Chapter Ninety-Seven: I Can't Tell My Feelings
She knew that they had grown up together since childhood, and their friendship even exceeded that of ordinary biological brothers and sisters, and she also knew that before she came to Nanhua, Xia Mo was the princess of Xuanmu and Yunhai in the palm of her hand...... She understands Xia Mo's loss, but she is afraid of the truth behind this loss.
Xuanmu once told her that Xia Mo was just a sister in his heart.
Did Xia Mo think the same way? For Xuanmu, she only treats each other as a brother, and has never had other feelings?
"I know what you're asking?" She said, looking at Yanran with dark eyes, her eyes were full of melancholy after a thousand sails, and a wry smile tugged at the corner of her mouth.
Yes! If some things are not clarified, I am afraid that they will never be able to be sisters again.
"I was drunk that day, but I clearly remember Yunhai confessing to me, I was stunned, my mind was blank, I was crying, I was not happy at all, I felt as if everything was broken with his confession." She said, her eyes downcast, calm and soft, as if she were telling someone else's story.
Xia Mo, who was so quiet, was like a beast licking its wounds alone in the dark night, pitiful and sad.
"I always thought that the three of us were children, two little guesses, childhood sweethearts, and we would be together forever, really! They have all said before that even if they marry a wife in the future, I will still be their most precious person...... But now it seems to have changed......" she said, her eyes foggy, her head bowed, gloomy and lonely.
"Xuanmu has you, to be honest, I am jealous, I like you so much, I like Xuanmu, but you can't tolerate anyone, and you are getting farther and farther away from me. I hate that Xuanmu has you alone, and I hate that you have Xuanmu alone...... I'm ridiculous! She said, a bright smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. His eyes were foggy.
Friendship and love collide, and the outcome seems to be a foregone conclusion.
She knew that Xia Mo had always been a girl who lacked love, and she had never enjoyed the warmth of her family since she was a child, and her dependence on Xuanmu and Yunhai was far beyond what others thought.
For Xia Mo, they are brothers, fathers, and indispensable spiritual pillars in her life.
How could Yan Ran not know that the girl in front of her was used to covering up the vulnerability in her heart with a brutal and pungent image. Just like her!
Therefore, Yanran can deeply understand Xia Mo's mood at the moment, because she is a friend, so she understands.
Friends are like this, they have nothing to do with the length of time they have known each other, and they have nothing to do with their birth and appearance, just like Xia Mo and Yanran.
Movement and stillness. One is cute and smart, and the other is quiet and soft.
seems to be two people with very different personalities who can't get along at all, but they can get tired of being together all day long and share each other's secrets and thoughts.
It seems incredible. But if you look closely, you will find that they actually have something in common, and they are very similar.
The desire and insecurity for family affection, the sincerity and maintenance of friendship, and the persistence and forbearance of love...... They are connected, so they can better understand each other's joys and pains.
"Whether it's Xuanmu, Yunhai or you, I like it, but I can't tell what that kind of like is? Camaraderie. Family or Love...... I had never wanted to distinguish before, but now I have to make a choice, and I don't want to give up on anyone. ”
"Xuanmu, Yunhai, you and me. Isn't it good for us to do this? Go to college together, work together, no matter how close or apart we are, just be friends, and never involve love......" Xia Mo choked up, his dark hair draped over his shoulders. His face became more and more pale, and his dark eyes were full of tears. Hanging on his face, his eyes are sad and sad.
She expects them to never grow up. Maintaining the innocence and clarity of the present, I hope that their friendship will never deteriorate, it seems to be willful and naïve, but it is the most beautiful dream.
"Xia Mo ......" Yan Ran hugged her tightly in her arms, crystal clear tears slipped down, she found that Xia Mo was trembling, she was afraid, afraid of losing all the people overnight, afraid that the damn love would ruin their friendship for more than ten years.
"Sister, you know, love is the most unreliable existence, like a meteor, gorgeous and wonderful when it passes through the night sky, no matter how dark the night is, it will be illuminated by it, but in the end its fate is ruined, I don't want ......"
"But Shamo, do you know? When you like someone, you will willingly become a meteor in his night sky, whether it is those scruples or expected tragedies, if you like him, I am willing to bear the price. I know it's stupid, but it hasn't bloomed, so how do you know if it's going to be eternal. I like Genki, I really like him, so don't let me choose between you, okay? She interrupted Xia Mo, took her in her arms and leaned on her shoulder, tears dripping from her eyes.
"If that means ruining miè, do you have the confidence that you won't regret it?" Xia Modao, his eyes were gloomy and cold.
"No regrets!"
Three words, she said so firmly and resolutely at that time......
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The night breeze was blowing, a little cold, they walked hand in hand on the asphalt road of the campus, walking in unison, her hands seemed to be so cold at all times, so that he always wanted to hold her hand tightly and pass the warmth to her.
