Sometimes, seeing you is like seeing yourself.

But what I see you is the self you envision.

I know that there is a clear line of demarcation between the magnified minutiae and the details.

However, I did not stalk because I didn't know how to measure;

It's because I am proud of this almost shameful extravagance from the bottom of my heart.

…………

Gu Xiaoxiao pursed her lips, she raised her pretty face without any ripples and walked to the side, squatted down and learned from the movements of Asu who she had just seen, groping on the rocks with ice slag, and the pair of white and tender little hands were pulled up by Asu before they were all black.

"Xiaoxiao, what are you doing?" Aso muttered at the top of his voice.

Gu Xiaoxiao is still the same as before, and that kind of breeze is actually indistinguishable, "It's a trivial matter." ”

"Haha, what a powerful fat woman!" Michelangelo suddenly laughed loudly, and his hearty voice was so harmless to humans and animals in this world of only black and gray.

"Little ......" The corners of Asu's mouth were elongated, maybe moved, maybe gratified, in short, no matter what it was, she was smiling.

It is a swarthy gangue mountain with the chimneys of the yellow brick Makassai coal mine in the background, which scatters black soot around the clock 24 hours a day, and the whole land is covered with dead trees, hedges, dung heaps, ash heaps and waste coal heaps.

Finding coal on this pyramid is not an easy task, the women and girls in the village picked up the coal below a few years ago, Aso can only teach Xiaoxiao how to dig out the gangue and put it on his hands, so that the mud, stones and other impurities slip between his fingers, what is piled up here is not actually the coal outflow of the coal mining company, the resources that need to spend a lot of manpower and material resources to get are the root of the company's survival, and it is also related to the income of the company's managers and people, not to mention that these senior managers are so stingy, It's too little, and it won't flow out a little. So what Asu and Gu Xiaoxiao were looking for was just a shale mixture that couldn't be sold in the market.

The gangue was soaked with snow and rain, and although Gu Xiaoxiao's hand was quickly punctured by abrasions, she still put what she hoped was coal into the bag.

It was only a short time before he was injured, and it was hard to imagine how both Aso and Michelangelo were injured.

No wonder Luo Lili didn't come......

Xiao Xiao was stunned, why did he think of her like this?!

Although she doesn't like Luo Lili, it's always bad to look at others like this.

You must have good intentions and look at it with bright eyes, so that you can see the sparse shadow and dark fragrance.

She was fortunate enough to know this, but she couldn't do it all the time.

Suddenly, she saw the little red on her fingers, she didn't care about the dust on her hands, she directly opened her mouth and took her fingers, the smell of rust melted between her lips and teeth, and then there was a dark shadow, she looked up and saw Alpha looking at her with complicated eyes.

"Get up."

"Don't."

Xiao pouted, she didn't know what the hell this man was angry about.

The cold brow frowned for a long time, and then stretched out. He raised his hand, and a dark blue ball of light hung from his palm, and immediately flew out, stopping in the air.

Suddenly, the rocks beneath his feet moved, and particles flew out from the cracks in the dust that were generated, sucking in the dark blue balls of light.

"Wait a minute." Asu, who was on the side, saw it and stopped it loudly, "This hill is not reliable, and there is a small cart dumping waste rocks at the other end, which may collapse." ”

"I'm not going to let it collapse." Alpha's overflowing words were a little sharp, as if he was displeased with the doubts of others about his abilities.

Xiaoxiao also heard it, but she didn't believe it, because she knew the man.

Of course, if it's wishful thinking, then it's troublesome......

"Please, I'll just pick it up myself." Aso asked softly, and her sheep-like voice moved Xiaoxiao.

"Alpha ......"

"Okay."

As soon as Xiaoxiao opened his mouth, Afa withdrew, and Aso and Michelangelo looked at each other and smiled.

****

Gu Xiaoxiao had only been here for a few hours, and she understood this little black countryman.

Little ones stumble on the land of this black country, and from time to time they will trip over stones, tree stumps or garbage heaps. She casually glanced at the dilapidated houses, their roofs covered in moss, and the crevices of the planks tucked into the burlap to keep out the wind.

Watch the miners rush out of the mine gates in exhaustion, dressed in tattered coarse cloth shirts and hats sewn into leather, and the women dressed the same, all black, like chimney sweepers, and the whites of their eyes are the only whites

The children here are not like the children in other places, they often follow their mothers to pick up coal ash that can be used to heat the fire in order to help the family, and they bite their lips as they look like little insects climbing on the stump of a dead tree.

For them, darkness is life, skinny is health, soot moss is beauty, and cheese is a delicacy.

