We are all missing half of our souls in this world, because without you, we can't make one, joy is missing, and sorrow is also missing.

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The day before the New Year, Mo Xiangsi asked Yu Yan to go horseback riding outside the city.

It was a little overcast, but it didn't look like it was going to snow. Because of this year's floods, the fields outside Hangzhou are barren and have not been planted, so Mo Xiangsi and Yu Yan can gallop on this vast land.

The wind in winter is very quiet, but on the galloping horse, it still feels very cold, and the knife cuts people's faces. Mo Xiangsi's heart is a rare pleasure, until exhausted, Mo Xiangsi only reined in the horse, heroically swept down, just like when he was in Acacia, as if he was still in rags and cotton clothes, and he could lie on the ground with a big grin regardless of anything.

"Yuyan, you say, it doesn't look like it's in the Acacia Gate now!" Mo Xiangsi asked him loudly.

Yu Yan smiled and led the horse slowly: "It's very similar." ”

"When I was in a bad mood before, I often pulled my senior brother out, rode a horse, or competed with him, and had a fight, at that time, Xiao Yanzi and Xiao Jiu often followed, but you and Yin Mo sealed their wings differently, you either compensated the little junior sister again, or you were reading."

Yu Yan smiled, and also sat on the ground next to Mo Xiangsi, regardless of his splendid robe: "Senior sister only had senior brother in her heart at the beginning, and she never put us people in her heart, when did you invite us when you went out?" We are not as cheeky as Xiao Jiu and Xiao Yanzi at the beginning, so we were naturally left behind by our senior sister. ”

Mo Xiangsi looked at Yu Yan sitting beside him with a smile, and said: "Look, the sky is still as blue as the one on the Acacia Gate, and the air is as clear, but we can no longer lie down and sit down like we did in the Acacia Gate, because there is such an expensive shackle on our bodies!" ”

Mo Xiangsi's words had just finished speaking, but he saw Yu Yan smile lightly, and lay down on the side, the land was very cold, but looking at the sky from this angle, it was really different from sitting, very different, as if the sky was wider, but it seemed to be close in front of him, as long as he stretched out his hand, he could touch it.

"It's just a piece of clothing, and the heart is not burdened by ups and downs, so that you can be at ease."

Mo Xiangsi smiled, and then said: "Yu Yan, I haven't read much, I don't see as much as you, I used to think that I only lived for my stubborn things, only for myself, it's good, I'm not worse than others at all, I was greedy for my senior brother at that time, so I wanted to be the little girl by his side all the time, so that he would always spoil me, love me, and protect me." But later, he left, and I had to support this Acacia Gate, and later there was the Fang family. Even at the beginning, I saw that the Fang family had gone through so many hardships because of Zheng Qian and because of the Jiangnan Chamber of Commerce, but I was not afraid at all, I was Mo Xiangsi, who am I afraid of! I never knew how to write a scared word before!

However, Yu Yan, I'm a little hesitant now, a little scared, and even a little confused. After meeting Long Yuan and the third old lady. I feel like they're ...... They and Senior Brother are people of the same world, in the past, although I was always tired of being around Senior Brother, but I know that Senior Brother is really good to me, I just need to admire his strength and feel the protection he gives me. But now, Long Yuan and the third old lady ...... I'm upset, I'm scared. I always feel that none of them are sincere to us, and I can't help but be on guard......"

Yu Yan turned her head slightly, listening to the woman's words quietly, her brows frowned slightly, her eyes were looking at the sky, maybe it was higher than the sky in front of her, that was her heart.

"However, the more I came into contact with them, the more I felt that I couldn't prevent them at all! I can only realize more and more my own incompetence, my weakness, my stupidity! So, the other day, I was so scared that I didn't know what to do. But later, Fang Zhong's words woke me up.

Yu Yan, I think about it, instead of being afraid of being beaten by him under his yin power, I want to be the same person as them! Only by becoming as strong as them can I have the opportunity to stand on the same height as them and protect the people I want to protect.

Although you listen to my words now, you may think that I am really daydreaming, but Yu Yan, we still have time, Long Yuan wants to use me to take Jiangnan, Fang regrets wants to use me to keep the Fang family, before this, they will definitely teach me step by step how to make the Fang family stronger, this is my time! It's also your time! ”

Yu Yan looked at Mo Xiangsi, his eyes gradually showed appreciation, and then hesitated: "Senior sister, the prince is an extremely shrewd person, I'm afraid, he can't tolerate your two hearts." ”

Mo Xiangsi turned his head to look at him and smiled: "If you can't tolerate two hearts, then one heart, Yu Yan, before I have enough strength to fight him, I'll be his little apprentice." You are the same, with his strength, with all your heart, to climb a little higher, to take root a little more steadily, so high that he can't reach it, so steady that he can't shake it. ”

This is the first time that Mo Xiangsi has been willing to bow her head for so many years, and in order to convince herself, she found such an upright reason for herself.

