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Without the help of medication, John's road to recovery was very difficult, but Alicia never gave up and persevered hand in hand with him. His wife's support is what keeps John.
Two months later, John was still suffering from hallucinations, and Charles was still roaring angrily in front of him, which made John unable to control his emotions, but with Alicia's support, John returned to Princeton University after many years and found his former classmate Martin Hansen, who by this time had become the head of the mathematics department, because Alicia thought that John's adaptation to group life might be beneficial to the condition.
John originally thought that Martin would sneer at him and refuse his request, but John still came to Martin's office, and time flies, and the two rivals who were for tat with each other stood side by side again in the way of fate; But Martin nodded yes, and at least John could go into the library and study.
John tried to enter the library to study, but he did not have the documents to prove his identity and was denied entry, which made John break down again under great pressure, and he roared frantically at the door of the library, "You are not real, you are not real at all...... I'm not a soldier...... There are no tasks there! You're not real! "All the students gathered together like crazy onlookers and cast strange glances.
Under Martin's reassurance, John calmed down, but those piercing gazes were unbearable for John, and on the way home, he saw Charles again, who had been his best friend, with whom he shared all his thoughts, even his only dependence. But now, he had to tell himself: it was all just an illusion.
John almost wanted to give up, but with Alicia's encouragement, he decided to try again.
The next day, John came to Princeton again, and he decided to sit in on a class. But in the hallway, Charles angrily accuses John, while Marcy stands by and looks at him with pitiful innocent eyes, which is an ordeal, an unbearable torment for John.
"Charles, you've always been a good friend, a best friend, but I'm not going to talk to you anymore." John's expression was so difficult and painful, and his slightly frowning brow revealed the helplessness in his heart, but this time, he did not flinch, even if it was difficult, he still suppressed the surging emotions in his heart, "I really can't." ”
Then John walked to the side, bent down, and spoke to Marcy, who was full of tears, "Little girl, you too." John didn't dare to look Marcy in the eyes, lest he would relent, so John left a kiss on Marcy's forehead, then pulled the hair from her ear to her ear and whispered, "Goodbye." ”
The professor in charge of the lecture came into the hallway, waiting for the arrival of the famous John Nash, and then he saw John whispering softly into the air, raising his right hand and caressing the air - like a madman.
But at this moment, Nicholas sat in his chair, and did not feel that he was a madman. On the contrary, he saw a lonely and painful soul, bidding farewell to the attachment and confusion of his heart, and John was alone in the entire empty corridor, but that strong sense of loneliness came over him, and John's stiff and fragile shoulders seemed to shatter at the touch in the faint sunlight.
Nicholas didn't expect that it was such a simple picture, but the rich emotions made him completely out of control and couldn't cry.
John returned to everyday life at Princeton, becoming an ordinary student on campus—or rather a scholar—who was always playing out theories and formulas in the windows of the library, and gradually became a unique sight in the school.
Some adore him, some laugh at him, and some even take pleasure in imitating his weird movements; At the same time, Charles, William, and Marcy's hallucinations have never gone away, and they are still harassing John, tormenting his fragile nerves all the time......
But John had grown accustomed to ignoring these illusions and was truly engaged in university research. The passage of time seemed to be no longer important, and by 1978, twenty years had passed, and John had not relapsed, and his old age had not affected his intelligence—he had succeeded in solving the Riemann hypothesis.
Toby Kelly, a young college student, approached John Nash with adoring eyes and started a discussion with him about academics, looking at Toby in front of him, John seemed to see his younger self, which made him lend a hand to Toby and start discussing academic issues with him.
Gradually, John began to integrate into the daily lives of his students, discussing topics with a group of mathematics students and passing on his knowledge to them. A smile bloomed on his face again, his eyes once again revealed, and he truly became a part of this university - although his hallucinations were still there, still haunted, he was no longer afraid, "They are my past, in fact, everyone is haunted by the past." ”
Martin applied to the department, and John was once again offered the position of professor in the mathematics department. Once they were two rivals, but now they're best friends.
