(351), what if you are not convinced?
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"Xiao Chi, Senior Brother, I watched you come to the Great Wilderness Mountain and worship the master, and the reason why you left later was actually because of my drag. I've always wanted to make some amends to you, but I can't seem to help you with anything......" After a pause, he continued: "There are more and more words accumulated in my heart, and I want to open up to you. I know you are resisting these in your heart, but these past and problems always need to be faced and solved with an attitude. ”
Cen Chi frowned slightly, already realizing what Ruan Kuang wanted to say. His face was cold, and he was silent for a moment before he spoke, "Can't you wait for me to come back?" ”
Ruan Kuang said slowly: "I don't think that when you come back, you will be in a more suitable mood to think about these issues than now. ”
As if he was afraid that Cen Chi would understand the meaning of his sentence to the wrong place because of Lin Shan's matter, he quickly added: "When you go to the west this time, it is likely that you will be more relaxed than staying in Kyoto, and even if you want to think about something, you will not be easily disturbed by other reasons." It takes patience and time to find someone through mountains and rivers, and I hope that you can use this patience and time to think about it completely......"
"It's not a question that you can figure it out when you sink down." Before Ruan Kuang could finish speaking, Cen Chi suddenly opened his mouth to cut off his words.
Thinking that he fell from the tree just now, it seemed that Ruan Kuang did it on purpose, and he would do this in order to let himself experience life and death, Cen Chi said without reservation and with some determination: "This is not something that can be summed up in such simple words as death and life. ”
Ruan Kuang was slightly stunned when he heard this, and for a while he forgot what he was going to say. Then he just closed his mouth and stared at Cen Chi, his eyes gradually staring together.
"I ......" Cen Chi's feelings gradually became a little turbulent, and he seemed to be about to say something again, but only after saying one word, he suddenly stopped.
Ruan Kuang didn't disturb him with words at this time, but quietly waited for him to continue the second half of the unspoken sentence.
As a fellow brother. Since the first reunion last year, Ruan Kuang has been trying to observe his 'problem brother' from a limited meeting. He could now be sure that Cen Chi had hidden what had happened in that dark night thirteen years ago in the depths of his heart, and it was not so easy for him to personally tell him about his attitude towards this matter. Still, Ruan Kuang wanted to know what he really thought.
After taking a deep breath, Cen Chi finally spoke in a deep voice, but what he said was no longer the words that he wanted to say just now: "Don't stand on the tree all the time, I think it's strange to talk to you like this." ”
Ruan Kuang heard this. His eyes moved as if he had frozen, and he suddenly smiled: "Little junior brother, does your fist still hurt?" ”
Cen Chi was slightly stunned. The hands that naturally hung down at his side clenched lightly unconsciously.
"Don't worry, of course I'm not stupid enough to want to beat you up when you're on guard." He quickly understood and said with a slight smile. It's just that because his love just now took a sharp turn for the worse. The turmoil was too great, but it made his smile at this moment give people a feeling of reluctance.
"Naturally, you don't have to worry about anything, even if you are disabled by me, you can just save the planned strategy when you go back to the Prime Minister's Mansion." Ruan Kuang jumped down from the branch without any further concern, and continued as he approached Cen Chi: "But if I am punched by you again. For a while, there was no way to hide it, and there was no hair on his head, so he didn't know how to explain it when he went back. ”
Cen Chi did not answer. I just smiled, but my expression still looked a little forced. He didn't run away from the topic that Ruan Kuang mentioned earlier and left directly, at this time he was still thinking about it in his heart, and his mood was naturally not relaxed.
Needless to say, Ruan Kuang also knew what Cen Chi was thinking at this time. The smile was gone. He sighed first, and then said softly: "Master was confused for a while. ”
Cen Chi's eyebrows twitched. He quickly answered, and said in the affirmative: "He's not confused, but he really wants me to disappear." ”
Ruan Kuang slowly lowered his head, hiding the look of struggle in his eyes. After a while, he said softly: "This matter is all because of my ...... in the final analysis."
Cen Chi, who was standing on the side, heard his words, and suddenly spoke: "The cause and effect of the development of the situation, how can one person be able to affect the overall situation, you still said it yourself." Now why do you need to put all the blame on your own shoulders for the sake of reassuring my heart? ”
"If it weren't for my cunzài, the two of you would be alive and well by now. One person inherited the honor of the elder of the North Fence, and the other person has become the minister of Wang Zuo, the perfect result, and the name is well deserved. ”
Ruan Kuang didn't seem to hear Cen Chi speak, so he just continued with what he had just said. The voice in which he said this almost coincided with Cen Chi's voice.
