Yan Anzhi's cry made Yan Jin pause.

As a human being in two lives, she has never seen Yan Anzhi show such a gaffe.

This cry was like when she was most helpless in the past......

For some reason, Yan Jin suddenly remembered that rainy night.

When she knelt in the rain and hugged her father's corpse, she cried so miserably.

No one will come to help her, no one will come!

At that moment, she thought she would die with her father......

However, it didn't.

She has to live, but after losing her father, she still has to live secretly, she has to avenge her father!

The most painful thing in the world is not to die suddenly, not to be able to look at your relatives again, and not to say a word to your relatives again! The most painful thing in the world is to watch your loved ones die one by one, while you are still alive.

Eventually, I was born.

Yan Jin tightly clutched his clothes, and just stood under the porch, not moving.

Xiangfu glanced at Yan Jin nervously, lowered his voice and reminded, "Miss? ”

Yan Jin raised his head, squinted slightly, and glanced at the sky.

At this time, the sky is clear and there are no clouds.

Look, it doesn't look like a rainy day.

Yan Jin exhaled a deep breath of turbidity, waved his hand at Xiangfu, and said softly, "Don't let anyone else in, no one can!" ”

Xiangfu looked at Yan Jinyan's eyes, and immediately nodded obediently, "The slave knows!" ”

For Xiangfu, whether it is Yan Anzhi or Yan Jin, they are her saviors. If it weren't for Yan Jin, whether she could continue to live now is an unknown thing.

Ah Shui and Ah Da gently pushed open the door, and at this time, the originally neat study was in a mess.

Ah Shui, who was standing behind Yan Jin, couldn't help but take a breath of cold air.

Yan Jin also heard Ah Shui's gasping, and she glanced at Yan Anzhi quietly. He slowly entered the house, and without saying a word, closed the door himself.

The door hides the sunlight outside, and the inside of the house is a little dark because the windows are tightly closed. Yan Anzhi just sat on the ground not far from Yan Jin, looking at Yan Jin with red eyes, there was hatred and hatred in his eyes, but he didn't have the gentleness of the past.

Yan Jin slowly walked towards Yan Anzhi, and then picked up the books that had fallen on the ground.

Those books were books she borrowed from her third uncle. She still remembered that when Yan Anzhi got these books, she looked happy.

But now......

Yan Jin stretched out his hand, patted off the footprints on the book, and then sat on a chair not far from Yan Anzhi, muttering to himself, "I don't know what Mr. Luo said to you, but Anzhi, you are very uncomfortable now, right?" Anzhi, have you ever wondered what is the most painful thing in the world? ”

"The most painful thing?" Yan Anzhi laughed, his expression was full of sadness, and he looked at Yan Jin with a hideous face, "Eldest sister, are you asking me, what is the most painful thing?" The most painful thing is that I am now! I only learned now that there is no one in the world who will be good to you for no reason! Father-in-law, oh no, Fourth Master Yan is good to me because of the things he once did! ”

Yan Anzhi used all his strength to hold back his roar at Yan Jin.

His heart was like being pierced by a sharp needle, needle by needle. Those pains have been spreading to all corners of his body......

It hurts, it hurts, and he can't wait to shrink into a ball.

Yan Anzhi felt as if he was about to suffocate.

Suffering......

Yan Jin opened the book in his hand, and after casually turning a few pages, he still said lightly, "Since you call me eldest sister, then I have to take care of you!" Anzhi, the most painful thing in the world is to be a pawn of others, and then kill the person who feels most sorry for himself! At that time, I was ignorant and naïve to believe in others, which broke the hearts of my parents...... If you ask me if I hate? I've hated ......."

Yan Anzhi raised his head and smiled sarcastically, "What do you have to hate?" ”

"When I was a child, I envied my sixth sister, when she was uncomfortable, Aunt Ji carried her in the yard and walked round and round!" Yan Jin's eyes were a little confused, as if he remembered something a long time ago, "Aunt Ji carrying the sixth sister on her back can't relieve the pain of the sixth sister, but it can comfort her." At that time, I was thinking, why my mother is not alive, if she is alive, will she love me like Aunt Ji loves her sixth sister! I don't think that my mother is bad for me, but I can be safe...... No matter how good my mother is to me, she is not my biological mother after all, how can there be no estrangement in my heart? ”

In her previous life, she always knew that Xiao Yu's family was good to her.

But at that time, Yan Jin's heart hated Xiao Yu's family.

Xiao Yu is obviously her mother's sister-in-law, why did she marry into the Yan family and become her father's stepfamily. She didn't understand at that time, and she couldn't guess Xiao Yu's thoughts...... It wasn't until later when the Xuan clan sued her that Xiao Yu's family chose to marry into the Yan family because she was greedy for power, and she finally threw all her hatred to Xiao Yu and her father at that moment.

She thinks that Xiao Yu is greedy, and her father is unkind.

Later, after a long time, she realized that what Xiao Yu was greedy for was not power, and she was the most affectionate.

