But this time, he went out for a whole year, which made her wait a little anxiously. Finally, he returned again, but the days after his return were very turbulent and even painful.

In the days when he returned to the Prime Minister's Mansion this time, there was a gloom in his eyes that she had never seen before. But she still likes to see him scattered, joking and gossiping.

She didn't like to see him unhappy, because she found herself sad with him. But at the same time, she knew very well that the reason for Cen Chi's mental turmoil this time was so great that it would not be able to be reversed for a while.

At this point, Xiao Qiang's mood couldn't help but turn from the joy that began with her thoughts to depression. At this moment, there was a sudden laugh from two people, but this sudden but pleasant voice startled her.

Suddenly raised her head, pulling her attention away from her thoughts, Xiao Qiang woke up like a big dream, and there was still a trace of difficulty in her mind. Then she was surprised to find that she actually fell asleep in the meditation room where Xixin and Cen Chi sat opposite each other and talked about Zen Taoism!

But at the beginning of the Zen period, I told myself that I should listen carefully to the Zen scriptures of this day and cherish this opportunity to expand my knowledge that is difficult to obtain as a servant, but I actually fell asleep?!

After returning from the fugue and returning to her senses in a trance, Xiaoqiang only felt full of embarrassment, and the first thing she saw after waking up was Xixin, who could probably be regarded as sitting opposite her. However, at this moment, Xi Xin in Xiao Qiang's eyes, judging from his expression and demeanor, he didn't seem to care at all about his almost rude casual attitude.

When Xiao Qiang took a closer look at the expression on his face, it seemed that it was not simple that he didn't care, but as if he didn't see himself dozing off at all. Not only him, but Mr. Cen, who was sitting two steps in front of him and was also sitting opposite Xixin but with his back to him, didn't seem to notice the abnormality behind him, and still talked happily with Xixin.

This...... In the end, it is Xixin's calm mood and open-mindedness. Will you not mind the unruliness of the observers, or will you be ignored by the two of them?

……

Xiao Qiang felt that Mr. Cen was sitting on the futon with his back to him facing the heart of the stream, and most of his spirit was devoted to the enlightenment of the Buddha, and it was normal to easily ignore the people and things behind him. However, the monk with the Dharma name Xixin only needed one glance to see himself, why didn't he even give Mr. Cen a hint at all?

Before entering the meditation room, Xiao Qiang listened to Cen Chi's advice, and this time only as an observer. Try not to open your voice to participate in the process of the two of them. But at this time, Xiao Qiang really wanted to speak, even if it was just to express her apologies to one of the two.

She has been a servant maid in the Prime Minister's Mansion for several years, and if she makes a mistake...... Even if it's just a small mistake. The act of apologizing and pleading for sins immediately after that has become a habit has been crushed into her life and character. At this moment, if she does not release the sense of regret caused by this behavior habit for her unruly behavior, she will easily fall into a tangled relationship.

But neither of the other two people in the meditation room gave her a chance to release her guilt.

Xi Xin and Cen Chi's mental attention was still immersed in the debate between the Buddha's principles and the Tao of Buddhism and Taoism. Although the laughter just now did not happen again, the rhythm of the conversation between the two of them matched. There is no intention of stopping.

So although Xiao Qiang was desperate to apologize, she only gently raised her sleeve to wipe her slightly sweaty forehead and said nothing.

A Buddhist scripture that Xixin and Cen Chi were talking about, Xiao Qiang still didn't understand it very well, and felt bored. But she couldn't get any sleepiness in her heart now, and this feeling of feeling dull and obscure with a clear mind could really be called a kind of mental torment.

Slightly hung his head and was silent for a long time. She finally couldn't help it and sighed softly.

Although she had been cautiously abiding by Cen Chi's instructions before, she did not interject loudly. Her sigh at this moment was also the sound of a very light air flow swimming out of her throat, but the sound of the lecture in the meditation room suddenly stopped just after her sigh.

Xiao Qiang was slightly stunned, and subconsciously raised her head, and then she saw Cen Chi turn her head to look at her behind her.

It was something she had been looking forward to, but for some reason. Seeing that he finally turned around and noticed her, she felt that the invisible pressure in her heart was even worse.

She didn't know. This increase in pressure is still due to the habit of being a subordinate who has served her master for a long time in her life. At this moment, she was subconsciously reminding herself that the lecture in the meditation room was interrupted because she sighed.

She didn't expect that she didn't know because she didn't understand, and the voice of the sermon stopped abruptly, which actually ended naturally.

There was a slight sound of clothes rubbing, and Xiao Qiang, who was ashamed and lowered her head slightly, felt that someone was approaching. As soon as she raised her head, she saw Cen Chi, who had already gotten up from the futon and turned to walk to her and squatted down, looking at her with a calm and somewhat meaningless expression.

