Chapter 409: I Don't Forgive Myself for the rest of my life
That night, Lei Ming knelt in the sanatorium for a whole night, and Lei Qing watched from the sidelines and said that it was useless.
After dawn, it was dark again, and it was dark and stayed up until dawn, Lei Ming didn't fit his eyes all night long, and he didn't get up day by day, Lei Qing really had no choice, and if he continued like this, Lei Ming's originally injured body that had not recovered would only be weaker and more haggard! But Lei Ming didn't care at all, he didn't care at all, he didn't care at all!
Qian Xiaomo is no longer by his side, what else can he care about?
A gust of autumn wind came, mixed with a few traces of chilling autumn rain, Lei Qing on the side couldn't help but shiver, holding his hands on his shoulders to keep warm.
Lei Ming knelt on the ground, looking at the closed door in front of him, he seemed to be vaguely able to see Qian Xiaomo.
Qian Xiaomo was standing behind the door, and when she heard his footsteps coming back, she didn't even know that her slippers were worn backwards, just to open the door for him and welcome him home. And as long as Lei Ming appeared at the door, before he entered the door, Qian Xiaomo would happily spread his arms and pounce up, his shaggy hair sweeping his face and itching.
But her kiss made his heart itch even more.
Lei Ming couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips, and the Qian Xiaomo that appeared in front of him suddenly flickered twice, and was blown away by the wind.
scattered, nothing was left, not even a trace of Qian Xiaomo's deposit.
In the wind, the autumn rain soaked the meadow, without the slightest fragrance of roses, and this season is not the season of roses.
Lei Ming's heart ached, as if someone had poked his wound open with a knife, ravaging back and forth, making him worse than dead!
- "If you dare not come back, I will find you when I dig three feet into the ground!" I can't live without you in my world! Without you, my whole life would have collapsed...... Qian Xiaomo, remember, you are all my world, all ...... All the world! ”
The words of parting that day suddenly flashed in Lei Ming's mind.
Is it really fulfilled? Lei Ming smiled bitterly.
If he had known that this sentence had such magical power, he would not have said it at that time, and it would not have happened.
He just wants to sue Qian Xiaomo, he loves her until death.
The autumn wind was manic, and the autumn rain rustled on the leaves, like a restless tune.
Just like Lei Ming's restless heart at this moment, as long as he confirms that Qian's father and Qian's mother are okay, he digs three feet into the ground, no, it is to go up the knife mountain and down the oil pot, or to turn the entire Deep Sea City over, he will definitely not let go of Jian Nian! Qian Xiaomo will only be his Lei Ming's, and it can only be his Lei Ming's!
A strong and domineering wind blew the canopy of the big tree to sway, and the bleak autumn rain dripped down Lei Ming's body.
At the end of the corridor not far away, a man in a white lab coat stood.
The man put his hands in his pockets, looked at Lei Ming's silhouette from a distance, and looked at his unwavering eyes, which made the man's heart shock, let out a long sigh, and turned away silently.
This scene fell into the eyes of Du Jianping, who just got out of the car.
She frowned, why did this man's back look so familiar?
A day later, the door in front of Lei Ming's eyes finally opened.
He was full of expectations, although the person who opened the door could not be Qian Xiaomo at all.
"You, you still owe us a few words to the Qian family." Father Qian's low and hoarse voice sounded in Lei Ming's ears, and his bloodshot eyes were full of vicissitudes.
Dad Qian stepped back in a wheelchair and entered the house, and the door was not closed, and the meaning could not be clearer.
Lei Ming nervously hurriedly used his hands to support the ground and wanted to get up, but after kneeling for so long, his legs had already become numb to the point that he didn't have the slightest strength, and before he could stand up, Lei Ming's whole body fell to the ground unsteadily. Lei Qing on the side hurriedly went up and wrapped a blanket around Lei Ming's body, and tried his best to help Lei Ming up.
The two men staggered into the house, and it was so dark that they couldn't see the road under their feet.
Lei Qing muttered something, let go of Lei Ming and strode forward with a "bang" and opened the curtains of the living room.
The light poured into the living room at once, and the light on a rainy day was not strong, and even brought a little melancholy, adding a little melancholy.
Only then did Lei Ming see Qian's mother sitting on the sofa, her face was withered, her expression was haggard, and she was in her eighties in a flash. Dad Qian was sitting in a wheelchair guarding Mother Qian, with his back to Lei Ming and Lei Qing, and he really didn't want to look at them more. A slightly arched back, and a gust of wind blowing the empty sleeve made Lei Ming suddenly feel suffocated and desperate.
The autumn rain twisted and slipped along the window glass, I don't know how much melancholy it added to the world?
Lei Ming told Qian's father and mother all the ins and outs of the matter, and deliberately concealed the matter of the Skull Alliance, only saying that he was the opponent of his own business field, and he wanted to retaliate against the Kaisheng Group, so he would poison Qian Xiaomo's body. All things were told by Lei Ming selectively, Qian Dad and Qian Mom, such a version of the story is just to make them better acceptable.
