Sitting in the carriage, reason slowly returned to his body, and Situ Shan suddenly felt that he was a person who was rejected by heaven and earth.

Although she was loved by thousands after she was born, none of her mother, aunt, aunt, and sister-in-law were happy. And her own so-called happiness is nothing more than a scam.

She wasn't supposed to be a happy person in the first place, but she had a sweet dream for three years stupidly.

Zheng Ling has a heart, and in order to promise another woman, he is very kind to her, and fabricates a love that will be praised by the entire capital.

As everyone knows, none of this has anything to do with her.

The love praised by thousands of people is not worth the little thing that no one notices in the mud.

She is happy standing on the bright side, but what she envies more is the true and unadulterated true feelings hidden in the mud.

"Young lady, are you alright?" The maid next to her asked her worriedly.

Situ Shan laughed, tears streaming down her cheeks, how could she be fine?

But what if she had something? The man who was supposed to be her husband was hurting for another woman and getting drunk for another woman.

Even if she had something, what could she do? Who will be next to her and worry about her?

The maid took a handkerchief to help her wipe away her tears, and asked her tentatively, "But the son is angry with the young lady?" ”

"No, he's not angry with me." Situ Shan replied softly, she even thought that these words were just thoughts in her head, and she didn't say them at all.

The maid seemed to want to ask, but was stopped by another one.

The other whispered, "The young lady comes out." When they met the county lord of Anning and the general of Zhenguo, they all asked what was going on with concern, but the young lady left without saying a word...... Shouldn't the young lady go in and make a compensation? ”

Zhong Liche brought Zheng Ling to the Zhenguo Mansion, could it be that he was entrusted by the county lord of Anning to meet Lin Xinqing? But Lin Xinqing only had a miscarriage yesterday, and she definitely couldn't go out.

So why did Zheng Ling go to the Zhenguo Mansion?

General Zhenguo and the county lord of Anning, do you know Zheng Ling's thoughts about Lin Xinqing?

Situ Shan fell into deep thought.

"Young lady—" The maid couldn't help but tug at her sleeve.

Situ Shan came back to her senses, still heartache and couldn't help herself, "What? ”

"Madame values these manners above all else, if she knew them. I'm sure I'm going to come to the door to apologize in person. Why don't the young lady go to make amends to General Zhenguo and the county lord of Anning earlier? In this way, Madame will not say anything. The maid reminded beside her.

Situ Shan forcibly suppressed her emotions, "Why make amends?" ”

The maid's face showed surprise and melancholy, and she cried all the way out of the town's mansion. I said it again after meeting the county lord of Anning and the general of Zhenguo, but they left without saying a word.

That's what she's talking about. Didn't the young lady listen to a word?

In fact, Situ Shan listened. It's just that I only heard the characters, but I didn't have the heart to hear what was going on.

At this time, listening to the maid's words, she was a little stunned.

It turned out that she had just lost her soul and was in chaos. Is it so rude?

"Let's go back, let's go back and make amends." Situ Shan said in a low voice.

The carriage drove all the way back, but Situ Shan's heart was in a mess.

In her head, all the back and forth were Zheng Ling's drunken words.

How could he do this to her? How could he have a heart and still marry her? It's been three years, why can't he forget Lin Xinqing?

When he hugged her, when he kissed her, when he was in love with her, did he see her or Lin Xinqing in his eyes? What is she thinking about in her heart or Lin Xinqing?

Situ Shan's heart suddenly swelled with a vicious thought of wanting to destroy everything, why did he treat her like this! Why is everyone else happy, but she has to bear the praise of others despite her misfortune?

"Our room is a little spacious." He used to say that.

Is it because there is no Lin Xinqing in the house, so he always feels very empty?

What about his heart? Isn't it narrow? It's so narrow that you can't even move where you can change people, so you always have a person?

The carriage stopped, and the town government arrived.

Situ Shan wiped away her tears, lowered her eyelids and helped the maid's hand get out of the carriage.

Entering the door, the garden was full of purple and red, Situ Shan's desperate heart was a little unwilling, the spring was so good, why did she have to be so uncomfortable, shouldn't it be sunny, cheerful and peaceful?

She thought that maybe it would be better to meet the county lord of Anning first, to see if she knew that Zheng Ling had feelings for Lin Xinqing, and also apologized by the way.

But in the time when she was waiting at the gate of the garden, waiting to see General Zhenguo and the county lord of Anning, she wanted to turn around and run more than once, run away, run home, and run back to her youth.

There will be many people there who will spoil her and love her, and all the pampering will be sincere. Except for the occasional sad mother and sad daughter, everything is so perfect.