"You've reconciled with Xia Mo?" He asked, seemingly inexplicable, but in fact he had been observing them for days.
"We're not having a bad time, are we?" She looked up at him, her eyes were crooked, and she was inexplicably a little weak, but her smile was still bright, and when she said something, she would feel much more comfortable.
"Just reconcile!" Slender fingers fiddle with her bangs.
Since the last time they came back from horseback riding, Yan Ran and Xia Mo seemed to have become rusty, polite, and when several people got together, they were no longer as comfortable playing and teasing each other as before, and the atmosphere was weird.
Yunhai kept his face gloomy, as if he was angry with Xia Mo, and the atmosphere fell to the freezing point.
It's not that he doesn't want to dissolve it, but he understands the sea of clouds.
Yunhai has always held Xia Mo in the palm of his hand and spoiled him, regardless of right and wrong, unconditionally approved and supported Xia Mo, and tolerated all her arrogance and willfulness, they have never blushed with her for so many years together.
There must be a reason for such a big fire this time, I'm afraid Xia Mo really broke his heart.
In the end, the matter of two people still has to be solved by two people, he understands.
So what he can do is to drink with Yunhai when he is depressed, just like Yunhai did for him before.
The moon is high and the stars are scarce, the breeze is caressing, the two are walking hand in hand, she suddenly looked up at him and said, "You teach me to play with four hands!" ”
"Why do you suddenly want to learn this?" Xuanmu asked with some confusion.
"I just want to learn, I want to challenge." She said vaguely, a little weak-hearted.
She didn't tell him, she always had a small expectation in her heart, hoping that one day the people who would sit on the podium and play were the two of them, hoping to be a girl worthy of him at any time.
"Actually, it's fine...... But you'll have to let me kiss it. With that, he kissed her on the cheek.
Because it was too sudden, Yanran's face turned red, and she pushed him away angrily and said, "Are you crazy? ”
She was really scared, this is the school, he is really getting bolder.
"What are you afraid of, if the teacher finds out, I will say that you are my girlfriend, let's fall in love openly......" Before he finished his words, Yanran covered his mouth with his hand.
"Be quiet, I don't want to be called a parent for this." Yan Ran was scared into a cold sweat, for fear of being heard and seen.
She promised her grandmother that she would never fall in love before she went to college.
"So you're worried about this!" He took her hand down and held it in the palm of his hand, his long eyelashes curled, the sly light floating under his eyes, and his eyes were bright.
"I'll take you somewhere ......," Xuanmu took Yanran's hand and ran in the direction of Meiyin Building.
There is a small garden behind the Meiyin Building, and a few kapok trees are planted on both sides of the crooked path, which are blooming in this season, and the breeze blows with a faint fragrance to the gazebo in the corner, in which sits a woman with a beautiful face, long hair and waist-length, and an elegant temperament.
Qi Wei ...... I...... I just learned a tune, you can help me hear how I play. The man who spoke was a burly man, with dark skin, thick eyebrows, well-defined features, and a somewhat curly hair, but a bit of a mixed race.
He carried a guitar on his back, his expression was nervous and restrained, he even stammered a little, his hands were shaken, and he loosened them again, took a deep breath, sat on the bench in the gazebo, and played and sang softly......
The track is "Xiaowei"
There was a beautiful little girl whose name was Vicky
She has gentle eyes, and she quietly steals my heart
Xiaowei~ Do you know how much I love you, I want to take you to the sky......
Yan Ran couldn't believe her eyes and ears, oh my God!
If she read it correctly, could the guy who played the guitar be Curly, the director of the Academic Affairs Office? She rubbed her eyes, making sure she was not mistaken.
Qi Wei, the director of the Academic Affairs Office and the music teacher known as the goddess...... omg!
But this scene, how to look at it, how does it make her feel the same as someone, she looks up at him, her eyes are sharp, could it be that she was designed by him from the beginning?
Facing Yan Ran's questioning eyes, Xuan Mu scratched his head a little embarrassedly, and whispered, "Inner ...... It's just that Curly always asks me how I caught up with you, and you know that I have a lot of tricks in his hands, so ...... It's all a good thing anyway, isn't it? If he catches up with Teacher Qi, I will definitely do a lot of work! ”
Actually, Curly Hair's confession was almost single-handedly planned by Xuan Mu, otherwise he wouldn't have known that Curly Hair was confessing here at night, and pulled Yanran over to watch the excitement.
Xuanmu went to the teaching affairs too many times, and slowly became familiar with Curly Hair, and accidentally found that Curly Hair's eyes were not right when he looked at the teacher, and remembered that Curly Hair was thirty-four years old this year, but he had never married, and then he suddenly realized.
So I chatted with Curly Hair when I had nothing to do, and finally discovered this shocking secret. (To be continued) R655