She couldn't remember how she got back to her apartment, but at the end of November, when the temperature plummeted and there was a light rain in the sky, she walked alone on the street, letting the rain hit, and she couldn't take a step anymore, squatting on the ground and crying, like a little girl who couldn't find her home, crying extremely sadly, attracting the attention of everyone who came and went on the street.

I don't know what this young girl has gone through to cry so sadly and desperately.

After that incident, she attempted suicide, broke her leg and fell disabled, delirious and crazy! Now in a sanatorium in Switzerland, I just went to see her the other day, and it seems that things are getting worse and worse. ”

A few words, but it was like a dagger inserted into her heart, and she was almost suffocated in pain.

She hadn't thought of taking revenge on Xia Mo like this, she really hadn't thought of treating her like this......

She admitted that she hated her, and secretly expected Xia Mo to fall into purgatory on earth, suffering and ups and downs, but now when she heard Yunhai talk about her current situation, her heart suddenly twisted like a knife.

Pain! But I don't know why it hurts so much.

She comforted herself that she was to blame for Xia Mo's current fate, and if she didn't go out of her way to harm her, even after she jumped off the building, she still killed her, trying to kill her in the hospital, she wouldn't have thought of using her death to avenge everyone.

Yes, she had many reasons not to care about Xia Mo's situation and treat it indifferently.

Maybe we should even secretly rejoice that God has finally opened his eyes, good people have their own good rewards, evil people have their own evil rewards, and the cycle of cause and effect.

The bitter fruit that Xia Mo planted herself was finally swallowed by herself. It also seems to be a very reasonable retribution.

But at this moment, it was raining and crowds were surging, and she only felt that she was deep in the ice cellar, and her whole body was drenched, but the cold was not only her body, but also her heart.

She could find a thousand, ten thousand reasons to hate Xia Mo, hate all the people involved in that incident back then, without any self-blame or guilt. After all, the people who caused all this tragedy. It is precisely themselves, who do they blame?

It's just, it's just...... All this resentment or pain. What I am most afraid of is that I still remember the beauty of the past.

She remembered how beautiful Nanhua was. Remember the drama club that filled them with noisy jokes. I remember the Meiyin Building at sunset, and I remember the stadium full of cheers to cheer for her.

She remembered how good they were then, and she remembered them frolicking and running under the autumn leaves. I remember the bonfire, wine and guitar in Nanshan Ranch, and I remember that when the school was closed by heavy snow, they looked at the clear sky in the snow and said that they would be together for the rest of their lives.

"I'm sorry...... I'm sorry......" She kept muttering, but even she couldn't tell who she was saying sorry to.

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Back in the apartment, the moment she opened the door, he was standing in the doorway, his hands around his chest, his sharp eyes looking at her from head to toe, his eyebrows knotted.

Damn it! Lu Yunhai actually let her get drenched in the rain.

"I ...... I forgot to bring an umbrella, but fortunately it didn't rain much......" she said, as if she was trying extremely hard to make excuses for her embarrassed appearance, but before she could finish speaking, Xuanmu directly picked her up and strode towards the bedroom.

"I'm fine." Looking at his iron-blue face, she knew he was angry.

He gently put her on the bed and went straight to the bathroom to turn on the faucet and set the water temperature for her.

When he came out, he took a towel for her and "quickly changed her clothes," he said, his tone was still not too good, but he showed a hint of care.

"Xuanmu...... I have something to say to you......"

"Do you want me to take off your clothes for you with my own hands?" He smiled, half-leaning against the door of the bedroom, still angry, his eyes slightly raised, as if he was a little impatient.

"......" She stopped talking, and her pale face finally had a hint of redness.

She knew that she had better take a hot shower and get rid of the chill now, otherwise she would be annoyed with him.

Lying in the bathtub, the warm water temperature and the fragrant smell seeped into her skin to some extent comforted her tired mind and warmed her body, but the words of Yunhai today kept flashing in her mind.

Gu Yue, Teacher Li, Xia Mo...... Even the sea of clouds herself.

Crazy, crippled, addicted to drugs, imprisoned, scavenging for a living, these words unfolded in her mind like a sad picture, echoed in her ears, and every time she heard it, it would make her heart ache unbearably.

You see, she is such a weak person, her heart is not ruthless enough, her methods are not poisonous enough, and her mind is not firm enough......

It is said that the wicked have evil retribution, the cycle of cause and effect, she should be happy, but why does she feel so heavy and her heart is full of sadness?

The three who were once the best of the three ended up being strangers for her and scattered all over the world.

Over the years, I'm afraid that Xuanmu's resentment is many times deeper than Yanran's, and the time is so long ago that it has become a part of him, just like the cigarette in his hand, how can he put it down.

After taking a shower, she dried her hair and came out, and saw him standing alone outside the window, his back detached from scruples, exuding a faint sadness, which made her nose sour.

"Xuanmu~" She wrapped her arms around him from behind him, leaning her head on his sturdy back.

"Where did you go? I've been waiting for you for a long time. He took a puff of his cigarette and said leisurely, but did not turn to look at her, he was entangled in the clouds and smoke, and he couldn't see his expression clearly.

It was a temptation, though he couldn't even tell why, and perhaps he just wanted to make sure if she really decided to be honest and unfair, and no longer hide anything from him.

"Xuanmu, I'm ...... today. I saw the sea of clouds. Holding him tightened, and his body trembled accidentally.

After a moment's pause, he turned to hold her reddening cheeks.

"What did you say?" He is as tender as water, but he feels that he is suppressing some kind of collapsed emotion, which is weird and frightening.

"Xuanmu, you never asked me what happened eight years ago? Do you really not want to know, or are you unwilling to listen to me for any more explanations? She looked straight at him, her eyes dark.

The hand holding her face froze, and a cold feeling came from her fingers.

In an instant, many thoughts flashed through his mind.

What did Yunhai tell her?

How much did she know?

Did she know that he was the one who pushed her into the ghost gate with his own hands?

Does she know that he has made deals with demons over the years, done many cruel things, and is delirious and confused......

Those hazy eyes suddenly turned blood-red, revealing the coldness of the gloomy, and I hated to tear apart everything in this world.

But it was only for a moment, and the intense anger dimmed, like a poor child, no longer daring to look at her, and turned to escape, but she grabbed her little thumb.

"Xuanmu, do you hate me too?" She fixed her mind, and his appearance just now really made her jump, and those eyes were so terrifying that they seemed to be able to devour everything.

Hate? No! He has never hated, how can he give it up?

But when I think of many years of painful years, I can't tell the difference between dreams and reality, and I say that I haven't hated it, but it's very far-fetched.

Eight years ago, it's not that he doesn't want to know, it's just that it's a scar between the two of them, and if he doesn't have enough faith, he'd rather never open it for the rest of his life.

(To be continued......)