After the voices of the two men stopped at almost the same moment, they looked at each other silently, as if they did not hear what the other was saying, and it seemed that because they had heard too clearly, understood too well in their hearts, they were surprised by each other's words.
"Senior brother, you have not yet passed the age of establishment, you should be able to understand that your two junior brothers, one twenty-five and one twenty-seven, could not have settled down so early to delineate their future direction." After being slightly stunned, Cen Chi slowly spoke, and the corners of his mouth gradually hooked a faint smile, "Not to mention whether I am willing to take the ring ruler in the hand of the old man on the mountain and continue to train the twenty-third generation disciples of the Beili family, I have said before, even if he sets Senior Brother Lin as the twenty-second generation ion, I will not admit defeat." ”
Hearing Cen Chi's somewhat frivolous tone directly call his master 'old man', Ruan Kuang couldn't help but wrinkle his brows. However, he didn't argue with Cen Chi about this issue of title, but suddenly smiled: "What if you don't accept it?" ”
In a nutshell, many questions have been clarified.
I can't fight and fight, and the master doesn't support it, and the only way for Cen Chi to prove himself and express his dissatisfaction can only be the sect finals. In this internal competition of wits within the North Fence, even if Lin Shan is the candidate appreciated and affirmed by the elders of the North Fence, it is inevitable that he will have to go through a positive assessment. At that time, there will be three hidden elders in the north fence who will come forward to supervise the trial, and there will be no unfairness.
However, since Lin Shan is the candidate favored by the old man of Beili, it must be that he saw the gap between Lin Shan and another disciple in the process of teaching and practicing. Therefore, even if he participates, it stands to reason that Lin Shan's probability of winning will still be much higher than that of Cen Chi.
Despite this, Cen Chi still has the freedom to compete in the competition.
But the trouble for Cen Chi is that if he wants to participate, he will inevitably involve a problem, a question of returning to his master to see his master. After thinking about it for a while, Cen Chi didn't ignore the question, so he suddenly fell silent again.
Ruan Kuang had also seen that Cen Chi had considered this aspect of the problem, as well as the hesitation that had ignited in his heart about this matter, but he didn't speak again, just quietly waited for Cen Chi to make a decision.
To prove that he is not weaker than Lin Shan, the only way to return to his master to participate in the final round is to do so. If it weren't for the fact that he hadn't given up on this matter in his heart, Cen Chi might really have never returned to his master like he had not changed his attitude after more than ten years.
"Big brother." After being silent for a long time, Cen Chi finally spoke again and said slowly: "I will go back to Shimen, but not to visit relatives." I will go back once for the rundown, and the Beili family can only start the runoff once in the same generation, and then the identity of the disciple will be demarcated, so for this event, I have to prepare well, please understand, this is not something I will leave to do soon. ”
After a slight pause, he said in a slightly lower voice: "And this qiē must be something I will do after I find Senior Brother Lin." ”
The meaning of his words is self-evident...... If there is no forest fir, who will he race against?
Ruan Kuang nodded, but there was a trace of regret in his heart. He listened to Cen Chi's last deep words, and suddenly his heart moved, and he said, "You don't seem to have said that you want to compete with me in the finals." ”
Cen Chi stared at Ruan Kuang's vaguely smiling eyes, and after contemplating for a moment, he only said lightly: "We don't need the finals, the outcome is already clear, it's better not to work hard for this." ”
Only a strong man who is confident that he will inevitably become the winner will show disdain in the face of the slightest possibility of failure, Cen Chi's tone was very calm when he spoke just now, and there was no obvious disdain and arrogance, but Ruan Kuang could smell the arrogance in his words.
"Can't you save me some face? Senior brother is about to be trampled into the ground by your words. Ruan Kuang bent his fingers and slammed them on Cen Chi's forehead.
Cen Chi covered his sore forehead and turned his head away, and then let go of his hand after rubbing it. He didn't say anything more, but a smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.
Ruan Kuang's hand, which had hit Cen Chi's forehead, stretched out his arm and grabbed his shoulder. Cen Chi let his senior brother lead him to walk, and at the same time listened to him say casually: "Go back, go back, I'll go back to the temple, you go back to the Prime Minister's Mansion, and you can walk together for a while on this road." ”
Cen Chi was slightly moved, and after walking with Ruan Kuang for a while in silence, he suddenly said, "It's almost there." ”
"Hmm." Ruan Kuang let go of the arm that was on Cen Chi's shoulder, and took two steps between him before continuing to walk in sync.
"Big brother." Cen Chi suddenly stopped and called in a low voice.
Ruan Kuang turned his head sideways, and found that Cen Chi had fallen a few steps behind him, and stopped behind him.