Fanwai San was abandoned by fate (due to the cause)

I know that I am an outcast of fate, but I am sad to be abandoned by fate. I lived in my own cage, repeating over and over again the outcome I envisioned.

I will never forget the fire, it was a scar imprinted on the bottom of my heart. It's been influencing me like this all along. Cheng Cheng looked at me in the fire, and I will never forget it for the rest of my life. I will not forget the jì, the dialogue of the arsonist next to the fire, the conspiracy, a conspiracy that I knew about since I was a child. I knew that my home was not perfect, and that I had been living in a false self-deception.

I used to think that grandma, as long as I was good to her, she would be good to me. But I understand now that I can't compare to my sister's no matter what. My sister was very kind to me and promised me heaven in her mouth.

I've been waiting, waiting in hell for my sister's salvation. Later, I realized that I was not destined to go to heaven.

My days of picking up food in the trash can weren't painful in my eyes.

In fact, I was not lucky enough, I was helpless and I was trying to make money. I was 13 years old, and I went to a lot of businesses, big and small, and they just didn't want to accept child labor like me.

While I was trying to live my own life, I was raped. I was sixteen years old, and there was hope for life, but there was no hope for me.

That year, I was afraid of people, especially scared. Someone's proximity to me might hurt someone, but I'm just scared. But others don't think so.

I was turned over to the Public Security Bureau. Then he went to a psychiatric hospital. I'm just scared, I'm still in good spirits. But they didn't listen to me, there was no one. No one listened to me at all.

The two years in the psychiatric hospital were the life I didn't want to go to again, and in the absence of normal people, I thought I was really going crazy. A patient in a psychiatric hospital is scary, he will say something very strange to you, and then he will do some terrible acts. For example, take a knife and say something like the Three Realms Divine Woman.

I want to run, and it's always been that way. But the guards are very tight. I couldn't run away at all.

Until one day, I found an opportunity to escape. On the way to escape, I am glad that I met Zhao Shihao. Zhao Shihao. He played the role of a savior in my world, he redeemed me in hell and brought me back to a warm place. I was eighteen years old.

He helped me go to school and I cherish the opportunity to go to school. I was eighteen at the time. The normal age should be the third year of high school. But I only finished elementary school. I'm a lot short of what to learn. Zhao Shihao is a very good person, he will help me with my homework. I am also very serious, and I will make up for the lessons I missed during the time I met Zhao Shihao. Even went to college with his help.

I often talk to Zhao Shihao, my sister. I said to him that my sister was a very nice person. She will definitely come to me, and my sister promised me a paradise.

Until that day, Zhao Shihao flipped through a newspaper. I realized that my dream was shattered. My death was announced in the newspapers, which heralded that the Yuan family had completely given up looking for me.

My whole world fell apart. It's just because my long-standing hopes are shattered. But I didn't dare to go to my sister, because in my subconscious, the ruthlessness of the fire was what I wanted to die. So I'm afraid. I'm scared that person is grandma.

After that, I looked at the newspaper every day, and Yuan Youli sat on Weiqian, and I knew it. Her most beautiful smile was printed on it in the newspaper, and she was much more beautiful. I know I've changed a lot now, and I'm sure my sister won't recognize me anymore.

So it evolved into hate, I hate, hate. Why didn't anyone come to me, why didn't anyone care if I lived or died?

On that day, Zhao Shihao's father came to me. He took a sum of money and told me to leave Zhao Shihao. I accepted it, even under Zhao Shihao's questioning.

So I left.

I know that my sister has changed her name, and her name is Yuan Youli now, and she is no longer the Yuan Yi she used to be.

I owe Zhao Shihao a lot, and I know I can't pay it off at all. I betrayed Zhao Shihao because I wanted to go to my sister, and I also wanted to question my grandmother. But I knew I couldn't be in front of them like that, I had to have enough leverage.

I know I owe Zhao Shihao a lot, but I also know that I will have to leave him sooner or later.

