"What's going on? Why did you cry at a good point? Pan Xia didn't know why, so she took a handkerchief and wiped the tears on her face.

Ru Xuan bit her lower lip, shook her head silently, and choked up: "I just learned that an old friend is no longer alive......"

It turned out that it was a good friend who passed away.

Another big stone in Pan Xia's heart fell to the ground.

At first, when Gonggong Gao sent someone to send the fainting Ru Xuan back, Pan Xia and Shang Meiren were shocked, thinking that Ru Xuan rashly broke into the Chaoyang Palace for Shang Meiren and was blamed by the emperor.

It seems that it was because of the death of a good friend and Ru Xuan's excessive sadness that she fainted.

But, soon, Panxia couldn't get up.

The person who can make Ru Xuan grieve to faint must be someone who is more important to her than life, if such a person goes, I am afraid that Ru Xuan will not be able to withstand such a blow.

"If a man dies and cannot be resurrected, you must mourn." Pan Xia said slowly, the words just came out, but he felt a little cliché.

What is the use of mourning, people still go.

Pan Xia felt that she couldn't persuade people, so she could only squeeze Ru Xuan's palm, trying to make her feel more at ease.

Ru Xuan felt the strength of Pan Xia's grip on herself, nodded at her, and wiped away the tears from the back of her hand in the corners of her eyes, but the unstoppable tears fell one after another, soaking her cheeks again.

"You haven't eaten dinner yet, you must be hungry, japonica rice porridge has been warm on the stove, do you want to eat some?" Panxia asked.

Worried that Ru Xuan would wake up hungry, Shang Meiren specially explained that she must warm the porridge, but it is difficult for Qiu Ling, and she needs to look at the fire from time to time.

Ru Xuan's heart trembled. The mechanical nodded.

Since you are willing to eat, at least you haven't been too sad, and you can finally persuade you.

Pan Xia let out a long sigh of relief. smiled: "Then you wait a while, I'll come when I go." ”

Ru Xuan still nodded, and the pathos on her face seemed to have decreased.

Seeing this, Panxia went happily, and before leaving, in order to prevent the cold wind from blowing into the room, he closed the door with his hand.

Wait for Panxia to leave. Ru Xuan struggled to get up from the bed.

Her head was still a little painful, and it seemed like it was about to crack, and Ru Xuan staggered after getting out of bed. He almost fell headlong to the ground.

Fortunately, he was spared by holding on to the table next to the bed with one hand.

At this time, Ru Xuan's body was extremely weak, barely holding on to the table and the wall. I came to the door.

Reached. Closing the door heavily, Ru Xuan gritted her teeth and plugged in the latch.

The confined space seemed to have become a one-person world at this time, Ru Xuan hugged her shoulders, leaned against the door, and slowly squatted down.

Tears flowed uncontrollably. One by one, they smashed on the clothes and shattered.

I'm tired of crying. Ru Xuan rested her head on her knees, tilted her head, and watched the flames of the burning oil lamp, beating again and again.

Pan Xia went to the small kitchen to serve porridge and came back soon, afraid that Ru Xuan's bowl of porridge would not be enough, so she took two pieces of lotus root flour osmanthus cake.

Stretching out his hand to push the door, the door seemed to be inserted inside, Pan Xia was shocked, and hurriedly patted the door and said, "Ru Xuan, are you inside?" ”

Ru Xuan's head on her knees shook because of the vibration of the door panel behind her, and then she came back to her senses and replied, "Sister Panxia, I'm here." ”

Hearing Ru Xuan's reply, Pan Xia felt a little relieved.

Being able to speak means that there is nothing that cannot be thought.

"Shall you open the door and eat something?" Pan Xia was not at ease and continued to call the door.

"Sister Panxia, I'm not hungry, I want to stay alone for a while." Ru Xuan replied loudly through the door.

When a friend dies, he is naturally sad and unbearable, and it is natural to want to be alone quietly.

However, Pan Xia was worried that Ru Xuan would not be able to think about it, so she still patted the door and shouted, "Open the door, let's talk." ”

If you are alone, you will always be cranky, but if it is two people, you can persuade and persuade.

There was silence in the room, and what returned to Panxia was a deathly silence.

"Ru Xuan, you open the door...... "Pan Xia didn't give up, and still didn't leave, but his voice was a little louder.

Ru Xuan hugged her head tightly and reached out to block her ears.

She knew that Panxia was for her own good, and she was worried about her, but her head was very messy now, and the mess was about to blow up, she didn't want to see anyone, she didn't want to say a word, she just wanted to sit quietly like this, sit like this.

Pan Xia shouted a few times, and seeing that Ru Xuan still didn't reply, she suddenly became depressed, holding the slightly cold porridge, a little overwhelmed.

A hand was placed on Pan Xia's shoulder, and Pan Xia looked back and saw that it was Shang Meiren.

"It's such a cold day, beauty, why are you up?" Pan Xia saw that Shang Meiren was wearing a middle coat and only wore a cloak, and said distressedly.

"I was worried about Ru Xuan and couldn't sleep, so I got up and saw if she woke up." Shang Meiren replied, looked at the closed door, and frowned immediately: "She's in there now?" ”

"Yes." Pan Xia sighed and replied mournfully, "Shut yourself in and don't let me in." ”

"Then let her be alone for a while." Shang Meiren said indifferently.

"But I'm afraid it's not right." Pan Xia was worried about Ru Xuan's condition and was reluctant to leave.

"Don't worry, Ru Xuan is a girl with a strong personality, and she can withstand far more than we imagined. Besides, she's sad right now, and I'm afraid it won't help if you go in. Shang Meiren persuaded.

Shang Meiren's words are right, Ru Xuan has a strong personality.

was tortured twice in the Huanyi Bureau, she was able to endure it without saying a word, was betrayed by her good friends, and she could be like a good person.

Hopefully, she'll make it through this time.

Pan Xia hesitated for a while, then sighed again before replying, "Okay." ”

"That's it, if she's still like this in a few days, we'll have to think of another way." Shang Meiren said worriedly.

"Yes." Panxia blinked.

Hopefully, in a few days, she won't be like this.

A cold wind blew, and the thinly dressed Shang Meiren couldn't help but shiver, and her breathing became a little trembling.

"Beauty, it's windy outside, you better go back and rest early." Pan Xia said.

"Yes." Shang Meiren tightened the cloak on her body and followed Pan Xia back to the room.

Leaving Ru Xuan alone, still curled up in a ball, expressionless, staring blankly at the dim room.

In her previous life, when her parents passed away one after another, she locked herself in her room as she does now, without eating or drinking, for two days and two nights.

Is it because of sadness?

But she remembered that she didn't cry at that time, just stared at the floor in a daze, and didn't blink an eye.

But that feeling was worse than crying.

It seems that the heart has been hollowed out by something.,Every beat is so vain.,As if you can't find the rhythm that the heart should be.,Often miss a beat or two.。

It's like, the heart has become a worn-out and trouble-prone engine, and after running it a few times, it will always stop, but every time it stops, I feel that my chest is so tight that I can't breathe. (To be continued......) R1292