Chapter 200 Confession

The next day, September 11, it rained in Shengjing City.

In the drizzle and misty, the flowers in the courtyard are withering, and the fallen flowers are paving the ground, and the fragrance is in the dust.

Autumn is getting stronger.

An osmanthus tree outside Ling Qingyun's window, because it was newly planted this year, did not grow well, and it was comparable to a few tender yellow delicate stamens, and the fragrance had already been washed away by the light rain.

"Liansheng, if you go to Lord An, just say that I have something to ask him, and let him go to the old place to meet." Ling Qingyun instructed Lian Shengdao.

Liansheng said yes, and immediately turned around and went.

After Ling Qingyun freshened up, she went to greet her mother, and then found an excuse to go out.

She went to the restaurant where they often met and went to the private room.

After waiting for about half an hour, Anqu came.

"How?" An Wei was in a hurry, his forehead was wet by the autumn rain, and his well-defined facial features were soaked in the rain, and there was an indescribable soft light, which swept away the evil qi and became extraordinarily handsome.

They only met last night and even had a fight.

Ling Qingyun suddenly sent Lian Sheng to find him, which shocked An Wei's heart, for fear that something would happen to her, so she hurriedly ran over.

He doesn't have any official business today.

Ling Qingyun motioned for Lian Sheng to retreat, and then asked An Wei: "My brother said yesterday that my uncle asked him to go to Yangzhou to be the prefect. What is the reason why he is so young and has such a heavy responsibility? ”

An Wei put down his heart.

It's good that nothing happened.

An Wei is aware of this matter.

"Isn't Qingcheng willing to go?" An Wei asked rhetorically, "What did he say?" My father asked him to reply as soon as possible, how did your family discuss it? ”

Ling Qingyun bit her lip, looked at An Wei, and did not answer.

An Wei continued: "Yangzhou has a better climate than Jingli, warm and comfortable, and convenient transportation. And Yangzhou is rich, it is a rare fat difference, if it weren't for the chaos in the court now, even if my father has the ability to reach the sky, your brother will be impeached. ”

He felt it was a good time.

"Why?" Ling Qingyun asked.

An Wei said: "What why? Is your brother not satisfied with this future? ”

"No, I'm asking why you sent the people of the Ling family to Yangzhou?" Ling Qingyun spoke directly, "What are your plans?" Are you involved in this? ”

An Wei was silent.

The drizzle outside the window was drizzling, and the emerald silk curtains hanging on the window lattices were wet and about to drip water.

Why did you send the people of the Ling family to Yangzhou?

An Wei was speechless, hesitated for a while, and then said, "Isn't this very good?" If it weren't for the chaos of the government now, it might take ten or twenty years for Qingcheng to get that position."

The prefect of a state, from the official of the fourth grade, belongs to the general official, and is in charge of the decree of a state.

In recent years, the imperial court has implemented the imperial examination, and the scholars have been selected by their talents.

Ling Qingcheng is young and has no fame, and in a few years, it will be difficult for him to become an official.

Since the beginning of this year, Prime Minister Yang and Princess Huaiqing have fought, and the war has intensified, turning into a battle between the old and new nobles, affecting the entire court.

And the emperor's health is getting worse and worse, and the days of going to court every month are extremely rare.

Last year's disaster relief grain case involved countless officials.

It was the time of chaos, Ansu stuffed Ling Qingcheng to Yangzhou to be the prefect, and after three years, he had some qualifications and was older. Whether it is re-elected or transferred to Beijing, it is justified.

Of course, this matter was brought up by An Wei.

He was sure that Shi Ting was not lying, and after Ling Qingyun really died, An Wei began to plan for the future of him and Jiu Niang.

Therefore, he wanted to send the Ling family to Jiangnan.

The water towns in the south of the Yangtze River are far superior to the capital in many aspects.

"Of course it's good!" Ling Qingyun said, "Now there are fewer Yin officials, all of them are Tongguò imperial examination scholars, my brother has no fame, he can get such a high position, I can't ask for it."

But does this matter have anything to do with you? Does it have anything to do with me and Wan'er? You know that as soon as my brother leaves, my mother and sister-in-law will definitely follow. The Jin State Mansion existed in name only, and as soon as my mother and brothers left, the people related to Wan'er were far away from the capital.

In the future, my brother will definitely still be a local official, and the possibility of coming back is very small. Whether this matter has anything to do with me or not, you can make it clear! ”

An Wei looked at her, but saw that her eyes were dark and bright, and there was a kind of burning light.