Here, soap is a luxury, food is a luxury, and I don't know what else doesn't count as a luxury, is it a luxury to live? I feel sorry for them, because I am afraid that they will feel that life is the only cheapness.

If one day, even cheapness becomes an unattainable luxury, I don't know what else can be used to express despair.

In the evening, the four of them returned to Van Gogh's house.

Gu Xiaoxiao saw that Asu, who had put down the sack, still had no intention of resting, but walked to Van Gogh who was lying on the haystack and sat down, she was about to say something, when she saw Asu leaning up, just quietly leaning on the shoulder of the man who was unconscious.

Seeing this, Xiao Xiao smiled and closed her eyes, she walked out of the room, and chose to sit on the ground where she could sit, followed by Michelangelo.

"Even if I had this kind of power, I would like to feel how he felt at that time, and I would fantasize that this would be a lifetime with him, wouldn't it...... In this way, it can be regarded as his life and me. Michelangelo muttered next to Xiaoxiao, "That's what Aso said before, so I stayed with her." ”

"I don't understand, how did it come to be like this......" sighed and flew towards the sky.

"The woman got married, and the red-haired guy saw a more exciting scene and left."

Xiaoxiao crossed her arms, she knew what the exciting scene meant, but she breathed a sigh of relief, "I didn't want him to have any development with that woman......"

"Then, this guy is also quite unlucky, and when he wants to give a speech, he meets some brainless bastards, they are pretentious, and they are very hypocritical, and they label him as unqualified for his hard work, and there is a priest who has come here, and this is the only way out at the moment."

"Why are there nasty people everywhere!"

"He really worked hard, though. He smeared soot on his face every day, just to make himself look like everyone else. Michelangelo sighed, "I kind of understand him, but it's not like he is still supported by his parents when he's so old." ”

With that, Michelangelo handed the little crumpled piece of letterhead, "This is what that guy received a while ago." ”

A little spread out to see-

The Evangelical Commission has been informed of your excellent work and has decided to grant you a temporary appointment for a period of six months beginning at the beginning of this year, and if progress is made smoothly by the end of June, your office will become permanent. The probationary period is fifty francs per month.

Write often, and I hope you will keep your faith.

Love you Peterson.

"I don't know what the moth will come out of this time, but I always feel uneasy...... "Michelangelo said, snatching the letter from his little hand, crumbling it into a ball of paper and throwing it out, "I don't believe in these disgusting and false tones." ”

"Hey......" Little Ben wanted to pick it up, but she had to admit that she thought he was right.

"Isn't there money to make it? Why is life like this? Little thought of something, "Where's his bed?" At least a bed to sleep in! Even the most tattered ones are better than the haystacks they have now! ”

"I watched him dismantle the bed that day and carry it on his shoulders to a family, one of the three children of that family contracted typhoid fever, and there were difficulties in arranging the bed, and if it was not resolved, there were only three outcomes waiting for the family: "infecting other children", "getting pneumonia", and "starving to death because they couldn't work". Michelangelo's gaze glowed softly, and in the darkness it looked like a firefly hidden in the warm and humid vegetation of summer, "I now look at the red-haired old man a little differently." ”

Xiao Xiao remembered the picture of Van Gogh shivering with cold, and then heard Michelangelo say that he had a fever for several weeks, and the whole person was groggy from this disease, and at the same time, he was also weakened by Yan Zòng's malnutrition and lack of sleep. He was exhausted by the disasters and misfortunes that ensued in the village, but he was just mad for the sake of others. Knowing that Mrs. Dennis of the bakery would give him food to stop him from hunger, and that she would nurse him when he was sick with a fever, and give him a hot drink to dispel the cold that had penetrated into his bone marrow, he restrained himself and refused to do so, and only took the hay.

"Where's Aso? Why doesn't she use power...... At least I can help myself when I pick up soot. ”

"She can't." Michelangelo turned his head to look at his little shining eyes, "Azu...... It's not like Alpha, she doesn't really have much power. ”

"What do you mean?" A little jaw-dropping.

"It's not for me to say, she has to sue you herself."

"Then is she going to accompany Van Gogh who can't see her silently like this?"

"Didn't we know that from the beginning?"

Hearing this, Little Heart was the first to cry, and she whimpered, and Michelangelo put her arms around her twitching petite body, like a majestic mountain in her arms, and let her wipe her tears on his already dusty shirt.

Alpha looked at the two of them from a distance, and beside him was Luo Lili, who was like gummy candy, he clenched his fists, and made a plan in his heart.

You're not alone anymore, and if I can make you happier, I'm willing to leave and ask me to give my all.

As long as you're happy...... As long as, Gu Xiaoxiao...... You are happy.

Note: Some of the background descriptions in this article are from the biography Van Gogh R1152