(519), but do not give up
- Although the two sides were more than ten zhang apart, Wu Shu could hear all the words that Li Gai said to Mo Ye. His usual work is mainly to monitor and snoop, and his perception has been specially trained as a result.
Originally, when the two people not far away started that conversation, he subconsciously wanted to avoid it, because although the two people were talking about official secrets, they involved the secrets of one of them's heart, and he had no intention of offending.
However, he took a step back a little, so he heard a few words that unconsciously caught his attention. He had also been troubled by his broken face for years, and he wanted answers.
And when his boss directly mentioned his name, he finally didn't want to move half a step away from the door frame.
It wasn't until he heard his boss's words analyze his affairs so thoroughly, that he suddenly realized that his boss's observation was so subtle that even if he didn't send someone to monitor him like he did with the girl, he could see the trace of trouble buried deep in his heart clearly.
Although Wu Shu never thought of the remnants of the soldiers after the war, he was so close to Li Gai, who had led tens of thousands of soldiers to kill on the battlefield, how could he not know that for the kind of remnants who left a strong spiritual shadow in the war, they could no longer be reused in this life, because mental disorders are likely to affect a person's judgment.
In addition, the final fate of the remnants of the soldiers is probably to return to the peasants, and the imperial court will also make this special case and give a certain amount of pension and silver salary.
This seems to be the best destination for the remnants, but the mental scars left by the battle may not only not be healed after they leave the barracks environment, but also because of the change in the living environment, the inner uneasiness. And unconsciously torn and elongated.
Generally speaking, after a long period of battle, soldiers who have to change their life as farmers will be a little unable to adapt to that peaceful life, and they will feel unrefreshed if they don't hear the horn every day. However, most people can adapt to this psychological change, and only those remnants who have too heavy spiritual shadows, who rely too much on the sound of horns and military discipline commands, can get a moment of peace of mind.
Such soldiers, if they are to return to the farm, will lose the right to return to the barracks. In a way, it may be tantamount to being abandoned by a special group.
Aware of this problem in silent listening, he stood inside the doorframe like a stone sculpture. Even the tip of his nose has been kept back, and Wu Shu, who has stepped back behind the horizontal line of the door frame, gradually lowered his eyes, bent his wrist, and touched the small box between the wristbands with his flat fingers.
Li Gai knew the reason for the remnant soldiers, and still reused him, Wu Shu would not be so easy to believe. This is because Li Gai saw the face of Ye Zhengming, the introducer, and gave him a special case.
In recent years, because of Mo Ye's affairs, he has more than twice the chance of contacting him, the highest superior other than the emperor, than usual, and has been able to observe his style of doing things more clearly. For that kind of remnant soldiers, this boss's handling method is very decisive. Although the benefits offered are very merciful, there is no reason to be used and reused.
People like him should think more about things from the perspective of group interests. If there is a remnant of the soldier in the team, his spirit will get out of control at any time. The adverse effects on the entire contingent of soldiers, especially the impact on discipline, are difficult to predict. Wu Shu also knew this problem in his heart, so he also agreed with Li Gai's decision from the heart.
As for the question in his own mind. Because he is already very good, not to mention his environment. makes it extremely difficult for him to have normal contact with people, and the shadow in his heart can almost be omitted if it is triggered.
But it wasn't until today, listening to Li Gai's words that he originally said to Mo Ye, that he knew that the psychological barrier he hid so well had never been loosened in his boss's heart. Despite this, his superiors never said that they would abandon him, and often entrusted him with important tasks.
And he really couldn't find the slightest reason to associate this reuse with the sympathy of his superiors.
Just a few months ago, his boss Li Gai had revealed to him that he wanted to hand over the four Kyoto Left-behind Branches to him for exercise. Although the forces of the Liujing Ministry are only one-third of the forces of the four groups of foreign powers, some members of the four groups closest to the imperial power have to be handed over to one person to manage, and this position bears the trust and attention of Li Gai, which is not light.
Except for this one thing in front of him, he only said that the box he held, it was the only treasure in this world, but Li Gai gave it to himself nine years ago, and he has never said that he wants to take it back.
It is rumored that it is a divine creature that fell from the sky, no matter what the facts are, at least now there is really only one zài in the world, and I can't find its origin, I don't know who made it, and the toughness of the four strands of wire that it can project is indeed beyond the ability of ordinary things in the world.
