The final exams are approaching, and compared to preparing for the final exams, the most talked about by students is the itinerary to the Maldives and the shopping after the trip.

Everyone can go on a trip, but she can't go, and that faint sense of inferiority makes her feelings extremely sensitive.

Yanran straightened her back and warned herself not to care, but there was no way to really not be affected.

In the afternoon, the big boss came to her, saying that Xuanmu had helped her pay the travel expenses, and asked her if she wanted to think about it again.

Her face was flushed, her fists clenched, as if she had been slapped in the face, she couldn't raise her head in shame, and was silent for a long time.

She made it clear to the big boss that she would not travel, and took Xuanmu's money back.

It was very hot, she held the envelope in her hand tightly, a thick wad, very heavy, she had received so much money for the first time in her life, her fingers were tightly locked, and her nose was sour and uncomfortable.

She stood there with a solemn expression, her face pale and angry...... That's the love she conveyed.

Seeing the envelope she was holding, he seemed to have guessed.

"Give it back to you!" She threw the thick envelope into his arms.

He sneered, his voice bitter: "What's it? Can't you do this for your girlfriend? ”

Why does she always have to be strong, she obviously wants to go, doesn't she?

He knew, no matter how perfect she pretended to be, he just knew.

"Girlfriend? Have you really considered my feelings? You are always so self-righteous, thinking that everyone is as carefree as you, everyone is as ignorant of human suffering as you, everyone is as free as you are, who do you think you are, why should you have mercy on me? Her eyes widened with anger. There was a faint bloodshot in the corner of his eye.

She spoke fiercely, and her feelings were a little out of control, attacking the boy she loved the most with the most scathing words, angry that he didn't understand her, hating him for touching her pride, which was the source of all her pride and inferiority, and was an untouchable scale.

"Why? I'm still your boyfriend. If you are not Gu Yanran. If it weren't for liking you, would you think I would have to pay you? Everyone goes, but you don't. There were only three people in the entire Nanhua who didn't go, and two of them were because they were on a family trip...... "His anger also exploded, and he yelled loudly.

What's wrong with him, he just doesn't want Yanran to be the focus of other people's discussions. I don't want them to look down on her.

"That's right! I'm the only one in Nanhua because I can't afford to pay for the trip......," she interrupted, a hint of inscrutable love flashing in her eyes. It seems unbearable, like a wolf, and like some kind of venting.

"Yes! I come from a poor family, and I will tremble over the travel expenses of 10,000 yuan. How? Do you think I'm a shame on you? I am afraid of hurting your face, so I give you sympathy and mercy in this way, I don't know what to do. It's because I don't know the hearts of good people, so I pretend to be high and return the money to you. I don't know how to lift. ”

"That's right, I want to go, if it weren't for the 10,000 yuan, I might not be able to sleep with excitement. I've never been on a plane before, you've been to the Maldives many times, and I even find the Maldives boring as a picture that I can only see in magazines, and the 10,000 yuan you took out casually is the income of our family for a whole year...... That's the reality, that's the distance between us. You say that if you like it, you should be together, but not all people who like each other can be together. Do you think I should pretend that I don't know anything, be at your mercy like a doll, follow you to the Maldives without heart or lungs, be grateful to you, and never look up in front of you because of the 10,000 yuan, and look down on you? She was excited, and her words were as sharp as a knife, stabbing people's hearts.

Xuan Mu was speechless when he heard it, it was the biggest fire Yan Ran had ever had with him, sharp and mean, and he didn't even give him a chance to talk back.

Almsgiving, mercy...... She used such words to misinterpret his kindness, he just didn't want her to be wronged, he didn't want her to be inferior because of economic reasons, and he didn't want her classmates to talk about her being poor behind her back.

But she took all his efforts as charity and mercy, and treated him as unbearable.

If it was really as she said, he was afraid that she would embarrass him because of her poor family, then he would not have chased her from the beginning, let alone be as good to her as he is now.

She, Gu Yanran, looks down on people too much.

He wanted to explain, but there was an indefensible anger, so he slammed the envelope on the ground and shouted, "Don't pull it down!" ”

He had never been so wronged in his life, his chest rose and fell with anger, and the green tendons on his forehead were all caused by this broken money.

Looking at the envelope that burst on the ground, the red banknotes were scattered all over the ground, as if they had fallen on her, making her feel humiliated.

She knew that his young master had a temper attack, and he could throw that wad of money on the ground and abandon it like clogs, but what about her? But because of the 10,000 yuan that fell to the ground, he was spurned by people.

Such a person is proud, willful, and self-centered.

Such a person is inferior, stubborn, and strong.

