vs 105 I am what I am

In July of the eighth year of Jian'an, Cai Ji returned to Qingzhou with his class. When it is in the summer, the early grass is about to ripen, the army passes through Jizhou, the golden waves roll everywhere in the counties and counties that pass all the way, the wheat fragrance is fragrant, and there are peasants who haunt the fields from time to time. At this moment, looking at the stable scene of a good harvest under the clear sky, Cai Ji's mood is as relieved as the wind and sunny weather.

In other words, Cai Ji was vaguely worried that the many rebellions caused by the White Wolf Rebellion would affect the agricultural affairs of the prefectures and counties under his rule. After all, the people take food as the sky, and if the grain harvest in the counties of Jizhou fails due to the war, it will not only affect the collection of military rations, but also the local people's will in Jizhou. Fortunately, from the current point of view, Tai Shici and Tian Feng did not delay the agricultural affairs in Jizhou while suppressing the bandits and quelling the chaos. Even the official road was a little smoother than the last time she passed by.

The official road was flat and the car walked smoothly, coupled with the endless screaming in the trees in the middle of summer, which made Cai Ji gradually feel a little sleepy. However, she closed her eyes and fell asleep for a while, then she heard Cao Pi report outside the car, "Hou Qi, General Taishi and Tian Yuanjun are already waiting for a car ten miles away from Nanpi." ”

"Hmm." Cai Ji was startled, straightened his clothes and answered casually, and then asked Cai Yan who was sitting beside him, "Madam, when is it?" ”

Cai Yan replied softly, "Back to the Lord, it's noon." ”

Hearing that it was past noon, Cai Ji lifted the curtain and looked at the sky outside the window, and immediately ordered, "Order the whole army to march quickly, and be sure to arrive at Nanpi before sunset." ”

"Whoa." As Cao Pi outside the car declared, Cai Ji, who had been sleepy, took a roll of official documents and spread it on the varnish case

After a quick glance, I thought for a moment on the side. So he took a goose feather stained with ink from the bamboo tube in the corner of the small case and wrote a series of comments on the paper.

Looking at the appearance of the girl in front of her holding a goose feather book, Cai Yan was both admiring and distressed. What I admire is that Cai Ji is a woman who has every opportunity to compete in the world. Although he has gone through hardships and dangers, he has not changed his will. At least in Cai Yan's opinion, there are very few men who can survive the calamity of the White Wolf Siege. What distressing is that in order to support the hegemony of one party, Cai Ji's hardships can be described as a hundred times that of ordinary princes. According to Cai Yan's observation, her lord does not like safaris, does not like food and drink, and only tirelessly handles government affairs and studies military intelligence every day. However, even if Cai Ji doesn't let her shave her eyebrows, she is only a mortal body after all, and long-term thinking will always cause harm to her body.

Thinking of this, Cai Yan couldn't help but persuade Cai Ji and said, "The heat stroke is heavy, and it's not too late for the Lord to rest for an hour or two before working." ”

Cai Ji waved his hand disapprovingly, and politely declined Cai Yan's kindness. "It's okay, I'm sleepy now."

But it is precisely this indifference to his own body that makes Cai Yan look particularly pityful. Let's ask whose daughter will not care about the appearance of the flower and the moon at the age of flowers, and whose daughter will not look forward to the golden and jade good fate in the cardamom years. But Cai Ji didn't care. She can fight thousands of miles with the army regardless of the sun and rain. She can give up her love for the sake of the overall situation. It seems that for the sake of this world, Cai Ji has nothing that cannot be abandoned.

"The Lord slept only two hours a day, and the Lord had nothing in his heart but the world?"

Cai Yan's rhetorical question seemed to touch some kind of emotion in Cai Ji's heart. After a deep breath like a mosquito, she subconsciously put down the quill in her hand and put her hand on her chest. Accompanied by a throbbing pulse coming from the chest. Cai Jiwu muttered to himself. "The former Zhuang Zhou dreamed of a butterfly, a lifelike butterfly, self-metaphor for the ambition and, I don't know Zhou. Oh Ran Jue, then Yu Ran Zhou also. I don't know that Zhou's dream is a butterfly, and a butterfly's dream is Zhou's? If Yu doesn't change the world, how can we know why Yu is Yu? ”

"Zhuang Zhou Mengdie... The reason why Yu is Yu ......" Cai Yan lowered his head and carefully pondered every word Cai Ji said, as if he wanted to taste the state of mind of the female prince in front of him.

