What kind of process is waiting?

The oil ran out and the lamp dried up, but I still didn't want to close my eyes.

Shu Shi was lying on the bed, his eyes staring straight at the tent embroidered with pomegranate flowers, his eyes gloomy but stubborn.

One of her hands was exposed under the moon-white brocade quilt embroidered with fish play lotus, and the jade fingers of the past were now as white as a dead branch in winter.

In particular, the green tendons on the back of her hands are very prominent.

Yan Yuhe sat beside Shu's side, his heart was extremely sour, but he still endured his calmness and comforted Shu's, "Mother, you're tired, go to sleep!" ”

After speaking, he raised his hand and put Shu's hand into the quilt.

Obviously the weather was already hot, but Shu's hands were as cold as a thousand-year-old piece of ice.

In the past, these smooth hands, now held in their hands, are extremely rough and stiff as stones.

"Brother He'er......" Shu Shi seemed to be sober, and pursed the corners of his lips, "Where is your father?" ”

Her voice was small, like a silent drizzle, as if it would suddenly stop in the next moment.

Yan Yuhe bit his lower lip, the pain on his face was still not as good as in his heart.

He didn't understand why his father was so unkind.

In the past, the fourth sister told him that his father actually had a last resort. At that time, he was willing to believe it because his father was still willing to live a perfunctory and stable life.

But now, what kind of home is this?

When he was a child, his father kept saying that it was the greatest blessing that he could marry his mother in this life! But now, Yan Yuhe feels that these words are extremely ironic when I think about them.

He and the fourth sister Yan Huiqing. Never afraid of death.

Today, if my father disobeys the Queen Mother's decree, he will continue to stay in the Mansion of the Marquis of Qingping. The Queen Mother blamed him and wanted to kill him and the fourth sister, and they had no regrets! The so-called family should advance and retreat together, and share weal and woe.

He didn't know why his father was so stubborn in guarding an empty shell, this mansion, obviously there was nothing.

The room was very quiet. The doctor said that Shu's lasted half an hour at most. But this time the doctor was wrong......

Shu Shi has never lost her breath, she has been keeping her eyes open, and she has been waiting for more than two hours.

It was getting dark, and the windproof lamps were already lit under the porch. It was supposed to be a quiet night. But it is no longer quiet.

Yan Huiqing walked in from outside the house tremblingly. She was covered in injuries and had a hard time walking. She was helped into the back of the house. saw that Shu's eyes were always open, if it weren't for Shu's breathing, everyone would think that she was gone.

Yan Yuhe stood up from the stool and looked at Yan Huiqing with a stunned expression, "Fourth sister, why are you here?" ”

Yan Huiqing did not answer Yan Yuhe, but looked at Shu, tears slowly sliding from the corners of her eyes.

She knelt on the ground and cried, "Mother, don't wait, don't wait for that person anymore...... He's not coming back, you go, you go! ”

Every extra moment of Shu's life is torture.

When Yan Yuhe heard this, he also understood what Yan Huiqing meant.

He also knelt in front of Shu's bed, almost suffocating in pain, "Mother, you go, go in peace, I and the fourth sister will always be there!" ”

As a child, he has to open his mouth to persuade his mother not to continue to live and go quietly.

This pain is like someone has cut open the chest alive and taken out all the contents inside.

Empty, only pain.

Shu Shi opened his mouth and called out two words.

She said: San Lang.

Shu's voice was very low, but Yan Yuhe and Yan Huiqing heard it clearly.

Shu's words made even the old lady standing on the side cry.

She is Shu's dowry grandmother, and she has been watching Shu's every day in Yanfu over the years, how uncomfortable and bitter Shu's heart is, she knows better than anyone else.

When Shu Shi first married Yan Sanye, every time Yan Sanye gave her a thrush, she would smile and say, thank you Sanlang.

At that time, they were really Qin Se and Ming.

It's just that this scene of harmony didn't last long......

Shu was gradually made difficult by Mrs. Yan, and when she was pregnant with Yan Huiqing, she was often punished for kneeling. She was still a little aggrieved at first, but after a long time, she gradually became numb.

Mama asked her privately, "Miss, have you ever regretted marrying into the Yan Mansion?" ”

She is used to calling Shu Shi Miss, and she has never changed this title in private.

Shu Shi smiled and said, "San Lang treats me very well, I suffer a little, and it's nothing." He's good, and I'm at ease. ”

Gradually, Shu's laughter became less and less, especially after hearing what the Shu family did for Yan Sanye, Shu's was so shocked that he almost had a tire. The Shu family is no longer stable, and several younger brothers of the Shu family also died a lot when they were working for Yan Sanye.

When Shu heard this, he cried bitterly.

Later, after Shu gave birth to Yan Huiqing, the days became more and more difficult......

Later, Aunt Ji's matter reached Shu's ears.

Obviously, someone deliberately wanted to leak this matter to Shu Shi.

Shu Shi was actually very calm when she heard this, she just said that she wanted to leave the Yan Mansion.

Shu Shi and Yan Sanye had a big quarrel, this was the first time they had quarreled in many years of marriage! Mama stood outside the house, listening to their arguments, a little helpless.

Later, Yan Sanye also made a move.

After Shu Shi was beaten, he was also quiet.

She is neither noisy nor noisy, and no longer thinks about reconciliation, but lives quietly.

Once, Mama once asked her, "Miss, what's wrong with you?" Don't want to leave? ”

Shu's eyes were blank, "I thought about leaving, but I can't leave!" That day Jinglian asked me, and he said, don't you like me? If you like me, why did you leave me! I like him, so I'm destined to be inseparable from him for the rest of my life. That's it, it's my own path...... It's just Mama, you say, where did that Jinglian go back then? ”

She was speechless when Shu asked.

In fact, even Shu's can't tell whether he loves or hates now.

Mama knew that since then, Shu had never called Yan Sanye again: San Lang.

Shu's likes Yan Sanye, and he likes it to the core.

She lasted three hours before she slowly closed her eyes, leaving nothing behind, and not dead or blinding.

Yan Yuhe and Yan Huiqing, who were on the side, cried so much that almost the next moment, they were about to faint.

Only the old lady is the calmest.

She opened the cabinet not far away, chose a piece of Shu's favorite clothes from it, took some of Shu's favorite jewelry, and prepared to change it for Shu's.

These things are all things that Shu Shi likes, but Yan Sanye doesn't like very much.

Shushi has been rarely used......

When Shu was alive, she didn't touch these things much. Now, let her take it with her.

Because Mama knew that Shu's was at the last moment and really let go.

If you let it go, you won't say anything, close your eyes and leave quietly.

From love, to hate, to silence......

It took Shu three hours to get through these three stages.

Finally, return to the initial calm and strangeness. (To be continued......)

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