I took the money given by Zhao Shihao's father and left, and found a job in the city where I used to live. When I saw the newspaper, I knew that Zhao Shihao had gone abroad. In fact, I can't forgive myself, Zhao Shihao always runs over at the first time every time I dream back at midnight, he is very good to me, but I treat him like this.

But I have my own path to follow, and that's not what I want.

While I was working, I unexpectedly found the Asakshima Bay Commercial Street project, which has already been developed by Yuancheng, and the estimated investment amount is also huge.

I know that I have to find a backer, so that I can stand proudly in front of Yuan Youli. I don't have that much money, but I can sell a small piece of it, so that part of it affects the topic, and the value of this high street is low.

I bought a very small part at a high price, and used the money that Zhao Shihao's father gave me, and all my belongings were pressed here. I'm gambling, I'm gambling with my judgment, and I'm betting that the person in charge of Yuancheng will come to me. This can be seen from the project schedule of Yuancheng, how much importance Yuancheng attaches to the Asakshima Bay Commercial Street plan.

Sure enough, the person in charge of Yuancheng came to me, but I didn't respond.

I never thought that I would force out Mr. Jiang, who never showed people. That was the first time I met Jiang Zheyu, he was wearing a well-cut suit, and his hair was all combed with hairspray.

It looks perfect, but the fly in the ointment is that he is in a wheelchair.

I remember noticing his leg at the time, but I knew that people don't like to be seen for their shortcomings, so I was calm and just looked at him normally.

Mr. Jiang would come to see me, which showed that the plan I had blocked was very important, so I boldly said what I thought in my heart.

"I want a backer."

I know my words are a bit reckless. But I'm always trying.

When I saw the sneer on the corner of his mouth slightly raised, I actually had no bottom in my heart, but I didn't show it. Pretending to be calm and saying what I wanted to say.

In fact, I succeeded, and Mr. Jiang allowed it. At first, I was walking on thin ice around him, not because he treated me, but because I was a little cramped and didn't know how to face him.

Later he asked me about my previous affairs, and I knew that he had already investigated me, so my qiē was transparent in front of him.

Of course, I also learned some secrets about him during my time around him. The rumored Mr. Jiang is Jiang Zheyu. He doesn't hide it from me, so I know a lot.

He gave me a new identity, yoli. Chinese name Youli. In fact, I am very grateful to him, he did something different for me. By his side, I've changed a lot. I'm becoming more profit-oriented, I'm not close to people. In the position of vice president of Yuancheng. I had a whole new perspective on benefits. Gradually, I also wanted to live on the clouds.

Jiang Zheyu has an assistant like me, and things in Yuancheng are more convenient. But he was always in the habit of having his assistants come and sue me.

Later, I wasn't very afraid of him anymore, and I agreed with him that the Asashima Bay Commercial Street plan would end, five years.

He was very permissive to me, and of course I was overwhelmed when I was strict. I often have nightmares, and he will carefully remind me to take my medicine. Our relationship is wonderful, cooperative, and master-servant. I even thought we might be friends. I don't know very well friends, but I never thought that Jiang Zheyu would love me.

As for when. I think Jiang Zheyu shouldn't know either. There are some things that you will feel unconsciously becoming habitual.

That was the first time I saw Yuan Youli after I was twelve years old, yes Yuan Youli, not Yuan Yi. The first time I saw her, I knew she had changed. Tend to profits, and we all become unbearable.

I'm always comparing myself to Yuan Youli, and her transformation makes me feel completely different.

I don't know Jiang Zheyu's feelings for me, because my thoughts at that time were completely not in this place. I didn't know he loved me, never been. Now that I think about it, I really am the number one fool.

Jiang Zheyu spoils me so much, and he has always been laissez-faire about what I do. He would smile at me, but I didn't know it. For nearly four years, we were only a few meters apart, and I didn't know anything about his ideas.

The man named Jiang Yecheng appeared in my world inexplicably, and I knew that he and Jiang Zheyu were brothers and rivals. At that time, I never imagined that they would be brothers.