"Yes!" Anwei finally admitted.

Ling Qingyun twisted her eyebrows: "Why?" ”

"I'm going to quit." Anquis Road.

Ling Qingyun suddenly stood up and asked, "Are you crazy?" You're crazy! ”

She was a little incoherent.

Her heart was shaken.

Suddenly, a light poured into her heart, and the chaotic feelings in her heart were clearly and vividly illuminated.

The past came flooding back to me.

She's not a fool.

It's just that she can't believe it. When An Wei really said this, Ling Qingyun suddenly understood.

He loves her!

He loves Lu Jiuniang!

"No, no!" She has no master, and many words are pouring into her heart, and her heart is heavy, but there is no joy.

She was stunned for a moment, and she was also timid and afraid.

"Why not?" An Wei sat quietly, looking at her panic, there was a little pain in her eyes, "Wan'er is dead, even if her body is still alive, it is another person." Do you want me to marry someone else? ”

"But you're a child!" Her voice was empty, "You, you can't follow me, you're Wan'er's, I robbed her body, robbed her family, do you still want me"

"You didn't rob her of anything!" An Wei interrupted her sharply.

His eyes were sharp and cold, and he looked at her and said, "Lu Jiuniang, you didn't rob Ling Qingyun of anything!" She has reached the end of her life, and it is you who have continued her life and allowed her physical body to survive;

It was you who saved the Ling family from the pain of the untimely death of their beloved daughter, and you saved a life for them and reunited their family, otherwise my aunt would really not be able to live.

Wan'er and I are cousins, but she's much younger than me. Every time I met with her, I didn't get a chance to speak alone. I know she's good, but I also know how much I feel for her.

I like her because she's a sister, she's a relative, she's a pinky child. But I like you, it's very different from liking her. I love you because you are a woman, a woman who haunts me and convinces me.

If you hadn't shown up, I wouldn't have been able to tell the difference between affection and affection. Often family affection appears first, and when the love comes, and the qualifications are experienced, only then do you know what kind of emotion the previous love is.

I have a clear distinction, Jiu Niang. ”

Ling Qingyun took a few steps back.

Her face was still horrified, unacceptable.

She stepped back, trying to keep her distance from Anea, and she was about to retreat to the wall, with no way to escape.

An Wei did not continue to approach her.

He stood there, looking at her from afar.

"Jiu Niang" he whispered her name, "You are a person, you have lived a hard life, and no one has been good to you since you were a child." Finally, the Ling family loves you, and you have to dig out your heart and lungs, and you are nervous, for fear that you will not be able to repay them. ”

Ling Qingyun's eyes were astringent.

She was unable to lean against the wall, and her legs were limp.

There was no joy in her heart. The man she loved loved loved her and should have been happy, but she didn't.

She was weighed down by a deep sense of guilt.

She loved An Wei, but she never wanted to live with him. She thinks that he is Wan'er's, and he will have children with Wan'er in the future.

Not long ago, she learned that Yun'er had passed away.

However, at that time, she didn't have time to think about the love between Yun'er and An Wei.

"Why did I insist on letting you go that day? You haven't figured it out yet, have you? An Wei continued, "Because you have always felt that I am Wan'er's, even if Wan'er is dead, you still feel that way.

If you stay, you won't believe in my heart for you, and you won't have the joy of getting me. You will only be aggrieved and beg to stay with me for Yun'er. Jiu Niang, I don't want you to be so humble!

You don't owe anyone anything. If it weren't for you, Yun'er would have died a long time ago, why don't you understand this truth? It was you who gave us a favor, and it was you who continued the life of Wan'er!

You are not the guilty, you are the benefactor! ”

"All of this is your justification for me!" Ling Qingyun said, her voice was already choked, "I'm a thief, I stole you from Yun'er!" ”

An Wei closed his eyes slightly.

He knew that he could expect that Lu Jiuniang would grasp this matter and hold on.

She couldn't take it.

She stays in Ling Qingyun's body, she will always feel that she has the obligation to love An Wei for Ling Qingyun, give birth to children for Ling Qingyun, and be filial to her parents for Ling Qingyun.

Life is tiring.

Marriage, children, in-laws, etc., there will be many trivial troubles.

Normal everyone has the qualifications to be upset, lose their temper, and even complain about these things.

But Lu Jiuniang has always been in Ling Qingyun's body, she will feel that these are stolen by her, and no matter how hard and tired she is, she has to resist it by herself.

There are ups and downs in people's feelings.