She hasn't read any books, doesn't understand the truth of "bending to politics", and doesn't even agree with the saying that "a big husband can be martial and can stretch", she has always been brave and unswerving to the death. But life finally taught her these truths that she didn't want to learn from books. Although this will be slower, it will be unforgettable.

She can't be eighteen forever, and she can't be that ignorant and fearless girl forever.

"Yu Yan, after seeing Long Yuan and the third old lady, I felt that the sky in front of me seemed to be covered by a pair of big hands, but one day, somehow, I suddenly figured it out, and the big hands in the sky disappeared as if they were split in an instant. After that, I always felt that the sky I saw was higher and wider than before! ”

One day, I'm going to stand on the same height as them, to look up at that sky, to look down on that view. It's really a great thing to be happy about.

The Fang family's Chinese New Year's Eve was more lively and festive than ever, not only because of the year-end business banquet where Mo Xiangsi reported good news but not worries, but also because of the joy of the little junior sister Mo Xiangli Tianding, coupled with the cooperation between the Silk Village and the Li family, and the people of the Fang family also got the most desirable gift this year because of Long Yuan's visit that day.

Fang Cheng was a little surprised when he learned about Long Yuan's arrival, but he didn't get angry, he just smiled and said that it was okay, so he didn't mention it again.

On the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, everyone drank a lot of wine, happily said the words of reunion, listened to Mo Xiangsi tell the story of her original lovesickness after being drunk, and listened to Fang Cheng occasionally tell interesting stories about Yun Lingguo, Fang Jin danced happily, holding the two words he practiced, and was praised by Fang Cheng.

This big family is lively, happy, and harmonious with each other. They have all gone through tribulation and hardship together, and they have passed through storms together, how wonderful and how rare they are. There is such a group of people around us.

Mo Xiangsi was drunk, holding the wine jug, tilting his head to look at the bustling and lively crowd, pushing the cup and changing the lamp, drinking and punching. The third old lady is a romantic person, so naturally he will not restrain him, although Fang Zhong felt that it was inappropriate, but Mo Xiangsi and Fang Cheng did not speak, he naturally did not want to stop him, after all, this year is too rare for the other party's family, so let it be allowed and indulge.

"Huh." Mo Xiangsi held the wine jug and looked out the window dimly, and muttered in a low voice, "It's snowing." Big brother, it's snowing, let's go have a snowball fight, okay......"

Mo Xiangli quietly hugged Xiao Qian in his arms, it was already time for the child to sleep, but this Xiao Qian didn't know if it was because the atmosphere of the New Year attracted her or what, her big eyes were round, she looked at the Qiqi in front of her curiously, and listened to her mother sitting on the remote side, silently reading: "Being alone in a foreign land as a stranger, thinking of your relatives every festival." ”

Senior brother, did you spend the New Year's Festival on the Acacia Gate in previous years?

Looking at the hustle and bustle in front of you, do you always inadvertently think of home, relatives, and parents......

Fortunately, now, you are back, by their side...... However, will you think of me and the second senior sister?

Gathering and scattering duckweed, gradually, we all have people to worry about, but we have also become the concern of others.

How happy and unfortunate.

You're not with us.

In the winter of Qilin Country, it will not snow, but that year, it was jammed with ice and snow.

Behind Xiao Liu, there was a song and dance of national prosperity, but in front of him, there was only snow outside the main hall.

The New Year of the emperor's family, flashy and noisy, and this kind of noise, is what he dislikes the most, he suddenly remembered that in previous years, the New Year's Festival in Acaciamen, the same lively, but heartwarming. But now, looking at the hustle and bustle in front of me that is a hundred times more prosperous than at the beginning, I only feel cold.

What's missing? Or is there something more?

The icy snow slowly melted in his palm, and Long Yuan looked at the snow in the sky: "It's another year." ”

It seems emptier and more deserted than before.

Is it the price? The price of being one step closer to that seat?

It's so cheap, so boring, gradually, it can't break his heart.

Long Ye looked at the wine in the calendula cup, and drank it all along with the moving dance of the dancers of the royal feast in front of him, he smiled, his eyes were breezy and clear, it seemed that he didn't care about everything in the world as always, and he could leave aside his worries if he had a beautiful woman.

But Xiang Liuying always faintly felt that a person like Long Ye had the deepest hidden thoughts, so deep that he would not be discovered by you at all, and found that under his unbreakable layer of wandering remains, because of the lack of a person, the soul that has been crippled. R1152