However, the pain of losing a daughter, the pain of a white-haired person sending a black-haired person, how can Lei Ming really be able to understand it?
On the spot, Qian's mother cried so much that she almost couldn't get up in one breath, and she was in a hurry.
The tears were more urgent than the autumn rain, and they fell to the ground, and all the fragments were fragments of the heart.
Dad Qian sighed again and again, angry and angry, and beat his heart with both fists, there were hard objects in it, he couldn't take it out, he couldn't swallow it, and it was uncomfortable! A stream of good memories of a family of four came flooding up, all stuffed in my heart, and the flashes of scenes were all sweet and happy, which only made the current Qian Dad feel sad and painful!
“…… This is what happened during this time......" Lei Ming lowered his head, full of guilt, "I know that no matter how much I say sorry, it will be useless...... The pain in my heart will definitely not be less, even, more and heavier than that of my uncle and aunt! I was drowning in my memories, precipitating in grief, and I couldn't get myself out of it...... I can't accept a world without foam...... I can't accept it, there will always be one less person around me...... Now, the reason for me to hold on is just because of you, because of Xuexue, you are all the best gifts Xiaomo left me! ”
Lei Ming's deep affection from the bottom of his heart made Qian's father and Qian's mother choke up several times, and tears rained down several times.
"So, for the sake of Xiaoxiang, I know that my uncle and aunt will also work hard to hold on......"
This sentence is the focus of Lei Ming.
He knew that Qian Xiaomo must still be alive, but Qian Dad and Qian Mom didn't know!
He was really worried that Qian Dad and Qian Ma couldn't figure it out and do something, so Lei Ming would really never forgive himself for the rest of his life! And Lei Ming's words did have the effect he wanted, Qian Ma immediately wiped away her tears, slowly got up with the crutches on the side, and murmured, no one has scrubbed Qian Xiaoxiang's body in the past few days, and then choked and slowly entered the bedroom.
Dad Qian didn't say a word, turned his back to Lei Ming, and entered another room.
That room was originally prepared for Qian Xiaomo, and there were a lot of things that Qian Xiaomo had used. Qian Dad and Qian Mom will clean this room every day, and carefully wipe the furnishings and daily necessities in the room over and over again, and there is always a bouquet of roses in the vase on the windowsill. Walking into here, the house walked into Qian Xiaomo.
Lei Ming looked at Dad Qian's back, but in the end he didn't say a word.
After a few days of silence and kneeling, Qian's father and mother were still in grief, with this grief, they put all their two loves into Qian Xiaoxiang's body, and they took care of Qian Xiaoxiang even more meticulously, and took care of them every second. Qian's mother always sat next to Qian Xiaoxiang, caressing the side of her eldest daughter's face with her hands from time to time, combing her hair, and always talking about the past of their childhood when they were young.
Perhaps, now in the hearts of Qian's father and Qian's mother, they can't tell if they will take away their only daughter in the next second.
So, while they haven't separated yet, while they can still love, they want to give her more love.
All, love.
The autumn rain continued for several days, and Qian's father and Qian's mother finally decided to take a last look at Qian Xiaomo.
At this glance, Qian's mother cried and fainted in the morgue on the spot, and Qian's father cried silently, collapsed in a wheelchair with fatigue, his eyes were dull and unfocused, so frightened that the forensic examiners hurriedly called a doctor and were busy.
After that, Qian's father and Qian's mother struggled for a long time, but they also had to decide to face and accept this qiē. Out of love for Qian Xiaomo, they also need a process, a sacred and solemn ceremony to send Qian Xiaomo on the last journey-
Funeral.
Preparing for the funeral, Lei Ming did not intervene, but when Qian's father and Qian's mother had manpower and financial needs, he stepped forward to solve it.
Now, everyone believes that Qian Xiaomo has passed away, and Qian Dad, Qian Ma and Li Qianya believe it.
However, Lei Ming did not have it in his heart.
He always believes that whether it is this autumn or next autumn, Qian Xiaomo will always come back.
Lei Ming will choose to wait, waiting for Jian Nian to be impatient, that is, when Lei Ming attacks.
That is, when Qian Xiaomo returns!
He waits, even if this world becomes a desolate and lonely wilderness, even if time becomes a long river, even if everything in the world shows a hideous face...... Lei Ming will also wait, waiting for every autumn of his lifetime, until he and Qian Xiaomo finally meet unexpectedly again and spend the rest of their lives together again.
He will definitely return to that familiar embrace.
He will definitely taste the familiar fragrance of roses between his lips.
Lei Ming, I believe, Qian Xiaomo is still alive!
So on the day of the funeral, Lei Ming's sluggish and wooden expression made people mistakenly think that he was sad to the point of going crazy.
In fact, Lei Ming is not crazy, he is more sober than anyone else.
Time has not shaken the belief in his heart, but has made it more firm.
But even so, there is no Qian Xiaomo by his side, Lei Ming, who is always worried about Qian Xiaomo, still can't resist the destruction of the facts in the middle of the night, he will still collapse little by little under the devouring of darkness, and start insomnia all night long.
Until, that day comes......
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