front of her is younger and younger than the person hidden in her heart after all, and he is a little younger, which is really like it, but it doesn't seem to be that much like it.

However, she sometimes couldn't help but think, if that child was still alive, he would be as big as Yuyin now, right?

In the dark night, the past is as vivid as ever.

The heart-rending pain during childbirth, when I think back at the moment, has been blurred.

Did the kid cry when he landed?

She tried her best to remember, but she couldn't remember anything.

Maybe I cried, or maybe I didn't.

It was obviously the meat that fell from her, but she couldn't even hear a mother's kiss.

And her poor son, who could not speak, departed from her.

But fortunately, the world is difficult and dangerous, and she is reluctant to let him suffer these hardships.

But at that time, she was still young, not yet twenty years old, and she cried bitterly, but she still felt that she could not live. When she saw the sword, she wanted to kill herself, when she saw the rope, she wanted to hang herself on the beam, and when she looked at the scissors, she also wanted to pierce herself twice in her heart.

The heart in this chest is alive, and it is "pounding" every day.

But she stretched out her hand and pressed her heart, but she felt that the things inside were becoming like stones day by day, and they were so heavy that she almost lost her breath.

On the contrary, it is uncomfortable and does not die.

It's better to live like that than to die.

She didn't eat or drink, she didn't speak, she didn't go out.

The mother washed her face with tears, and tried to persuade her to no avail, begging her to tell herself what was wrong, why did a good person suddenly not want to live?

She let her mother hold her, her eyes were dry, there was not a single tear, her dry lips trembled twice, and she wanted to tell her mother not to cry, but she couldn't say half a sentence after all.

Her father was worried about her every day, but she was still getting weaker day by day.

The fashionable and young Emperor Jialong, who had not yet inherited the throne, was still only a prince, and he came to see her in his busy schedule.

But he knows why she became like this.

So he didn't persuade.

They had always been like brother and sister, and he knew her very well that persuasion would be useless.

He moved a chair in front of her. One sitting is an hour.

For an hour, she didn't say a word, and he didn't speak.

Finally, he said, if you really don't want to stay in this world, then go with confidence. Even the family I watched, your parents brothers and sisters. I'm keeping it. You just have to go with confidence.

Every word, he said so loudly and categorically.

He knew her character. She knew him, too.

If you say anything, you will never deceive her.

It was she who finally said, "Then it's up to my brother." ”

She was determined to leave, so that she could say "I'm sorry" to the man. Go and say "mother is here" to your child who died young.

But in the end, she still dragged this scarred heart. survived.

But every day when she dreamed back at midnight, she was in pain all over, from the tip of her heart, as if someone was pricking herself with a needle. One by one, the living will tie people into a hedgehog. During the day, she actually hurts too. It's not as uncomfortable as in the dead of night.

The night gets deeper. The more she tossed and turned, the more sleepless she became.

Even on a sweltering summer night, she felt that the surroundings were cold, and the cold was so cold that she shivered.

The coldness was intense, and the pain seemed to be clearer and clearer.

Sometimes, it's easy to fall asleep in a daze, but start dreaming again and again.

Nightmare after nightmare, never stopped.

It is often said that there are thoughts and dreams in the day and night.

But those nightmares are clearly the past events that she has personally experienced.

The past is obliterated from everyone's sight with time, but it will not disappear from people's memories. Don't think about it during the day, but at night it will come out, like a small snake, entangled, entangled, and entangled you to death, and then opened its mouth wide and bit hard.

When the nightmares haunt her, she is too weak to speak.

It's not what Mrs. Yun Zhen should look like in the eyes of everyone.

But the more I don't want to recall the past, the clearer it will be.

She lay on the bed, stared at the top of the tent, and began to count herself with her fingers.

She never said it, but she knew how much she hated herself in her heart.

One hates himself for being unkind; Second, he hates himself and is ruthless; 3. Hate yourself for being incompetent and useless; Four hates...... There are so many hates, and I can't count them all.

She counted the days, but she couldn't count them.

The more I count, the more sad I become. When I was sad, I couldn't sleep, and I didn't sleep all night with my eyes open. But people have to eat and sleep, what can they do if they can't sleep?

She began to accumulate noodles.

A man's body is piping hot.

When the ears and temples are tired of tossing, people's minds are also confused, and they can fall asleep in a daze.

Sweating all over, the body and mind are drenched.

She began to search for people like him.

Maybe it's just an eyebrow raise, or maybe it's just a similarity...... But as long as there is a little similarity, she is reluctant to let go.

How good, this eyebrow like, that eye like, and that jaw are like that, slowly, she pieced together the person in the past little by little.

The pain in my heart that never goes away, for a while, seems to have finally become a little weaker.

In this way, she indulges in sensuality, kills time, and embraces the people in the past.

And among them, the most similar person is Yuyin.

She has been looking for so long and has seen so many people, but there is always only Yuyin who really reminds her of her old friend at a glance.

She looked at him for a long, long time, so long that time seemed to stand still.

The fragrance in the air has faded with time, but she is still not called Yuyin.

She told him to stand and stare as if to see a hole in him.

I don't know how long it took for her to finally speak, "Stand down." ”

Yuyin's whole body stiffened, and when he got this, he moved his arms with difficulty, saluted, and retreated.

Walking to the door, Mrs. Yun Zhen suddenly asked him, "Laughing at the spring breeze, where did you really learn it?" (To be continued)

ps: It is said that the pink has begun to double~~ But recently, because of a lot of things, I haven't been able to add more to everyone, so I haven't dared to ask for votes, but in a blink of an eye, April is almost the same as the pink in March before qaq has a total of 182 votes, 15 plus more, and it has reached 105, and I still owe five more, I'm sorry big guy, it's been delayed for so long... Ming'er is going to attend the funeral, and there may not be a time code, but I will try to pay it off in the next few days! As for the double event, the opportunity is rare, and I can only ask for tickets with a cheeky face, if you still have a little pink one in hand, ask for two support scenes~R466