But Cai Ji knows that even a talented woman like Cai Yan who has gone through hardships may find it difficult to understand this state of mind of pursuing "I am for me". Death, crossing, resurrection, survival - a series of events that happened to her ten years ago can be described as mysterious and absurd. So much so that she still has a kind of confusion about Zhuang Zhou Mengdie. Am I Cai Zimei in the 21st century? Or Cai Ji in the late Han Dynasty? If it's Cai Zimei, then what's going on with this body? What about this era? If it's Cai Boqi's daughter Cai Ji, what's going on with those memories in her head? What's going on with the love in my heart?

Ten years ago, a reason called "crossing" united Cai Zimei's soul with Cai Ji's body. But that's just physical survival. If she continues to live along Cai Ji's original life trajectory, she will take refuge with her relatives like the ladies of this era. Husband and child. That Cai Zimei is just a butterfly in Nan Ke's dream to her, and even one day she will forget that there was once a person named Cai Zimei.

On the other hand, now she uses Cai Zimei's knowledge and Cai Zimei's memory to dominate one side and change history. Cai Zimei is no longer just a fragment of a memory that is both real and illusory, but the master of realizing her own will through her hands. Only by constantly changing history can Cai Zimei find the true sense of "why I am for me" and prove that she is still alive.

Yes, Cai Zimei is alive, right here, changing the world in her unique way. Even if no one knows Cai Zimei's name in this era, her will can still affect every corner of this era.

Cai Ji understood that Cai Zimei's existence could not be known to others after all, so she didn't say anything more to Cai Yan, but smiled relievedly and handed out the official document in her hand to Cai Yan, "Please also ask Mrs. to transcribe this official document." ”

Cai Yan, who came back to his senses, stretched out his hand to take the official document, and his eyes intertwined with Cai Ji during the period. At that moment, Cai Yan only felt that the eyes on the other side were dark and bright, but when he looked deeper, it seemed like the sky was desolate and lonely after the desert wind and sand had dispersed.

Cai Zimei is undoubtedly lonely, but Cai Anzhen will never be alone. In the evening, Cai Ji's car arrived at the Shili Long Pavilion on the outskirts of Nanpi. Looking at the figure of Tai Shi Ci leading the army under the clouds, the long-lost sense of security once again overflowed Cai Ji's heart. No matter what the outside world says about Tai Shici, in Cai Ji's heart, Tai Shici is always her trusted brother.

"Tai Shi Ci." "Tian Feng." "Meet the Lord."

Facing Tai Shici and Tian Feng, who both bowed and saluted, Cai Ji quickly got out of the car and stretched out his hand to help the two. "You don't need to be polite."

However, just as Cai Ji wanted to continue to say a few words, he suddenly saw Lin Fei trotting forward all the way and handed a scroll of vermilion brocade to her, "Lord." Flying slave urgent! ”

"Flying slave" in Qiying is not only another name for carrier pigeons, but also refers to a group of spies directly belonging to Cai Ji. Different from ordinary meticulous works, this group of secret agents is specially responsible for finding out all kinds of information for Cai Ji that is closely related to the history of later generations. For example, spying on a person who has shined in the history books of later generations, but is now unknown. Or focus on a great war that has not yet happened but has had a profound impact in history.

Although the general trend of historical development is inevitable, the specific circumstances involving a certain person or a certain small period of situation are full of various accidents and accidents. When these fortuitous factors are changed to a certain extent, what is known as the butterfly effect occurs. Of course, no matter how big the butterfly wings are in the storm, it cannot change the general trend of continuous development of human civilization and continuous progress of productive forces. Therefore, even if mankind is mired in the long chaos and dark Middle Ages, it will still usher in the prosperous Sui and Tang dynasties and the Renaissance someday in the future. The so-called "general trend of the world." Haohao soup, those who go along with it prosper, and those who go against it die" refers to this kind of historical inevitability.

So Cai Ji can influence the development of history. It is possible to change a certain historical event, but this qiē needs to be carried out under the premise of following the trend of history. As for the actual operation, Cai Ji divided the intelligence collected by the "flying slaves" into three levels: A, B, and C according to the inevitability and chance of history. Among them, the first level is concerned with the possible outbreak of historical events in the near future, such as the previous battle of Guandu and the edict of the cloth belt. Class B is for some important historical figures. Like Sima Yi in Hanoi and Lu Xun in Wu County. However, due to geographical barriers and limited manpower. Cai Ji's flying slaves are currently unable to collect information about Liu Zhang's Fa Zheng and others. As for grade C, it refers to all kinds of small people and small events related to historical events. It's just that under the influence of the butterfly effect, these little people often don't play as effective as they are described in the history books.

At this moment, the vermilion bag presented by Lin Fei meant that it contained the highest-level Grade A intelligence. Considering the recent situation in the world and Lin Fei's solemn expression, Cai Ji suddenly had a thought, opened the bag in front of everyone, and poured out a piece of white silk from it, and saw eight big characters written on it - "Cao Cao attacked Wu and went south to Chibi." ”

Rao is Cai Ji has already experienced a series of historical events such as the change of Wancheng, the siege of Xiapi, and the battle of Guandu. But at the moment she saw the word "red cliff", she was still breathing fast and her heart was beating fast like a girl who met her lover for the first time.

