87_878013 (vii) Know

I was a little wandering, and I was still stuck in my story until the guests had dispersed. Until my eyes came out of Yuan Youli's figure.

"Sister." I called her, and it felt a little kind.

I looked at her, and her eyes were still looking at me like that.

I know that there are some things that can't be turned back after all.

"Since you already know, can you sue me?" I asked my sister, it was right in front of my grandmother's grave. There is a picture of grandma on the stele, and the grandma smile in the photo is really nice.

Is it true that the dead can look at the world with a smile, while the living have to go through the ordeal?

I knew that Yuan Youli knew, and I already knew it when my grandmother sued me.

Yuan Youli arranged the flowers next to her grandmother's tombstone, and then got up to look at me. "What do you want to know?"

"I want to know who my mother is?" That's what I've always wanted to know, and that's what I'm most interested in now.

"I don't know." Yuan Youli looked at me with very calm eyes.

"How so." I don't believe it very much, after all, Yuan Youli already knew about it.

"Believe it or not, that's what I know. On the first night you came to Weiqian, I learned about it unexpectedly. Yuan Youli looked at me with a look in her eyes that made me feel like I wanted to believe her.

"So did Grandma leave any message?" I found something in Yuan's house before, so I believe that these materials must still be there.

"No, I don't know anything about grandma." Yuan Youli's feeling when she said this, I don't know if she deliberately came to test me, or deliberately tried to lie to me.

"Really?" I don't believe it very much, grandma has always been the most fond of Yuan Youli, I don't believe that grandma didn't give her things.

"Because of this, if you have an opinion about the inheritance, I think you should go to a lawyer to confirm it instead of coming to me." Did Yuan Youli think that I was fighting for the inheritance?

Can I understand the meaning of this statement in this way?

I looked at Yuan Youli, I don't know if she is lying to me at the moment. "And how did you feel when you knew I was an illegitimate daughter?" I really want to know, because I never thought about it, and I think Yuan Youli should be the same.

"As I said, as long as you return Weiqian, then I am still the one who loves you." Her words are very tempting, or the conditions she offers are really tempting.

I looked at her with a smile on my lips, and it was a mockery. "Then let me ask you, if you could only choose one between Wei Qian and me, what would you choose?" I asked her, and even though it was the established answer, I still insisted on it.

"There's no comparison, you know." Yuan Youli looked at me with the same eyes.

"You can't make a choice, or do you say you can't choose?" I think I have understood Yuan Youli's thoughts, it seems that it is really Wei Qian, should I be glad, at least Wei Qian's existence zài, I can stand by Yuan Youli's side so proudly.

"Cause." Yuan Youli looked at me, she looked like I was a very disobedient child, constantly making trouble.

"Then I'll make another choice." I took a deep breath, as if I had accepted this reality. "Which one do you want, Zhao Shihao or Weiqian?" I looked at her, and I really didn't want to guess, because I didn't know what was most important in Yuan Youli's heart.

"Because of this, I think you need to calm down now." Yuan Youli did not answer my question.

"No, I'm sober. I'm wondering if you can't make a choice, or if you've just made a choice? "Although I have always been reluctant to believe, but there is such a person in my world, and I think that in my world, in the world of that humble cause, it is like heaven has always existed in my faith. I never wanted to deny it, and I never wanted to admit it.

"I'll ask the assistant to stay and drive for you, I think you need to calm down." Yuan Youli never answered my questions, and I was always a disobedient child in her tears.

And so she went, out of here.

I looked at her back, maybe everything had changed, this is because people like me have always been reluctant to leave, just because of that dream in my heart.

"I'm not you, if I have such a choice, if I love someone deeply, I will definitely abandon a qiē, abandon a qiē just for the happiness he gives." I said to Yuan Youli's back.

But I can't choose Zhao Shihao, because I already owe too much, he is a good person in my world, but he will not belong to me.

Yuan Youli paused for a moment, and when she heard my words, she felt uncomfortable for a moment.

I don't know how long it will be like this, and what will become of the person I love. I don't know how far I'm from happiness, and I don't know if I'll ever have a happy day.

I looked up at the sky.

It's already foggy, do you know that there is a funeral today? Do you feel sad for us like this?

I turned my eyes to look at my grandmother's stone tablet, isn't it ridiculous, in the end there will be nothing. Grandma was like taking away a secret, a secret that was important to me.

I looked at the picture of my grandmother on the stone tablet, how long have you hated me like this? No, or should I say, how long have you hated that woman who was my mother?

In that secret buried by time, there is a story that I never knew. What did the woman who was my mother do?

You are really a failure, and if you sue me, maybe you will see a child's resentment for the rest of his life. But do you want to see that I don't get the truth and be ashamed of myself?

Or is the woman dead? You might have guessed wrong?

I smiled at the corners of my mouth, as if laughing at my own ignorance.

Does everyone like this game of peek-a-boo, but why can I never guess the ending? I hate this game-within-a-game, it's a bad feeling.

The weather was really bad, it was already dark.

The wind was blowing so hard that the hem of my skirt was already blowing. It feels really good to be floating in the wind, as if a qiē can be blown away. But I know nothing will change.

Then there was lightning in the sky, and it was just me, and I was alone.

In a very open place, the lightning was so obvious. Then it started to rain, and soon it was almost impossible to dodge, and of course I didn't want to dodge.

Sometimes going to a rain will make me sober up a little bit, at least so that I can see myself clearly.

The flowers beside the stele had been wet by the rain, and water droplets were attached to it. It looks fresher, but I know it's just the appearance, like I've always been so glamorous on the outside, but in fact it's so ridiculous