They have similar personalities, but they are also very different and contradictory.

What's even more terrifying is that these are just the beginning, and the contradictions and barriers between them are by no means just that.

But before she could face those ups and downs, she was already tired, had no confidence, no courage, and was unwilling to try again.

She turned around and walked decisively and resolutely, but no one knew how tired and lonely, sad and desperate she was deep down.

I suddenly understood why the ancients paid attention to the right people, like them, the gap is so big, all day long is either quarrelling, or in the cold war, for a long time it will only make people miserable and desperate.

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After the final exams, the girls' dormitory was particularly lively, and the conversation around the trip to the Maldives was very exciting.

Yanran is also packing her luggage, only a backpack, when she comes, it is as easy as when she leaves.

At 8 o'clock in the morning, a whole row of luxury buses stopped at the entrance of the school, and the students dressed in cool summer clothes pulled small suitcases, with excited and joyful smiles on their faces, and they got on the bus one after another.

She was the only one standing next to the school stop sign with a washed white schoolbag, caressing in the breeze, raising her long ponytail, like a flower on a cliff, alone, arrogant and beautiful, indifferent and alienated.

Occasionally, her classmates would give her strange looks.

Look, it's her, because she can't afford to pay the travel fee of 10,000 yuan, she can only pack it home.

Tsk~ It's pitiful.

She stood thin under the leafy tree, her back straight, neither humble nor arrogant, her expression was indifferent, as if she had not heard those gossips at all, her eyes as black as black jade were firm and unyielding, faintly exuding an aura of arrogance.

Until the noisy sounds around faded and the buses drove away one after another, she still maintained the same standing posture, resolute and tenacious, revealing coldness.

The summer wind was blowing with a warm breath, but why was her palms cold?

The huge Nanhua was empty, leaving only her and the sound of cicadas.

After another half an hour, the school bus stopped at the stop, and the driver said a little apologetically, because he had to make way for the bus, he had been queuing at the foot of the mountain, and finally waited for the bus to leave before coming up.

Sure enough, there is inequality everywhere.

Heh~ Maybe she should be glad that at least she still has a free bus to sit on.

The car went all the way down on the winding mountain road, and the towering trees on both sides of the road shaded the sky and the sun, projecting different colors under the floating light and shadow, or light or dark, like large patches of color, shuttling back and forth in the darkness and light, shaking the corners of people's eyes pantothenic.

And just like that, the school year ended.

That's good! That's good!

Something crystal clear slipped down her cheeks, and the mask of strength shattered.

Fortunately, the entire school bus was empty and only carried her, wiping away her tears, she could still raise her head high and be the proud Gu Yanran.

*****

The town with blue tiles and white walls, after a hundred years, has too many stories, too many people have passed in the years, vicissitudes of life, and things are not people.

The people who first founded the town have long since turned to white bones and ashes.

The houses, streets, and trees have all been preserved, and the traces of time make them look old and dull, carrying the heavy stories of generations.

It's also funny to think that when people are alive, they will always fight for the ownership of things, this thing is his, that thing is also his, and they spend their lives increasing the property in their own name, such as land, such as houses, such as trees...... And be proud and honored to do so.

But a hundred years later, people die, and things live.

How ridiculous, people only live for a few decades, but they are arrogant and greedy, fighting for heaven and earth, and don't know what to do.

Things live for a hundred years, silently, neither fighting nor grabbing, but quietly watching the joys and sorrows of several generations, let the years erode, even if it finally turns into dust, it just returns to its original appearance.

Who owns whom?

Does the thing belong to man, or does man belong to the thing...... When people are rejoicing that they have obtained another item, are they laughing at human ignorance and greed?

Yanran shook her head and lowered her head and smiled bitterly, as if she had been cranky lately, and people said that adolescent children are all great poets and philosophers, and it seems that there are still traces to follow.

Yan Ran took a deep breath and walked on the hot stone road exposed to the sun, the stone road was flanked by high white walls, the black rubble edges were covered with green moss, and occasionally some grass came out of it, and the mottled walls were crawling with green creepers, with a few white flowers, which was pleasing to the eye.

Most of the houses here are civil structures, and they are old, and it is inevitable that they will smell of moldy wooden stakes, but even that smell has become particularly intimate at this time, exuding the smell of time.

Strange, compared to the magnificent European-style buildings in Nanhua, this place is undoubtedly dilapidated, but she feels that this place exudes fascinating feelings everywhere, and only here can she feel safe and comfortable.

No matter how beautiful Nanhua is, it is also a foreign country, no matter how dilapidated it is, it is also a home, and it is an irreplaceable place for the soul. (To be continued) R580