But she still stood still, she couldn't go back, so she couldn't run.

After seeing the county lord and his wife in Anning, her heart began to cramp again.

The handsome men and the handsome women, the husband and wife have gone all the way, and the affection at the corners of the eyes and eyebrows seems to be urging the spring flowers to bloom.

When you are happy, everything you see is beautiful.

When you are unhappy, the beauty you see becomes a thorn, and the sting hurts your life.

With difficulty opening her mouth to apologize, Zhong Liche quickly left, and she was welcomed in by the county lord of Anning.

None of the polite words she had prepared were useful, and at the beginning, she couldn't wait to get to the point.

She just wanted to know if the county lord of Anning knew.

When everyone in Beijing praised her and Zheng Linglang's love affair, was the county lord of Anning laughing at her in private.

The county lord of Anning knew it, but she didn't laugh at her, and the eyes that looked at her were pitying, sympathetic, but not mocking.

Even when she speaks, she doesn't have a lot of bias, and even she is biased towards her as a victim.

She asked her to reconcile with Zheng Ling and find a man who was a thousand times better than Zheng Ling and ten thousand times better.

But Situ Shan knew that there would never be any more. There will never be a man who is better to her than Zheng Ling.

didn't want to leave, so he tried to catch Zheng Ling, so that Zheng Ling forgot about Lin Xinqing and filled his heart with himself.

Situ Shan chose to work hard, in the past three years, although the happiness was false and the happiness was ironic, she still couldn't help but be nostalgic and nostalgic.

This is her pursuit of happiness, and it is the pursuit of happiness by all the ladies in her family.

Why not give it a try. Give it a try. How about turning this happiness into reality and making it completely your own?

That happiness is not because of his commitment to another woman, but because she is her, he wants her to be happy.

She asked the county lord of Anning to help her hide everything that happened today, she didn't want Zheng Ling to know that she knew the secret in his heart. Knowing that he was deeply in love with another woman.

On the one hand. She was afraid that once she pierced this layer of paper. Zheng Linghui loved even more unscrupulously, just like a certain brother of hers, and painted countless pictures of that person in the study to remember. slapped the face of the original sister-in-law again and again.

On the other hand, she was afraid that Zheng Ling would think that she knew, and she kept thinking about it, making Lin Xinqing feel like a day in his heart.

The county lord of Anning promised her that she would not leak out. She even said that she would let Zhongli Cheduo talk about Lin Xinqing's happiness in front of Zheng Ling.

They all knew that if Lin Xinqing was happy, Zheng Ling would watch her happiness calmly, and the worry in her heart gradually decreased.

She wanted to meet Lin Xinqing, she wanted to take a good look at the person who was put on the tip of Zheng Ling's heart, she had never looked at her well.

The county lord of Anning reminded her that Lin Xinqing was also innocent and asked her not to make Lin Xinqing sad.

Almost instantly, she made a decision.

Lin Xinqing is indeed innocent, even if there is a mistake, it is Zheng Ling's mistake. I liked it but didn't fight for it, and I couldn't help but miss it after getting married.

She promised the county lord of Anning that she would not show any flaws.

Lin Xinqing was very surprised to see her coming, but soon showed a somewhat shy smile, as if she was embarrassed to have a miscarriage.

The conversation didn't last long, Lin Xinqing was in very poor health, and soon yawned again and again, and the grandmother beside her kept hinting that she wanted to send off guests.

Such a short time is enough, she can already see Lin Xinqing clearly.

Lin Xinqing is not particularly beautiful when it comes to beauty, and because her spirit is extremely poor, her complexion is not good. But her eyes were bright and seemed to be full of life.

Maybe it's such a pair of eyes that attract him, full of vitality, not like the usual restraint and calm.

But no matter what, she couldn't learn it. Therefore, she could only use her own means to snatch Zheng Ling over.

Situ Shan said goodbye and left, quietly returned to the Zheng Mansion, briefly talked about today's events, and said that he was rude, but General Zhenguo and the county lord of Anning did not mind.

Before the curfew, the Zhenguo Mansion even sent a snack, saying that the county lord of Anning knew that she liked to eat and sent it specially.

So all Mrs. Zheng's suspicions were gone, and she was very happy, feeling that it was a good thing that the family could get along with the Hua family. And Hua Liuniang now seems to be more representative of the Hua family than Zhou Yuan.

Situ Shan didn't know how her mother-in-law judged, and she didn't want to know, her heart was filled with what happened today, and she was filled with the drunken words that Zheng Ling said today.

