I was like a loveless child, and in an instant all the armor I was carrying on my body was removed.

After all, the mind is something that even you can't control. Even though I'm the most eloquent liar in the world, I can't fool my own heart. Love or not, let go or not, it is really telling you, and it is really beating.

People who have given up thousands of times you have thought about may be because of a light across the road, the sound of a motor coming from the window when you wake up late at night, the comfort of yourself when you are sick, and the pictures you once had, like the pages of a book opening and crossing one by one. You don't know how to say goodbye, and maybe you've never been far away.

Xia Mo looked at me, her eyes were slightly rosy, and she cried with a hint of crying: "Gu Nan, let's not be like this, it's better to let go of the memories and let go of yourself." ”

After Xia Mo finished speaking, she stood up, turned around and ran towards the night.

Aunt Hou may be afraid that it will affect us, and she has already arrived in the supermarket.

I sat on the road like this, feeling the coldness of the ground, and I suddenly wanted to sleep on the ground like this, not thinking about anything, and waiting for the end to be desolate.

The coming days are long, but I have already filled the time with waiting.

I lay quietly on the ground, feeling the tears slowly running down my cheeks. In the end, Aunt Hou came out of it and helped me in. I didn't take a shower, I didn't take off my clothes, and I just fell asleep.

The next day, I slept until I woke up naturally, I habitually lit a cigarette, then took out my mobile phone, charged it, and then a dense text message came. There are missed calls from fat people, and Xia Mo's. But there was a text message from Su Mo that sent me.

"Life in dreams, life is like a dream, the drunk are in the dream, the person in the dream is gone. People who do not react to life in their dreams will either die or forget. ”

I read the text message Su Mo sent me, and replied to him: It's so suspenseful, you are a fortune teller.

It's just that Su Mo's side didn't reply to me. After I got up and cleaned up, I called the fat man back, and it rang for a long time before answering.

"What's wrong?" I grabbed a bottle of milk from the supermarket and drank it.

"I miss my brother Nan."

"How much?"

"Eh, do you want to be so tacit, you are a roundworm in my stomach?" The fat man said with some embarrassment over there.

"Don't talk nonsense, I don't know you yet, I can guess how many times you talk to others in one night."

The fat man over there smiled innocently: "I want to help Liangliang buy some things here, winter is coming, and the children here have no clothes to wear." ”

"Didn't I give you money last time?" I remembered the card that Bai Li gave me last time, when I did give it to the fat man.

The fat man hesitated over there: "It's already used up." ”

I squirted out a mouthful of milk: "Big brother, 100,000, you've run out in just a few days?" You've been robbed? ”

"I, I." The fat man slurred over there.

"Okay, I know, I'll see if I can raise some for you in the next two days." I said with a sigh. The fat man answered and hung up.

Since the last time I went to look for Robin with the fat man, the fat man has been going there every day like a demon. The 100,000 yuan of white glass must have been spent by the fat man for Robin, and I don't know what exactly he bought. But I have a bad feeling in my heart, and I can't say what is wrong.

I simply calculated the money in hand, I still have tens of thousands of the 200,000 yuan that Bai Li borrowed from me before, and the next 100,000 yuan has been used up, the fixed assets of the supermarket are here, these are not usable, and after removing Aunt Hou and Jersey's salary, the rest has to pay rent. After all, we really don't have much money in our hands.

I went out to eat something, then went to the nearest bank, took out the "dowry card" that Bai Li gave me and entered my birthday, there were more than 40,000 yuan in it, at this moment my heart became more and more unsteady, I grabbed my hair, how should I pay this account!

I got up early today, just after one o'clock in the afternoon. I took out my phone and flipped through the calendar, and the end of the year was getting closer and closer, and I had been living in Wuhan for nine years. The days pass by like a white horse, pushing us towards the black sea.

This year's Wuhan is surprisingly cold, more intrusive than ever. I took out the lighter, but it was the kind of plastic lighter that was made of one dollar, and it was no longer the lighter with the word "foam".

I suddenly remembered what I had done to Mobei last night, and a wave of shame welled up in my heart. I took out my mobile phone and called Mo Bei, and it took a long time for me to answer: "What are you doing?" ”

I smiled hehehe: "I'm sorry about what happened last night, I drank too much, don't you care." ”

"I don't have time to care, just tell me if you have anything, I'm busy." I could hear that Mo Bei over there must be angry with me.

I sighed: "Miss Mo, really, I really drank too much yesterday, that's why I was so reckless and reckless." ”

"I said I didn't care." Mo Bei said coldly over there.

I didn't speak, and Mo Bei was silent. We were so embarrassed in each other's silence. Even the breath was lost to her.

"I'm busy with the exhibition, I'll hang up if you're fine." Mo Bei said slowly after a while, and hung up the phone directly.

I held my phone and listened to the busy sound inside, and I felt indescribable. I don't know what the relationship between me and Mobei is now, if it is said that it is a friend, but we are so ambiguous, not lovers but better than a couple.

I walked down the streets of the neighborhood, wandering aimlessly. I don't know where I'm going, I'm looking for myself in this city like a lost soul. It's as if everything is moving forward and everyone around me is getting better. Bai Li has Han Fei, Xia Mo has Shen Xiangyang, and the fat man has Robin, but who do I have?

I arrived at the top of the Optics Valley overpass, facing the cold wind, I opened my arms, and the traffic below was endless, and for a moment I wanted to jump down like this, if I could fly, what if I could break my bones!

Then I went back to the supermarket, and Jersey was sitting at the checkout desk writing and drawing, and I walked over: "What's the matter?" ”

Jersey trembled, and suddenly put the notebook in his hand in his arms: "You scared me to death!" ”

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