Chapter 17: The Birth of Private Feelings

Qiu Zichuan's arrival made Shui Xiaolin's heart begin to fluctuate after many years of silence. And last night's reunion made Shui Xiaolin's heart surging and imaginative!

Thinking that she would meet Qiu Zichuan tonight or tomorrow night, Shui Xiaolin, who got up in the morning, simply freshened up, had no appetite, poured herself a cup of warm pure water, and sat in front of the window quietly recalling the reunion with Qiu Zichuan last night.

Shui Xiaolin has paid attention to every step of Qiu Zichuan's life and career, and she has never let go of the slightest news about Qiu Zichuan in Wu Weidong.

But Qiu Zichuan, who appeared last night, still made Shui Xiaolin's heart shake hugely!

Although, Qiu Zichuan, who I saw last night, can still see the shadow of the young man in the small county nineteen years ago in him, but his face is full of the experience and confidence of a successful man.

Also, Qiu Zichuan's temperament last night seemed to have a shadow of the past, but it also revealed extraordinary taste; His mannerisms, his dress, seem to be no longer the same as before, but they show the past he has always been; The gentleness of his seemingly cold face seemed to be him and not him.

In her thoughts, Shui Xiaolin suddenly found that the Qiu Zichuan last night in her mind now seemed to be a nobleman, a gentleman, not the kind of nobleman who couldn't pretend to be, a gentleman who couldn't pretend to be, as if something in his blood was shining. But Shui Xiaolin still vaguely felt that Qiu Zichuan's thin face, his relaxed and stretched demeanor, and his soft and rigid words all still retained the wildness of a man who had been tough in his bones since he was a teenager! She was amazed by Qiu Zichuan's changes and sighed at Qiu Zichuan's new life. But in the bottom of my heart, I am even more glad that Qiu Zichuan is still the same, but this Qiu Zichuan's change, this Qiu Zichuan's new life has made Shui Xiaolin's heart have a huge joy!

She even felt that she was looking up at Qiu Zichuan a little bit last night!

It seems that Qiu Zichuan, who she saw last night, is not only the brave young man who never stopped thinking about herself in the past, but also a fresh and obsessive gentleman man who seems to have come from another world!

Shui Xiaolin remembered that Qiu Zichuan's mother was a lady who grew up in a capitalist family. Shui Xiaolin saw her on the street of Tanchi, in that era of scarcity of materials, although Qiu Zichuan's mother was dressed plainly, she still couldn't hide the noble temperament between the corners of her mouth and eyebrows. Especially the calm eyes and cream-colored skin, although a little vicissitudes and roughness, but you can still see the pride of the past! No wonder Qiu Zichuan saw last night with his inherited demeanor, which is the accumulation of a family. What's more, he studied in Shanghai for five years at university, and he is still a famous brand!

It would be nice if we were still together, we had the first beauty by the river in March, and he never disappeared from my heart for nineteen years. From last night's recollection, Shui Xiaolin's thoughts began to spread.

And the light that flashed when he saw himself for the first time last night, and the warmth in his eyes when he toasted each other in the middle of the banquet, and the reluctance in his eyes when he said goodbye to himself in front of the hotel, because we have a different emotional past for others! Moreover, I am elegant, he is dashing; I'm soft, he's rigid, why can't we be lovers!

Right! I'm going to be his lover!

At this time, a thought suddenly popped into Shui Xiaolin's mind that even she felt amazing. Even in the past nineteen years, Shui Xiaolin has never stopped thinking about Qiu Zichuan for a moment, but in this thought, it is more of a guilty thought tugging at her heart. So there has never been such a luxury in my thoughts!

As for her husband Xiao Yujiang, as for Qiu Zichuan's wife Qu Mengmeng, I don't care so much, they? Who of them has ever taken care of me! I've had enough!

Thinking of Xiao Yujiang and Qu Mengmeng, Shui Xiaolin's mood took a sharp turn. In an instant, Shui Xiaolin's emotional world began to fall into a turbulent whirlpool.

I must be his lover! Why not?

He originally belonged to me, and we couldn't control our own destiny when we first fell in love! Shui Xiaolin began to find a reason for herself to relieve her past in her heart again.

Also, as soon as New Year's Day passes, she will enter the ranks of thirty-five-year-old women, which is the best time in a woman's life! Girlhood is beautiful, but at that time, the thoughts were in the sky, and every qiē at that time was a colorful imagination! Once it falls to the ground, it's nothing!

Only after the age of 30 can a woman understand the true meaning of a woman's life, understand the mystery of a woman's emotions, and understand the true pursuit of a woman's life! What is textured mood, what is textured romance, what is textured color! Only after you become a woman can you truly understand and truly experience!

There can be a few thirty-five years old in life! How many women can be thirty-five years old! Only once!

Why can't I have a lover, I have a fresh life, I have a fresh body, I have the same desire for emotion as all women in the world!

It's not that it's a woman's nature to want to be in love every day!

That woman doesn't crave a man's pampering? That woman doesn't crave the pampering of a man. Even if a married woman rejects a new suitor, isn't she proud and happy that she still has a suitor!

And me?

Do I have a man to pamper me? Do I have a man pampered? My man is taking care of other women, my man is pampering other women, why should I guard him anymore!

What's more, the time of life is decreasing day by day, the emotional world is withering day by day, and the call of the body is rusting day by day! The glittering shell is wrapped in prison-like helplessness, and the price paid for the infinite scenery of life is hellish dead silence! Is this what I'm supposed to live with?

Why?

Now, Qiu Zichuan is here! A living and tall Qiu Zichuan who exudes the charm of a huge man is here! It's so exciting, it's so flashy, it's so vigorous! What's more, he was originally mine, why can't I have him!

Why?

Also, why is she so proud!

The thoughts in Shui Xiaolin's heart are like waves that are constantly rising and falling, although the pure water in the crystal cup in her hand is still clear and calm, but her emotional world is boiling with a woman's lust in the depths of her long-dormant heart~ Rhapsody!

Outside the window after the snow, the snow presses the branches, and the scenery in the distance is vast and clear.

Why didn't Wu Weidong call yet, did he know that Qiu Zichuan and I had met last night, and he felt that there was no need to arrange such a party? Or does Qiu Zichuan not want Wu Weidong to do it again?

Shui Xiaolin began to be impatient, why didn't Wu Weidong arrange the promised three-person party.

On this day, Shui Xiaolin kept walking around at home all day, thinking. Sometimes she turns on the TV, sometimes she turns on the stereo. I turn off the TV from time to time, and turn off the stereo from time to time. More often than not, she is still a glass of pure water, standing quietly in front of the window in the same posture, or sitting in front of the window.

On this day, Shui Xiaolin always held her mobile phone in her hand, and whenever a phone rang, she would quickly get it in front of her as soon as possible to see if it was from Wu Weidong. But each time she pressed the answer button with a soft sigh.

On this day, Shui Xiaolin's mind was full of thoughts that I was going to be Qiu Zichuan's lover! Qiu Zichuan's arrival completely disrupted Shui Xiaolin's three-day holiday life!

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But in the evening, when Shui Xiaolin's mobile phone rang again, when she picked up the phone and looked at it, Shui Xiaolin's eyes finally flashed quickly!

Wu Weidong called!

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