But at that time, it was too late.

Even if Xiao Yu's family can't have children, he can marry very well, so why follow his father?

Perhaps, from the very beginning, Xiao Yu also understood that he could not replace Da Yu after all, so he indulged her and Yan Qining again and again! Yan Jin only knew at that time that maternal love can actually be replaced!

Unfortunately, there are some things that she knows too late.

She is like a pawn in the hands of others, she will go wherever others want her to go......

When she suddenly realized, the people around her who loved her had already left her one by one.

Yan Jin didn't want Yan Anzhi to embark on such a path like himself in his previous life!

"Actually, I also envied the fourth sister!" Yan Jin smiled a little helplessly, "Outsiders say how good the third uncle is and how good he is, but when I talk about my father, I always frown and say that he is a yaksha!" I've seen my father's true face, and it's really scary...... The ...... of Ke'an"

Yan Jin paused when he said this, and looked at Yan Anzhi with a very stern expression, "In this world, how can anything go as planned?" After you have experienced loss, you will find that the qiē you used to envy is insignificant! I now think very clearly, maybe I am not the happiest person in the world, but compared to many people, I am very satisfied! Greed is a bottomless pit! ”

Although her father is not as handsome as the third uncle, her father's fatherly love for her will never be less than that of the third uncle for Yan Huiqing.

Although her mother is not her biological mother, her mother will not spoil her less than her biological mother.

There is no such thing as perfection.

Man's greed alone can never be satisfied!

Yan Anzhi listened, lowered his eyes, covered his eyes and cried.

The pain in his heart is something Yan Jin doesn't understand.

At this time, Yan Anzhi also understood that what Yan Jin said was true.

His current life may not be the best, but it won't be too bad! If it weren't for this, he might have the same thoughts as Yan Jin...... No, he would even think that he was able to have his current life because he was blessed in his previous life.

Yan Anzhi's legs were retracted, his hand gently stroked the twisted legs, and the hatred in his eyes became stronger and stronger, "Eldest sister, I understand what you said!" I understand all the truths...... But even if I understand the truth, I will still hate, even if I know, I am just a chess piece! You're not me, so you can't feel my pain...... Eldest sister, you won't know what I'm thinking now! I...... I really don't live as dead, you know? ”

Yan Jin sighed softly, then walked to Yan Anzhi's side and took out the Jinpa in his cuffs.

Yan Anzhi was reluctant to say what was sad in his heart, and Yan Jin didn't take the initiative to ask.

Is life better than death?

She's really experienced it.

Yan Jin wiped away Yan Anzhi's tears, and his voice was soft, "To die?" It's so easy! No matter if you drown, set fire, or even take poison from time to time, you will be able to see Hades in less than an hour! But can death really solve the problem? Can't...... Even if you're dead, it's still there! Moreover, if you do this, it is nothing more than the pain of the relatives and the speed of the enemy! Once it's dead, it's really, nothing, and a hundred years later, it's just a handful of loess. ”

Yan Anzhi let Yan Jin wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes for him!

Although, he really wanted to yell at Yan Jin a few times.

But Yan Jin's movements were very gentle, which made him slowly calm down.

Yan Jin treats him very well, and this matter has nothing to do with Yan Jin.

He couldn't vent the hatred in his heart on Yan Jin.

Yan Anzhi remembered that a long time ago, Yan Jin once laughed at herself, saying that she was a selfish person, not willing to take care of everything, let alone be a bad person.

She was so resolute in what she said, but when something happened to her, she was still by her side.

Yan Anzhi knew that if Yan Jin hadn't really treated him as a relative, he wouldn't have done this at all.

Yan Jin is good to him, he knows that he is not worthy!

Yan Anzhi bit his lip tightly, and he used too much force, and soon his lip was bitten by him, blood flowed into his mouth, and the fishy smell in his mouth became heavier and heavier! He pursed his lips, but still didn't get a word out of his throat.

After Yan Jin put the Jinpa away, he heard Yan Anzhi say almost inaudibly, "Eldest sister, my surname is Luo, and I am the son of Luo Yidie and Zhuang Chengwen!" ”

After Yan Jin listened, he looked at Yan Anzhi with round eyes.

Zhuang Chengwen?

It's a name she's very familiar with.

The seventh son of King Jinnan, Zhuang Chengwen.

Every time someone mentions King Jinnan, Zhuang Chengwen must be mentioned. Because among the many heirs of King Jinnan, Zhuang Chengwen is the most brave and good at fighting.

Back then, when several generals of the Shen family were at war with the King of Jinnan, the last thing they wanted to meet was Zhuang Chengwen! Because this person is too difficult.

Before Yan Jin could think about it, he heard Yan Anzhi continue, "Eldest sister, my father didn't die in the hands of the Shen family back then!" He...... He died at the hands of his father, because ......"

Yan Anzhi's tears couldn't help rolling down again, and he almost collapsed and said, "Because, the person my father-in-law has always liked is my mother!" ”R1152