Whether it is the record of the official history books of later generations. It is also the interpretation of various folk novels and operas, and the Battle of Chibi is the most colorful chapter in the history of the Three Kingdoms. Zhou Gongjin of the lupine scarf, Zhuge Kongming of the tongue battle group Confucianism, Pang Shiyuan of the skillful serial chain, and Lu Zijing of Liu Kangcao...... This battle of the century, which brought together the elites of the North and the South, not only opened up the pattern of three points in the world. It has also left endless legends and beautiful talks for future generations. For a moment, Cai Ji even had the urge to go to Chibi to witness history in person.

However, just as Cai Ji was eager to try the Red Cliff War, the corner of her eyes happened to sweep over Sun Quan, who was looking at this side not far away, and the tall man who called himself Lu Su standing next to Sun Quan. Cai Jifang, who came back to his senses, remembered that the situation before the Battle of Chibi in this time and space had changed to a certain extent from the original historical record. Not to mention Pang Tong and Lu Su, who were supposed to be the main strategists of the Battle of Chibi, one was in seclusion and confronted Zhong Xuan, the general of Cao Ying, and the other was by Cai Ji's side. Even the main force against Cao was replaced by Sun Quan and Sun Ce.

Let's ask if the battle of Chibi without Sun Quan, without Lu Su, and without Pang Tong is still the battle of Chibi in Cai Ji's image? What does the Battle of Chibi mean for the tide of history? Is it a big war that will inevitably break out? Or is it just an occasional conflict? What if the Battle of Chibi in this time and space was just an ordinary water battle, and Cao Cao and Sun Ce won and lost each other? Or is it that Cao Cao of this time and space defeated Sun Ce in Chibi and took the opportunity to take Eastern Wu, so what should it be?

At the same time, seeing that his own master was holding a bag of tips, sometimes his eyes were shining, and sometimes he frowned and lowered his head in contemplation, and the surrounding Qi camp civil and military forces were a little confused. In the end, Tai Shi Ci couldn't help but ask, "Lord, what's wrong?" ”

Cai Ji, who was pulled back to his thoughts by Tai Shici, took a deep breath slightly and calmed down his feelings, and replied, "Cao Mengde led the sailors south to Chibi to take Eastern Wu. ”

Sure enough, unlike Cai Ji, who was deeply influenced by later historical books, the Qiying civil and military forces present did not react much after hearing the news of Cao Cao's attack on Wu. After all, Cao Jun had been confronting Sun Ce and Liu Bei in Jingzhou for several months, so Cao Cao's attack on Liu Bei or Sun Ce at this time would not be too surprising. However, Cao Pi, who was standing behind Cai Ji, and Sun Quan and Lu Su, who were farther away, both changed their faces. Cao Cao's soldiers and horses were far superior to those of Eastern Wu, and Sun Quan and Lu Su were understandably worried about their own forces. And although Cao Pi was full of confidence in his father, he also saw a little suspicion from Cai Ji's series of expression changes just now. According to Cao Pi's inference, Cai Ji should have been glad that his father had no time to go north to fight Wu, and then he was worried that the Eastern Wu Naval Division would lose to Cao Jun and make his father further bigger. In short, whether it is Cai Ji or the civil and military retainers under her command, they have regarded the Cao family as a fierce rival.

In fact, Cao Pi is far from the only one who has this idea. No, before Cai Ji could further explain, Tian Feng on the side had already stepped forward to comfort him, "Don't worry, Lord, although the Cao army is huge, the northern soldiers are not good at water warfare, and it is still unknown what the future will be." ”

Cai Ji listened to what Tian Feng said and nodded thoughtfully. Indeed, the battle of Chibi in this time and space is of course without the participation of Sun Quan, Lu Su, Pang Tong and others, but as long as Zhou Yu and Zhuge Liang are there, it will be difficult for Cao Cao to bargain on the battlefield. What's more, Sun Ce, who is known as the little overlord of Jiangdong, is far stronger than his younger brother Sun Quan. The change of personnel and time alone does not mean that the progress of the Battle of Chibi will change. After all, although Yuan Shao was proclaimed emperor in advance, and Cao Cao lacked Guo Jia's assistant, the famous Battle of Guandu still came as scheduled. As long as there is still a glimmer of hope for the Chibi War, there is absolutely no reason for him to sit idly by. Thinking of this, Cai Ji immediately put away his bag and ordered, "Tian Envoy Jun is reasonable, this matter is very important, and we will discuss it after we enter the city." (To be continued......)