Zheng Ling knew that he would only return home on the second day, his face was a little bad, and the sadness in his eyes could not be concealed even though he tried his best. But beyond that, there was guilt in his eyes.

For this reason, he specially bought a golden hairpin and came back to her, saying that he was sorry for not returning overnight, which made her worried.

She was full of sadness, but she still accepted the golden hairpin with a smile.

As if nothing had happened, they went on with their lives.

However, a few days later, Zheng Ling still knew that she had cried in the Zhenguo Mansion, and he came back with some anxiety to ask her why she cried that day.

The county lord of Anning's plan had already been notified to her, so she said that she was frightened when she learned that Second Lady Jiang was almost gone.

It is natural for a woman to conceive a child, but she never imagined that such a thing would happen. She thought about the time when she gave birth, and she couldn't help but be sad and scared.

It was visible to the naked eye that Zheng Ling felt relieved when she finished speaking.

Don't you want me to know the secret of your heart?

Are you guarding the secret like this, are you protecting Lin Xinqing, or are you afraid that I will be sad?

Situ Shan moved her face away, with a smile on her face, but the sadness in her heart was deeper than heavy.

After the spring outing and flower appreciation banquet, some people continued to praise her and Zheng Ling, a pair of beautiful people, and envied Zheng Ling's death to her. Her heart was cold, and there was no longer the happiness of the past.

When she returned to her parents' house, her mother was still smiling brightly, so she didn't dare to say anything, not even cry.

Because of this grievance and resentment, she would go to the Zhenguo Mansion from time to time to talk to the county lord of Anning, talking too much, and having a different kind of friendship.

After many years, in palace banquets or various banquets, as long as Lin Xinqing and Zheng Ling were present, she would always be unable to help but pay attention to the two of them with her eyes.

Every time she saw that Zheng Ling and Lin Xinqing's eyes met, both of them were stunned at first, and then they smiled faintly and looked away from each other.

As time passed, the two of them were less and less stunned, and their smiles became more and more cheerful. Later, the two would even say hello and say a few words in front of her.

Perhaps, it is to let go.

Hua Liuniang happily said to her, look, how terrible time is, there is no getting along with morning and twilight, and the feelings are finally as light as flowers and dissipate in time.

She smiled, but her heart was calm.

Looking at himself in the mirror, he is no longer a young face, maybe because he is old, so he has no attachment to his feelings.

Just like her mother, she cried for most of her life, and finally didn't let go, she just wanted her daughter to be happy.

There is nothing worth chasing for a lifetime. People will always get tired and tired.

What's more, chasing and chasing, in the end, I forgot what I once wanted. Because that stubbornness has gradually dissipated.

Hua Liuniang laughed at her, at your age, how can you be considered old. If you want to, life has just begun.

She shook her head, she is not Hua Liuniang, she is not as legendary as her, she is not as radiant as her, so she is destined to age faster than Hua Liuniang.

At the age of thirty-three, who dares to say that he is not old.

She is in charge of the Zheng Mansion, and takes care of the Zheng Mansion in an orderly manner, and when she has time, she has to help her two daughters prepare dowries, and she also has to help the eldest son see a suitable little lady.

She was so busy that she couldn't remember what it was like to have her heart full of love.

She walked out of the door, and when she met the young lady again, she became an elder.

She is too old to expect love.

She was afraid that her future daughter-in-law would repeat her mistakes, so after showing her eldest son, she would let her eldest son meet the little lady. If there is love, she will send someone to the door to propose.

On a somewhat cold autumn day, the eldest son and the little lady blushed as soon as they met. She knew that this was it.

When the marriage was made, the autumn was deeper and colder, but everyone was very happy, and Zheng Ling even drank a lot of wine.

She didn't want to face Zheng Ling, who was full of alcohol, and wanted to avoid going outside when she went to bed, but she was hugged to death by the drunk Zheng Ling, and finally lay on the same bed.

She remembered the time when Zheng Ling was drunk when she was young, and she couldn't sleep anymore, and the autumn rain outside was falling, which was even more desolate.

Zheng Ling was drunk, but she talked in her dreams, hugged her and shouted, "Shan'er...... Shan'er ......"

Her tears fell, and she couldn't help but ask him, "Isn't it Xinqing?" Xinqing. ”

Zheng Ling opened her drunken eyes in the dark and smiled at her drunkenly, "New, new...... Elsanne...... I love Shan'er...... Don't feel guilty about Shan'er......"

She hugged him and cried all night, and her second eye was swollen.

It turns out that she is really not old, it turns out that she doesn't want it anymore, it's just that after so many years, she can't help but despair. (To be continued......)

PS: This chapter is a gift for the stars!!