Chapter 210: Regret
Originally, according to Emperor Xiaozhao's will, the wedding was scheduled for the autumn of the next year, but some people couldn't wait, and they were soft and hard in front of Emperor Xiaozhao, and they were advanced to April, and the date was set on the eighth day of April.
After the New Year, Han Yujin stayed at home to prepare for marriage. Most of the brides' wedding dresses are embroidered by themselves, but Han Yujin's female red is difficult to wear the wedding dress embroidered by herself in this life.
The Qin family originally planned to make a set in the famous embroidery shop in Dingzhou, but King An sent someone to send it over, Han Yujin tried it, and the size was just right.
Han Yujin touched the wedding dress, whether it was the fabric or the embroidery, it was all first-class good, and the more she thought about it, the more she felt warm.
Generally, the girl's family is not embroidering the wedding dress at home, or embroidering some small things, waiting to go to the in-law's house to give it away, so as to show off their embroidery work.
Han Yujin thought about it, and estimated that her in-laws didn't care whether their embroidery was good or not, everyone knew the roots, and no one would embarrass her as a fake "Seven Girls".
Even so, Han Yujin is constantly idle every day, sometimes doing needlework with a night light.
It wasn't until he practiced the stitches skillfully and embroidered things evenly and densely that he dared to make large clothes for Zhou Chengan.
Han Yujin weighed his ability, and only made him underwear, fine muslin, a full set of clothes, nightgowns, socks, pants, including private profane pants, Han Yujin did it stitch by stitch, without pretending to be someone else's hand.
In such anticipation and busyness, I didn't feel that in March, there was less than a month to go, and it was the wedding date.
The team will depart from Dingzhou ten days in advance. When Zhou Chengan got married, he would marry in the Qin Mansion in the capital, so Han Yujin's days in the Qin family did not last long.
March 20 is Qin Rulan's fifteenth birthday, and it is also the day of her marriage.
Qin Rulan is the youngest daughter of the Qin family, so she naturally held a very grand event and invited many families in Dingzhou to come over to watch the ceremony.
Han Yujin had been sitting at the bottom of Mrs. Qin throughout the whole process, silently accepting everyone's scrutiny, for this seven girls who suddenly appeared. is about to become a woman who is about to become Princess Ann. They were curious.
Han Yujin sat upright, letting them look at her, and suddenly, Han Yujin felt Ruman's back. The sixth sense feels Han Yujin. Something was snooping on her in the shadows.
Han Yujin raised her head. As far as the eye can see, there are unfamiliar faces and curious eyes.
didn't find the eyes that surprised him, Han Yujin was calm. I thought I probably had a premarital phobia.
Chen Yueqiao lowered her head and clasped her hands tightly together at the bottom of her sleeves.
It turned out to be really Han Yujin!
That day, I saw a woman come out in the plum blossom hermitage, although she only saw the back, Chen Yueqiao's heart was also shocked, because that back was too much like Han Yujin.
Later, I thought that Han Yujin was poisoned and died in the capital, and I hadn't come to Dingzhou at that time, so I knew it clearly.
At that time, Chen Yueqiao was unspeakably relieved in her heart, so she was extremely shocked when she saw a back figure Han Yujin in the Plum Blossom Nunnery.
At first, she just looked like it, but after listening to Zhu Yanhong's words, Chen Yueqiao's suspicion became even heavier.
King An wants to marry Han Yujin regardless of everything, how could this affection marry another concubine less than a year after Han Yujin's death?
Chen Yueqiao had a thought in her heart at that time, could it be that Han Yujin was the same as herself?
Such doubts made Chen Yueqiao sleep!
Finally let her find a chance.
After learning that Mrs. Zhu would participate, Chen Yueqiao praised the style of the Qin family in front of Zhu Yanhong more than once, and praised the Qin family's daughter for giving birth well.
Zhu Yanhong once again deeply despised her little family, and couldn't help but be unconvinced, they are all families, why should the Qin family suppress their own family, even this hillbilly is holding it like this.
Zhu Yanhong's love at that time happened to fall into Chen Yueqiao's arms, and in a few words, she coaxed Zhu Yanhong to that day and followed Mrs. Zhu to take herself to Qin's house.
Chen Yueqiao's new identity is a widow, naturally it is not suitable to attend such a banquet, Chen Yueqiao recommended herself and dressed up as Zhu Yanhong's maid, when Chen Yueqiao took off her veil and put on the maid's clothes, Zhu Yanhong was a little surprised, what she didn't expect was that this cousin was very beautiful, without a little childishness, put on the maid's clothes, and looked like a young lady, so Zhu Yanhong was even more depressed.