When the feelings are low, you can resist the grievances and can't vent them, and sooner or later you will go crazy.

An Wei's view of life is very simple, he hopes that Lu Jiuniang will have no burden, no guilt, and be herself in a dignified manner, instead of carrying another person.

He loves Lu Jiuniang, so he doesn't want her to be wronged!

So he asked her to come out and become another person.

"That's why I didn't say it that day, I just intended to do it well. I did, and the guilt is mine; If I say it, Lu Jiuniang will feel the same guilt. After An Wei finished speaking, he was a little annoyed.

Lu Jiuniang is really shrewd, she can see through An Wei's plan at a glance.

Since she asked, An Wei couldn't lie to her, so she had to explain the matter clearly.

He could expect that when he said these words, Lu Jiuniang had always felt very guilty and ashamed, thinking that he had stolen something.

If he didn't say it, he just did it silently, Lu Jiuniang might not be so uncomfortable!

However, if he doesn't say it, Lu Jiuniang doesn't understand!

An Wei sighed.

Recently, there have been war reports in the west, and An Wei plans to tell his family in a few days that he will go to the northwest to lead the army for a year, and postpone the marriage for a year.

It is the duty of a soldier to lead soldiers to fight and protect the country, and his parents will not accept this excuse, but they are helpless.

Then, he would ask his father to send the Ling family to Jiangnan, away from the capital and right and wrong.

A year later, Anhui will retire.

And the real Ling Qingyun is dead, without Lu Yu's soul, she has become another person, and An Wei has no responsibility for her.

If she thinks about it and is willing to marry, An Wei is naturally happy; If she can't think about it, An Wei won't feel sorry for her.

"You're so ruthless to me like this." Ling Qingyun said.

"A person's feelings, there is only one part, it is unique. If I consider the feelings of a dead person, am I not more ruthless to you? An Ao said, "Jiuniang, the so-called all-encompassing man's so-called all-encompassing in his relationship is nothing more than cowardice, inability to choose, and wanting to covet more beauty."

I'm not a cowardly person, and I'm not a cowardly person, let alone a woman who covets beauty.

I choose you, Lu Jiuniang! If you have to think that I have betrayed Yun'er, if you have to think that I am a sinner, then I will go to the eighteen layers of hell in the future, and I will bear it! ”

Ling Qingyun's tears flowed down her cheeks.

An Wei came over and hugged her.

He held her tightly in his arms.

"I know you're thinking that if Wan'er is still here, it wouldn't be fair to her." An Wei gently stroked her back and said in a low voice, "But Jiu Niang, Wan'er is already dead, and there is no such if." You would be foolish to carry guilt on your shoulders. ”

No one is perfect in life.

The Ling family saved Rui Niang.

The Jing family may have been destined to have only one daughter, so Ling Qingtong was reborn and rescued Rui Niang, and Ling Qingyun died.

It was Lu Yu who possessed Ling Qingyun and did her filial piety for her.

In the past two years, Ling Qingyun has worked hard to be the daughter of the Ling family, she is filial to her mother, loves her younger siblings, and respects her brother.

At this point, she did not disappoint Yun'er.

However, An Wei hugged her, she still didn't have any joy, she still didn't hug him with her backhand.

She chose Anea, and betrayed Yun'er; She was loyal to Wan'er, so she failed An Eaves.

She was stunned, hugged tightly by An Eaves, and let the tears flow from her face.

"Uncle and aunt will not agree to your resignation, and the Ling family will feel sad and humiliated." She whispered, "I can't get this far, Anea"

"You have to get this far!" An Wei said, "I'm here, I haven't let go, you are not allowed to let go!" ”

Then he hugged her tighter.

"The body that Shi Ting found for you is only ten years old." An Wei continued, "I'll wait for you for five years, Jiu Niang. A lot of things, you still have five years to do.

Just promise me not to misunderstand me. I let you out, I don't want to give up on you, Jiu Niang! No matter how dangerous it is, I want you to have a life of your own!

You know from the beginning that the girl's life is coming to an end, you won't feel like you're taking her life, you'll feel like it's yours, that's your life. Jiu Niang, you have to work hard to live.

I've been waiting for you!

Jiu Niang, I love you! ”

Ling Qingyun's tears flowed even more fiercely. She was very clear in her heart, she understood the cause and effect of the things An Wei did for her, he loved her, and she didn't doubt it.

However, she was so chaotic that she couldn't choose.

Her hand, hidden under her sleeve, never reached out. Until the end, she didn't hug An Wei with her backhand, but just let him hold her.

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