136 Alienation
When Zhao Rongzhao came in, Liu Zijin was sitting on the edge of the dressing table with Erlang's legs crossed, eating melon seeds, and there were melon seed shells piled up all over the ground under his feet.
In addition to herself, there was only Xiaoyu, the personal maid she brought in, in the house, and the whole room was indescribably empty.
The maids in the family were all assigned together when Lu Siqi arranged the yard, Liu Zijin never liked them to serve by her side, at the beginning, she explained to Zhao Rongzhao that she liked to be quiet, and there were too many people to obstruct the eyes, but in fact, she was just a guard against Lu Siqi.
Zhao Rongzhao stood behind the big tree in the yard, his gaze extended wirelessly, through the gap in the half-open window, staring at Liu Zijin in the house in a daze, the woman who used to be a woman who did not eat the fireworks in the world and haunted him in his dreams, at this moment, she could no longer find a single shadow.
It's not that she doesn't want to integrate into this family, but that the people in this family are unanimously xenophobic and unwilling to accept her, and she is arrogant and arrogant, so she went farther and farther, and finally forced herself into a dead end.
Silent for a while, Zhao Rongzhao finally didn't go in, took heavy steps, and walked out of the courtyard with a heavy heart, but he didn't know where to go, like a wandering spirit, wandering aimlessly on the verandah of the Zhao family's back house.
There was a drizzle in the sky, Fang Fei held an umbrella, came back from the ancestor's side, was passing through the back garden, turning out of the path of the rockery, and just happened to bump into the lost Zhao Rongzhao.
He didn't even have a single subordinate by his side, he didn't know how long he swam in the rain, his hair was twisted into strands by the drizzle, the raindrops fell down the fever, and the clothes on his body were also wet by the rain, wet, almost all sticking to his torso. The whole person looks like a monkey with long hands and long legs.
He was a full head taller than Fang Fei, Fang Fei raised the oil-paper umbrella in his hand, only to see that on his thin cheeks, a pair of eyes were empty, like a walking corpse.
"Zhao Rongzhao?" The rockery path is narrow, only allowing one person to pass through guò, and he goes there with a pestle. It completely blocked the way. Fang Fei saw that there was something wrong with his expression, so he called out to him.
Zhao Rongzhao didn't answer, still standing there like a wooden stake. It was as if he hadn't heard Fang Fei call him at all.
Mother Zhou poked her head out from behind Fang Fei and said to Zhao Rongzhao, "Young Master, why are you here alone?" In such heavy rain, I don't take an umbrella. It's all soaking wet! ”
Perhaps because Zhou's mother's voice was too loud, Zhao Rongzhao's brows furrowed into the word 'Sichuan'. looked at Fang Fei in front of him in a daze, and after half a sound, the corners of his lips, which were white from the rain, twitched, and he shouted in a low voice: "Fang Fei......"
The tone was bleak and sour. It's like I'm so sad that I can't even speak.
Fang Fei raised his eyes to look at him, not very surprised. On the contrary, it is a clear look.
What happened at home for a while, she couldn't be clearer. The original intention of giving Liu Zijin the stage was to let her fall from the high altar, so that she could change from a fairy who does not eat fireworks in the world to an ordinary little woman who is full of resentment in life, this is a cruel thing, Zhao Rongzhao can't accept it for a while, and it is really reasonable.
"Young Master, hurry into this cave to take shelter from the rain, it's not good not to get caught in the cold." Seeing that he didn't mean to give way, Zhou's mother had no choice but to retreat, dragged the corner of Fang Fei's clothes and took two steps back, and retreated into the rockery cave.
Zhao Rongzhao's expression was blank, and his eyes followed Fang Fei in a daze, and the whole person was like a puppet, mechanically moving his long legs, and followed into the stone cave on the rockery path.
The rain outside fell a little more, connecting into rain lines, like a curtain of rain falling from the gray sky to the ground, blocking people's vision, and five steps away, and the faces of people could not be seen clearly.
The rockery is artificially built, not completely closed, the top of the head is rare gaps, from time to time there are raindrops falling, popping and dripping, the water droplets stone wear, the accumulation of many years, the place where the water droplets often fall, has been the water droplets out of one small pit after another, the water droplets fall down, the water splashes.