Fortunately, Chen Yueqiao has been following Zhu Yanhong and has never raised her head, Mrs. Zhu was busy talking and didn't notice the situation on Zhu Yanhong's side at all.
Chen Yueqiao stood behind Zhu Yanhong, secretly looking at Han Yujin who was sitting on the main seat, and the mood at the moment was no longer enough to describe it with resentment.
was also killed by the explosion, Han Yujin turned into a woman from a family at this moment, and she will marry Zhou Chengan as her wife in a few days, which is more glorious and noble than her previous status.
And he has to go far away, living in the house of this distant relative as a widow, relying on the breath of others to live, and when they find a suitable family, they will be the master and marry themselves.
This is the second half of his life that his grandfather helped him set when he picked him up.
If you don't accept it, there will be only one dead word.
Now that I think about it, how unjust God is!
As early as a few days ago, Shen Changning found himself, and Chen Yueqiao knew then that he had been expelled from the Shen Mansion.
Later, it took a lot of trouble to know that he was not dead, and it took a long time to find himself.
At that moment, Chen Yueqiao was moved from the bottom of her heart.
Especially now, in Dingzhou, in Zhufu, let Chen Yueqiao see the light in the darkness.
Shen Changning wanted to wait for her to leave, but Chen Yueqiao insisted on leaving after today, she must determine with her own eyes whether that person was Han Yujin, otherwise she would be restless for the rest of her life.
Now, she saw it, and the flame of resentment and jealousy in her heart burned even more.
After returning from the Qin family, Chen Yueqiao hid in her room without saying a word, and she didn't notice until Shen Changning jumped in through the window at night.
"What do you think, so distracted?"
Chen Yueqiao came back to her senses in a daze. Looking at Shen Changning, who was dressed in night clothes, asked:
"Why are you here?"
Shen Changning listened to Chen Yueqiao's words, his face sank, and he said unhappily:
"Yue Qiao, you told me a few days ago, I waited for you today, and now I can't hold it back, you must follow me today."
Only then did Chen Yueqiao remember that he had indeed promised him a few days ago. After nodding, Chen Yueqiao said to Shen Changning:
"The seventh girl of the Qin family is Han Yujin, I saw it with my own eyes today."
Unexpectedly, Shen Changning was indifferent when he heard it. looked at his gaze with a hint of disappointment. I only heard Shen Changning say:
"You've been dragging it out for the past few days, just to confirm this?"
Seeing that Shen Changning was unhappy, Chen Yueqiao lowered her head and did not speak.
"Do you still have illusions about Shen Yuanning?"
Shen Changning's voice was filled with anger. Chen Yueqiao raised her head with a pale face. Explained:
"I didn't!"
Shen Changning didn't believe it. With anger dancing in his eyes, he raised his hand and gently pinched Chen Yueqiao's slender jaw, leaning over. His lips rubbed Chen Yueqiao's lips.
With such an intimate and warm gesture, the words he said were indeed cold and hard:
"None? Then why is it because Han Yujin is here for so long? ”
Chen Yueqiao was a little flustered, looked straight at Shen Changning and explained:
"Brother Changning, you believe me, I'm really not for him, Han Yujin is a nightmare for me, it has nothing to do with him, if I don't confirm it with my own eyes, I won't be able to be at peace in the future. If it weren't for her, how would I have gotten to this point! ”
Chen Yueqiao's explanation not only did not make Shen Changning believe, but also made him feel angry.
Reduced to this point! Does she feel humiliated to be with her? Without the scenery when she was the wife of the prince, she still looked down on herself in her heart, and only pretended to be Shen Yuanning in her heart.
Thinking of this, I remembered what Shen Yuanning had said before: She always loves herself.
Shen Changning couldn't suppress the irritability in his heart, let go of her chin, and said in a cold voice:
"You don't have a choice, you have to leave if you don't leave today."
Chen Yueqiao listened to his words, and her heart gradually sank.
After leaving the Zhu Mansion, Chen Yueqiao sat in the carriage, thinking of Shen Changning's demeanor just now, she was still a little piercing.
After leaving the city, Shen Changning got off the horse and sat in the carriage with Chen Yueqiao.
After entering the carriage, she found that she looked at her detachedly, and she blindly dodged.
Shen Changning was a little displeased, but he still patiently apologized to her:
"Yue Qiao, I was in the Zhu Mansion just now, it was me who was wrong, I was also annoyed, so I talked to you like that, don't be angry."
Chen Yueqiao lowered her head, mumbled, and said nothing.
