Snowflakes are falling outside the window.

Standing in front of the window, Shui Xiaolin couldn't tell whether she was sighing or regretting in her heart!

Wu Weidong just called, saying that Qiu Zichuan has been working in the city for more than a month, and he thinks that tomorrow will be New Year's Day, and see when Qiu Zichuan is free during the three days of the holiday, the three old classmates will sit together!

Nineteen years! Qiu Zichuan!

Shui Xiaolin let out a long mourning in her heart!

The news that Qiu Zichuan is coming to work in the city, Shui Xiaolin has already known!

More than a month ago, my husband inadvertently said at home that the husband of the Municipal State Taxation Bureau was going to be the deputy director of the Municipal Construction Commission

In an instant, Shui Xiaolin's heart froze!

Qiu Zichuan!

Wu Weidong told himself that Qiu Zichuan's wife worked at the Municipal State Taxation Bureau and was called Qu Mengmeng. My husband's company often deals with the tax bureau and said that the IRS has a woman who is very good! It's called Qu Mengmeng.

Is that him?

Then the next day, Wu Weidong called, saying that Qiu Zichuan was going to be transferred to the city to work, and asked himself if he knew!

In an instant, Shui Xiaolin's heart fluctuated!

In the circle of the children of city leaders, whoever is going to which department, who is going to be promoted, who will soon be unlucky! Such news, to ordinary cadres or ordinary people, may be news, or it may feel very mysterious! But in their eyes, it's just gossip before and after tea!

But Yu Shui Xiaolin, Qiu Zichuan is coming, this is not idle news!

In the next month, this news was like the wind that kept haunting the branches and leaves in autumn, always lingering in Shui Xiaolin's heart!

Nineteen years!

In the past nineteen years, Qiu Zichuan has never disappeared in his heart for a moment!

Especially on the night of the breakup, Qiu Zichuan silently followed him far away to send him home, and finally stopped at the gate of the county middle school, looking at each other speechlessly from a distance. Then, my heart was like a knife and I shed tears! That scene, the night before the first wedding, it appeared in my mind, and the night before the second wedding, it appeared in my mind again!

As a result, in all my painful moments and unhappy days in the future, this scene will appear anytime and anywhere!

After being admitted to university, when I overheard that Qiu Zichuan was also studying in Shanghai, although I was silently thinking about the past in my heart, let's go over! But he still couldn't help but go to the university he studied at again and again, and linger in front of that university again and again! Waiting and looking forward to it, just waiting for a chance encounter, just looking forward to seeing him!

But every time it's disappointment, and the sadness after disappointment!

Later, after graduating from university, I returned to Binshui City, and my eyes are still in Shanghai! A year later, Wu Weidong said that Qiu Zichuan graduated from university and was assigned back to Tanchi, and his eyes immediately turned to Tanchi, to Qiu Zichuan, who had returned to Tanchi!

Nineteen years, I listened to him being admitted to college, and it was a high score!

Nineteen years, I heard that he has a girlfriend, and she is very beautiful!

For nineteen years, I have listened to him step by step, and he is still moving upward!

But in the past 19 years, why haven't you moved?

Why?

It's close at hand in Shanghai, can't you wipe it off? When he returned to Tanchi, couldn't he see how much he could do in the future? Or is it because he already has a beautiful girlfriend?

Then he started to fly yellow! Start Tengda! Even as a classmate and a friend, why can't I keep in touch with him? And the void makes time fly!

Wu Weidong had already given him Qiu Zichuan's phone number, from the landline in the office at the beginning, and then to the mobile phone number later! I kept it by myself, and I often flipped it out to stare at it, so that when I thought of him Qiu Zichuan later, that series of numbers would appear in my mind, but why didn't I want to touch them once?

Why didn't you stay moving?

Is it because you don't want to? Is it because you are afraid to see him again? Do you not know if you should see him again? Or are you running away from something?

Be! It's neither!

But Qiu Zichuan, you're a bastard too! And the biggest bastard in the world!

For a month, anticipation and fear have been alternating and contradictory in Shui Xiaolin's heart! At this moment, Shui Xiaolin's heart was tormented by this past and contradictions!

Qiu Zichuan!

After the breakup, why can't you take the initiative to chase me again, even once!

On the street of Tanchi, you saw me turn around and leave, why couldn't you catch up with me and shout to stop me! Shall I eat you? And. Every time I can't help but stare at you and then turn around, but every time I long, I want to hear you calling my name behind me!

I'm a girl, don't you understand?

You don't know that I also went to college in Shanghai, okay! At that time, there was no internet, no mobile phones. Besides, not long after the breakup, I went to the city to go to middle school, we are no longer in the same place, not in the same school, and you don't know that I also went to Shanghai to go to college. Good! Don't blame you for this! But you study architecture, you are a year longer than us, when you come back from your last summer vacation, I don't believe that Wu Weidong didn't tell you and I have returned to the waterfront, Wu Weidong is your best classmate and friend, he was also assigned to the waterfront, and we met in the first month after arriving at the waterfront, left each other's phone numbers, left each other's addresses, can he not tell you! But why can't you just come to the waterfront to see me once?

I know that your wife is your younger sister, and even more so, your former little sister next door. But at this time, when you returned to Tanchi in the last summer vacation of college, you and her were not in love yet! Wu Weidong, he sued me!

Can't you just take the initiative once? Even once! Besides, even if it's a qiē, it's not good for me! But why do you have to be so stubborn!

Qiu Zichuan! I hate you!

Also, even if you're married, I'm married, but you can't come to see me once all these years! Can't you just come and ask me once if I'm happy? Have you forgotten all about our first love and the beauty of the past? Is it true that in your heart, I am completely gone, the lover of your first love?

Qiu Zichuan, I hate you!

When I first fell in love, you were a teenager under the age of 16, and I was a girl who had just turned fifteen! Our minds are full of a bright future! But the boys and girls in their first love, who can control their own destiny! Who knows what the future holds!

Qiu Zichuan! Do you blame me?

Shui Xiaolin's thoughts were a little chaotic, and Wu Weidong's call made her long-bad mood worse!

……

Nineteen years no see! Now, he's coming!

This former teenager who had a beautiful first love with himself and was deeply hurt by himself is now coming as a successful man

And it still has the shining light of a successful man and the unique aura of a successful man! And before the people arrived, they were already pressing! The city organs are saying that the Municipal Construction Committee has a very capable and courageous young deputy director!

Oh, yes! A successful man, and with a bright future!

And what about yourself?

Undertaking? Women don't care about careers, what women care about is marriage, and what should they say about their marriage?

Be! Very bright! The daughter-in-law of the secretary of the municipal party committee, a family with a prominent reputation and enviable reputation in the waterfront city, a shrewd and capable husband, a decent, superior, leisurely and complacent career, and a pampered life surrounded by beads and greens!

And what is behind this qiē?

Empty room of emotion! The empty shell of marriage! And a heart as empty as a square in the middle of the night! Am I going to reunite with him with such an unbearable real life under the light?

And how will I live under his gaze for years to come?

Alas! Oh my life!