Mother Zhou saw that it was not a matter for the water droplets to fall on Zhao Rongzhao, so she said to Fang Fei: "Mrs. Tai, I see that this rain can't stop for a while, young master, is Xiaohai going back to get an umbrella to pick you up?" If not, then I'll go to the ancestor to ask for an umbrella, it's not a problem to wait like this. ”
Zhao Rongzhao's eyes moved slightly, as if he had come to his senses, took a deep breath, and said to Zhou's mother: "I came out by myself, Xiaohai is here, then I will bother Zhou's mother to run." ”
Mother Zhou originally said it casually, but seeing that the three of them didn't speak, it was just to resolve the embarrassing atmosphere, and she didn't expect Zhao Rongzhao to agree, but now it is difficult to ride a tiger, she glanced at Fang Fei with a weak heart, and saw that she nodded at herself, so she had to say: "Then I'll go, Mrs. Tai, young master, then you wait a while, I'll come when I go." ”
When Fang Fei saw Zhao Rongzhao's appearance, he knew that he had something to say to himself, so he agreed to Zhou's mother to leave.
After Zhou's mother left, only Zhao Rongzhao and Fang Fei were left on the spot, it was raining outside, and no one was moving in the back garden at all, but she was not afraid of being seen gossiping.
Zhao Rongzhao's hands hanging down at his side were shrunk in his sleeves, his fists were clenched tightly, and he looked at Fang Fei in a daze, his eyes were very complicated, and after half a sound, he spit out two short words in a low voice: "Fang Fei, you have changed ......"
Fang Fei naturally knew what he meant, in the last life, before the Zhao family proposed, she had seen Zhao Rongzhao, a beautiful son, any girl who was in love for the first time would blush and never forget, not to mention that person was still her future husband, Fang Fei naturally had him in his heart at that time, and he couldn't tell if it was **, or just a kind of identification, and he recognized that he was his husband, so he must regard him as his own heaven and as his own qiē.
Fang Fei, who had Zhao Rongzhao in her heart, was judged to be two people after entering the door, and in her eyes, she couldn't see a single trace of her affection for herself, such a change was really too big, so Zhao Rongzhao just said to her, 'You have changed', such words.
Fang Fei didn't answer, holding the handle of the umbrella in his hand, his eyes bypassed Zhao Rongzhao in front of him, and looked at the endless rain curtain outside the rockery stone path, his thoughts floating.
There was silence again, except for the sound of rain dripping from the top of the rockery. There was no other sound around, and after a long time, Zhao Rongzhao pursed his lips, shook his head bitterly and laughed, and said in a low voice again: "You have really changed ......"
Fang Fei retracted his gaze and smiled faintly, his tone as light as a snowflake falling from a branch. Hearing her, she whispered, "Yes." It's changed. ”
"Why?" Zhao Rongzhao's eyes were stunned, and he looked at her in a daze, with a thousand words in his heart. The corners of his lips kept moving, but he couldn't ask a word.
"There are so many whys." Fang Fei replied lightly, paused, and said, "If you have to." It may also be because the years are changing, and people are growing. Zhao Rongzhao, no one will remain the same for a lifetime. ”
is like Liu Zijin, Fang Fei once made a metaphor in the conversation with the ancestors, Liu Zijin is like a grain of grit enshrined on a high altar. One day, when she falls from the altar and is covered in earthly dust, she will become more ordinary than ordinary grit. All the qiē, time will give an answer. It's just that the answer is a little hurtful.
"Yes, you're right, the years are changing, and people are growing......" Zhao Rongzhao raised his head and looked at the rain curtain, repeated it in a low voice, then shook his head and smiled bitterly, turned around and walked into the rain curtain.
Mother Zhou turned back to Yining Hall and asked for another umbrella to bring over, but Fang Fei was the only one left in the same place, so she asked, "Huh?" What about the eldest young master? Xiaohai came to pick him up with an umbrella? ”
Fang Feiwan said in a non-trivial manner: "Let's go back too, it's strange cold outside." With that, he took his umbrella and got into the rain curtain. Zhou's mother pursed her lips and hurriedly followed.
Grandma Song woke up from this illness for several days, and Lu Siqi and Zhao Rongzhao alternated day and night, guarding her every step of the way until Grandma Song woke up.
Zhao Rongzhao, who was studying in the front yard, heard the news that his mother had woken up, and when he put down the book in his hand, he got up and was about to go to visit Grandma Song.
Grandma Song's fainting, ninety percent of them are related to Liu Zijin, this kind of time passes, whether it is for him or for Grandma Song, it is not too good, if there is another conflict, Grandma Song's body can no longer withstand the toss, and if her mother asks her to take a break from Liu Zijin, he doesn't know how to refuse, so it's better not to see, when Grandma Song's condition is better, it's not too late to go over, anyway, there is Lu Siqi on Grandma Song's side, he is very relieved.