After listening to Li Gai's words, he directly mentioned his name, and even if Wu Shu was sluggish, he had already faintly realized that Li Gai was deliberately saying this.
With the ability of his boss, how could he not consider that with this distance of ten or so zhang, he couldn't hide his ear power at all? A large part of his martial arts has been improved by leaps and bounds after being raised by this boss.
And after he continued to listen for a moment, he was convinced of this, and he also understood that the reason why his boss had already opened his mouth so meaningfully, but still ordered him to stay in the study, was just to avoid embarrassing Mo Ye in the rest of the conversation.
Before Li Gai spoke, he reminded Mo Ye that some questions that you don't want to go back to the past have finally appeared.
After the trauma has healed, the body parts that have been seriously injured may cause a mental impact when they are touched by people on a daily basis, but they may not be painful. At this point, Li Gai paused slightly, his gaze swept to Mo Ye's shoulder, and then he continued slowly: Throughout the thirteen years you have grown up, the first ten years will never be a problem under the care of my third brother. As for the three years in Beijing, the only time he could be injured was the fire in the Lin family's old house three years ago.
Hearing him mention this, Mo Ye's pupils suddenly contracted.
If you think back to that experience, even though it has been three years, you still don't feel good. Li Gai's eyes were fixed on the change in the expression on Mo Ye's face, and he continued, after extinguishing the fire, although many things were burned, it could still be judged from the number of corpses that the process of fighting must be extremely bloody. Afterwards, I also took witnesses to investigate, and I can roughly judge that the fight only lasted less than a quarter of an hour, but in the small courtyard, there were more than 30 corpses left in total, and the killing density was no less than the melee on the battlefield.
Mo Ye didn't speak, but unconsciously, she suddenly nodded—I don't know if she was really nodding her head, or if she remembered the bloody scene, and her neck couldn't help but twitch.
But you didn't hurt your shoulder afterwards. Li Gai's tone suddenly hardened, although the process of that incident was tragic, but you were in it, but you were extremely well protected.
Be...... Mo Ye moved her lips, but she only spit out a word, and couldn't continue, and then she raised her right hand a little lost and spread out the palm that had been clenched into a fist just now in front of her eyes.
After practicing boxing for a long time, he has been able to control his hand very steadily, and when he was touched by his own gaze, he unconsciously began to tremble a little uncontrollably.
Do you want to continue? Li Gai, who was silent after seeing Mo Ye's gesture of raising his hand, waited for a moment and suddenly spoke.
Mo Ye's shoulders suddenly tightened when she first heard this, but she quickly relaxed again, and after taking a deep breath, she replied softly: I'm ready.
So, tell me what you did when you were surrounded by assassins in the courtyard. Li Gai's eyes, which had been slightly contracted before, suddenly turned straight to his gaze, to be specific, what did you do with these hands of yours?
Li Gai suddenly asked, and his words were like thorns, which made Mo Ye stunned for a moment.
She had thought that what he had just said about continuing meant his continuation. At this time, as if they were swapping roles, Mo Ye felt that his situation was extremely passive. And if she really wants to tell the story of that incident in person, it will undoubtedly ask her to dig out the scene she experienced that day from the bottom of her heart and live it in front of her eyes again.
And the picture she experienced that day was deliberately sealed in her heart a long time ago, just blindly thinking about escaping, and never thinking about meeting it head-on, so that this knot could be truly dissolved in the bottom of her heart.
To be precise, those images are resting in her heart, and being sealed also means that once they are gouged out again, the clarity of the pictures and the dazzling colors that fill her with them will make her feel like she is there.
Not only did this make her feel uncomfortable, but this painful experience, how she wished it could turn into a passing smoke and dissipate on its own.
She has been looking forward to it for three years, she has deceived herself for three years, and although she has been able to bury this memory deeply, the fact that it still does not change at all. In the face of real things, there will always be a time when lies will come to an end.
And it wasn't until today that she listened to Li Gai's analysis that she knew that the memory was like air, even if she could block the door of memory, it would still react from the meridians of the body.
The remnant hysteria that Li Gai just explained, if it is used on her, it can probably find a way out. But this belongs to her hysteria, if the cause of its formation is investigated, but it has nothing to do with the battlefield fighting, only she knows it in her heart.
That's why Li Gai, who has noticed this, will ask this!
But Mo Ye didn't open her mouth to respond to Li Gai again, but the hand she raised in front of her eyes trembled even more-