In March 1994, John finished his daily lecture and a strange visitor appeared, who identified himself as Thomas King, who had made a special trip to inform John that he had become a candidate for the Nobel Prize in Economics.
Throughout his life, John never received any awards, which made John a little flustered and a little overwhelmed, and at Thomas's invitation, they entered the honor lounge, which was only accessible to the faculty and staff, and he hadn't been here for many years since he had followed the professor into this place once many years ago, and John seemed cramped and uneasy.
When asked about the fact that most Nobel Prize nominees are anonymous, Thomas explained obscurively and secretly, but John understood, "Oh, so you're coming to see if I'm crazy, to see if I'm going to ruin everything after I really win the prize, dancing on the podium, or learning to crow or something...... This self-teasing made Thomas laugh too, and John held his briefcase tightly, carefully protecting himself, as if the atmosphere here made him feel insecure.
"Am I going to embarrass you? Honestly, it's possible. John said honestly, "Look, I'm ...... I'm a madman, and even though I'm taking new medications, I'm still hallucinating. I just chose to ignore them, as if I was on a diet, not to indulge my appetite. For example, my symptomatic appetite, and my imaginary and imaginary appetite......"
John's words were low and slurred, as if every word was so difficult, but his eyes were so clear, he knew exactly what he was doing, and this was the real John Nash.
Just then, someone politely walked over and interrupted John, "Professor Nash." Looking up, it was an old man with gray hair, he smiled, then took his pen from his pocket and placed it on the table in front of John, "I'm glad you're here, John." ”
John looked at the pen and froze, because he remembered that it was a tradition at the school, and that he had witnessed it when he and his professor came here, and that the pen represented the members' recognition of the person's lifelong achievements, and that each pen represented the recognition of fellow professionals. And now, when he was back here, someone gave him a pen, which made John's brain stop spinning completely, and he could only look at the pen in front of him, motionless.
This is just the beginning. Immediately after, pen after pen was placed on the table in front of John, which made John overwhelmed, and the flashing eyes betrayed his nervousness, as well as emotion, "This is completely unexpected. John whispered to Thomas.
Looking at John's eyes full of confusion, his slightly trembling lips, and his hands holding his briefcase stiffly and stiffly, Nicholas's heart was turbulent and indescribable. Because he witnessed the birth of history, he accompanied the ups and downs of John's life to the present, and he understood that this moment was not easy to come by.
The smile on the corner of Nicholas's mouth bloomed, and there were still tears of emotion in his eyes, but the smile was truly released. Not because John has won the respect and affirmation of so many people, but because John has finally come out of the shackles and confusion in his heart, and with the help of Alicia, with his perseverance, he has proved himself - he is not a madman, on the contrary, he is a genius.
This is his moment of glory.
The applause rang out, not in the cinema, but at the award ceremony of the 1994 Nobel Prize in Stockholm.
John Nash, who won the Nobel Prize in Economics for his work in game theory, walked up to the podium, looked at the crowd and found Alicia, "I've always believed that numbers, whether it's equations or logic, lead us to think." But after a lifelong quest, I asked myself, 'What is logic and who decides why', and my quest led me through the physical, metaphysical, hallucinatory, and back to square one. I have made the most significant breakthrough in my career, and I have also found the most important person in my life, and only in this mysterious love equation can I find logic or reason. ”
John's gaze intertwined with Alicia's, and he said affectionately, "It's all thanks to you that I'm standing here tonight." You are the factor in my success. Alicia couldn't help but burst into tears, "It's also my only factor." Thank you! ”
The audience gave a standing ovation, and John looked at the endless crowd in front of him with tears in his eyes, and walked heavily and slowly towards his place.
The award ceremony was over, and John helped Alicia out of the hall, Charles, William, and Marcy were still watching him from the corner, but this time he didn't waver, and walked slowly side by side with Alicia, supporting each other.