Chapter 079: Missing a Step (3)
The moment she just heard the news of the Empress Dowager, Jian Ning was also taken aback. Although I knew that her time was numbered, I didn't expect it to be so soon.
Hua Yongyan looked at Guo Han sent by Long Zeye and frowned. In any case, this time I am afraid that it will be unavoidable.
Jian Ning's heart is very complicated, and now he doesn't want to see it. At first, I just wanted to be a simple cook, but then the appearance of Xiahou Yan and the appearance of Wu Shi made me unconsciously enter a whirlpool. Nowadays, more and more identities and things are happening in her own identity, and she really feels a little breathless.
When I arrived at the Yuanchu Palace, it was all white, which made the already cold winter even colder.
Jian Ning had never experienced such a scene, nor had she seen it, and she followed behind Mianyin and Hua Yongyan, and went through a whole set of procedures in a daze.
During this period, she met Long Zening, Prince Xuan and the princess who she hadn't seen for a long time, but she didn't see Long Zeye from beginning to end.
They came to worship as envoys from neighboring countries, so they didn't need to keep a vigil like the officials and clansmen of Yuan Chu, and after the form was completed, their own little eunuchs came in to lead them to rest in the other hall.
But not long after he walked out, a little eunuch came out of a place and whispered to Jian Ning: "Princess, the emperor is invited, please move." ”
Jian Ning glanced at the little eunuch with his head bowed in front of him, and couldn't see his face clearly, but he was a little unfamiliar when he heard the voice, and he thought it was unfamiliar.
It's just that Long Zeye suddenly saw himself at this time, is there something wrong?
"You are now the princess of Lingsui. If you don't want to go, you can refuse. Hua Yuebai walked beside Jian Ning, naturally heard the words of the little eunuch, and said to Jian Ning lightly.
Although Jian Ning had some doubts, she thought about it and asked, "Where is the emperor seeing me?"
"Back to the princess, the emperor is waiting in Yuqing Xiaozhu." The little eunuch replied immediately.
After hesitating for a moment, Jian Ning still said to Hua Yuebai on the side: "I should go over no matter what, there are some things that must be made clear." Even if something does change in the future, I don't want it to be due to an unexplained misunderstanding. ”
Hua Yuebai only nodded towards Jian Ning, he had no right to interfere in her affairs.
All the way to Yuqing Xiaozhu. Jian Ning was nervous and nervous. She was thinking about what to say in the first sentence when she saw Long Zeye, or what identity to use to face him now.
"You're here anyway, even though I've been hoping you wouldn't." Standing in the courtyard of Yuqing Xiaozhu, Jian Ning looked at Long Zeye's back. His first words were ringing in my ears.
Thinking about it so much. Jian Ning really didn't expect it. The first sentence would have been like this.
"Are you okay?" Jian Ning took two steps forward and asked tentatively.
"If you don't come, then I can at least continue to lie to myself. There is still hope, but now, there is no hope at all. Long Zeye didn't pay attention to Jian Ning's words, but said there by himself.
"Do you know why I'm here to meet you?"
Jian Ning subconsciously looked around, no matter how long it had been, no matter how many times she had lived in and out of here, Yuqing Xiaozhu was still the original state.
"When you were in Yuqing Xiaozhu, although you didn't have me in your heart, you didn't have anyone else." There was a trace of tenderness in Long Zeye's voice, Jian Ning had heard that voice too many times before, but it was inexplicably distressed to hear it again.
"I'm sorry" were too many words, Jian Ning felt too pale, and in the end, there were only these three words.
Jian Ning didn't know if she was wrong or true, she actually felt Long Zeye's body shake a little.
It wasn't until she turned around that Jian Ning realized that Long Zeye's complexion was so bad.
"You know I never wanted those three words." Long Zeye lowered his head, paused for a moment, his voice revealed an indescribable emotion in Jian Ning, and said, "Sue me, since when did you start to lose my place in your heart."
Jian Ning knew that he might not say anything to hurt him at this time, but if he deceived him at this moment, it could only bring him more harm in the future.
"Ah Ye, maybe we were wrong from the beginning." Jian Ning lowered her head, not wanting to look at Long Zeye's face, and said lightly, "In my heart, you have never disappeared, but it may not be because of love." ”
"In the days I was with you, I had tears and laughter, and I have never forgotten that warm feeling to this day, but that is not necessarily love."
"Not love? Hahaha" Long Zeye suddenly laughed, but there was endless sadness in his laughter, "Then you sue me, what kind of love is in your heart?" ”
Jian Ning was silent, she had no way to tell Long Zeye in words. Or maybe even she herself wasn't sure if it was love.
"Since you said that you are not love for me, what about Xiahou Yan? Is that love? Long Zeye didn't know why he had become so unreckless, and even a little aggressive. But if he could see her heart, he wouldn't mind doing it.
"I'm not sure, but I hope it is." Jian Ning took a deep breath, things had developed to this point, she didn't want to avoid it anymore, and she didn't want to hide anything from Long Zeye anymore.
Looking at Long Zeye's complicated eyes, Jian Ning continued: "In our story, fate arranged for me to meet him first, and maybe it was destined to end in the dark, and we still missed a step after all."
"Missed a step?" Long Zeye was stunned, looked at Jian Ning in disbelief, and said, "If love comes first and then comes, then you should meet me first, we have experienced life and death together, but then you forgot about it." ”
Jian Ning shook her head helplessly and said, "That's why I said we were wrong from the beginning. ”
"What you met, what you have always loved is the original Jian Ning, but the first person I met was Xiahou Yan. We were not the same person all along. Jian Ning's eyes turned red unconsciously, and she even felt that telling the truth at this time would not be able to convince Long Zeye.
"In front of you, in this body, there is another soul. The real Jian Ning was no longer there in the summer of three years ago, long before you met her again."
Long Zeye's eyes became deep, and she stared into Jian Ning's eyes, as if she wanted to look at the soul inside through Guò's eyes. (To be continued......)