Behind him, the place where the plain-clothed monk Xixin was sitting just now was empty. Xiao Qiang looked sideways, and saw the back of Xixin outside the door of the meditation room, and he had already walked far.

"I ......" Xiao Qiang subconsciously spoke, but she only said one word and felt that it was difficult to continue.

At this time, Cen Chi took the initiative to speak, and he said with a smile: "Master Xixin just told me that you were sleeping, I still don't believe it, but now I look at you and no longer doubt what he said." ”

When Xiao Qiang heard this, she jumped up from the futon in shock.

She didn't sit very upright on this futon made of straw poles and stiff to sit on, so this leap was neat, and at the same time she blurted out in surprise: "When?" ”

Cen Chi didn't answer this question directly, but said slowly: "He just said it to me, and I smiled with him just now, and I woke up the female benefactor behind me." With that, he also stood up.

Just now, he and Xiao Qiang squatted and sat together, looking at each other, their eyes were quite level. At this time, both of them stood up, and the difference in height made Xiao Qiang unconsciously feel a kind of psychological pressure caused by the need to look up.

In fact, Cen Chi's gaze has not changed, and he is still calm and gentle. He used to live in the Prime Minister's Mansion, and he rarely used that kind of oppressive gaze on the people of the Prime Minister's Mansion, and he never used this attitude to Xiao Qiang, who served him closely. It's just that at this time, Xiao Qiang remembered her guilt again, and her mind became sensitive.

Xiao Qiang lowered her head slightly, and asked cowardly, "Master Xixin must be very angry and disappointed in me. ”

"Seeing that you look guilty, are you blaming yourself for this?" Cen Chi's voice came, and there seemed to be a smile in his tone.

Xiao Qiang raised her head, her eyes fell on Cen Chi's face, and seeing that he was really laughing, she couldn't help but pouted and said, "Since you have all seen it and exchanged news, why hasn't anyone woken me up?" ”

She spoke in this voice, and the other meaning she wanted to convey was already clear.

She speculated that Xixin and Cen Chi had made an appointment to watch her jokes together, and she was very dissatisfied with this. However, she didn't take into account that even if this was the case, with the hearts of these two people, even if they saw the jokes, they wouldn't go around saying it, and it wouldn't affect her at all. And they didn't wake her up when she was napping, mostly out of a generous and casual attitude, so what did she have to worry about herself?

Cen Chi didn't explain anything about this, nor did he comfort her, and without warning and seemed a little abrupt to deviate from the topic, he only said gently: "Let's get out of here first, and I'll take you to rest." ”

Xiao Qiang responded and walked out of the house with Cen Chi, but as soon as she walked out of the meditation room, she thought of a question, and asked very hindsightly: "You are preaching...... It's already over? ”

"It's over."

Xiao Qiang was slightly happy when she heard this, but this joy didn't last long, because she quickly found that Cen Chi just now seemed to be a little distracted.

He didn't finish his sentence, and after a short pause, he added: "The first rhyme is over." ”

"Shouque ......"

Xiao Qiang's eyes were full of doubt, mixed with a hint of disappointment.

Although she couldn't quite understand the meaning of Cen Chi's words, it was not difficult for her to hear from what she said that the lecture was not completely over. And her doubts, not only because she had difficulty understanding those words and sentences that were beyond the scope of her knowledge, but also because she rarely saw Cen Chi speak indistinctly, and such a sentence was split into two at this time.

What would have been the reason for him to lose his mind like this?

Actually, it has something to do with me!

Today, what a shame! Even Mr. Rin's face was brushed.

Xiao Qiang lowered her head, aimlessly stirred a sleeve with her fingers, thinking to herself in her heart, her steps getting slower and slower.

"Little Girl."

Cen Chi's voice suddenly came, and it sounded a little distant.

As soon as Xiao Qiang looked up, she found that her steps were getting slower and slower, so that Cen Chi was almost at the door of the small courtyard where the meditation room was located, and she had just walked a few steps out of the door of the meditation room, and finally Cen Chi simply stopped and turned around to wait for her.

Xiao Qiang hurriedly quickened his pace and approached Cen Chi's side, and at the same time, he slowly said as if he was worried about something: "After a while, Master Xixin and I will talk about Xia Yan, you ......"

Xiao Qiang came to her senses, and hurriedly waved her hand and said, "That...... I won't be here to listen. ”

Cen Chi cut off what he wanted to say and stopped what he was about to say, and only looked at Xiao Qiang with questioning eyes, quietly waiting for her explanation.

"I don't understand that, so let's stop making a fuss." Xiao Qiang bit her lower lip, thought about it and said: "I am destined to live an ordinary life, but this is also what I want, so when it comes to preaching the scriptures, let people like you who are suitable for knowledge and identity think and talk!" Sitting there, not only did I not get any understanding, but I might also affect the communication between the master and the master. ”