Grandma Song almost lost her life for such a big event, the ancestor naturally knew, and after hearing that Grandma Song woke up, he asked Fang Fei to go to Tonghua Courtyard in person.
Grandma Song had just woken up, her body was still very weak, and she had difficulty even speaking, but when she saw Fang Fei coming in, she still struggled to sit up.
Fang Fei hurriedly stepped forward, pressed Grandma Song who wanted to sit up, and said, "Your body is just a little better, don't get up, just lie down and talk." ”
Grandma Song nodded reluctantly, lay back on the bed, and said to Fang Fei in a weak voice: "Thank you Mrs. Tai for your understanding, Mrs. Tai came here on purpose, but what instructions does the ancestor have?" ”
The maid in the house moved the pestle over and put it at the head of the bed, Fang Fei sat up, faced Grandma Song, and said: "It is indeed the ancestor who asked me to come, the ancestor said, the matter of the past few days, the ancestor knows it in her heart, but now is a critical juncture, less than two months before the day of the imperial examination, the ancestor has high hopes for Rong Zhao this time, this kind of critical juncture, it is best not to cause more trouble, let Rong Zhao be distracted, so as not to play abnormally." ”
If this was said in the past, Grandma Song would definitely refute it when she heard it, but now, as Fang Fei said, it is an important juncture in her son's life, and Liu Zijin is not willing to let him give up, but she will force him, but it will be bad, and she chooses to swallow her anger, and after her son's scientific examination is completed, it is not too late to settle accounts after the autumn.
Thinking of this, Grandma Song felt a lot more relaxed, nodded hard, and said with a smile: "Old Ancestor Lao and Mrs. Tai are bothered, and the granddaughter-in-law will obey the orders of the old ancestor." ”
Grandma Song is not a stupid person, but her temper is a little stubborn, and she still understands the truth, for the good of her son, she will go out of everything, not to mention temporary forbearance.
Fang Fei saw that she had figured it out, so she didn't persuade her anymore, picked up the tea bowl and took a sip, and said, "Come over today, I still have to talk to you about something, by the way, Siqi is on your side?" ”
"Yes, this time she should go to the kitchen, I'll have someone call her over." Grandma Song answered, and was about to shout to order someone to find it, Lu Siqi happened to come in with a tray, and Grandma Song beckoned to her, called her over, and said, "Siqi, the ancestor has an order, come over quickly." ”
Lu Siqi stepped forward to salute and stood on the side of the bed.
Fang Fei saw that everyone was coming, so he said: "The ancestor said, you also know that the imperial examination is about to be held, and it will take some time to go to Beijing, this year there are many juniors in the family who go to the exam, and the ancestors are afraid that they will be tired of traveling and traveling, and they will not be used to it when they arrive in the capital, so they plan to let Rong Zhao and Siqi go to Beijing first, Siqi's mother's family is in Beijing, go and arrange a place to live in advance, so that the younger generations of the family who enter Beijing will have a place to stay, so that they can save themselves from working hard and affecting their play." ”
After Fang Fei finished speaking, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law glanced at each other, each with a happy face, Grandma Song grabbed Lu Siqi's hand and said: "Siqi, you are familiar with the capital, it is a good choice to go to Beijing first, first, you can let Rong Zhao adapt to the customs first, come, take care of the residence in advance, it is also very good for the other children in the family, but you have to trouble Siqi to work harder." ”
Lu Siqi smiled and said: "Mother, we are all a family, this is what I should do, if you say anything troublesome, it will be too much to see the outside, I have no problem here, I just don't know if Rong Zhao agrees." ”
"The orders of the ancestors, he dare not disobey." Grandma Song glanced at her and said in a very positive tone.
Fang Fei saw that both of them agreed, so he got up and said, "Okay, the words have been brought, you can arrange the rest by yourself, and I will leave first." ”
"I just happened to go to the front yard to ask Rong Zhao's opinion, grandmother, I'll send you." Lu Siqi hurriedly got up, took the lead in leading the way, and went outside with Fang Fei.
Grandma Song looked at the backs of the two leaving, breathed a long sigh of relief, called the mother-in-law beside her, and ordered: "You go to the front yard and tell the eldest young master that I said it personally, this time I will not mention it, if he can win the championship in one fell swoop, I will not blame the past, I just ask him to work hard, strive for the title of the gold list, and win glory for the face of the ancestors." ”
The mother-in-law nodded, took the order and left, and after Grandma Song finished her order, she drank the medicine again, and then she slept comfortably and rested. (To be continued) R640