Jiang Zheyu often took me to see his mother Xia Yan, I never thought that she would be pretending to be crazy, she was my biological mother.

Zhao Shihao appeared again, and all I wanted was to make amends.

I remember that time when Jiang Zheyu was angry, he asked me to leave. I now understand that he still wants me back. Because he loves me, he doesn't want me to leave, but he doesn't want me to be by his side.

I don't know how much love he endures, and he often says he doesn't love me. After understanding, I realized that what Jiang Zheyu said about not loving was all deep love.

Jiang Zheyu loves me, loves me very much. He did a lot of things for me to help me get Weiqian. But I was completely ignorant of his love.

I was blinded by interest and hatred, but I always forgot about him by my side. He never spoke, I never knew. We miss each other and go further and further down the path of interests.

My grandmother died, and she didn't look at me until she died.

I realized that I was an illegitimate daughter, and my grandmother always hated such a me. This is something I can't change no matter how hard I try, and I can't change anything at all from the blood relationship I was born with.

The sister I have always had hope for, she is no longer the original Yuan Yi. But I'm glad, glad she was willing to tell me to accept the news that I was alive.

Yuan Cheng, my younger brother, is now an autistic patient named Yuan Xuli. It was he who painted the "Cloud" that dawned on me.

But we are all walking on each other's paths, and we have exhausted all means for life on the clouds.

What I owe to Zhao Shihao, I chose to return it. I promised myself that I don't want to owe Zhao Shihao any more.

I remember the joy of that day, the feeling of Jiang Zheyu confessing to loving me. At that time, I thought that the whole world would change. It's just because Jiang Zheyu loves me, but fate played a big joke on us.

We still drifted away from each other after all, and Jiang Yecheng and I made a deal. And I know that Jiang Zheyu, the one I love, we are destined not to be together. He sued me that I was Xia Yan's daughter.

I was close to a breakdown, and I even began to hate fate. Fate made us hold hands and rely on each other, but we completed the fate of fate.

I knew that I was in love with Jiang Zheyu, and the pain of that longing haunted me.

In fact, I don't care about Yu Sijian's existence. I have always only cared about Jiang Zheyu, but I don't have a reason to care anymore.

Jiang Yecheng's various behaviors also made me feel suffocated, Yuan Youli also had too much attachment to Wei Qian, when I knew that she didn't care about my thoughts, I knew that we had gone far and couldn't go back to the past.

In the blur, I always think of the Yuan Yi back then. Back then, Yuan Yi would hold Yuan Yin's hand, and she would personally promise her a paradise. Even though it's a place you'll never get to, it's still so beautiful.

I have nothing left, I'm a loser in relationships. I seem to have everything, but I don't have anything. At the moment, only the so-called interests accompany me.

I am not reconciled, I do not believe in fate. So I went to test my DNA myself, and I learned the truth for me.

The war between Jiang Yecheng and Jiang Zheyu, I don't know what kind of unexpected results such a close battle had. I only know that Jiang Zheyu must marry Yu Sijian in order to rise and fall in Yuancheng.

In fact, I admire Yu Sijian, because what Yu Sijian did, I may not be able to do. Yu Sijian's efforts for love even make me feel like I have stolen happiness, because I have never paid.

I just found out that Jiang Zheyu used to spoil me so much. He held me up to heaven and I was completely ignorant. I have never given emotionally, but I have been working hard for her.

It's to hate me, even to myself. But love has nothing to do with hard work.

Because I Jiang Zheyu abandoned the entire Yuancheng, because I Jiang Zheyu gave up his one qiē.

There is no woman who is not moved, and everyone wants to be loved like this.

It was Jiang Zheyu who made me understand that my birth was valuable, because I was waiting for him to appear, and then redeem each other in hell. It was Jiang Zheyu who made me understand that I am not a clown to be spurned by others, because I deserve to be loved.

No one wants to fight like this all the time, I'm tired, and I want to be happy.

I love Jiangsu, Zheyu.

This has been ingrained in my mind.

All conspiracies are no match for I love you. (To be continued......)