Shen Changning knew that she had a weak temperament, and she was scolded by herself today, so she was naturally a little aggrieved, so she sat down, took her over, picked her chin and said:
"Follow me to live a good life in the future, and I will never make you angry again."
After speaking, without waiting for her to reply, he grabbed her red lips, bit and licked them lightly, and put his hand into her clothes regardless of it.
Chen Yueqiao realized his move, frowned deeply, and made a sigh in his mouth, but instead let him go deeper, chasing around his tongue.
His hand roamed over her chest, and suddenly grabbed the raised red bean, this move, Chen Yueqiao did not have the slightest pleasure/feeling, only felt panic, boundless panic.
The sound of the coachman driving the carriage outside, Chen Yueqiao heard it clearly, such an environment, such an atmosphere, Chen Yueqiao didn't think about it, and suddenly pushed Shen Changning away.
Chen Yueqiao couldn't say why, at that moment, she didn't have the slightest feeling of being loved, she felt that she was just a plaything, and she was finally got her hands on it, and his slow twist was lightly picked, which only made Chen Yueqiao feel like she was being blasphemed/played, and pushed Shen Changning away out of physical instinct.
Shen Changning, who was pushed away, saw the panic in Chen Yueqiao's eyes, and even a trace of fear, and his heart slowly sank.
Her push was not to welcome or refuse, he felt it; Her fear wasn't shyness, he could tell.
Shen Changning was angry because Chen Yueqiao's heart was never on him, and Shen Changning was angry because Chen Yueqiao was lying to himself from beginning to end.
People can tell lies, but the body can't deceive people.
Especially with her eyes, what does she think of herself? During that time in the Shen Mansion, he was so ambiguous/ambiguous with himself, was he just using himself?
The more Shen Changning thought about it, the more angry he became, the more angry he became, and in the end, he pulled Chen Yueqiao, stared at her and asked:
"You don't want to?"
Chen Yueqiao turned her face away, and was turned around by Shen Changning again, forcing her to look at herself.
The fear in Chen Yueqiao's heart became deeper and deeper, and she couldn't hide it even if she wanted to, so she said nervously:
"I'm not ready"
Shen Changning listened to her clumsy excuse, and a sneer did not rise on his lips, and said:
"Then I'll teach you how to prepare today."
As he spoke, he lowered his head and blocked her mouth, and with the force of his hand, her coat was torn, and with the sound of brocade silk breaking, Shen Changning pressed her under him, tasting the delicious taste he had longed for for a long time.
Afterwards, Shen Changning was thinking, how did he come to this point, he obviously loved her to the bone, but how did he hurt her in the end.
Looking at Chen Yueqiao, who was shrinking in a corner and crying silently, Shen Changning felt indescribable guilt in his heart.
Shen Changning closed his eyes, annoyed by what he had just done.
Anger is a beast, it can devour people's reason, Shen Changning has known that Chen Yueqiao has been dragging herself for several days because of Han Yujin, and she knows that Chen Yueqiao has always cared about Shen Yuanning in her heart, even at this moment, she resists herself from the bottom of her heart.
That kind of thought made Shen Changning lose his mind, he could hardly think, he only thought about venting, and only thought about taking the woman in front of him for himself.
Seeing her injured expression afterwards, Shen Changning felt uncomfortable, sat up and pulled her, felt her whole body stiffen, and then deliberately controlled the trembling of his body, Shen Changning felt distressed.
hugged her, patted her back again and again, helped her straighten the hair on the back of her head, and said to herself:
"Yue Qiao, I was too angry just now, I didn't control my feelings, and I hurt you, right?"
Chen Yueqiao lowered her head and didn't speak, Shen Changning felt the trembling body in her arms, hugged her tighter, raised her face with her hand, wiped her tears attentively, and said softly:
"I'm sorry, I'll never do this again, does it hurt?"
Chen Yueqiao looked at the face in front of her, the pair of eyes that looked like Shen Yuanning, she thought of the night of the candle in the cave room, the person also asked herself so gently: Does it hurt?
Once qiē, there is no going back!
Tears poured out again in an instant, Shen Changning picked up her hand and hit herself heavily to help her relieve her anger:
"You can beat me and scold me, stop crying."
Chen Yueqiao shook her head, withdrew her hand, and just muttered:
"I'm tired."
Then he lay in a mess of carriages, closed his eyes, and said no more.
PS: This chapter is a bit heavy.
People always have to pay the price for their actions, it's not life that is smooth sailing, life always has to taste everything, even the most bitter regret, that is also a part of life.
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